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im009At birth, we have traveled far to get here, from a state of full energetic connection, to an incarnated form in the densest level of the universe (we can’t live in a moon ecology, we need a planet). Yet this does not mean we have fully forgotten where we are from and what our possibilities are. Deep inside, our design holds all the keys to unlocking this knowledge. What is external to us is merely meant to give our inner energetic form a palette with which to grow and evolve. Physical evolution is for the planet, spiritual evolution is for the universe – and for our energetic self. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: If you’re sincere, and true to yourself, you come to realize the more you see yourself moving about in these ways of ideation and distinction, the fainter, even though you sense something, that approach of fishing expedition quality within, you notice that it becomes fainter, not louder. That doesn’t make any sense.

I mean, you’ve got the right notion, you’re turning to the right focus and attention of having to come back to a greater heartfulness, but what you’re doing, in terms of this, that, and the other that your senses pick up on, the intuited memory just keeps staying subtler, and subtler, and subtler because you’re still using the same modality. And so it’s like you’re becoming more sensitive, so to speak, in this approach, but you’re sensitive in that you’re catching up with maybe little leakages, or inflections, of states. But you’re still holding on, though, to this overall mindfulness approach, a type of mindfulness that caused you to go out of the demiurge into the landscape, and then into the movement of the landscape. And now you’re going to move around, again, in that landscape as a way of driving back? That’s the same pitch. You can’t do it that way.

So, try as you might, this heartfulness that is echoing as a beholding, within, that is an a vibratory stillness, that you can image, that you have imaged in your bifurcation into both a motion and sight, or time and space, you have the freedom of choice to bring about this imagination, as if in your imagination something can rise up to a better image or something, or return of an image of stillness. And every image, then, that you toiter with like that, veils you in some subtle way because it’s still within this same waywardness, it’s just that you are trying to be a little more sensitive because you cannot quite stab yourself with the bifurcations as loudly as you did before. You have a more measured self-affliction.

And you sift that way. And the more you sift, putting the perceptions, as best you can, in this sifting mode, into a heart of a knowingness – the best that you’re able to sense that – in order to catch up with the feedback, or kind of like guidance, you’re still bicycling about, though. And you still seem to be away from the all-inclusive stillness that you have a faint memory of.

At some point it becomes nauseating that your sorting out gives birth to more and more impressions yet; subtler impressions, but still impressions, which grip you and cause the heart to note its exhaustion, its frustration, its need for something more, even though it may not know what that something more is. But it can come to a point where it can kind of know what that something more is, but it’s lost in its methodology. Because the methodology that you’ve been under is one of spiraling about more, and more, trying this, that, or the other yet. It’s like the whole image of moving the deckchairs around differently or something. And what you do seeks to elude, because something is an unfoldment, and that unfoldment involves a letting go.

It’s not a fixer upper project in the outer. Well, at some particular point, the yearning, or this quality of an echo inside, wins out more, and more, and more as if something is coming into its timeline of coming through. Which means you have a part of you that can’t help itself. It can’t weaponize any longer to this, that, or the other as options, and you just seem to collapse. That can be like a mental breakdown. And yet at the same time, if it’s done with poise because of something echoing inside, and you are straining in a space of drawing that forth because you know that there is a naturalness there, and it’s in the letting go, you actually can have glimpses, or a reset, where the senses feeding specific mindfulnesses, just seem to stop.

And when they do so like this, out of nowhere comes an awareness of a greater heartfelt beingness essence. So then, because this is not the teaching that the world provides, in terms of the senses and the mind, in terms of self improvement, or however the various modalities are, you’re trying to move back to something as a deeper echo, and yet as you do so, it’s almost like you drop your personality of motion.

And so then you catch up with, or maybe you hear, the statement that kind of rings somewhere that you have to die before you die, which is just nothing more than saying that there’s a letting go semblance of pure, still beholding. And that an all-engulfing heartfelt wonderment just is. And that just is, is everything. And the seeing is that of an overall stillness.

So what I am doing, and what is going on here, is I’m describing what you call a descent from a oneness to a beingness within the oneness, where there is a loss of an all-encompassing sensation of oneness. And so I scope about, in an individualized sense, seeking, all seeking but we seek in the wrong ways. We seek for this, that, or the other as something palpable, as if it’s palpable.

