Posts Tagged ‘dreams and inner guidance’

2ee3wWe’ve all heard the phrase: no matter where you go, there you are. We know we can’t leave our problems and issues behind – they travel with us. Our energy can change the “vibe” at a party for good or for bad. And, as this dream shows, we can bring our energetic eccentricities into our sleeping life. This is all pointing to the importance of finding the stillness within ourself, something that we can always be in connection with, no matter the circumstance – because we know that external life is unpredictable. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my meditation dream, I’m aware of changes in the stillness, as if the stillness vacillates. In other words, it’s almost as if it’s a weather event. And so the stillness can kind of go up and down a little bit; it has a little motion to it.

So I came out of this dream a bit bewildered because this thing is vacillating up and down. And yet wondering, I want to go into the stillness, but it’s vacillating up and down a bit. And yet there is that stillness that predominates. There’s something in there that’s getting blown around.

So when I come out, I don’t come completely out, apparently, but I remember coming out and I noticed that I was cold. And so I just assumed that maybe this is what was causing this sensation of back and forth, because I have slept at times where I might have something strange going on, and I will incorporate all of that into the process of the dreaming. So I assume that, okay, that’s what it is. So I just took this condition into account and went back into the inner space with the intent of searching for the source – in terms of moving to the greater stillness.

The only thing I noticed is after having checked out my physical condition, and determined it to be okay, that when I then was able to let go of maybe something that was somewhat in-between yet, was that I didn’t vacillate now, as if I was being blown around a bit, in the space I was in. So I didn’t vacillate a lot.

Yet the whole situation was, as if all night long, was looking and looking because I had this as an inner agenda, so it was an earmarked approach. So there were no dreams that could happen, no imagery that could happen.

And then when I woke up, because that was where I was at, in terms of spinning, so to speak, within, I couldn’t remember anything else other than a sensation that whatever had happened was at an inner spaciality in which there was nothing that could be noticed from my attention now, even though, further back, the memory of having woken up still infected or affected things a bit, and I was still trying to learn more about the vacillating back and forth demeanor.

It’s as if I’m curious. But once I had woken up and popped my eyes open, and then went back in, I had taken into account whatever might have been some neurosis of concern. And actually then went into a point of non-consciousness, on any subtle level even, but still remembered that to the degree that, when I woke up, that’s what I still held onto. I could glance back at that, which means that I was spinning and abiding upon a mannerism that didn’t go anywhere.

Well, the significance is, obsessing exists on the inner level as well as on the outer. If I’m not pulling out a need from the empty space, I might be vacillating, which is a form of obsessing, except it can be on the inner place level. And if it’s on the inner place level, then you’re going to be still doing something in the outer, or having to think to do something in the outer. Instead, the deep teaching would occur, but I actually then went to being able to, just like in a sleep dream, to just walk off the court. And little did anybody know that when I walked off the court, and may have been dismissed as far as everyone knows, that still something exuded as a presence that held the space. And nobody notices that; it’s invisible.

So what I learned is, I learned in seeing this that in my deep within I was not my usual, absorbent, healing mode about something particular. In other words, the vacillating. I wasn’t hitting that deeper level with that vacillating.

Or, for me to say this in another way, the difference last night is I was not seeing myself having to internalize the particular capacity. Instead, it’s as if I was bored in an energetic outer. Not really, of course, because I would have liked to have played the volleyball game, for example, but, in the sleep thing, there’s a deeper realization – as if you’re bored by having to be caught up in that unmittingly. So the prima materia catalytic stimuli to absolve went to something that was stiller than the vacillation of back and forth – that’s still a type of scanning.

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cleanagesWe don’t always appreciate the different levels to the things we engage in on a daily basis. And by levels, we’re speaking of energetic elevations. For example, we may clean our house because it’s dirty. We may clean our house because it’s one of the chores that needs to be done. We may clean our house because we are trying to make a nice environment for our family. Or we may clean our house because we understand that the universe is always seeking refinement, rather than devolution, and we want to emulate that in the way we live. Each of these reasons will have different energetic connections, from different elevations. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in the dream, I’m like the queen, I’m kind of assaulted by some people that are trying to take over the throne. And it’s afterwards, and we’re trying to hunt those people. And sometimes it feels like I’m the queen, or sometimes I’m a male royal, and I just seem to switch sometimes between one and the other.

And I seem to be in a little village where we go sometimes. And, as people come there, they don’t know that I’m the queen, or I’m a royal, and I entertain them just in a fairly simple cottage because this is like a retreat center, or a little place in the country everybody goes to.

And so then when people come there, and I began to identify the ones that are trying to kill the royals, then I invite them back to the house feeling like I can kind of trap them because they’ll come they’re thinking they’re just coming for a meal with someone who’s pretty simple – but then I can capture them. So I just have to wait for them to show up, and not clue them in ahead of time, who I really am, while I identify which ones are the ones that were plotting against the crown. So that was the whole dream.

John: The dream has a very unusual theme that I’m sure you didn’t notice, in that the dream has you going from one position to another. And the position you’re going from is from an outer appearance to an inner presence. In other words, you’re making yourself invisible for the purposes of being able to cause an effect that is able to happen in the outer.

