A Stitch in Time

January 10, 2014January 10, 2014 ~ d2k ~ Leave a comment

This dream imagery moves in the subtle realms of time and space. Jeane finds herself trying to manage what is occurring between different peoples, but finds that no one is really listening to her. This points to a split within her, between the masculine and feminine aspects that aren’t functioning together. As we wake up spiritually, we must begin to recognize everything, both from a feminine aspect of containment and a masculine element of fetching. When they can be brought together, healing can begin. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My dream seems to take place, I think it’s in this country, but it’s before we were the United States.

People live out in the country of course more primitively, and in alliance with Indian tribes sometimes. But there are all of these shifting alliances because there are people from other countries that may come and make an agreement with Indian tribes, and then they’re with them and against you, or you may just do something that offends them and the alliance is broken up and you can’t live together and work together like you did before.

So, we’re at one of those times, and I can kind of sense that we’re coming up to like a holiday, and usually we would celebrate. The Indians live kind of like what I would call in an upper village and we’re down below more, and we’re all supposed to have a ceremony or celebration together.

But I can tell that the relationship is strained, and that this is going to create some differences because there are ways that we’ve become somewhat dependent on them, and what they know about how to live off the land and store things in ice caves, and they just know things that we don’t necessarily know yet.

And I’ve traveled to the upper village, the Indian village, and they greet me okay, but I can tell that the alliance is kind of coming to an end. And I feel like there are things I’m going to have to tell the white village I’m living in about things that they’re going to need to do, or compensate for, that they’ve been relying on Indians for. And I go back down to where I’m from and it’s still kind of celebrating – people are being unconscious about the change that’s coming.

And it’s like I do have a relationship, and he does something with the military, or the militia, my boyfriend. He’s been away and whatever he does he goes out in the water and it’s like they recover things. It’s almost like a little more like modern times where people go into the water and have weapons and stuff, and so he’s away a lot, hanging out with the guys that do that.

And he’s come back and I kind of don’t want him to continue doing that. I can see that he’s away a lot and he does things recovering things from the water, but because he’s back and it’s a holiday time, it’s like he’s actually doing something like gambling.

I guess they have something like an old-fashioned slot machine in this dream, and he’s put something into that slot machine and what has come out is this funnel, it’s all wooden actually, because it’s olden times, and some plastic animals and some discs of some kind, and then a bunch of silver dollars or 50-cent pieces, I’m not sure which.

But he’s over kind of getting some change to put more money in the slot machine, and I’m asking him, why doesn’t he just use what’s come out of the chute that he just won? And I don’t know whether he was unconscious about that and didn’t see the coins that came down, or if he just prefers to put fresh money in. I can’t quite figure it out.

So I’m scooping all of the money out, and then I’m taking, on the little table that’s part of the slot machine in this dream, because it’s all wooden, I’ve stacked up the animals, some of them on top of each other, but in a way where they sit kind of neatly in the little discs. And then I’ve pulled the coins out so that I’ve kind of cleared the space of the chute.

Then it shifts again and I’ve kind of seen how everybody is acting like the alliance with the Indians is still okay, and I’m trying to kind of caution them that, no, there’s something wrong now, and they’re going to have to learn how to do some things more on their own that they rely on them for, whether it’s medicine, or how you live off the land, or whatever.

And then some foreigners come into the village and they act like they’re friends, but I know that they’re actually enemies now. I’ve actually gone into a room with one of them and suddenly they’re trying to infect me with these little, they’re almost like little ticks or something that bite you, and I can’t quite struggle to get away from him right away.

So I know some of those little animals have bitten me, so I run down to the stream away from them so I can kind of hide in the river and the river bank. And it’s almost like there’s another me there in the water, and she’s telling me that what I need to do for the bites, she shows me along the bank of the river that there are places where there’s rock, and then there are places where there’s almost like a rock that’s still moss, and then there’s a place where there’s some rock that’s still forming that’s somewhat soft, almost like a shell is soft, and that if you crumble this you can make a little paste that you put on the bites and it sucks out the poison.

And I said I probably got bites I don’t know about, and she’s saying, yeah, because there’s some on my back, so she’s going to help me with that. And that’s what I’m doing when I wake up.

John: This is a dream in which without directly engaging the two issues in a way that the masculine engages them as if there’s a whole other reality in some other place, you don’t point to this whole other place. You instead infer it as able to occur, and be referenced, as part of manifestation or creation.

In my dream, I infer it to be a whole other realm of the cosmos that is alive as well. You are indicating that it’s alive in creation per se, and you are looking no further. You’re working within the tools and the magic of creation. And what you’re working with this time, that’s different, is time and space. You’re working with it in a new way.

In my dream, I’m seeing how time and space are a functionality that has to do with a kind of motion and existence in manifestation.

