On Our Watch

Do we pick up litter that isn’t ours, or do we assume it’s someone else’s responsibility? To consider ourselves as part of a oneness, or a wholeness, is to assume responsibility for everything that happens – on some level. This doesn’t mean we have to grab a garbage bag and head out into the street, but having a conscious awareness of what it requires to leave the universe better than we found it begins with small acts before those small acts can grow into great effects. We do what we do because it is important to us and the world we want to live in – it makes an energetic mark – even if we are alone in the doing of it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then I had other dreams, prior to that, about the immensity of all that I am intertwined with energetically. Such an experience puts to rest the idea that what is going on around me, in the dense, personal outer, has a separate capacity from who I am on the plane of oneness. So we’re all part of each other. 

And so, in my meditation dream, there is an organism that affects the body that is the issue for why something is. I take the opinion that what has occurred is not my fault, yet I report that this is what is behind what occurred. The consensus opinion is this is, in some sense or manner, my fault. I disagree because this was out of my control. 

So I’m still now arguing in the sense of the personal, instead of accepting what is taking place as the dynamic. And so it progresses into another image that still has a little of that capacity, but adds more detail to point out that that’s ridiculous. 

In another image, I am at a bus station and, due to a delay at the bus station, cherries were handed out – of which I ate most of them, but other passengers all ate cherries, too; I probably ate half the cherries. And then the other half is distributed by whoever else is sitting there in this delay.

And there was no place to put the cherry pits so they just got spit out on the floor, which was kind of considered, or accepted, as okay at the time. Well the pits stuck to the floor, they even pitted the floor. And now the time has come where this must be cleaned up. Well, the bus is due any minute. And I admit to my role as a party to the ticket people. 

And they don’t have the means to deal with this. They don’t have a machine that prints out an invoice, like a fine or something. So I kind of plead my innocence about all of this because, although I ate most of the cherries, how do you sort out what took place? Just like, how do you sort out a drop of water from the ocean? Now because others also did this, and we were allowed at this time, because there’s no place set up for us to do anything with the cherry pits, it was kind of like condoned or allowed for us to just spit them out. And now all of a sudden they pitted the floor and stuck and all of that. 

And the ticketing people are realizing that this has done considerable damage and needs to be cleaned up – and who’s going to pay for that? And so my argument is I shouldn’t be held accountable because it was a collective issue that was treated at the time as not being a big deal. But after those pits dried, and etched into the floor, it is a damage that is going to have to be fixed. And this is a worry in the minds of the bus depot people. 

Still, the bus people have no way to charge or invoice a matter that occurred at their expense. Plus they have no way to sort out before the bus comes, which is coming imminently. So, what are they going to do, stop everybody from getting on the bus? Well, how is this going to work? 

So the meaning is, from a personal point of view, I plead innocence over what has happened to me as out of my frame of reference. Even though it is not something I control, it happened on my watch. In life, what happens around us is on our watch. 

The dream is pointing out that, in spite of appearances, it is not right to appropriate, in terms of an adab, the nuances involved and culpability in a distinguishable capacity because there’s nothing that we’re not. It could have been thieves there, it could have been all of that, and it would have still been me. 

So the deeper meaning is there is nothing that goes on in my life, or the lives of others around me, that isn’t me, or, if there’s a fault, isn’t my fault. What is near us, or is affecting us or affecting me, if I look at it from a sense of oneness, inner oneness, is intertwined and connected to me. Even conduct that happens in my presence that the cause or claim can be made is an otherness to myself, it’s not really an otherness because I am everything and I cannot disavow parts of myself. 

This is true of everything that happens in our awareness presence. The reason it is like this is in the collective, deep down, we’re all connected and intertwined, so we all bear guilt. We all bear responsibility for everything, and so if there’s a guilt that has to be assigned, we’re assigning it to ourselves. We point at someone else, we’re really pointing at ourselves. No one is innocent or error free.

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The Atmosphere of Life

Sometimes we want a place to make us like it is, for example when we go to a setting in nature that we love. There we can let go of the woes of civilization and feel human again. Other times, we carry the centered calm ecology within us, and we can bring that into any external situation we may visit. With consciousness, this becomes the process of energetic ebb and flow, so we are always closer to a state of equilibrium. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream, I’m looking for a balance in the environment that I’m in. That environment, that I see myself in, it’s like an outdoor lawn area, kind of a park-like setting. When people go to a park, they go there to try to recreate, or to relax, or to let go, be at ease.

So I’m with others, basically the others are just there, and I’m trying to relax on a lawn, and just take in the atmosphere that is a park. There are all kinds of people around, and among things that are going on there may have been someone that gave a little talk while I was out there, not that I paid a whole lot of attention to it, but it was just part of the atmosphere.