This is describing a stage of conscious evolution. In other words, there is a point in one’s time where the Dharma of one’s nature, in terms of what’s meant to be, and how one is to appear, and how they’re placed in terms of conducting themselves in the outer, there is a point in time when all of that is front and center.

And then there comes a point in time when that needs to step back in order for something more to unfold. And that stepping back is a type of going into the inner, or invisible-izing yourself in terms of the loudness that you would have that is noticeable, and, therefore, would be drawing issues in the reflective outer.

And so, by taking and stepping back, you’re able to look at the situation more for what is able to, and meant to, unfold. Now the thing that’s wrong in that dream is that you don’t really step back into the full stillness because what you’re doing has an ulterior motive, in that you’re looking to avenge what took place.

The higher conscious approach of even that is just be able to step back into the total stillness in such a way so that, for all intents and purposes, you appear to be insipid, you appear to be completely no longer an aspect of history. And yet, this is not also what it appears; just because it’s not reflective anymore doesn’t mean that it is c’est la vie.  Instead, it is in a quietness, or a stillness, that is within a space that has the ability to effectuate, and to penetrate, and to go into and to contend with all that there is that is going on – and to do it without fanfare. I mean, that’s the higher octave, even though what you’re doing is a step that still has kind of a quiet, ulterior motive.

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im21aSometimes it feels like something has already shifted, yet the change of what that is isn’t readily available to us. We could be in such a situation now, where change has become energetically inevitable, but what it will manifest as is still not clear. In moments such as these it is a good rule of thumb to hold onto, and generate into, the energetic that we hope to see in the future – because the dominant energy will become the most visible. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream after noticing an unfoldment that I take as being a foregone conclusion – an unfoldment that’s a foregone conclusion – the way something is unfolding in the outer, I’m looking down the road into the future. I take a step back, and seek to know what the steps are that are involved from within my being, for this to ensue.

In other words, I have this foregone conclusion, and there are two parts to the foregone conclusion, there’s the foregone conclusion that as things are, that what’s going to evolve is going to be askew. And then there’s the foregone conclusion, that I can feel inside of myself, that what can evolve, and is meant to evolve, through a certain connection that connects to something more, that expands into something deeper, that what’s going to evolve is going to be unique and different than what one is inclined to think in terms of the ordinary dynamic just being evaluated as an ordinary dynamic.

And so I’m trying to go behind that to see how that’s coming in; what that is. It’s like asking the question in terms of what is going on, but wanting an answer that’s more than just the mere consequential result. In other words, I’m sensing that the result of this is going to be okay because there’s another dynamic that is shifted into life now.

So I’m trying to see why that is and what was different. What quickened that? And this was like asking to go insane in a freaked out, or peculiarized way, because what went on inside involved considerations and circumstances involving an intertwined outer that goes beyond my scope of outer to inner attention.

In other words, I’m trying to look from the outer to the inner, and that goes beyond my scope. And yet, on the scope, I could sense and I could put it into kind of a schematic, a vibrational schematic, but my attention was such that I had to tell myself, when I accepted that there is a key factor there being an underlying obscure determinant. And this key factor that is this obscure determinant, in terms of what can unfold, and this key component had a name to it.

It’s kind of like this: you can experience a type of absorbent energy, and in that absorbent energy, or an energy that pulls through, I experienced it more as trying to hold a certain vibration greater than the activities of vibrations that are going around in the outer – because the vibrations that are going on in the outer are vibrations that primarily direct themselves to a certain kind of actionability, a thought-upon-thought kind of actionability.

And the vibrations that are going on as a presence that holds to something on the inner, as a deeper inner, is a silence. And so it’s the silence, it’s the ability to hold on to a silence that draws attention to things, and draws something into happening as well. It’s the change agent.

The result that I am back-spinning over that unfolded in the outer arises from a vibrational revelation I am carrying as part of an inner overallness, and that’s what I’m trying to dissect. I’m trying to see: where is this coming from?

I’m sitting now, taking and noticing something in terms of the fact that in this I see it as going into a stillness, but I see it in terms of still trying to do the masculine way of dissecting how it goes into the stillness, and thereby understanding the stages of things as they unfold. Because in the in-breath and the out-breath, that aspect that goes back and forth, it’s a melting pot.

So I isolate the vibratory to be within a zone in which catalytic vibrations are astir. In other words, it’s a zone in which something has been quickened; I’ve noticed that something has been quickened, and so I’ve also noticed where that has quickened at. It’s not quickened at the top of the breath, it’s not quickened at the bottom of the breath, it’s quickened in the midstream of the breath. And so that’s a little harder to catch up with because we have an out-breath and an in-breath, and you’re in the midstream.

At least when you’re closer to where the in-breath turns to the out-breath you can get a greater sense of the stillness, or you’re occupying a recognition of the breath that is running its course in the outer, you can get a sense of a letting go, and a stillness, that way, too. But where you’re in the middle of the breath, then there is still something going on that has a certain momentum or something to it. It’s astir, in other words, it hasn’t sorted itself out.

So I do not have the details from within that zone, other than the general imprint that I am able to take into account, as in an all overallness. In other words, I hold a certain focus to a sense of a vibration that supersedes all of that. That is, even though this other is in the center and stirs something up, I’m connected to something way beyond that. And I know that.

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