Poor Sportsmanship

John: In this dream I must take on a situation in which I have no chance of succeeding. Actually, it’s difficult to imagine that I can make any meaningful difference, either.

This dynamic is symbolically presented to me in the imagery of a golf game. There’s a person I must play against who is an expert golfer. He knows the ins and outs of the game, while I’m just a novice.

I agree, however, to settle an issue between us on the outcome of playing a single hole. We’re not playing the whole game, just one par four to determine a situation that’s very important to the inner and outer life.

I know going into this challenge that I’m going to have to rely upon Fate, because my opponent is too good for me to beat him by myself. He’s so confident, I can already feel him lording it over Creation.

It seems that as the game plays out, the mistakes I make have grace connected to them. I don’t know how else to explain it. When my opponent makes a slight mistake in his second shot, I’m required to hit the ball over a deep ravine (I’m playing every other ball or something strange like that).

I know if it was his shot, he would be able to clear the ravine with ease, but for me this is a problem. My shot is so pitiful that I might just as well have kicked the golf ball because it falls right into this deep ravine trap.

My opponent thinks I did this on purpose, but he’s just messing with me because normally he could get out of this predicament with ease. He steps in and hits the ball. Just like in a sand trap, he has to swing underneath it to get it up in the air. But it goes so high it flies out of sight.

As near as I can tell, it goes above a high building that seemingly should have blocked the ball’s flight. I hadn’t even noticed the building before. As a consequence, though, he can’t find the ball.

My opponent cries foul! He had done everything right, but couldn’t find the ball – he was looking for leniency. He whines so much that I offer him a three-stroke penalty that he begrudgingly accepts.

This makes it so I can now pull off what had seemed outwardly impossible – I can win the hole. However, I’m never given the chance to see how the game actually ends. What I do know is that my opponent decided that he had to change the rules of the game in order to prevail. 

When it was his turn, he hit the ball as far away from the hole as possible. Instead of playing it straight on, he shot the ball out of the game. There was no ending because the game could no longer flow.

This is a type of message dream. The imagery is showing that there is a grace that is accessible, even in the dense outer conditions of life. My mistakes are taken into account if I’m able to accept them and, in so doing, what appears to be a problem can be transformed into a flow that has Fate on its side.

Accessing this grace is part of finding, within myself, compassion, which can heal all wounds. The outer denseness is apt to choose annihilation or self-destruction, in the sense that it resists the flow of the inner and, therefore, the purposes of Creation.

This is a destruction of the need to make a shift; it prevents a shift from happening. Even though I understand this as an issue, the dream’s portrayal doesn’t reveal what ultimately transpires. Nevertheless, I feel certainty within. I carry an inner certainty as a thread. It is my belief that this thread is meant to reach wholeness between the inner and the outer.

So the dream is saying that I’m at a crossroads in the path, where I must deal with catalytic conditions. Creation has an order that must be maintained, even though it is wounded by the history of masculine energy – it’s power and control – that will resort to anything to keep from having to surrender.

The masculine energy, which needs the essence of the feminine in order to let go, sees such surrender as an unacceptable defeat to be avoided at all costs (the ball was hit out of the game). Yet I realize that the sabotaging of Creation as an option needs to change: I can’t get in the way of what wants to be properly configured.

Lying to the Heart

John: Last night I had a series of images. In the first image, I’m listening to a talk show on the radio. The caller is sharing his opinion with the radio host; it turns out that the caller is my brother.

As I listen to his viewpoint, I realize that the opinion he is sharing is not really meaningful; his concern and level of understanding is grounded in the dense outer reality where everything appears as duality and separation. My brother is sharing a viewpoint that lies outside of the true reality where everything is integrated and complete.

He shares his opinion as if it will fix the problem. The radio host indicates that the government is making a change to alleviate the problem being identified. My brother accepts the statement as if it is truly meaningful – I can detect a sigh of relief as he says, “Okay.”

The feeling is that the two of them believe that this proposed change could actually alleviate the problem. As the listener, I know that both positions are absurd, because I know that wholeness cannot be achieved with a physical solution alone. To pretend or believe otherwise is lying to the heart.

What these images are showing is the confusion caused by identifying our reality with the vibration of the material world. It’s the curse of our collective consciousness that we settle for a world that offers no meaningful satisfaction to the true processes of life.

The images are suggesting that until people (my brother and the radio host) let go of their sense of separation, i.e., stop basing their world-view in their individual identities, there can never be meaningful solutions to our earthly problems.

Solutions based solely in the physical, where generally money is used to solve problems, are doomed to be short term band-aids because they aren’t taking into account the wholeness of life. When we view ourselves as separate from our environment, separate from the universe, and separate from each other, we are stuck in the densest, most ego-based, view of life.

From that perspective, we can only see solutions that satisfy our needs as separate beings and, in fact, further deepen our isolation from one another by continuing to perpetrate the fraud. To let go of that sense of personal separation we must go through a kind of self-annihilation that can remove the veils we have raised between us and what’s really going on. Then we can see what is truly important and embrace an experience wherein the heart touches all of life. That experience incorporates our higher self and unites us energetically with everything.

Only through our connections to our higher consciousness, inside, can we extricate ourselves from the denser reality we currently perceive. There, the heart is able to access the knowing guidance that we all have within. Until we make these inner connections, the guidance from the heart falls on deaf ears.