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i1209gesIt curious how things change. It may appear to us that everything happens gradually, step by step, but the change happens instantly. Even in learning to ride a bike, we keep trying and trying and we still don’t know how. Then, suddenly, we do, and what we have gained can never be taken away from us – because we are actually different. It is the steps and effort that eventually help us make a change, but the change can only happen when the criteria has been met, and then it changes forever. This is important to understand in our journey, because sometimes we may feel like we’re not getting anywhere, but the truth is: we are getting somewhere, but we’re just not there yet. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Actually, the theme of the dreaming was about switching, and how that process works. And, of course, what was being challenged is our concept, in terms of how that works.

Our concept is we are inclined to think that we go from one place, from inner into outer, or outer into inner, in a sort of sorting out way, as if there’s a gray zone, as if we awaken between the two aspects of our overall beingness. An aspect that’s on the inner, that is more than we can know and catch up with, that, among other things, embodies all the planes of light, and an aspect that is in the outer, that embraces, and seeks to embody, a quality of an essence put into thought, to create a concretized domain. And we don’t sit and awaken in the way that we would like to believe, in which we think we do, as a process.

We don’t go and do this in a gray zone, meaning sorting out the inner and the outer. That idea that it works like that, a process of going home, so to speak, a journey, that’s actually all illusion. You’re either one place, or the other, and we’re always in, so to speak, both places simultaneously – or as close to simultaneous as possible – because you have the in-breath and the out-breath, and on the in-breath you’re in the inner, and on the out-breath you’re back into the outer, and it’s not a matter of distinguishment as a means of being on the inner and in the outer.

It’s not a distinguishing game between the two. It’s not some sort of sift and sort. That’s a bewilderment zone. That’s an amnesia to the breath that causes us to connote that way. It’s kind of like black-and-white. It’s a switch that’s just boom, boom, not with all of the commotion. Yet in the plane of the outer, in the plane of manifestation, we long for something more that is, so to speak, our beingness in the light, the unseen light. And in the plane of light we quest for a human body. In other words, we are both an inner and an outer, simultaneous. And the gray zone, where we use the mind senses as if we’re going somewhere, to create the sensation of a journey, that’s all spiritual illusion.

So that’s what I came to learn from the meditation dream and the sleep dream.

So, in the meditation dream, there’s a way of sugarcoating manifestation, from the inner level of existence, as being correlated to the underlying essence therein, that can be shattered. In other words, you tend to try to correlate it, but it needs to just get shattered. In other words, it’s a distinction that we make out as if there’s an awakening in a more and more kind of way, instead of a sudden and abrupt shattering.

In other words, what I experienced inside was I was suddenly given an experience where this in between process that we go through, that’s kind of like a gray border area, or zone, in which our mind senses and whatever it is, and everything vies for the heart as we’re trying to sort this thing out, suddenly went poof! And when it went poof, I saw this as either all in the inner, or all in the outer. And then I saw that it’s always both, because that’s the nature of the breath. Where the in-breath turns to the out-breath is the essence of it all, and where the out-breath turns to the in-breath, in manifestation, that’s the longing to it all, put into a concretized nature.

So, in the dream, I was shown the distinction between inner and outer, meaning that there is nothing in between, and the distinction was not some sort of steady seeking in a matter of degree way, like a journey, but an abrupt shattering of the veil. The veil was completely shattered, not experienced as a matter of some sort of ever increasing degree. This stunned and shocked my sensibilities. I hadn’t expected this. I just didn’t know, or wasn’t going around realizing, that the distinction is so black-and-white.

So why was this important? It is important to know the difference as being black-and-white as a shattering of a veil between the two, you might say, planes of inner and outer, and all of the levels that that might be, as opposed to a gray zone approach where one is lost in the abiding, as if there is a distinguishable in between, which introduces a touchy feeliness into the equation.

You don’t sneak up on consciousness. You let go of a distraction, in an abrupt black-and-white switch; just drop it. That’s why the practices of stopping your mind and all of that stuff are to get you to realize that it’s just a switch, it just boom. You’re either there, or you’re not. The gray zone area is where spiritual illusions and self-deception abide. We make all that up. This is what we do to ourselves in our quandary.

In other words, you flicker back and forth. You short out, because you can’t make the compromised gray zone work – because it doesn’t really exist. It’s a spiritual illusion of one’s nature because awareness isn’t something that’s approximate. In other words, the awareness of both places, there’s no approximation between the two. It’s one, or the other, and everything else is noise, spiritual illusionary noise, that we make up and cause that to be like a journey. The mind tries to make the distinction, and, in doing so, causes the flickering sensation that’s the spiritual illusion.

