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The Game of Life

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In today’s dream, Jeane describes an image that raises a fundamental question: What is the reason for life? Within that question is a fundamental choice: Do we live this life for our selves (satisfying our ego), or are we meant to live it for a greater purpose within the Whole? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

 Jeane: The next image was a little harder for me to pull out, but it feels like I’m going somewhere. It feels like maybe it’s a parade where they’re selecting Miss America or something like that. It’s going to have a beauty contest involved in it.

On my way there I seem to pick up the responsibility for this little girl. I have a friend that I think comes to help, too. The little girl seems like she’s come from a very privileged home, and is very naïve or inexperienced about certain things.

Rather than have to carry her the whole way, I decide to let her ride a bike. But I just have the parts of the bike, and I start putting it together, and it has these little copper knobs I have to figure out how to connect one part to the other and then it becomes a whole bike.

So I get the bike together – it’s actually a tricycle – but then I realize this girl had come from such a privileged background she actually doesn’t know how to ride it. So then it leaves me with a dilemma of maybe trying to get her to ride it now and then, but actually carrying her and the tricycle to the parade.

I think on the way there I have a couple of stops. I remember at one stop there’s a man that sits down and starts talking to us. He has a uniform on and even though he has a certain light about him, I’m kind of put off because I have the charge of this little girl and you don’t want little kids to talk to strangers, you know.

Then there’s another instant where I have to stop briefly at my house and have my friend watch her while I take a shower. Then it feels like we finally get to wherever the parade and the contest will be.

John: Well, it’s like looking at an older side of yourself and a younger side of yourself. In other words, you make things out of matter – the one element that’s important to making things industrially, it is considered the industrial component to making things out of matter, is copper.

The older part of yourself has learned how to function, and is functioning, in the outer world as if you can do this stuff literally. As if you can make things out of images and reflections, in other words. It is a little bit… goes around and around in circles as part of deluding one’s self, but you can do that.

The younger part of you is a part of yourself that doesn’t know how to ride the bicycle or the tricycle or whatever it is, because it sits in a state of innocence where it hasn’t yet bought into the inflection to the point where it indulges, and then when it indulges then it contends with what it’s like to mess around or play with the tricycle.

The older part of you thinks it has to take charge of this younger part of you that isn’t getting the memo, that hasn’t yet figured it out, that has to be taken care of. And that’s the game that goes on in life. The parents take care of the children, but the way they take care of them is they indoctrinate them into the outer.

And when a baby is born it identifies with the soul level, and it stays with that identification on the soul level until that ego starts to be developed in its nature. And then the development of that ego causes it to find its own way and mannerisms in terms of coping in the outer. And it’s said that a baby as it is in the in-between phase, is kind of in a type of protective security where it doesn’t hurt itself or fall down. It’s almost like it has a guardian angel over it, and then slowly but surely that even disappears.

And the child is supposed to have developed certain traits for coping purposes and it comes into taking this on on its own. As a consequence you then are caught in the outer. You described almost a depiction between some deep part of yourself that is able to be outside of the outer identifications, and then the part of you that has gotten caught in the identifications.

Then you’re seeing that you, in this state, are of the opinion that you have to indoctrinate those conditions upon the younger part of yourself as opposed to, what if the younger part of yourself had it right all to begin with, but is being compelled to be in the outer and adopt all of these traits as part of some sort of game or journey that the soul has to make?

If it’s a game and a journey that the soul has to make then why, what’s the reason? Well, the only reason that one can give is to gain a deeper sense of the divine, of the connection that one has to the Whole, to gain that in a more deepened awakened intimate sense.

That’s the only reason that one can think for that making sense, because otherwise it looks like a dirty rotten trick – and it’s the opposite. In other words, when you see it like that, you’re inclined to think that what’s going on is the opposite of what should be going on. And yet what’s to say that you can’t have the awareness of the essence, like the child in terms of its soul, in terms of an encompassing quality that sweeps in and takes in everything in the universe, and then also hold that, maintain that, carry that, emanate that into the outer in which you have everything all defined and confined?

