A Peculiarity

According to some, we wouldn’t dream at all if we were fully functioning, realized, human beings. If we consider that idea, we can see that dreams are always showing us how we interact with ourselves, and within ourselves. If we had no psychologies or fears, and we didn’t project our personal view on the world around us, the sorting that dreams allow wouldn’t be necessary. Said another way, we would be in the flow of things. And if we were in the flow of things, then all the sorting would be happening in the moment, as needed, and there wouldn’t be anything to work out in our sleep. And that sounds rather dreamy. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in April 2019.

Jeane: So, in the next dream, I seem to be visiting a man, in his living room, and in the adjoining room he has two young sons who are sleeping, or at least playing in their room.

And then I go over and it’s like I want to lay down under some blankets, on the floor, with him. And it also feels like there’s his mother, or someone, in the background somewhere, but not right there with us at the moment, but an influence.

And it’s like we kiss, but I can tell there’s an imbalance going on, like one of us maybe wants more children and the other doesn’t. And I’m also trying to figure out what is it that the mother would want, or what is it that the boys want? Because I think maybe he doesn’t want more children, and that’s what I’m trying to figure out.


And then the scene shifts, and I seem to be by myself, in a house where I go, and I think the boys burst into that living room at some point, too. Then I seem to be in a house and I go up to a room and there’s a man there, a married man I know from New York, and he embraces me, and kisses me, but I’m really not feeling anything. But now I know he’s going to be going back to New York. That was all that I dreamt.

John: Well, what you’re doing is you’re playing with the aspect of whether or not your intentionality of your nature is taking into account the surrounding. I mean, it’s not a whole lot different than when you’re observing the football game, and going up and down with every little aspect of things, and fail to realize that there is an intertwinement that you’re capable of catching up with, and should be seeing.

And the closer you get to that intertwinement, the more closely you get to what is actually going on. And the more, somehow or another, you actually influence, or seem to influence, because you’re in touch with the sequence of events.

So, in the first part of your dream, you are actually trying to do something that doesn’t quite feel right to you because there’s the mother in the area, there’s two kids in the area, there’s this guy in his notionality of things, and then there’s the blanket that you crawl under and hope to, as a consequence, blank out, or shut off, all of that in order to effectuate a particular kind of momentum, or intentionality, of your nature.

And, deep down, you know that it isn’t meant to quite work that way, because what you’re doing is a peculiarity of overtness of your nature that isn’t taking into account a bigger picture.

So, in this other part of the dream, you’re starting to let go of that, and, as you let go of that, you find out that, for example, the boys are able to now free flow around the house, when before they needed to be off to one side in order for you to get your way. And that the guy that you were overly indulging in, with kind of an emotional blood energy depicted aspect of projection, turns out, you know, that that was all projection on your part because you realize that you had to carry it all, that he doesn’t, isn’t, and wasn’t really intertwining with you, and it was all coming from you. Because when everything is placed back into the natural, where everything has its own place, you come to realize that that doesn’t fit.

And so it’s kind of a teaching dream, in a sense, in that it is showing the momentous mannerism, or nature, that we get caught up in, because we live in such a bifurcated way, that we can’t help but have predilections that choose to select this, and select that, as we bicycle about – all the way from how we watch an illusion unfolding in front of us, like a football game, to where we take steps to try to enhance our life, so to speak, but there’s nothing to enhance. There’s just something that has to be intertwined, and, if we don’t see what is intertwined, then we just cause ourselves a lot of grief.

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If Everyone Jumped…

lands_640Off a bridge, would you too? It’s an age-old conundrum, but this dream points out that concept on an inner level. Since we are all the characters in our dreams, the roles played by others in our images become very interesting. Are they with us? Ignoring us? Working against us? It is so important to remember all the lives we have inside us, because one aspect within us may be absolutely sure we want to make a spiritual journey, while other aspects have different agendas. That’s not a flaw, yet to truly keep on our path we must, over time, convince every part of ourselves of the mutual goal. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in March 2016.

Jeane: The very earliest dream I had, I was a younger boy in that dream. The only scene I remember is jumping into some water that was this really pretty green color. And then I’m with a couple other boys, but I didn’t really pull that dream out.

And then in the next dream, which seemed all jumbled, it just felt like they were friends. It felt like they were boys about 12 or so, but nice kids.

I jumped in the water and then I got out. I don’t even know if they jumped in for sure. The water was this beautiful, kind of green water. It was a green color that was really pretty. That’s the only reason I think I even remembered the scene.

John: So you jumped in the water because you recognized something about the water.

Jeane: But it was like you couldn’t stay in it.

John: And you couldn’t stay in it because…?

Jeane: I don’t know.

John: And the only ones around were those that were other than people that you might be familiar with?

Jeane: They were friends, but I don’t remember.

John: Well, I’ll tell you what the theme of the dreaming is, not that it adds to the dream. Your second dream probably finishes things, but the theme of the dreaming has to do with discovering a part of yourself that does not necessarily apply, or is it apparent, or is it accepted, or is it taken on, by those who are part of your connective group. Those who you are familiar with.

In other words, they aren’t going along and jumping in the water, although you do kind of know them. It is you that has the excitement and the interest and the draw to jump into the water. And then, of course, you get right out, but at no time do you see that any of them have joined you.

And so, a dream like this raises the question, why is that the case? But you did know who they were. Did you always know who they were before you jumped in the water? Apparently barely. You don’t know for sure. You just were able to see them. You had a sense they were friends.

And that’s the dilemma. In other words, it seems to be portraying something that you’re to do, that opens something up, expands something, but there doesn’t appear to be any reciprocation or recognition in terms of their camaraderie about that issue. And you know that you’re to jump in the water and then you get right out?

