Something Real

Hilma_af_Klint_SvanenBeing in service to the whole is an often misunderstood idea. It can encompass the selfless acts of good samaritans, yet at a higher level it is the conscious shifting of energy, from out of balance into balance, or even cleaning up coarse energies and elevating them to a higher vibration. We do this by the aggregation of our energetic life: whatever level of vibration we hold radiates and affects the environment around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in February 2014.

Jeane: It felt like my dreams were way too wispy to pull out. I know the last one I was having, it felt like I was a woman and it’s almost like I would like I would go into a building, it felt like a bank building or some kind of commercial building, and whatever was going on there it was almost like I tried to draw fire, like maybe there was gunfire going on, or something that kind of diffused the situation inside, that if I could pull the attention, or I could be there, maybe I could shift what was happening.

And it might just be something that was being caused by some little boys playing there, but if I could deflect their attention it might make a difference. And I would leave and then maybe I would come back and try to deflect the situation in another setting. And then go back to someplace like a railroad station. It’s just all really vague, I couldn’t pull it out.

John: So what you were doing was, you were sacrificing yourself, so to speak, to draw the attention of an energetic?

Jeane: it didn’t feel like a sacrifice, it felt more like if I were there I could do something to draw the attention of the situation and help shift it.

John: I think it’s talking about this quality that is natural to the feminine nature that is able to take a situation in which you can hear various energetics that are in the environment, and it can help those energetics see themselves, because it is able to work from a place of, well it doesn’t hold a judgment, it holds an energetic space, so that those energetics get grounded.

In other words, I think it’s saying that you have the ability to take, no matter how disoriented something may be, or disconnected, or unbalanced something may be, that you can go and, in a non-judgment state, because you can see that behind that is something that is valid, that is real, that just can’t catch up with itself. And you can take and absorb the energy of those ideas and awaken or quicken, with your focus or attention, that which lies within.

That then takes what exists in the outer and enables it to see itself as being unbalanced or misaligned. And it actually does more than just see itself as misaligned, I mean that kind of goes away, too, it tends to see how it is that it is meant to be in terms of a wholeness. 

In other words, the parts that are considered askew and astray suddenly make sense, in terms of the equation or picture of things.

It reminds me of this example. It’s a story in which, I believe it involved the Dalai Lama who came to visit this person, who took the Dalai Lama, as if he didn’t know any better, into a bar scene where you had every imbalance or peculiarity going on that you could possibly imagine.

And the Dalai Lama laughed and carried on and acted as if this was of no consequence whatsoever, essentially taking the energetic of that space into himself, but seeing it for how it was on a whole other level.

And so, as a consequence, the Dalai Lama was emanating a quality that wasn’t out of balance with the place that the Dalai Lama was in. Instead was in balance, and therefore balanced out that environment for those who had the ability to inflect inside themselves and catch the reflection of how it really is, vibrationally, to the eyes of the Dalai Lama in a state where it all makes sense.

So, the point being is that, in life, the vagaries and mannerisms and attitudes that you generally see are imbalances that exist that, technically behind that, those imbalances, is something that is real. And that if a person is grounded enough, whole enough, complete enough, accepting enough of their own energetic being, it can take that and see that for what it is – and not get all twisted and reactive and rejective of those conditions.

To be able to absorb like that is what it takes to take something that’s in disarray and bring it back to where that disarray catches up with its own wholeness – or has that capability.

So I think you’re dreaming that and you’re realizing that you can do that to a greater capacity.

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Haunted from Within

There’s a certain snail found in open fields that can be overtaken by a specific parasite. When that happens, the parasite is able to chemically induce the snail to want to climb up to the top of a blade of grass where it gets eaten by grazing livestock – and that is the end goal of the parasite, the cow’s stomach, it’s just using the snail for its purposes. When we are possessed by anything energetically it can cause us to do things that aren’t always in our best interest. Part of our journey toward consciousness is to realize when these parasitic energetics pop up. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in this dream, I’m like a young woman, probably in my 20s or something. And it feels like I’ve either been given or inherited an estate I don’t know much about, that I’ve gone to visit. 

The other people on the estate are kind of standoffish with me, and I think that maybe they thought they were going to get it, or maybe they run it, so they don’t know really who I am. I’m kind of going through different buildings looking at what’s going on. There’s a horse barn that some of the people seem to be in, and they’re doing things with the horses. 

But again, like I said, there’s no one that’s real friendly. There’s two girls about my age, one of them seems to be supportive, and the other seems to just kind of not want to associate with me. So I think maybe she thought that she should be getting the estate? I don’t know, I don’t know how to take it all. 