Who’s to say that you can’t somehow or another do both? If you are able to somehow or another do both, then from the state that is confined and defined and identifying with things, there is a great sense of reverence and appreciation to the greater Whole of itself, that is everything.

And that would be getting closer to what is the essence. That would be the means of the essence of being able to experience that essence while in a human body, so to speak. That’s kind of the game.

That’s why following dreams is so difficult, because what you tend to see in a reflection could cause you to draw a whole different conclusion, could cause you to draw the conclusion that there is something about the child that’s amiss that has to be indoctrinated into the world that you’re in.

And what if it’s the other way around? In other words, the whole spiritual journey process is not based upon the teacher taking and showing an acuity about this, that, and the other in the outer. Instead, the teacher reflects the ability to let go of it all and therefore what comes across is a huge inner depth that is free – and that inflects across. A purity like that inflects across.

So we accept this under those conditions, but we don’t accept it when it’s portrayed as little child to us as adult, kind of thing. We find something wrong with the little child, but if we find something wrong with the little child, then why don’t we find something wrong with the teacher who takes us back to that essence?

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Intertwined with Creation

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John: I had a series of short dreams during the night that all pointed me toward the same understanding.

In the first image, I’m lying on my back. Another person is lying in the opposite direction so that their feet are up near my head and part of their body is draped over mine. I don’t mind that, but they have their shoes on and the shoes are wet. That does bother me. I tell them that they can take their shoes off and it will be okay with me.

What does such an image mean? It suggests that I can adjust to and handle almost anything – as long as it’s natural – if I maintain a certain attitude within. The shoes didn’t fit that naturalness. I can’t accommodate things when there’s a “foreign” influence. Something unnatural creates too big a barrier for me handle.

A deeper meaning is that I’m shown to have a closeness with what is – the person is draped over parts of me. As long as it maintains characteristics of familiarity, I’m able to find the natural cohesion.

An example of this type of accommodation is how you (Jeane) can’t sleep when lights are left on, but here we are in Vegas where there is always light coming in the windows. There’s a state in which you can find that to be natural, even though they’re man-made. There’s a way to accommodate that.

In the next dream I’m laying upon a surface that’s composed of different layers of cardboard that have been taped together. I notice that I’m able to be comfortable, or accept the differences, when I come to recognize that all the layers are correlated. 

In other words, I have overcome the disturbance I feel in being in this situation. If I know how to thread my way through and see why things are the way they are, I can be okay with it. When I let go of the attitude that something’s out of place or not right, I’m able to see the correlation to that which is entwined together (all of Creation).

In the final dream, I’m among a lot of other people. They seem to be carefree in their outer mannerisms. I’m told in the dream that everything’s more natural and flows together when there’s no hiding who we are or how we are. As I hear this, I notice that I’ve dropped my usual inhibitions and I’m observing how this opens doors into the flow.

An overall theme here has to do with connecting to what’s natural. In the first dream I prefer that there be no foreign aspects affecting the closeness – unnatural aspects (shoes) create a separation. I don’t mind if what I’m close to is the complete opposite from me (the feet at my head), as long as they aren’t holding onto something that supports the illusion of separation. I’m seeking to breach the barriers of separation so that the naturalness that exists can be accommodated.

In the next scene, I’m shown that as long as there’s a natural thread, I’ll be able to probe the intertwined depths (the many layers of cardboard) of the environment I’m in.

In the third scene, I bring the first two images of acceptance together and take on a flow in which I hide nothing so that nothing is hidden from me. This enables a person’s greater beingness to penetrate the outer barriers, which is possible naturally when the distinctions are removed.

Through this process I come to know that Creation has a naturalness of its own that we just need to accept. If we do, we will naturally flow with it. If we hold ourselves distinct and separate, we’ll simply become confused and disturb others. To put everything out into the open is to allow the energetic within to permeate and touch, nonverbally, the environment around us.

