Posts Tagged ‘dreams and inner guidance’

What propels us through life? Every day we wake and try to move things forward – it could be anything, but we usually are trying to improve something, or create something, or understand something. Are these many urges, or are they variations on a singular urge for something more? Are we compelled by a search for meaning and purpose, and, because we often don’t readily find satisfaction in those territories, we aim for satisfaction in areas that are more manageable like a career, or a business, or a family? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Very unusual subject matter. I’m actually trying to dream it in an in-breath way, the intertwinement. So, in the meditation dream, I am searching for a large container capable of holding onto an inner vibratoriness; going to take everything that’s vibratory into this container.

I’m not able to get satisfied. Consequently, I carry an uneasy frustration as a pressure, which plagues me. In other words, in the dream I don’t see myself as finding what I seek, but, what I do notice is I am somehow provided or given more than what my mind or senses would bargain for. That is, if I were able to understand, or know, what to do with the energy, the incarnated kind of vibrations, at this time.

The veils that exist, exist because I choose to look at things as if you have to catch up, which means that I’m separate. So sitting in this kind of strange sensation, where you’re kind of in a void, causes me to have a sense that how I am is foreign to the overallness, has caused me to come to realize that I have not absorbed it. This shows that I am not properly grateful, and that’s a quality of heart, now, where you put your hand on the heart.

I’m always looking as if there is something more. Such a manner is occasionally dangerously close to, and keeps the collateral damage, or the karma happening. You’d call it karma, but it’s like really another way of saying it’s a collateral damage, because as you get closer to something the degree to which you deviate you, with your energy, affect the denseness of things, the matter of things, and this sets in motion karma, or collateral damage. 

Nevertheless, not knowing what I am doing as I probe beyond my state of beingness, which we always do because then you have the in-breath that goes up to that stillness point, even though we don’t notice that. Because it’s like that, and it’s there as kind of unconscious, what you find in the outbreath you can’t stand. Not really. 

And, to go back and forth like this, the only thing you can say about it is such seeking is both productive and counterproductive. I am a human that is never satisfied and seeking more and more; you could say that that is something that doesn’t know its limitations because it has a remembrance of something, somewhere, and somehow differently. 

What this means is I am going outside of my current state of being, and, if I’m going outside of my current state of being, that means I’m taking the energetic into an out-breath, and there’s the corresponding in-breath. And so the greater density of things that everyone can take and see that they’re trying to make their life completely according to the outer way of things, can have a subtler aspect to which you could say that you also could be spiritually materialistic. Such material-ness is noticed upon the out-breath as I keep trying to consolidate the experience in a graspable way. In other words, whatever you experience even on an angelic in-breath side of yourself you try to consolidate, you try to own, hold on to in the outer. This is the pattern instead of realizing that everything is intertwined, and that it’s held in a wholeness; you yo-yo like this. And when you yo-yo you incur collateral damage because such a mannerism lacks the heartfelt graciousness. In other words, you’re not allowing yourself to experience the whole of the heart. 

Or you could maybe say it in another way, that there is a dormant effect that you’re not seeing. A dormant effect meaning because you’re only seeing yourself, or you’re seeing the outer of things, and you’re not seeing how you’re intertwined with all of that. Nevertheless, you kind of carry some sort of innate trust that there’s something more. And that’s the positive aspect in terms of the seeking. 

The counterproductive is the aspect that yo-yos and goes around, trying to somehow or another make it come together in a different kind of way. But whatever is realized in the spiritual inner has to be grounded in the outer. And people don’t know how to ground it in the outer. 

The trust is a positive part of what I seek. However, what incarnates as a form of groundedness is reflective only. In other words, the degree to which you’re free reflects in the outer, and the degree to which you’re off on some illusionariness also is visible in the outer. And who you are is all of those outer extensions. You have to pull all of that back in.

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Nothing can be undone. That sounds serious, but what is meant by it is that everything created exists, energetically, and, in a sense, everything is different from then on. This is as true for an idle thought as it is for a profound intention – although the latter may have much more energy associated with it. And that tells us something else: when we want an idea to grow into a reality, we must constantly feed it, energetically, until it can manifest in the world as an amalgamation of material forms. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now understanding the time, the out-breath time element, which I came down here understanding, but didn’t understand the spaciousness. And then the spaciousness opened as follows. 

First of all, I go into, and re-familiarize myself, knowing full well what time is. And so I go back into the time orb of things and lay out the time orb of things as the best way that I know how to get to the point where I can try to flip it – to show what this then needs to be in terms of spaciousness. 

So, in the meditation dream, what has changed is the relationship that I have to what is happening within. In prior dreams there is a component of the dream world that I’m able to notice directly. That component is the thought; in other words, it’s in the out-breath, that’s why there is a movement to something that is coming through. 

In the prior dreams, I am coming to know thoughts as time. I have been able to perceive the substance of the thought, and its effect upon the breath, by it being in an overallness, or intertwined overallness. Or, you might say, that intertwined overallness is in a stillness. So I’m able to note, upon the out-breath, the fluidness of time, and, in doing so, note what is accepted by the heart. Because the heart is just an overallness, and if something doesn’t fit, or comport, with what is meant to be, then it’s not going to fit, it’s not going to be okay with the heart. 

So, in this prior dreaming, I have been able to put a dollar value on time. In doing so I’m able to quantify its value to the overall intertwined essence of the heart. Now, because something comes through as a thought, and the thought, then, vies for the heart, and the heart knows that it holds a greater overallness – and so this sort of thing stands out in a differentiation, it’s going to be louder, so it’s going to have more dollar value. 

