Posts Tagged ‘creating veils of illusion between us and what’s real’

29139er2We are generally very busy with all the things that an ongoing life requires: work, food, relationships, expenses. Yet when we slow down, or stop altogether, we may get a glimpse that this is merely a facade, that no matter how interesting or even fulfilling these aspects might be, there is something else that we still are urged to think about, to research, or to pursue. When that feeling arises, it can make us feel unhappy in our current circumstances. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So then, when I go to sleep, I find myself, as you were trying to do, in a way, there is a lilt to what you were trying to do. So I seek to go back into the meditation dream in search of what I know is seeking to come through. 

Well, in my sleep, I’m holding an attentiveness to being shown or revealed something more from within. I’m near a stillness, like you say, kind of like trying to hold one’s breath or something, but it also has a little sensation to it. So obviously, it’s not quite in the note of stillness. 

The sensation is to reach, or access, or come to grips with a level of beingness that is a new familiarity, and to denote it, and bring it into a knowingness, as if it’s just sitting there dormant in my nature. In other words, this is the around and around approach, like it’s always trying to find the center of a puzzle. You never will that way because it’s only in a stillness. The vortex is nothing in the vortex – yet I’m caught in the idea that something is always trying to reveal itself. 

In other words, you want to put a label or a noticeability upon a stillness. And yet you can’t. And you can look at somebody and how they are, but you can’t tell them what the stillness is. You can’t denote that stillness for them because anything that you denote is going to be abstractive. 

So because I was afflicted physically I explained this affliction, in my deep sleep, as being like a veil there to keep me from catching up with the something more behind it all. I had myself brainwashed, in that regard, in that if I could set aside this peculiar awkwardness sensation, that, in doing so, by having set it aside, there would be an access to something heretofore unknown, that was being veiled by this peculiar condition. 

So this fits with the meditation dream, in a way, in that when I reached a point therein in which I was uncomfortable with whatever there was to perceive, that others found interesting, and that I had been finding interesting myself – that I no longer can support – and the idea of exposing and reporting about that is also awkward, or silly, or goes nowhere, all of this is because behind it all something more is yet to be.

So, in this dream, I’m searching… this is kind of like going around, and around, and around, and around you can do this for lifetimes and never get anywhere. But in this dream that’s what I’m doing, searching for this something more, because I do not like the existing scenarios – so you’re always trying to find something.

In other words, I don’t change what is, I just have to take what is, that is happening around me, and find it mushroom, then, into something more, because I don’t like the way the existing scenario feels. In other words, it needs to have a deeper import, or impact. 

I now know why it is that I feel a subtle self-consciousness. If there isn’t some thread like that unfolding for my pacification, I guess, I actually start feeling very self-conscious to be in that space. Feels like I don’t even belong. And thus I do what I do because I am realizing just how alone I am; but I don’t want to quite admit that to myself. But, if I do, it’s what is obvious when I drop the hoopla around me, that I am inclined to endorse, or acknowledge.

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Woman opening curtains in the roomOften in dream work we talk about lifting the veils to certain insights, inner truths, or awakenings. Yet, sometimes, we are still in the process of putting them up – here those veils appear in the form of curtains for a room – usually as a way to protect some sensitive inner place that is in danger of being brought out into the open. But in the unveiling of inner aspects we free ourselves up for something new; it is a letting go process that allows us to move forward. By understanding this, we can stop the hanging of the curtains before they are firmly in place. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had one dream in which I was at a house that belonged to my niece and I’m there with my sister. And there are also people there from a store where they make curtains. And my niece had asked me about what kind of curtains I guess she should put up in a guest room, and so I had an idea of exactly what type of curtains and I think I’d even talked to the people from the store and we’ve made some measurements

Well, then we go up to the room and now my niece has a different idea, like she’s going to put up I think yellow curtains of some kind. But then when we all get together, my niece has definitely made up her mind for a third kind of curtains, and she’s already going around and measuring for those. They’re more beige. 

I probably have a little bit the energy of like, sometimes you wonder why someone asks you what you think because they already have such definite ideas on what they’re going to do. Plus, I’d had some people from the store measure and I realize that my niece had also measured but she probably is not going to be able to complete them yet – maybe she has to wait until she has the money.

And then I’m wondering if maybe I should have them made up for her. I don’t know yet. I realize I have really fond memories of this guest room because I guess you and I had stayed there, and maybe, I don’t know for some reason, we made love on the stairs going up to them or something, and so I have good feelings about this room.

But I’m also wondering if I need to go look in the room and make any last measurements, or see what else maybe needs to be done, or ask her about it, but then I go and I open up the door into the room and I see my sister in there sleeping, so I just quietly shut the door to the room, like there’s nothing I can really do further right now. That was one dream.

