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butterfly_rockKnowledge and understanding of a spiritual path and process can be a fascinating endeavor, but it is not the point. A spiritual scholar may be further from the real connections than an illiterate farmer who has never read a book, but who is pure in his intentions. Yet, because we are a brain-centric culture, we can think that the more knowledge we amass the better it will be for our journey. Such knowledge can also be an escape away from the true work of a spiritual quest, which is the letting go of attachments to what we think we know, and connecting to, and being with, what is. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I see this image again that I had in another dream. It’s kind of like a repeat, and I didn’t know what to make of it I guess, in the other dream, other than seeing it and still remembering it. But the repeating component is, I came to see that what is in life, in terms of its essence, when the image existence explodes.

In other words, it just blows up. In other words, it doesn’t maintain its continuity. It just goes kapoof. It loses its structure. Now it can be a vibrational reflection, but then again even that can blow up.

So what I saw did not have to have a physical beingness. I wasn’t on that level, with a vibrational reflection and light level. In other words, what was happening was in seeing this I’m on a different level, that’s not necessarily in a level of manifestation, because in manifestation you see everything as having a form, you know, you see the myriad of things wherever your eyes look.

In this place it was like a vibration comes up, it has a reflection, the reflection goes poof. In other words, it’s no longer something you’d dwell up on, and that split-second thing leaves you with something. You denote from this the essence or something. It’s like putting your finger upon a beingness that is all effusive when it explodes like this. Or, in other words, the way I am trying to describe this is, in this split second where something does that, if you were in this loci in a physical way, that would be what is called an inflection, or a sudden knowingness, about something, or a light bulb moment. But in a loci where that sort of thing is outside of a plane of density, it’s a density there as the pulsation itself.

In other words, on this level, to have the light bulb moment or the inflection is considered wonderful, but on that aspect of one’s self to have something brought through like that, and then you see it and then it explodes, you’re limited. You are limited because the degree to which you saw that and everything, and what happened there, and what you made out of all of that limits you.

So what I saw on this level, to dwell upon that, would be to be dense. In other words, now I’m reconciling the two levels, that there is a way of looking at things, and understanding everything, because this is what happens when light can go kapoosh like this. In other words, you have to be a light that is similar to what you were trying to do in your drawing. You have to be a light that comes in, in an expansive way, and can fill a container, and can fill it to such a degree that it exudes in terms of its auricness to the light of the world – and then can be breathed right back up.

But if you don’t, then you have a kind of knowingness that can get in your way because it doesn’t matter if you know. You can know everything and yet still not know what is real – which is this light and only this light. Even in this situation there has to be a letting go into the stillness instead of not just catching the light bulb moment, you know seeing it on this level where this light bulb moment is, where you can actually shake things through and understand something, there’s a limitation there.

And I was holding on – the opposite of letting go – to a stillness, so it was a density in terms of that loci way of being. The density in that loci has an unacceptable naff that, on this level, would be called a physical existence trance, exemplified in the outer collective of manifestation. It’s kind of hard to say, but what is seen in terms of being able to flash and inflect in the light a knowingness, because everything that’s there to be understood and known is in the light. And so to flash upon that, and to know that, is on this level inside of one’s self, outside of the physical density of things, is a limitation.

You can get caught in that. It’s a light. It seems like you can do this, but, on that level, when you take the physical out, it still is a beingness, and that beingness and the inflection to that, in terms of what is important on that loci, that would be no different than being caught up in the myriad of things in the outer in manifestation. You have to drop that, too.

So the reason for the dream is something bothered me about the inflections I saw yesterday. Now this happens a lot whenever I’m around something that’s elevated in its energy, or has the resonance in the atmosphere that’s elevated. I get into this state when there is a certain quality of a light that’s around in the atmosphere, and then what comes out of my stillness, in terms of reading the light, can have a certain knowingness.

And that’s inflective in that aspect of light, but there’s so much more. You don’t have to do that. Doing that actually takes you away from your heart, little by little. Although I like that sort of thing as kind of a cloak of knowing, it is, in terms of this loci that I visited, it is a barrier that is in the way of emptiness.

Or to put it bluntly, I exist on many levels. On this inner level I have a gross and dense holding on to flash images that leave me with an inflection from the essence. In this inner loci I have come to know that as draining my auric nature. I need to let go even further and release such a holding on to this sort of seeingness and knowingness. Such a seeingness gets in the way of the emptiness.