But the key here, in this case, is less dollar value for it to be more real. If it can be worthless, in a sense, then it would fit naturally into the heart. So, in doing so, I’m able to perceive if what is unfolding in life is acceptable or not at this time. Yet the value of a vibratory thought substance causes a weightiness to strike the heart, because it’s heavier in weight and value, I see this weightiness as a density and bifurcated effect that takes something away from the heart’s essence. 

Because the effect, which involves time, whether something is right to be, and if it’s not right to be it’s going to stab the heart because it’s too weighty, contracts down and pinches that way into being too condensed, thus too linear. I’m able to denote that what is allowed, for shift purposes, and that which is not. And I say that in terms of shift purposes because we’re shifting. And so we’re trying to find a new time paradigm as well. Things have to be measured in terms of a new time paradigm. 

So, in this way, I am able to confront the doingness, because that which is a thought involves a kind of Dharma, if it’s followed through far enough as a thought, and that that is a type of doingness. And does that have merit at this time, or not? I have come to know that what I identify as a flow of time, I’ve come to know whether it’s acceptable at this time. And so, from this, I’m able to respond without hurting the overall intertwined heart design. If it’s meant to be in the flow, or if it’s meant to be. 

This is looking at it from a time standpoint, yet. What I described I already know. Last night I was confronted with a subtler substance upon the heart that is a type of rising up on the in-breath. There is information in the spaciousness that I’m seeking to know. This is harder because there isn’t the same focus and attention for spaciousness as there is for time. In the dream, I am seeking to quantify the spaciousness for orientation purposes. I am seeing it as set. So I’m trying to break it. In other words, how do you speed it up? Or how do you make the spaciousness come in and let itself know where something fits into the overallness. Time is one thing, spaciousness is yet there, too; is the other half.

So I’m having to look at the spaciousness, an aspect of the in-breath, for its value orientation so I can denote, in an invisibleness light, the orientation, because you don’t quite see it but you experience it, you witness it somehow within yourself in a greater orientation. 

So I could tell on the out-breath the time effect of a thought, which tells me whether or not what is coming into life is embraced at this time by the heart. But what I am not able to denote yet is that in what one is to behold, whether the heart is able to accept the unfolding in a spaciousness, and that’s done on the in-breath. That’s what discerns what is meant to be or not. 

Because that part is not discernible when I seek to reduce the subtle essence, in which I factor “time is money,” so to speak, and use the imagery in which there is a dollar value as a kind of inflectiveness on the heart, which I can do in an imagery on the out-breath, this doesn’t do anything for me in terms of the subtle substance effect in a spaciousness – there’s no dollar value to it. And because there’s no way of quantifying that, I can’t do it.

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The idea that the physical world is an illusion, as is posited in many spiritual paths, has to do with different levels of things. Yes, we are in the physical and if we stub our toe it’s going to hurt. But if we lift our consciousness up a level or two, we can also realize that this physical body isn’t us, but is rather a house for us while we are incarnated here. So stubbing our toe doesn’t matter, just as what career we choose doesn’t matter – to the universe and to what created us. What does matter is our alignment with those higher aspects, and our ability to be of use to what created us – in anything we do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: There’s one element to add to that, and that has to do with the letting go, which is what I dreamt about. In other words, I appreciated seeing this part that you mentioned because it’s important in terms of functionality and how you have to be in a way so that you allow a cadence to unfold, because everything is unfolding in its own natural way

It all is going somewhere; you don’t take and crisscross it and create some sort of confusion. And when you are able to recognize that it all is meant to work that way, then you come to recognize another principle – and that’s what I dreamt about. 

And it seems like a simple enough principle, and there wasn’t a whole lot to write up about it. So to start off, in the meditation dream, it was like seeing something in terms of what goes on around me seems real, but it never really happens. It just appears that way. Nevertheless, I pretend that when I spin a wheel, so to speak, that unfolds, that that is real. And that everything in life is like that; it is a pretend make-believe. 

However, this is not how everyone else around me acts. They are all sensing, and their state of mind goes up and down, based upon what I know is a form of make-believe. Even though everything is manifest, everything in manifestation is a form of make-believe, I notice that everyone else is taking the unfoldment seriously, and choosing the way they conduct themselves based upon the unfoldment. 

That’s like the first part of the meditation dream. 

And the second part is like a dream in the meditation dream, in which a person receives $1 million for some small boxes. In other words, it’s like a pallet, and on this pallet you have things in boxes. And maybe two-thirds of the pallet is small boxes. And maybe a third is little larger boxes with essentially the same item inside, but they’re larger. 

And this person gives away the larger boxes of the same thing that represent, like I say, a good portion of what she has. She gives those away, even though she sold the small boxes for a million dollars. And she gives them, like I say, away for practically free. And when I ask her about this gesture, she says it was some good cheesecake this other person gave her. In other words, they did a gesture, something touched in some way, and so she acknowledged that. In other words, it’s not always about something. 

And the meaning is: everything is relative. The ability to let go and not take things seriously is a secret to a wonderful, intertwined, flow that is all around us. To experience this all-encompassing flow, or sensation, or however you want to call it, that sweeps over us is to redeem ourselves from attachments and ideas that keep us in a trance. 

Well, the deeper meaning, and this is the hard part to feel, is this letting go. A truly surrendered and unattached state of being enriches the environment. And you mentioned an interesting feature that makes for the letting go, is where you know how to work with time, putting time into the continuum of things, the space of things, in a way that doesn’t conflict or affect other time. 

So a truly surrendered and unattached state of being enriches the environment. When we hold on to things we choke off life. A gratitude for how everything is fills the heart, and enables us to let go of our nuances. 

This is hard to feel but there is a way of going on where, all of a sudden, instead of walking around feeling pressurized about this, that, or the other, tense about things and this, that, or the other, that are in the environment. You could just suddenly let go of that, and that there’s something really nice about that – and how things fit on a continuum.

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