You just knew you had to jump in the water and then get right out. You just saw yourself jump in the water, then get right out. That’s what you saw. It’s not a question of knowing that you had to do this. You just said that that’s what you saw yourself doing.

That works, too, in terms of being able to provide or be part of a quality or a note or a breakthrough that is not readily appreciated, or understood, or part of where your friends are at.

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Forces from Within

The unconscious is a powerful force, but it should not be seen as a dark and dangerous place – although images that arise from it can appear that way in our dreams. These images are telling us a story about us, and about our relationship with ourself. When a new aspect of our inner life is awakened, or re-awakened, it can seem as though it is a bomb about to go off. Yet perhaps that speaks to a level of suppression and resistance rather than any intrinsic danger of what is arising. Sometimes it is our responses to things that reveals to us the most about our inner processes. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I had this long dream. In it, I seem to have a house that’s like one of the very first houses we lived in, that sits back. And then next door to it, a young man that I met in college that I went out with, is living with his mother, and maybe a brother.

And the setting is more stark than it actually was in real life. Between the two houses is a little hut, a little storage unit. It feels like at first I come from where I come from, which is more to the left somewhere where I seem to actually be staying because I must come down and check on the house. And it feels like I’m going out with him. 

But first in almost a playful way he constructs something that’s in this little hut between the two houses, he constructs something on the floor that I deconstruct, but I realize it actually could be a bomb. But I seem to know how to deconstruct it without setting it off. It’s almost like he thinks it’s a joke or something, but I know it’s also a bomb. 

Well, at first this is kind of playful, but then it seems like it becomes less playful; it’s a real bomb. I still seem to be able to deconstruct it; I deconstruct it again because it would blow up the old house as well as his house. But then what had been playful before becomes serious and wicked looking, more metallic bomb that I don’t know quite how to deconstruct that one. I have a feeling I might be able to do it, but it would be very tricky. 

And he comes and stops me from doing it and takes me to his house and locks me in the back room. Well, at this point, I’m not sure what to do, because I might be able to deconstruct it, but if anything disturbed it everything would be blown up. And then I think about, what can I do? Well, if I call the bomb squad, I’m not sure how much it would really blow up. But I realize that could actually be irresponsible because if they don’t know what they’re doing, they’re just gonna make it worse. 

So then I find a way to break out of the back door of his house. So now I figure you know I might just have to try to get as much distance as I can between me and what may blow up. But he finds out and he starts chasing me. 

Well, I feel like I can get ahead of him, I have a really good head start, and I’ve gone down through the town, I’ve gone down to a little canyon area, I figure if I can get across this area and across the water to the other side I’ll be okay. But one of the problems is we have this little dog, and she’s been following me and she’s old now. So she can only follow me so long, and then I have to pick her up. Especially when I get to the water, it feels like I’m gonna have to carry her, and he’s found a paddleboard or something so I feel like he’s gonna catch up with me. 

So I have to let myself go out into the current, because I’m trying to save me and the dog at this point. It’s kind of gone down into an area, but I don’t know if it’s going to actually go over a dam, so I have to kind of divert us a little because I really just can’t leave the dog to her own fate. And I don’t know how much of the town he’s going to blow up if this goes off. It feels like that’s when I wake up.

John: Well, the interesting part of the dream starts with your old house. And it’s a place that you don’t really carry a present day memory or association or connection with, as far as you know, other than that it is something in your distant memory past. 

That’s an assumption that you shouldn’t be making. The reason why that old house is there is because the pattern upon which you’ve unfolded is meaningful. The pattern which you have unfolded in the outer tells its own story. And, in that story, in the way something has unfolded over the course of time, there is something that is revealed there, in terms of that, that indicates the responsibility and a quality in terms of how you are and who you are. 

Now, because that is so old or ancient or took so much time or is so far in the past, you’re not inclined to recognize that it is all reflective of something more, something at a great depth. However, because you went through this, and were there, this has caused you to develop a sort of understanding or recognition. The recognition you’ve developed is that if something that is unconscious goes off that it will destroy everything. 

So you are finding yourself in a situation in which that unconsciousness can possibly wake up. And the go-between or in-between is this little hut. And when you come to know that that little hut, that things are going on between what you went through ages and eons ago in terms of development and understanding, and where you’re at right now, that in that little hut, something is coming into focus that has to do with making the situation bigger. It causes the blow up, in which the situation is bigger than who you are. 

And yet, you’re required to fix it. In other words, you can’t call the bomb squad, you’re required to fix it. And yet you can’t fix it, given your current condition, because you also have the responsibility of making sure that you don’t hurt anything. In other words you’ve got the old dog that has to be taken care of. Plus your means of moving about to try to cause something to break free, you just don’t seem to have the acuity tools to make it happen. But you are shown that the whole process involves following a flow, a guidance of a flow. And if you can get into that flow, then you can maintain an unfoldment, you can start working with an unfoldment. At least work with the unfoldment to the point where you blow yourself up in another way if you go off the edge of a waterfall. 

So the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with being able to realize that everything about oneself, and what one has done, is meaningful. If you go back and you take and you look at that, you can see that as if that’s all a type of dream. Something has changed as a result of an inner awakening understanding so that you can go back and you can pull all of that together and say, oh, okay, that’s what’s been going on. 

Or, another way of saying it, that you’ve been under the guidance and influence of forces from within all along – you just didn’t know it. And now you’re getting to a point where you can recognize how something is interconnected and intertwined over the space of time. And in doing so you’re seeing how something that may have occurred over the course of a lifetime, or a prior time or whatever, is meaningful in the here and now.

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