The heart rejoices when the split-second inflection is not a quality of a beingness that I have to embrace, because I know it, too, and from seeing how it is in this loci, I know that this, too, the split-second inflection is a holding on, instead of a letting go to an even deeper stillness.

And I recall even hearing a teacher describe this as being like an appearance of knowingness that is actually a stupidity and ignorance. The heart knows how to recognize this as being a denier of the stillness. It is an attachment to a need to know, and such a knowing gets in the way of the heart. This is a knowingness that is still denser than the heart and is, therefore, considered a mind that isn’t yet one.

And so I kept thinking, what do I describe this, what do you call this? Do you know what it’s called? It’s called the Solomon Complex. This was Solomon’s problem. He wrote all of the Psalms and all of the stuff in the Bible, and he was wise beyond wise, but did he actually experience that which he exuded out of the light? Did he actually fully revolve in that light?

To some degree, yes, but deep, deep scholars that really understand what this is supposed to be all about, in terms of the heart, do ponder to what degree. He came so close, yet so far. And you can have people being around a teacher, and the teacher has this right breath, and this right space, and they can be attentive like in service like you wouldn’t believe, but can they and are they breathing in, really appreciating that breath that is right there in front of them? Of course, it’s always there in front of you because that’s really the only thing that’s going on – or you wouldn’t have manifestation.

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1000If we want to understand how a machine works, we can take it apart and see what makes it go. But what do we do if we want to understand living things – things we can’t take apart?  Well, we have to connect to them, in the same way that a shaman or medicine man in the past learned to connect to the healing essences of plants. And if we want to connect to something energetically, we have to do it from the essence in us to the essence in it, which means energy to energy. But, of course, we have to become quiet enough in ourselves to receive and translate that communication. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I find myself holding off from responding to an issue in which there is an invoking of an outer response. In other words, it’s an outer trying to get my attention, and so I’m holding off responding to it. And I hold off because I know, deep inside, that the response cannot be an in-sync reply. In other words, you can’t respond to the outer: reflections cannot meet reflections.

So I hold back, and do not reciprocate outwardly, because there’s something inside of me – and I consider it like the soul or something – which is refusing to move. It wants to just stay still. It won’t buy into this outer that is trying to grab my attention.

So I find myself surrendered to the inner stillness. In other words, I just can’t bite; that motion just doesn’t grab me. And so what does that mean? Does it mean that the outer vibrations are somehow or another absorbed by the stillness, or into the heart? And that my mind, that normally buys into the outer reflections, just cannot do it? In other words, there’s something that has gotten more meaningful, in terms of staying still with a more all-consuming heartfulness.

So that causes me to wonder: what is this stillness? And I come to ponder it as relating to the plane of the soul, which is where surrender and nonbeing come together, and where everything is absorbed. The outer is absorbed by this encompassing heart, or something.

In other words, the reflections aren’t separate. The reflections can all be taken within. And so, in other words, there’s always going to be reflections, but the reflections, you don’t take them with you in bizarreness, the reflections stay as manifestation still, in terms of the degree to which something has to act out vibrationally, with images.

And you’re always noting the degree of true stillness by looking at the greater teacher of the outer, that is manifestation, but you don’t try to change the outer in order to get to the inner. Such a mindset, in which the outer vibratoriness and corresponding images are something that you can bring with you into the plane of the soul, it just isn’t so because they are reflections. They veil the heart from the inner. They vie for the heart.

So what happened is, in my meditation dream, I was able to not reciprocally react because I was on the plane of the universal soul where stillness is natural. Now the alternative to that, of course, is an outer reflective in which the senses portray the reflective physical and the result, then, of something like that is kind of an ego orientation floundering as manifestation. In other words, putting out the vibrations and the images because vibrations and images are correlated. Or, to put it another way, manifestation exists as an outer reflection in which vibrations correspond to created images.

And so this has caused me to notice a psychic illusion. To visualize, within, an outer future unfoldment involves the taking of a vibratory energetic from the stillness into physical manifestation, and doing it this time in which you stop time, as if irrelevant. In other words, manifestation is a conditional reflection involving time and vibration which, densed down, becomes physical space.

