Posts Tagged ‘ego-based life or spiritual life?’

What does it mean to be connected in a spiritual sense? When we are involved in life personally, i.e., why does it always rain on my day off?, we are using the dial-up connection to the universal – we may get a few bits of intelligence, but mostly we see the spinning icon. When we understand that we are a part of, and play a part in, the process of the universal unfolding we can connect to the universal, which supports all things that support It. This is the fastest connection, and it’s always downloading more intelligence data. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the meditation dream, that sets the tone of this, might be interesting in terms of pulling it together because what you dreamt was how this applies, and works, and comes through you. And what I dreamt in my sleep is how something applies or comes to me. 

But then that something that comes, or applies, or catches up is introduced or invoked inside oneself, the process by which that takes place – in other words, the schematic for something like that – is what the meditation dream was about. And it was short, and I could have written up a lot more about it, but it was so understandable at the time that I had to force myself to keep writing more, or try to write more, because I really understood what it meant. 

My meditation dream had a repeat quality to it. And, in the dream, there is a deep-seated part of myself that is correlated to all there is. Now it’s not noticeable, this deep-seated part that’s correlated to all there is, if you’re off on your own tangents. In other words, I do not have an access to all there is because the need to know dictates. In other words, the action and the stuff that you do gets in the way, in terms of how it is that I’m karmically intertwined. 

My access and need to do is confined. In other words, if it’s karmically intertwined, it’s confined, you have to get outside of your natural nature of how it is that you go about this way or that. Or to put this in another way, there are elements in life that are connected to me, but not karmically controlled. These aspects are free to break a connection and go their separate way from the greater whole. 

So I’m wondering if it should be made known that there are those who are factored into the world as being at the epicenter of change? If so, are such individuals born or made? Or if somehow or another there’s something about your nature that, instead of going off and trying to do this, that, or the other in terms of some sort of karmic unfoldment, or quality, like a Dharma or something that you catch up with, that you somehow hear a different drummer that takes you outside of the personal. And when you go outside of the personal you access a greater wholeness. 

In your particular case, it described how you may have probed out, that could be considered in maybe an outer-consequence way, but the result was that this led to a quality of letting go that enabled something to be given to you that caused you then to open up to so much more. 

And, in my particular case, I had to stop and be still. And then by stopping and being still I could see something dorment that was there to open up, to be there. And so that part, in other words, the part that is either born or made or whatever that’s at the epicenter of change, you know, that can shape things in the world or whatever, is something I need to observe more closely. 

And it seems that we all have this quality in us that enables us to be at the epicenter, but that doesn’t mean we can just do that, or hit this big show inside of ourself that has this overallness, whether we can do this automatically. We’re able to see ourselves there, in other words, in this place, when we are able to see that we can get out of our personal way, in other words, when we’re out of our personal way, and we are able to see how everything around us is included in the whole. 

You can’t do that if you’re always coming off in the personal motif. You can’t do this if you’re talking all the time, which is where it started off, that was deemed an embarrassment. We cannot say that, however, if we see a personal self-aggrandizement that is adamant at getting its way.

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masks3Everyday we see fame, or celebrity, or people with power and we may feel respect, awe, or any number of responses to them. Yet how often do we find, in the end, that they are not the people we thought they were? This happens because the outer portrayal doesn’t match the inner assembly – and these types of contradictions are difficult to keep hidden. A better way is to become a person we want to be on the inside – with the associated principles and integrity – and that will ultimately show up in the outplay of our life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: This next one is very short, but full of information.

In this next dream, it’s like I’m in some sort of work area, like on a job or something. I feel really kind of out of it. I can’t seem to plug in or feel natural there, and this whole thing gets intensified when I realize that no one even wants to work with me.

And I can hardly blame them. I do not accept guidance very well. In other words, when told what to be doing, I seem to get all twisted, or not seem to know how to hear it right, or to know how to make it happen. So it’s like, “Gosh, how can anyone work with something like that? It’s amazing that I can even hold the job.”

And as a result, I just don’t stay on course with whatever it is that I am told that I need to do and, of course, this causes me to develop a self-image problem, an insecurity. And to try to compensate through that, I have to focus harder to try to stay alive.

To be like that means that my perception of myself is not operating in a secure and balanced way. I see this when I go to a fishing hole and find another person laying claim to the place. He doesn’t have the means to catch the fish, and I am the one who is there to make the most of the result. Very strange, in other words, right?

So how is this to be understood? Well, the meaning is, the pattern is occurring because I am feeling the need to thrust myself into some way or another in life. I am only becoming more unconscious when I do this. The way that I’m doing it causes me to become unconscious, because I’m taking it in as a particular way that’s a little bit pushing off me or something, and orients this to an attention upon one’s self.

