Unto Yourself

push-big-rockHere is a fascinating dream image and analysis that digs down to the depths of our inner psychologies with a simple message: everything that happens to us, we do to ourselves. And the importance of that becomes clear when we remember that we are the only person who has been with us for every moment we’ve ever experienced, and all moments, great or small, leave an energetic imprint on us. Any psychologies are then created by us, and continue on as an aspect of our lives – first as a protection, but ultimately as a veil. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay in the next dream, I feel like I’m in an old building, one made out of stone, and I’ve gone up and I’ve gone into a bedroom and our friend, Rav, comes in dressed kind of in a suit. And I think I do some work, and I bring some money in, to buy this big rock. The rock isn’t there; it’s like a rock that’s more like the size of a bed or something, you know, a big rugged rock. And this big red rock is something that’s going to be moved from some property near where he lives somewhere further north, in a way, onto some other land – and it’ll be my rock.

So I’ve paid the money and given it to him for the rock, and then we both laid down on the bed. He’s dressed in this kind of very formal three or four piece blue suit, and he rolls off the bed. He’s kind of sleeping on the floor, actually rolled up in a sheet, because it feels like some other family comes later. I’m under the impression that Rav will actually die before he can get the rock moved onto the property for me, but he still seems to be alive, which almost is a surprise to me.

I’m not sure what happens, but it feels like then I decide I’m going to go visit where he lives, and then I also want to see the rock. And I seem to climb up through, it’s almost like an old castle-like building. I get up near the top and there’s a lot of rubble and stuff I have to almost step over, and I can look down, I could fall down if I wanted when I go from the room where Rav lives. I look over an area that’s almost like a quarry, where it’s maybe part of the building that’s broken down, and I see the rock down there.

It hasn’t been moved yet, and next to the rock is a partial dead body. And Rav is a scientist; apparently people sometimes bring bodies there and he goes down, he picks it up, he carries it out somewhere because I guess it’s his job sometimes to dissect, or figure out about, dead bodies. I just notice it smells a lot.

Then some of the people maybe find an easier way down, but I decide to climb back up and go in the way I came out. I mean it’s kind of treacherous and some are not sure if some of the bricks and stuff are going to hold, and there’s a shelf with different things on it outside Rav’s window that kind of start to fall down and I have to pick them up and shove them back on the shelf, because I don’t necessarily want to disturb what’s his, but I still have to climb over this rubble to get back into the building, which I do. And then the dream shifts a little.

John: So you’re doing something very tricky in that you’re introducing something as a challenge. In other words, you’re given the imprint that there’s an indulgence, in terms of identifications, that you can do in terms of the framework of outer life in which, when you do that, the bird, or the innerness, gets lost, gets veiled, is hidden.

So what surprised me is you’re now going through motifs about that, that don’t necessarily have to end in some sort of delirium, that there is an option for you to breakthrough, that your focus and attention is seeking to breakthrough.

However, the environment of the situation has a way of keeping you in a trance. And so you’re using a person who has this way, energetically, of conducting themselves, that leaves a knot or a impingement vibrationally in the unfoldment and awakening process. And you refer to that as a rock. Apparently you’re still affected by what has happened when we were living in a situation in which there was kind of like an environment that had been taken in, that we had adopted as part of how we had to cope, which had an atmosphere to it, and about it, that tended to contaminate the quality of a process of awakening. In other words, it violated, you might say, a sacred space.

So perhaps that was a bit of a blindside, for you to see just to what degree that was inappropriate in terms of you relating to yourself, that you were relating to yourself in a way that kept you in a spellbound trance. And so time was provided for that to settle a bit, and it’s almost as if you’re now going back to something that is still malingering, that you weren’t prepared to understand then, or didn’t understand then, but now are being shown the effect of how that has been upon your beingness.

So it appears that you’re doing this in response to something that must be still malingering in your nature, and keeping you out of sync with something, in some fashion, and you’ve been carrying this, and carrying this, and carrying this, and you tend to carry this stuff quietly and can actually even appear to be okay unless one looks at you really subtly or carefully.

So you appear to be addressing that which you’re carrying in terms of the meaningfulness of this as an energetic vibration, per se. And so, in the first dream, you start and you set the context from the standpoint that it has a killing capacity to it, in terms of it obliterating, slaying, that which is divine, or sacred. Alienating you from that space in which there is the treasure within and it’s almost as if you’re doing it with some sort of fervor. You know, you are knowingly doing it with some sort of fervor almost as if there is a kind of latent rage. In other words, it’s a very interesting use of indulgence there, but it’s just an indulgence in an ignorance.