When the mind and senses stop pretending, in a this and that way, the gray zone will fall away. There is either physical existence, or light, i.e., black-and-white. To say that there is an unfoldment process, in which we awaken, to aspire to an ever unfolding higher self, is a head game. When you take the head game out, there is just the breath. The gray zone demeanor we delusionally self-impose veils us from experiencing the black-and-white consciously, or the breath consciously.

The mystic can experience the in-breath plane of light, and the out-breath’s gravitational ghost energy planes of existence, the back and forth of the breath is not a complex science. The illusion of there being a mind sense orientation is what makes this seem so, because the mind sense orientation is correlated to the planes of physical existence.

So when it is said that everything must go to shift from black to white, as a way of saying it, this means that the mind sense orientation, suited for physical existence only, must stop. A human being cannot take the mind senses into the light. Or, to put it another way, the mind senses veil us from a conscious in-breath.

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auras-humanIf we were able to see all the energies surrounding us, and, of course, some people can, it would be easier to understand how, when we move, we create energetic ripples into the surrounding environment. It is a fact, whether we acknowledge it or not. As we make our spiritual journey, we seek to connect more and more deeply with the energies that are in our environment, because they are filled with information and intelligence about the “other” effects going on around us. When we do connect, we are closer to the flow of things, and are working with the energies at play in a given moment. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, there is the sense that a particular effect has occurred. So I go over to where it was to have happened, and the effect is not there; but the object, or whatever it is, is very loud as if it is set forth in another spot.

So, you know, this is a tough image and whatnot to understand in that, usually, the way your mind works is your mind looks at something in a black-and-white way. But then, when you’re affected by being able to hold onto a magnetic energy, then you can deal with things that are more translucent – and it could be over here, it could be over there. It doesn’t have to be any black-and-white, controlled way.

That’s kind of what this is talking about, but the meaning I wrote up is: in the dream there is the sense that an effect that has occurred, and if I follow my heart to see where it is directing my attention to be placed, I will notice that the effect occurred, but not where I expected, and that, as a result, there was the surprise in terms of where to look. And I’m able to follow, and handle, the effect when my heart remains attentive upon sustaining the net effect.

Basically, what is the net effect? Well, the net effect is this huge overallness. And actually the word “net” is probably the wrong word, because it’s inclined to look at things as if you are compacting to a particular point. But maybe overall effect is the word, because when you sustain the overall effect the location of that is there is no location of it – and yet it’s all taken into account. And there’s a vibratoriness, you know, like the dhikr vibration, or the light vibration, or something that somehow or another is able to accommodate all of that. But, in terms of it being meaningful, it has to keep being grounded.

The plane of sound and such that the Chistis work with is trying to figure this out by a rising up of the energy, as opposed to something that is coming down, as a light coming down. They have the light rising up, and they’re trying to look at it equivocating that way, but I struggle with that because in the world soul of things that’s on life support, so to speak, it requires something more.

It requires something of a greater all-encompassingness that comes through, and that can’t come through because our nature is inclined, like what you were trying to do, it’s inclined to try to put it within parameters – and it can’t. It has to take it as it is in this, and to be able to take it as it is, it has to ground it, has to make it ground.

So the dream is indicating that there are an extreme degree of outer variables capable of causing one’s mind to go askew. But in the dream, when I hold onto a net effect vibration, or a magnetized part of myself, as a result of holding onto that, I’m able to follow the effect through, because you’re not having to steer it, or be attached, or whatever, for it to be defined.

Because the variables are more than I am capable of taking into account, I must learn to maintain the inner power essence behind the breath, which is what designs as the situation requires. The net effect is shaped by the heart, and not by my ideas, in terms of what is important. I need to trust in this net effect, or overall effect, whatever you want to call it, as being how I am meant to be.

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233gesWe process energy, every moment of our lives. Some of it is for maintenance, like food, and air. Some of it is just in the dealing with other people’s energies, which we also need to process and let go of. And some of it is our own energies in reaction to, or relation to, what is occurring in our life. But the higher aspect of a human processing energy is to take a higher energy and bring it into the physical world. We see this when musicians connect to something and make beautiful music, or when a writer captures a universal moment in a poem. And, as humans, we can make ourselves available to manifest such energies in many forms, as compassion or kindness, or just a better way to resolve a conflict. In these ways, we manifest the higher into the lower, which allows everything to benefit from it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The way I experienced it, first from the meditation dream, is I realized that I am able to denote, vibrationally, inner forces in life before there is an interconnected intertwining.

So what is it that I’m trying to say? I could tell when in the state of oneness, or inner state, or however you want to call it, if the ethers, that are an overall vibrational atmosphere, in other words just like there are ethers that are an overall vibrational atmosphere…

In other words, you have the outer, you have the inner, and yet then there is something more, and if the outer configuration of a dense quality nature is able to let go, so that what is going on in the overall atmosphere is able to touch, can come in, it’s like an inner coming into the outer. I’m talking about an aliveness from within that is at home; that can find itself at home in the outer.