That’s possible because deep down we’re intertwined with Creation, but we haven’t accepted this union because outer appearances suggest otherwise. Oneness isn’t possible until our outer barriers are dropped. And the key to understanding who we really are requires dropping the outer distinctions that alienate us from the whole.

In Vegas, perhaps surprisingly, this seems to be something that’s more easily done. Somehow the environment comes across in a way that enables us to recognize and see it.

But we do have to hold our principles inside. There are people in Vegas who can get smothered by how it is. They don’t take a particular inner stand. So we all have to accept and accommodate everything, and we also have to have an inner conviction that can pierce the illusion.

In the outer it’s called conviction, but it must be conviction without judgment. It must be accepting of everything as part of a natural flow. In that way an intertwining is able to come through us and come across to others.

We don’t actually ever convince anybody of anything, nor do we change them. What does happen, though, if we’re natural and open, is that our connections to Creation can create easement in others, and that facilitates their own personal awakening or opening up.

The Inner Life

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Jeane: The first dream I had last night takes place in a room in the sky. I have a new machine. It’s called a Lillix machine, or something like that, and it downloads information.

I’m trying to figure out the wires to it and understand how it works. I’m talking to someone else about that. I spend the longest time working with this new machine. 

That’s the whole dream.

John: It would be easy to look at this dream and say, well, maybe it has to do with something that’s going on literally in your outer life. We’re always trying to figure out something on the computer, or update software.

Of course, our dreams can be affected by events in our outer life, but more often imagery that’s familiar to us is used to tell us something about our inner lives. Dreams can show us what is going on at the deeper levels within us, and also give us glimpses of the connections every one of us has to universal intelligence – to all of creation. In that way, understanding our dreams can unlock the guidance that we have available to us if we only learn to listen and connect.

Ultimately, all dreams have a deeper meaning. It’s really just a matter of whether or not we’re able to pierce through the veils enough to be able to see that deeper meaning and pull it through.

So in this instance you’ve created a dream image in which you’re in a room up in the sky with a machine that can download information. This room in the sky can be understood to represent a higher part of yourself – it’s not on the ground like everything else, it’s literally higher. And this machine that is fascinating you is giving you access to information that you don’t ordinarily have.

It’s new to you, so you’re trying to figure out how it works. So it’s not just the information that’s interesting to you, but the process of it is as well. By pulling out this image, you are being shown, in a very subtle way, at a deeper level of your psyche, that there’s access that can be gained inside of you.

During the day, your psyche has indulged in activities that have to do with trying to formulate something for useful purposes, so it is easy for your unconscious to use those familiar images to create a reflection. This reflection is meant to reveal to you, and cause recognition, that you are linked or connected to something at an inner depth. If we are quiet enough inside, i.e., we don’t have all the inner noise of worry and judgment, we can then bring this greater access into our daily lives.

Jeane: I couldn’t pull out much of the second dream.

I’m at a house in a city, and a couple I knew in the past has come to visit. She just sits in the hallway and reads.

I used to be a little standoffish with him, but this time he actually pokes me with his finger and just hangs out. We’re hanging out in a way that’s more comfortable than it’s ever been before.

John: So, again the imagery is showing you that something is coming through, right? You’re staying in a house and the man, who is usually more closed off, is able to be relaxed and give you a friendly poke. That new level of comfort shows that something has opened up for you. It represented by a masculine figure – a masculine aspect of you – that you might normally have had an inner resistance toward. Here you are more able to flow with it.

One way of understanding this image is in considering how it felt to you. What you are describing is a new level of ease with something from the past (a couple you used to know). Something has opened up and you are experiencing a greater dimension than before – and it feels right to you.

What prevents us in life is usually our own psychologies or defense mechanisms that we’ve picked up along the way. We use them to defend against what we perceive to be overwhelming – when something feels like too much, or is frightening in some way. So in this image, something from your past that you used to have more resistance to is opening up and you can feel that it’s a good expansion. There’s no need to defend against it or prevent it from opening up.

So both dreams are describing a similar process using very different images. They show you have let go of personal resistance and opened up to the greater intelligence that is available to you when you bring consciousness to your inner life.