John: The dream is about veils. You’re using curtains as your issue of veils, and veils are important. Veils are important in terms of protecting the consciousness, and at the same time they keep one from reaching a particular kind of awareness inside of themselves.

What you’re contemplating in your dream is the degree of the veils, which is an amazing and interesting approach, or at least seeing the distinguishment of the veils between one color veil versus another color veil, versus another color veil. And all of it is displacing a sequence of events, or creating a whole scenario of time unfoldment, which is the veils.

It’s as if something is meant to be remembered, or awakened, and so the consequence of these veils is the distinguishing, or determining, or dividing factor in terms of how something is to transition. It’s interesting that you look at it as a standpoint of veils.


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veilslogoOften the hardest aspect of spiritual development is the ongoing need to face one’s own inner psychologies and defense mechanisms that have built up over a lifetime. We do this not to rid ourselves of them, or to cure ourselves of them – they served a purpose at some point, but no longer do. We do this to recognize the effect they have on everything we do and process, and that effect acts as a veil when we remain blind to it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The immediate effect and importance of my meditation experience is to put me in touch with the power of thought and how that affects my ability to let go of reflective outer conditions. Power of thought.

In the dream, I am observing the nature of three parts of myself. Two are calm, the third is expressively vibrant. This expressively loud condition, although it’s less significant in importance than the other two parts of myself, dictates the flow. In other words, because the other two parts are quiet, and whenever in life you have something that’s louder, it predominates. In other words, things rise to that denominator, subtler steps aside and works more as a mirror, if you can see it, or catch it, as a hint.

Because this part is dictating the flow, the ability to surrender to an essence or something, or be in a place where the perception to the innerness is appreciated, is blocked out or smothered out. You’d call it a block. What I am seeing is just how helpless I am when the energetic is speeded up and is firing off into the outer, especially in relationship to where you have to also hold a quietness that can inflect. You can be speeded up, but as long as you can pull the string on that and still inflect back from the speeded up instead of just being caught in the momentum of the speeding up. If you can’t then the other two parts of yourself, or the other aspects of yourself that are quieter, get thrown asunder because this speeded up way causes you to become too expansive and it takes over in terms of the effect of your clarity.

Because I am both speaking and am synaptically imposing myself upon the outer, in other words, when you’re speeded up and reacting it’s like a type of speaking something into life, and then when that is flowing out of you, and there’s a momentum of that energetic, you’re making an impression upon the outer. And people who tend to do that are often caught in thinking that that’s the way they have to be, and the more you think you have to be that way, or see yourself that way, the harder it is to take that into an emptiness or a quietness, because that’s a block. It has its impressions in you. You filter with that, as if that’s a necessary tool. I suppose in a strange way you could say it’s a defense mechanism, but a defense mechanism is usually used to hide, and this is something that you’ve taken on thinking that you need.

So, I am setting in motion an energetic and thoughts, which are going to make life difficult as I seek to connect to the emptiness of matter to awaken the essence. So, when you’re speeded up that’s pretty hard to do; it can be hard to do, but you can do it. I’m instead awakening things, you know momentum does that, too, with my energetic state, but I do it with a certain kind of influence. The influence is a bias of my personal way of being that is okay providing I know how to let go of this exuding synaptic effect so the subtler, deeper essence can come through, too, so basically behind all of it, it is able to predominate.

This is an example of how consciousness is dictated by the lowest common denominator of our being, and if we are relying upon something, or holding onto something, that is the lowest common denominator in our being, and that’s how we filter out, and maintain, or sustain something in terms of what we consider our well being. A lot of good spiritual practice to quiet the other two parts of my being gets blown apart by the loudness of a single area that I’m still enamored with.

So there was a subtle innerness that wants to be perceivable, but there is still something that’s more speeded up, a third area, and, as a result, going into somewhere deep with the two areas that were quiet wasn’t possible because I was under the dictums of this speeded up, non-letting go characteristic. In the outer environment I’m, in I notice the loudness.

Everything in the world is colored by this. It is a state that gets in the way of the silence and emptiness that is at the epicenter of all life. Mankind is by and large affected by such characteristics, and it is rare for a person to be able to set this aside so the quiet, subtler essence of their being can come out. It is even rarer for a person to be able to take the quiet subtler essence of their being and cause a reflection to a deeper essence to mirror across. This is hard and a rare condition because such consciousness is easily drowned out by the loudness of the energetic firing off that seeks to pull the consciousness to this denominator. If I am not empty and able to step aside from the spell-like projection, I will be affected and this leaves one in a state in which the lower common denominator presides.

The dream in my meditation state was important because rarely does one slow down enough to see the synaptic biases that they have put on as an energetic cloak. See, the theme of the dreaming is things that are blockages, and I’m looking at where I’m most susceptible in terms of being able to sort out the different effects, and in doing so I was able to get to a sight made possible only when this loudness is quieted, and isn’t creating problems reflectively.

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