In other words, it can touch the outer, and thus able to bring about change from within, or bring about change, in that it makes the outer which is in a bewilderment make sense, in terms of what it’s floundering about, how it’s floundering about, it pulls it together. If it doesn’t, then the vibration that one can note, or denote, inside themselves, will just kind of eventually shut down. It’ll have to go bye-bye. It can’t just keep doing what it’s doing to a person, if the person can’t handle it, or accept it, or focalize it.

In other words, then, that means that the way we take it in, in terms of our outer collective, is as if there is this part of ourselves that’s out of place, or inappropriate, in some manner, and like too speeded up or whatever, or not holding a direction conducive in manifestation – in relationship to this – because we can’t pull the two together, the subtleness from within, discernable somehow in its subtleness, as making sense in terms of our outer capacity.

I can tell if an inner intertwined aliveness of my innerness is embracing the outer. You can tell, in other words, if it is, because all of a sudden you get it. All of a sudden it’s like a light bulb moment as to what’s going on – and everything feels and makes sense. Otherwise there’s always something noodling. It’s almost as if there is no place in an outer substance way for an inner substance unfoldment to go, when you first notice this, and so it’s almost like this is an imagination, or craziness, or a kundalini thing; it’s too great a speeding up,

It can be the launching of things that are really jarring, and yet there is a way that one can assimilate that, and has to learn to assimilate that, because it’s what’s behind the denseness. It was out of an aspect of light, converted to a type of sound, that manifestation was created, and it is this substance, it is this quality, that is firing up trying to come into a manifested form.

So vibrations are an aliveness. The outer is this aliveness made manifest, in other words, to whatever degree that one is able to catch up with. Of course, it’s an aliveness made manifest on a sense level, and yet you need to have an aliveness made manifest on a level of light.

A human being is able to denote an inner aliveness trying to find the outer manifest and place to abide. You can do this, but you have to stop approaching things in this motif of senses only, outer senses only. In other words, if not embraced in this fashion, the vibrational inner aliveness remains veiled from the outer consciousness, and thus an inner/outer intertwinement in this shaping way, it gets missed.

Consciousness evokes accessing vibrations that seek recognition in an outer manifested modality. If denied entry, the vibration will go away, or float around, in the ethers. In other words eventually subsides. You might be kundalini crazy for a while, or speeded up crazy, floats around not yet born into manifestation. A human being is a conduit in which unmanifested vibrations are made manifest, and thus take on a way of being.

And so, in my sleep, I’m trying to explain this. I’m trying to figure out another way to explain something that can’t be said, that can’t be literally put down. And so in my sleep there was a whole other way that came about to explain this. And so these vibrations that have to come through and find themselves in the outer, that ground into the outer, are called the terrible 13 vibrations, just like teenage hormones, and they throw you around. That was interesting. I had the terrible 13s as they were called. How do you contend with the terrible 13s?

As I found myself writing all this up, they’re like the teenage years where one is afflicted by hormones that they have to learn how to handle in a non-crazed way. In this case, it is the kundalini energy coming through into creation, finding its home in creation. It is where the inner comes into the outer and, in this case, we are talking about a kind of secret substance. It is a vibration, the secret substance is, that needs to come home. A home, however, that is in the outer, not just in the innerness that’s intangible and unreachable, unassailable, in its expanse or something.

So to try and say this more clearly is to talk about something the senses don’t really perceive, but the higher self of one’s nature does. This is when you look at a vibration and realize that it can be made tangible, even though it’s intangible, and it’s intangible when it’s not able to be grounded in the outer.

From the kundalini energy standard, or standing out, it seems like it is something that’s just out of control, and intangible. When it gets grounded in the physical it causes the shift, because in the outer a slower denseness is kind of like in a different state of orientation, as if it’s just of a sound correlation, slowed and densed down, not quite light, in other words, or the memo is not there in a way that it needs to be, or in a way that can be seen.

Thus the challenge, how do you handle that which you can’t see? Or this inner kundalini energy that flares up, and can drive a person crazy, causing them not to be able to let go, or sleep, as this churns away trying to ground itself in the greater substance of manifestation.

When the kundalini energy is blasting the beingness, there is no reprieve in the denseness of the outer. Typically a person just endures this, and notices it, and notices how it throws them around, initially speaking, into imaginative warpage and just fit-to-be-tied conditions. Eventually you notice that the outer, and the condition that you’re in, is something that has a pain upon the heart. It hurts the heart because you’re meant to be a more inclusive, not just of a separate exclusive nature.

So this energetic innerness comes more and more into focus, and it does this in a way in which the higher-self way of being touches the heart in a way of making the one-to-one inner/outer correspondence, which has the sense of a relief. It’s as if the denser outerness notices the heart, so to speak, as this vibrational inner energetic makes sense in coming into the denser outer that is in its abstracted sort of way.

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