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John: I’m not sure I’m actually able to describe my dream from last night. I think it’s because I didn’t pull out the details and images clearly enough, and just kind of settled into the feeling of it.

It’s almost like I was meditating before I went to bed, because I was in a kind of inner state. The fact that I didn’t pull it out put me into a sense of malaise, even though I was able to denote that I was accepting of a place, or a space, while some other part of me knew that even that had a limitation to it.

So, I can say that the dream echoed the energetic way that I was carrying myself with a kind of connection to the heart. In other words, my way of holding on to something can be felt in the heart, but it’s still an in-between state – I can still recognize that it’s an abstraction representing something even greater.

What happens is that I’m rationalizing that I can hold this inner space, and even my mind is somewhat quieted from connecting to other vibrations that are denser and could throw me around or send me off on a tangent.

However, I could still understand that the vibration I was holding onto has something else to it – what I see is still limited. For me to experience the more of it would require something else I’m clinging to, to fall away.

Said another way, within the vibration is recognition that I have no right to embody it fully because that would actually create a separation. There is still an aspect that stands in the way of an inner nothingness. That aspect seems imperceptible but is, as far as I’m able to tell at this point, something that’s an inner magnetic.

What I’m describing is the reason why I didn’t get knocked around by this aspect as I usually might have been – in which case the dream could have run off on some deviation or detour like we’ve been talking about. Some part of me knew that the space I was holding was subtly better than what it would have been if I’d reacted in my normal way.

It also shows I was as conflicted by this feeling, as I sometimes can be. Of course I can’t stay in a state of contentment with it because nothing on this side of existence is content for very long. I’m able to notice that when a person is content, they become lazy and have a tendency to rationalize that it’s okay.

So it’s a subtle way of just feeling the energetics. The dream, however, or the vibration to the dream, touched enough that it created a subtle mocking of the space I was accepting. That caused a slight uneasiness in knowing that there was something more and that I was limiting myself from reaching it.

Consequently, I did not fully accept the vibrational limitation. If I had, I would have been able to pull out the dream imagery that was reaching further into something else. As you peel away those layers, you are infused with the knowingness behind the imagery of the dream itself – the symbolism, etc.

So the degree I am ready to confront it is up to me. If I don’t confront it, it won’t become something more. The underlying question that’s put before me is, “Am I able to feel the need inside, to the degree necessary, to penetrate and awaken to a subtler depth of inner beingness?”

If I am ready, and normally I am, to make that shift, that’s when the dream world is apt to sense that there is a process of letting go, and then will reveal more. As long as I am purposely holding on and accepting that as okay, I am stopping myself from acknowledging the deeper need.

It’s like I’m saying “No,” to what is more, and my choice is honored. Such choices always place my deeper beingness behind a defensive veil.

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