Meanwhile, it feels like to me, I’m just planning on leaving right then. I’m looking for someone else that I want to ride with me when I leave, to wherever it is that I feel like I need to go. I realize that people on this estate aren’t relating that well to me, so they’re not being very helpful when I’m getting ready to go. I’m looking for a bathroom. I go in one room that looks like a bathroom and I take a bunch of stuff that’s been piled on something that I hope is a toilet, but it turns out just to be a chamber pot filled with sand. And I see someone run by and I think maybe they know where the bathroom is. 

Now, I’ve been at a banquet that I’ve left and I still seem to be planning on leaving town. But it feels like there must have been some event like a fire that was handled – it’s out now, but there are still some people coming to help us with it. Because I look up and the sky is full of things like blimps. But these blimps, they’re traveling past us to someplace else where there’s a problem. But some of them are stopping and they’re letting people down who were coming into the village, who want to help us.

They all go to the banquet. And I guess because I’m supposed to own this place, now they think I’m going to be at the banquet, too. But I’m actually in one of the side houses; I’m still kind of looking for some things to pack because I know I’m traveling somewhere else. That’s all I could really remember. 

John: I had a hard time pulling out dreams last night, too, because I’m not used to being around a vibration that’s an exorcism vibration, where something is removed. In other words, things are given, but then how are they removed – they just move on? 

And what you were contending with was a sense of something that’s there as a haunting aspect or something from you catching up with, or being in touch with, how it is that you are, and who it is that you are. 

And so we’re used to looking and dreaming in a way that has us taking and realizing that there’s something so much more about ourselves. We’re not used to dreaming, or looking or having to go through things as if we carry around certain shadows or possessions. We talk about a shadow dynamic, but we never think about it in terms of it being like a type of possessory thing. It has its way of holding on to us in some fashion. It maintains some sort of characteristic about us. When you develop a certain kind of clarity, or quality inside, energetically it’s as if you can throw this sort of thing off. It’s as if it’s not there. 

When we meditate and such I never thought about the idea that one has to contend with things trying to get hold of you, I’ve only thought about it in the positive that you take and you develop a certain energetic and then all of this other stuff falls away. You go and you probe the depths of yourself – might be the closest that one comes to the idea of dealing with some sort of malingering vibrations or possessory qualities. 

And the other way that might be the closest that I’ve come to that is the idea that there are certain things that get repressed into one’s nature, that are in the molecular of one’s being, that rise up when the energy rises, that come out then and can haunt you from within. 

I believe all of that is kind of true as a way of saying it, but then there’s another way of looking at it directly in which these forces and whatnot can actually be viewed as having a kind of entity quality about them that can have an effect at holding one’s energy down because it hovers with us, or sits with us, and so it’s a whole other school of thought to be able to address that sort of thing.

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Staying Lost

We have a tendency to compartmentalize things – it keeps us feeling safer from the prospect of being overwhelmed. Yet when we do this, we tend to neglect those specific areas, which, like a forgotten property, can have a gravitational pull on us even when we don’t acknowledge it. We want to open up all of these compartments and reconnect them together, the way they belong, and the way that is most natural, on our development journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And that’s kind of how I laid it out in my meditation dream, in that I have gone to where there is a person who I’ve entrusted to pay attention to things for me, in this area of my beingness. 

In other words, it’s like the image is there is a piece of property in another town that I’ve almost forgotten about and don’t even know the directions to anymore. And I’ve chosen to try to go back to that to try to awaken that, or at least go back to it. 

And so as part of going back to it, I go to this other place in-between, to where someone who was left kind of so of speak in a kind of charge of things. And I’m trying to get directions from him. Well, I actually don’t need the directions, I kind of know where the town is at, but where am I at in the town? I’ve forgotten the address to the place. I’d probably recognize when I get there, but nice to have an address. 

And I’m impatient, I want this address from this guy right now. And I’m actually a little upset and infuriated because I’m feeling the awkwardness of not having that at my disposal like I know that it should be – because it’s something ancient inside of me. So that was the sense of all of that that was going on. 

So, essentially, you could say an important part of what is going on about myself is put on hold, or something, as if you can do that and something will change. Who am I to be like that? Because this part will stay lost and in an avoidance trance, or it will have gotten to a point that is not reaching anywhere at all anymore, as maybe actually needed in terms of a greater edification of self. 

And it’s not going to change if I fail to face it. Now I might have to do it all; I mean, the human heart encompasses it all. In other words, clearing up a number of other things that are a malingering weight upon me. 

So this is like a teaching dream in terms of coming back into who I am meant to be. This dream is portraying how much I am struggling, in terms of beingness, in which I am confronted with experiencing a panging away, because the loudness in the dream where I was actually angry or upset because I couldn’t find this, I’m panging away in terms of trying to catch up with my whereabouts. In other words, who I really am. 

And we aren’t what we think we are, we’re so much more. So that’s the deeper meaning of this. My way of approaching it is I may not act like something’s trying to keep me from doing it, I may act like, you know, something could change; the universe or something could shift or change. And that I will just wait for it. That can be true, but then that’s an avoidance as well.

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