There’s some sort of indulgence that is rooted in an anger or rage so you’re purposely stabbing yourself with this almost. It’s almost as if you’re in a spell and that’s why you’re doing it is part of something like that but that additional information that it is like that is provided in the second dream in terms of the rock that has this knot about it and so you spend this dream not able to pluck this out yet but it seems that that’s what you’re working on doing and as long as it is there unplucked out it has a quality or a characteristic that predominates through that continues to create a kind of blasphemous effect upon your sense of who you are.

So where does this come from? I mean one has to go back, back, back into some chemistry in which you’re made up. You are everything, and you do everything to yourself. So, apparently, a long, long, long time ago, it’s as if you took liberties that you shouldn’t have taken, and now you’re paying the price of the liberties you took, that you did upon another aspect of yourself. In other words, something that’s intertwined and interconnected with you, and you now have to pay the price of that, almost like a type of guilt. And so now that which was seemingly perpetrated and done in a capacity that, at that time, would be something you could construe as being outside of yourself, that really wasn’t outside of yourself because everything is entwined, intertwined.

It really did have something to do with who and what you are, you just didn’t know that at the time. You, in what you did, placed the spell, and you actually placed the spell upon yourself. And because you decided that this spell could be placed long ago, the fact that you now find it placed upon yourself, you’re in kind of a strange Catch-22, because how do you take and contend with this as something that you have done?

When something like this is done, in which you are catching up with the root of it as being something that has to do with a mannerism that you have done to yourself, on purpose, thinking that you were actually just going along in life and doing things towards an outer that was separate. But all along, it is part of you. The degree to which you had done things to yourself, as an outer, has caught up to the point that now you have reached an acuity where you can see that this is all interconnected, and that you are really stabbing yourself.

So how is it that you take that back? How is it that you let go? It’s kind of along the lines, this is an outer way of saying it, it’s kind of along the lines that if you think something that’s one thing and you can kind of sit with that and it will resolve itself, but then when you say it, sometimes it can’t be taken back, and it sets in motion a process and an unfoldment that can come back and be haunting you and haunting you, almost as if it’s in a cursed situation that’s been created because of what took place. And it kind of like, in that second motif, in terms of yourself, but done so in an energetic, inner way.

In other words, you did this. The violation, if you were to state it as a kind of adab, and use a way of speaking that is out of the Bible, “Do unto others as you would do unto yourself.” And then you come to find out that what you are doing unto others, you are doing to yourself. And then what you have done unto others, which is actually done unto yourself, how do you remove that spellbinding condition? In a higher octave of looking at this outside of the moment, or time and space, in other words, looking at a wholeness of energy, what you’re having to do is contend with, and admit, by way of approximate recognition, how you have abused energy.

Now this is very, very hard to do, and for some people when they’re confronted with it they can’t actually see it, and take it in, straightaway. Generally to take something like that straightaway, where you’re the perpetrator of all that there is, on an energetic level that’s what’s always going on, that you somehow or another have shaped everything that there is – that can be a big gulp, and if you fully took and understood that to too great of a degree, it leads to psychosis. It leads to strange, almost schizophrenic mannerisms, even.

It’s easier to pretend, and to believe, and to work through veils that have things retained, sustained, maintained in a separate mannerism. But when you can no longer pretend that way, it can get almost too literal and then everything about yourself almost is like it flips back directly at yourself in every way, shape, form, and regard. There’s nothing that isn’t there of your own manufactured nature.

And so you’re inclined to think, like a relationship for example, that has taken place in some other octave, hasn’t it? No, even that is something that, in the deepest aspect of a oneness of seeing yourself in an all pervasive sense, even that was created as a means of playing with yourself, and even that is an aspect, or function, upon which you hide. And the removing of that can also lead to too great of an acuity that can send you into a warpage.

So what is happening here is you have dreamt to a point where you have come to a decision point where to what degree are there mannerisms, that are like indulgences, that are like aspects of a density veil, to what degree are they to be? Because if they’re not there, will this affect your sanity?

Your second dream is really one of those psychosis kind of things because you’ve hit kind of a level of awareness where you’re on the verge of having to contend with the fact that you did all of this to yourself, and how is it possible to do everything to yourself? That’s where the big league comes in, because you are, and have been, and always have been, everything, from the get go. And it’s just been a game of pretend in terms of there being a this, that, or the other.

And so when you take back the this, that, or the other, you find that how you’ve conducted yourself unto others is actually what you have done to yourself. You’ve always been doing this directly to yourself. That’s a hard note to notice because we always like to have the space of pretension.

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