And then suddenly you get it and you just let go of such a seeking. And this letting go of an idealized visualization, or idealized nature, of yourself is the precursor, it’s the step to returning to a stillness, because the letting go goes into the stillness naturally. And the stillness, being all there is, embodies an enraptured heartfulness. You can’t find yourself in any capacity when you’re doing anything other than this. So what you have is you have a beginning, middle, and an end – and the beginning and the end come back together.

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239fThere are many things to enjoy and put our attention on in this world of diversity, yet, as this dream shows, it is not supposed to be taken in as a mindless indulgence, grabbing for all we can. We can also understand and connect to the essence of something, and let that experience be carried with us into other aspects of our life. Everything has a purpose and a role to play in the great unfolding, but only the human can connect the highest aspects of life to the simplest forms of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the next dream, the scenario of this dream is that I’m in a dining room. And it’s like a dining room that’s setup in a banquet style, meaning buffet style I guess is maybe the better word, banquet and buffet style.

And, in this dining room, I’m being introduced to food in which the dressings are what makes the food special. Plus there is more there than I could possibly partake of. And even at one point someone even puts vegetables on my plate. I wouldn’t have done that, there was so much else. I don’t eat the vegetables, but someone put vegetables on my plate.

So I’m so busy trying to appreciate all that there is here, and, at the same time, relate to others, that I’m not able to take in all that there is to take in, to eat all that there is to eat. And suddenly I realize that I’m the last to leave, except at another table, that’s where Lou and his wife are still at.

I apparently got so engaged, I just didn’t keep up. And I definitely haven’t eaten my vegetables. And so I came to this realization when I was still holding out that there was a special something that I saw that I hadn’t tried yet. And so I got up to go over to the buffet table and found out that everything was cleared away. And then I looked around and the banquet hall was empty, except for Lou and his wife and they were starting to move a bit as if they were ready to leave. So I realized, gosh, I have to get out of here. I have had enough, even though I keep indulging, but no more food to be had. Time is up.

And then I kind of settled back and, as I settled back, in other words it’s like there’s a little flicker in this, I’m able to see through a door and notice that there is a lot of activities outside; it’s like street activities, or motion. In other words, I’ve been sitting here partaking from within. And that is when I realize I need to probe out and direct my energy and attention to a place outside myself, meaning outside my inner self. You don’t just sit there indulging and indulging.

So the meaning is I am being delightfully fascinated by the entrees in life, on the inner level, and their accoutrements that seem boundless. I am entranced by the food of life there for me, and it has built up kind of an energetic in need of outer stimuli. Or, another way of saying it is, I can’t stay in the dining room forever. In other words, what you experience there has to be brought out into life.

And, more interestingly, in catching up with that, with what is going on, I suddenly notice that I am able to see through cracks in a door, and what I see is not necessarily enticing, it’s bigger. Seems like there’s a lot there. And, by comparison, the dining room is over. So upon getting swept up with all there is to appreciate within, you can almost forget where you’re at. And you’re meant to take the inner atmosphere of appreciation into the outer that is all about – because you’re in the outer.

In such an atmosphere that you access within, that awakens within, that is brought to your attention within, that comes within as a sense of appreciation and wonder, I’m now able to look out into the outer, and go back into the outer, with this same newfound sense of wonder and appreciation. In other words, touch life with it.

And the deeper meaning is, when you incorporate the first dream, when states take on a station I can appreciate life with a newfound wonder. Until then states come and go, meaning that sampling this and that is what is occurring, in terms of it being kind of like a sense of an inner journey. That’s what it’s like because it’s like the states awaken and you ride the states. And the energetic of the outer seems denser.

So the energetic I access is entrancing and intriguing, but I am directed back into outer life, which is where I can stay, and it is upon having received more than I can fully take in from the inner banquet room, in other words, it is now time to be with an outer that lies outside this inner room. In fact, I am beckoned and compelled to live in the inner aliveness – in an outer way, too. In other words, live the inner aliveness in an outer way. There’s no more staying in the inner.