In your dream, you’re seeing it as aspects, that the way the time works for you is you shift back, you can shift back to kind of a central overall vibe of something, like the vibe of the Indian tribes, and then you can evaluate that space as to whether something is changing, and then shift forward into another space.

You don’t necessarily layer that on itself, as if you’re bringing it down, and in, and through and from the cosmos. You instead see it as something that is quickened and awakened right here in creation. You’re able to find the magic of things for yourself that heal any affliction that you feel.

You’re able to tell when something is not quite in the right cadence and that a change is afoot. You’re able to notice different time frames in relationship to things. It’s as if time is more fluid for you. You’re describing scenarios in the shift that don’t quite make sense to an existence of yourself back in primordial time when there were the Indians and the first white men.

You seem to be portraying, however, as you’re working with this time and space, that there is something in these shifts that you’re doing that suggests or implies a responsibility, or recognition, in terms of something having a need to take another step, or to shift, or to sustain even or maintain something pristine.

Something is amiss, but within the levels inside of yourself there is like a voice or a guidance, because whatever it is that’s biting you, or affecting you, you seem to know how to zoom in or catch up with what is needed to work as a salve to heal all of that.

And so you have almost a different sequence of realities unfolding there, a sequence of something prehistoric where things are not going to continue to work out, that there is a shift coming. It’s almost as if, in a way, you’re describing an archetypal problem at its inception, in terms of a manifestation as you know it, that has some effect.

And then it’s almost as if you’re carrying all of that forward, as if all of that is imbedded in some sort of level, or layer, inside of yourself to then open in another moment of a shifted aspect of time, in another space even, to try to rectify or fix that. And you seem to have a way of connecting to what is necessary to do that.

In other words, there’s that which bothers you, and then there’s that which fixes something. And then that part there is something that is happening as if it should be noticed, but isn’t being noticed. That is the masculine aspect.

This other that we were talking about is the feminine recognition. But then the sight that comes through as the masculine aspect, that is something that is grasped in terms of the treasure that is brought through, the masculine aspect is continuing to act or function as if it’s just not quite hearing it, or getting it, and that somehow or another creates a certain degree of confusion.

It actually causes a type of mood even, in terms of the feminine being confused about why that should be because it, to her, seems so obvious because a part of her spins things and works with things as they unfold in creation.

However, how can she be viable if there is this quality of the memo coming through that isn’t being recognized, that certain actions are done and yet no appropriate recognition is occurring? From the standpoint of the feminine overallness, that’s baffling to her that there can be something like that, but that is like a masculine element that seems to prevail for some reason.

This is a dream that’s working with time and space, but the shifting in the space doesn’t seem to be much of the issue. It’s the time aspect that’s an issue. Time works in and out of the levels and layers of the shifts, and as you have these various images, you’re able to recognize that you are not taking it all properly into account. You’re not utilizing everything that’s there for you to somehow just naturally know.

And that has something to do with the fact that once a motion is established what happens is you have an essence where everything is in a oneness, and then you have a motion that is established, and in the establishing of the motion you have kind of what is a little bit like a linear part in that you can shift, and you can monitor, and you can see that inside of yourself – these various shifts.

I mean, you symbolically portray them as if you’re shifting at different levels. But in a nonlinear aspect of yourself, almost within the warbles of it like a type of depth perception within the shifted images themselves, is like a type of catching up with the idiosyncrasies and specifics of all recorded history, of everything that is recorded that you’re meant to have at your disposal – in terms of you being a Wholeness that is all that there is.

And it’s that part that isn’t hearing all that it needs to hear, that needs to hear more. The feminine part of your nature is readily equipped to be able to find, to fumble upon, to catch up with and grasp the shifted changes that fix things, and assuage things, that can heal things in creation.

But in order to carry it all the way through into a state where there’s a total letting go so that you fall into a true emptiness or nothingness, you need to have and I’m calling it a type of depth perception because the shifted linear layers you follow almost as if you can image that inside of yourself.

But within and without all of that is information, is specifics, which is the masculine quality, and that somehow or another is not coming through. It’s there and even in your Wholeness in creation you’re noting that there is some of that that is not being taken properly into account. If you start adding all of that, almost as if it’s a depth perception that gets added to the shifted layers, that is when you start to find yourself waking up so to speak in this whole other area of yourself that is outside of time and space, which is that interval where the in-breath turns to the out-breath. That’s your true home.

But you can’t quite get there as long as there are features or aspects of things that are still eluding your recognition or acceptance. In your particular case, it’s like, why is it that this isn’t being seen, recognized, or taken in, and factored in, or worked in to your process?

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Dropping Absolutely Everything

November 27, 2012November 27, 2012 ~ d2k ~ Leave a comment

In a spiritual journey, the process of letting go of our established patterns, mannerisms, fears, or defense mechanisms is crucial to our ability to be in the flow of creation. In Jeane’s dream sequence, we see her trying to make a journey, or a shift to something new. But to make that shift, she must leave unnecessary baggage behind. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I remember one dream, and it feels like I’m going to have to travel with a couple other people, one of whom is a slender, young woman. And the way we choose to travel is that we have this animal that looks almost like a camel with a longer, flatter back, so the three of us can ride on it.