 And then there was another person who was sensitive to the ecology of the place, in terms of how it was maintained with its demeanor. As examples, what we were listening to, or I should say, while there was someone talking, at the same time there’s other activities going on and a chunk of sod was put in where the lawn needed repair. It didn’t quite fit with the rest of the lawn because that sod didn’t match up with the lawn. 

So while the talk that I wasn’t interested in continued, I dug up the sod that was placed in an irregular way, and cleared the area better, and put it down so that it fit right in. A Native American Indian observing this admired the attentiveness.

Later, as everyone left, I found myself to be so at ease in this place that I was the last to go. I got so content with the place that when I left I nearly forgot a large book that a woman had given me to read. So I turned around; in other words, not yet able to just leave everything behind, I turned around, went back and picked it up. 

But, at the same time, if I’m going to carry this book, I also carried with me, or gathered to myself, something else. In other words, some etheric quality or cadence that was part of the letting go that this place had stimulated. The intangible value of going to a park and truly letting go, or doing something where you truly let go. And it is that thing which made such an environment where one relaxes in a wonderful place to enjoy.

And, within that, when everyone got up I noticed that there was something missing about the park, even as I was the last to go, and I realized that I didn’t necessarily relate to anyone particularly, it was like a type of hangout camaraderie that made the place special and memorable. In other words, it added something. The quality of the way people were in the park added something; it’s what made the park, per se, a park. And the care I extended to support the park as being a special place when we were there together was also something that was a giving back. 

So the meaning is, this is a dream in which I honor what is sacred in an inner vibratory way. I have learned to do this in a common park setting, or in the regular atmosphere of life where people are how they are, doing what they’re doing, hanging out. Behind all of that is a falling away that one needs to relax into to find and access a greater cadence. 

I’ve come to learn how to receive and how to give back in and to such a setting. I am embracing the art of letting go as I carry an invariable vibrational essence with me as a memorable, intangible, energetic, and which I continuously embrace within who, what, and where I have been. I pick up after myself, take what is given to me to honor and protect, and to the best of my natural nature agree to constantly and ceaselessly honor and cherish life.

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Another Aspect of Self

We hear the phrases: we are connected to everything, and, the universe is a oneness. But what do these statements really mean? Are we responsible for the tree dying in the forest? Well, as human beings, we can’t take on responsibility for greater processes than we can handle, but that doesn’t mean we can’t have an awareness and a connection to the greater processes as they unfold in other forms of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And so, in my first dream, Dean is visiting. And, as we’re talking, he asks if I want my opinion on some subject, and we’re talking about something else. And so I have to kind of stop, adjust myself because I realize that one has just passed through something in which there is a quality of indulging, in which he asked this question about that. 

And so I go along, and he says: you do not want to do anything that limits your ability to get out of here. 

And so, you might say, that’s the counter thing. In other words, all this is doing is noting, just like what you were doing as you were determining the extent to which you actually are the creator, and not just something that has access to the flow. 

In my dream I’m trying to determine what is involved in terms of being able to open up more inside and find the sensitivity and this access to subtler energies – and what do I do with that? And so on one hand, of course, there’s the belief that you can take and utilize that to go home, or to be less affected and impacted by the density of things around you. That would be that answer. But who knows what limits one’s ability? Because there also is the understanding that we are everything, including the density of things around us, and we have to delve into that in order to free ourselves up. 

And so there also is this energetic that’s going on inside of me that’s pointing out the counter to that. The common notion is where people take and think they have to do this or that, and then realize when they don’t need to be doing this or that, do they step away from it, do they transcend that? Or, do you get to a point where you go up and you go down and, as you develop subtler energy, you’ve taken it down deeper into the density, and the mannerisms and the qualities of the physical?

And you have to keep doing it graciously, because it’s very easy to develop a beatitude when something goes askew or amiss, and you can be kind of righteous in your subtle energy to that which is dense. And that’s not a very proper dialogue. And what it does is it creates barriers of separation. 

And so if you develop a certain consciousness that enables you to have a certain quality that steps out, so to speak, in an inner capacity way, what you’re doing is actually acting as if things that are denser are a problem, rather than them being another aspect of yourself that your subtler energy can come into. But you are making choices, as opposed to allowing yourself to be intertwined. 

So anyway, this is like the dialogue that’s going back and forth in which there is that little statement, which comports with a certain pattern where I would go into a void or an emptiness and actually get to a point where I could know things and whatnot, but not necessarily be grounded, not necessarily be within the flow or the context of the breath. 

And then when one starts looking at the context of the breath, to what degree? And, of course, then you have to understand that if you’re going to be in the context of the breath, how can you reject any portion of the breath in terms of being able to play in manifestation, which includes the lower portion of the breath, which is the shamanistic zone, the zone that is able to have an effect in terms of being able to work with the matter in the outer?

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