To extricate myself from the image, I need to feed the part of myself that requires the attention. I need to feed it in a slightly different way. I need to feed it in a way that where one appears to give it what it wants, but knows at the same time that it really doesn’t want it. And if one can do that sort of thing, then you can cause a letting go to take place.

In other words, I must not see myself as the beneficiary of this or that, or the ego will destroy one. The self-gratification is put to an end. That is what one needs to do in order to graciously awaken and deflect the effect of this holding-on mannerism. To fail to do this, as you awaken, is to develop a sense of power energy that’s like a monster, instead of something that has a humility, and a kindness, and softness; you lack the heartfelt humility.

Now, the meaning of both dreams is the same. The two dreams are correlated because beneath all of this is a part of myself that is in the limelight. In other words, that’s what I’m thrown at is a peculiarity to have to contend with in order to let go, prove that one can let go, prove that one can not have to take on any airs.

Because one cannot be true to one’s self if you get caught, in that regard, to what is going on and then having to associate to yourself something in that manner or way, as a way of carrying or seeing yourself. The key to becoming a more conscious person is to know how to let go of appearances and realize that I am not the real doer. If I do not realize this, then I step in the way of the heart and become like a beast.

This is an outer quality, so what is this looking like on an inner level? On an inner level, my teacher is causing more and more of a real human being, in terms of myself, to awaken and come through. I cannot take the credit for what is evolving, when it is his focus upon me that is the difference.

In this dream, I make the acquaintance of a person who is moving very fast and only has time to pause for a second. Kind of like how I can get too. This person is working as an aide for a U.S. senator.

I seem to be questioning why he would do such a thing, and he replies, “For the recognition. Isn’t that the reason, and the only reason, why you do anything?” And the way he says that, it has the ring of being a foregone conclusion behind everything that is done.

Then, of course, again this kind of is a sharp way of cutting to the theme of it all, of showing how hard it is to be an empty vessel and let consciousness flow through from a deeper inner depth, without getting in the way and, thereby, causing a stigma.

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Jeane: I just have fragments of dreams from last night because I was coughing and not feeling very well and that actually integrated into the dreams.

In the earliest image, I’m living in a building with a large circular parking structure and for some reason (maybe because space was limited?), there’s a butler who stays in the parking structure and he sometimes serves drinks.  

I’m really curious about this arrangement, trying to figure out if it actually works. There’s a teenage boy in the building and I wonder if the butler is giving him drinks that are too strong, or are inappropriate for him, at his young age.  

I can go to the parking structure and get drinks from the butler, too, but I have a cough and a headache. I think I figure out that maybe it does work, but I just need to keep checking out this whole arrangement.

John: So, the parking structure represents the world. You’re in the parking structure and the butler represents something that brings things back and forth.

It’s like the Sufi mystic Ibn Arabi’s description of something that goes back and forth between the higher self and the lower self within the kingdom of man. The butler is like that.

You find yourself in Creation and it’s like a great big parking structure. You’re hanging out and there’s something going back and forth that you can denote in the outer – which is the greater teacher. You’re realizing that things are taking place that cause change, or that have an effect, and you can note this in the parking garage, i.e., the outer Creation structure. You can note that and, in noting that, you can see and come to know.

In order to denote that, to be able to see that, you have to acknowledge that it works that way. If, on the other hand, you identify with things around you as if you’re just in a transitory parking garage, i.e., it’s all random and life is an ego-based experience, then this image would make no sense to you. Then you would be relating only to the physical concrete structure. But, instead, you recognize that everything you see is reflective of something deeper, coming through the Creation, and in some way it comes through and serves things up (the butler), which creates change.

A part of you is caught up in the concrete reality, and that’s shown as the potential for a young boy (another aspect of you in the dream) to drink something inappropriate.

In other words, we can come to know what’s going on, and what it is that’s coming from somewhere else, i.e., coming from the inner into the outer energetically or vibrationally. But we’re not going to notice that it works that way if we’re holding onto our personal, ego-based identification in Creation. When we do that, we’re only able to perceive what’s right in front of us, and we’re veiled from the knowledge or understanding of what’s causing it.

So the theme of the dreams last night has to do with recognizing that a particular vibration comes down and into life, through us. And each of us carries a unique way of doing that. It’s like we are a thought of God, so to speak, and the impulses that come from that are treated as a type of dharma (natural law). We then proceed to go and live in the outer in some way that serves our understanding, in terms of catching up with this inner quality.

But most humans see their unique expression as something that belongs to them (not God), and that they feel they have a right to pursue – as an indulgence. If we partake of that, we find ourselves in a different world – one that’s separated from our natural link with the Creation.

What this dream is trying to tell you is that this world is more than just a parking garage. There’s something that goes back and forth between the seen and the unseen (the butler), that connects between the higher and the lower self –  that’s also a part of you.

And it serves up things, it serves up drinks, through a masculine side of you, which is the change agent side of you. At first it shocks you to find out that it works that way, but this is what evokes change – whether you like it or not.

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