Kind of a continuing theme that we were on where it’s continually pointing that one has to catch up with a certain awareness, but then that awareness has to come into the outer, has to be lived in the outer.

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do4e3wPerhaps we can agree that “we are spiritual beings having a human experience.” If so, why would that be? Why would we go from a higher, purer state, to a lower, coarser state? Maybe it is because things can be done in the physical that cannot be done in the energetic realms. And the most important “thing” is change. Energies can’t change their state; but energies in a human appearance can change their state, and the state of other things, because of the ways we are able to consciously process higher energies. This concept says, the universe gets little benefit from us when we process lower, or coarser, energies. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I notice that when I am in sync within an initial unfoldment, and am able to shift to a greater flow that ensues for me to catch up with, that is when there is a dynamic that is deemed to be meaningful, that is unfolding as intended in the outer. The attire of the outer, that is being worn, because it’s like you’re wearing the attire of the outer, you wear it as kind of like a facilitation to the unfoldment that is clothed, or in the design, of the outer, because it’s within all of that.

And so the outer appears to be as a kind of process reflection. And the problem is we deem that outer as an important aspect, but the way it needs to be looked at is the means by which a process comes together is, when you put it bluntly, expendable in terms of how the outer is affected. In other words, it’s not what is eventful, per se. And it becomes like expendable, and uneventful, if we’re lost in it. Otherwise, it’s natural. It’s just part of how something is. It’s a garden of Eden – when the outer is in sync with the inner.

But, when it’s not, then it is like something that becomes expendable because the advancements, within, oftentimes come to the expense of something in the outer – where there has to be a letting go of something in the outer.

And that’s why you can say that when something has gotten bifurcated, the outer aspects of things are not the important consideration, in terms of making a process of awakening come to pass. Yet that is where one puts their intention so they stay lost; they stay lost in what is agitating them, and, in their agitation, they can’t go to any depth because they can’t let go. And then, as a consequence, they ricochet.

So, in the dream, there was also another scenario where I was required to catch up with what there was for me to reach before I am in sync with the flow. Life, in this instance, is where the outer is a dispensable means to the end result, energetic overallness essence awakening. Or similarly speaking, a human body, per se, is but a vehicle that is there to facilitate a deeper inner unfoldment essence process.

That is why there is such little attention to the overall well being of the human body, I mean, it’s important to have an attention to the overall well being of the human body because within that is the essence, and if something happens to that, then something gets cut short, has to get reset or something, and go through a repeat process. But the human body and its importance really comes into its zenith when there is the connection to the essence that lies within. But if there isn’t, then the body takes the beating. And in that regard, then, that’s how it’s deemed to be insignificant in comparison to the bigger picture.

So, as a meaning, the body and physical manifestations are props to a greater overall, all-pervasive, intertwined, energetic essence. There is a vibrational inner essence that permeates everything that exists, in which the props are deemed expendable, when there’s this flickering aspect to the props, that is, then they become expendable. Wherever you overindulge your attention means something has gone askew because you’re not allowed to be bifurcated. You can get away with it up to a particular point, but there comes a time when you get smashed because you’re meant to be so much more.

In other words, something in terms of your wholeness is concerned that the awakening process proceeds, and happens, in terms of the essence, or the secret substance, and not the pretension that the props have anything to do with it.

The props only have something to do with it from the standpoint that they portray what is askew and where you are out of touch. And you don’t take and rework the props, you have to go to the inner essence. You have to connect to the inner essence that effuses into everything as one being.

To get skewered and lost, putting credence to the props, is yet another way in which people get deceived and veiled. Or, to put it bluntly, the physical senses and the props of manifestation conceal the pure light – and thus the outer is taken literally. And what is happening deep within is, at best, if you’re lucky, somewhat of a revelation in the outer. But, more often than not, you don’t really buy into that, even, because you’re putting the props in the heart, the vibrations that are askew in the heart, trying to sort something out rather than being in the wholeness.

The essence that is there lies at an inner depth unaffected by the outer props. Well, it’s unaffected in that it cannot be contaminated by the outer props, but it can be veiled by the outer props. It can be veiled by something that is dense. You can lose the subtleness of the essence that is a language trying to speak in terms of its wholeness.

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