So psychic inflections are a deviation in one of two ways in terms of the stillness. They are a deviation in that you can have a psychic quality in which you transcend time, so that you can come to see things backwards and forwards, and up and about, that’s a psychic trait. Or you can take and you could still be buying into time, but you can get rid of vibrations, in which case if you can get rid of the vibrations that then manifest into something physical because they constellate as something dense in the outer, if you can get rid of the vibrations, you know that have their way of having to live something through in a reflective denseness, then you can do things like transport or move objects. In other words, you can transcend space. So psychic abilities have to do with playing on the edges of time and space, that are important as foundational points to a vibrational imaged manifestation.

And so what has happened is it’s causing me to denote the subtler levels of vibration in relationship to looking at the stillness, in terms of looking at the stillness, in terms of the components that come out, that are the reflective manifestation. Thus you hold the stillness, and then the manifestation reflects differently. It’s just how it is.

It reflects to the degree to which it still imparts that which still has to be lived, and it still has to be imaged. It still is something that you’re not quite fully able to let go of. It still reflects that. You don’t come to the stillness by playing with the reflective outer.

So that’s an important distinction, and I can see how this can happen, in terms of a perception, because the out-breath looks like you’re bringing something down into it, and so, as an out-breath it’s like, you know, there’s a momentum and whatnot. It’s easy to catch this as something that is meant to impact the outer – but, no, it’s from the inner. That other creates a diversity where there is the seeing and hearing of things that are unfolding, but the unfoldment is reflectively oriented to the inner awakening.

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In our culture, we tend to lump masculine and feminine traits into two genders and seem surprised when the lines blur. But we are all a combination of both masculine and feminine gender traits, with one usually being dominant. Yet that doesn’t mean everything we do should be dominated by a singular viewpoint; like everything else we discover, there is a natural state of balance and a reason to use all the diversity we find in ourselves to navigate the many circumstances we find ourselves in. And, on a spiritual journey, there is another aspect that continually dominates, and that is our personal involvement, or the feeling that this whole “life” thing is about us. It’s really not about us, but rather about how we can fit into the whole of it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my dream, it’s like I’m supposed to go help with a trial, but when I go there it’s like they want to disqualify me from being the prosecutor, or the questioner, without telling me why or putting me in a secondary role.

And then I figure out finally that it’s because either the opposing counsel, or the person that’s coming up, is somebody that I knew, or had a relationship with, or they think I want to be in relationship with, and that this would taint how everyone was looking at the questioning.

So I’m frustrated with this because I don’t feel like it should really make a difference. Then I see that everything is targeted towards making me forget. And then that starts becoming the reality – everything seems to be targeted towards even making me forget the dream, and it’s so frustrating that I have to fight to even remember this part which you think would stand out because there was a certain amount of emotions.

So it is like that just becomes the outer reality then where I really have to struggle to even remember this tiny bit.

John: What’s happening is as the prosecutor you’re being the masculine. In other words, the prosecutor is a person that takes and goes out and brings in the inflections, and the thoughts, and the sparks, and the energetic that takes and quickens something out of its dormancy, enlightens in that regard, makes something more alive, and more real, and more tangible. 

That’s the nature of the masculine, and that’s what you’re doing as the prosecutor. However, the need is to keep you repressed, which then takes you back into the condition of the feminine. The feminine is a person that takes and doesn’t quite see what is going on around it, and is affected by things that it can’t sort itself through and find the greater picture in life.

And so your dream is indicating that this happens to you when you are overpowered by the idea of something being personal, too personal, and so you are shut down by the fact of them causing this indulgence, this limiting feature, to be used as a means to keep you from invoking, and exciting, and causing something to be seen by a normal, natural, masculine quality expression.

So to keep you from finding this other side, or fullness, of yourself, you are being shown that this is lost, or goes away, or is inaccessible to you when you indulge in what is said to be personal mannerisms that contract and hold you down in a kind of compaction. 

That’s the nature of manifestation. Manifestation is something that has been slowed down with an energetic in such a way so that it is of a sound quality, as opposed to something in a more speeded-up realm, that is not necessarily grounded as a consequence, that comes and appears in the nature of light. Yet light and sound are one and the same.

And so the masculine part of yourself that has this quality of being the prosecutor, or the means of bringing something through that quickens, and awakens, and stirs, and jars, and invokes the situation to have a whole other way of coming out of its condition – that is working with the principle of something coming down into life.

And, by contrast, you find yourself constrained because of personal limitations that are placed upon you, that keep you contracted, so that you don’t wake up to that or, as the dream is indicating, find the means inside of yourself to quicken yourself, so that that which is whole and complete inside of yourself you are able to awaken, all on your own, with your own inner masculine.

Isn’t that an interesting dream? 

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