The girl particularly is kind of nervous; even the camel is not certain sometimes – whatever this animal is. At one point we get to this area where it’s almost like we have to walk over a fairly thin piece of land that even has some crevices in it, and everything has fallen away on several slides ,and there are about three segments of it.

The camel may have to get across almost with a little jump or something, and everybody is a little nervous about it, even the camel is a little nervous about getting across. So there’s all this maneuvering to kind of stay on, or maybe even one or two get off for a while to see if we’re going to make it. And then we’re going to have to get from this strange looking piece of land over to the mainland, so to speak, with a little jump.

Well, the girl, then, she’s suddenly uncertain because the outfit she’s wearing is a little short, and she’s uncertain she can actually ride this camel and get off it and look dignified because maybe she doesn’t have any underpants on or something like that. I try different things. I finally end up picking her up and carrying her, and getting the camel to kind of jump over to the other side.

Then, because I’m carrying her and I realize what her dilemma is because she wants to feel modest or whatever, I search around in my mind and it must be a time before they had invented those clothes where you have like a dress that goes over pants. I’m figuring I have to get to a village and I guess we’re going to invent that then. We are going to get her some silk pants that come down like they do in India, you know, like down to your knees or whatever that you wear under a dress, so she can feel like she can travel and things like that.

John: What’s interesting in the dream is that, because this is a dream in which you are transitioning from a place where you had been to a new place, what’s interesting about it is that you’re not doing it alone.

It’s like you have these other parts of you, and I guess you’re including these other parts of you in order to help to facilitate and make a point. And the point is that, part of making this adventure across, you have to let go of appearances in terms of whether it’s right, or not right.

It was kind of like the odd thing that I did when it was raining out and I just took half the bed with me to keep from getting wet, you know, this huge blanket and everything, putting the towel over my head, which looked probably pretty strange to someone looking at it, but whatever it was that had happened that night had taken me out of my normal demeanor, where you just don’t do that.

It was like I kind of got to a point where I just didn’t give a shit, because whatever it was that was affecting me from that dream had put me into a state or a place in which what was important was facilitating the continuation of the process and not the appearances.

Ordinarily you would be wet and you would dry out and maybe be uncomfortable or uneasy or cold or who knows what, and in this particular case, rather than have that interfere or in the way, potentially, as something that could be a distraction, I just dropped all appearances, because that was an aspect of appearances.

Well, in your transitioning or shifting across in this journey that you’re taking, you’re looking for a new set of clothes or tools, a new way, a new way of being. Of course, you’re shifting into something that’s new. It’s taking a little effort to go across, and you’re not certain of course of the vehicle or whether the vehicle is going to get you across – this strange looking camel. You’re not sure just what it is that you’re going to find over there. You’re just doing it.

You have your uncertainties as well as issues that have to do with a bit of the way you need to carry yourself or something in terms of doing this. So your dream is just like giving you a report, the report being what possibly sits there as issues in terms of this sort of transitioning.

In other words, the question about whether the camel is the right way, and this is going to be kind of difficult in some fashion, and then the appearances – are you dressed properly – are all the necessary aspects of a type of appearance mannerism. Just showing what there is that still is kind of noodling around in your nature, although you’re still doing it. In other words, these are just like the little vagaries that one carries.

Jeane: I don’t know if this was another dream, or if it was how that dream began, but I remember being in a house, and there’s at least maybe two parts that are going with me and they feel younger, and then a woman who runs the house.

And it feels as we prepare for a journey, I keep going to the kitchen, and I’m trying to go out to the Jeep we’re going to travel in, and make sure we have our food and everything else right.

Then I find out that the woman who’s in charge of the house isn’t going with us, and actually it doesn’t feel like we really wanted her to go, but we thought she was. Then we find out she’s not going, and it suddenly frees things up – like then you don’t have to go pack the Jeep in as prepared a way, I think.

You know what I mean? It’s kind of like if a parent is going sometimes they have their whole agenda and list you have to check off, but if you’re just going, let’s say the younger set, you can just grab this and that and kind of take off. So it kind of frees something up when we think we’re going, but then I think the Jeep turns into the camel.

John: This thing that you’re talking about, it’s interesting you’re able to pull it out.

Well, in this particular instance what you’re describing in your dream, is that you’re having to let go or leave behind. In other words, this is like a higher octave of the appearances. You’re having to let go and leave behind those aspects or parts of yourself that you normally feel you have to carry around with you – because they are part of you.

In other words, in order to take this step you have to let go and go into an emptiness or a nothingness where you don’t have anything that you are putting your attention upon as essentials. Normally whenever we do something we always have our essentials, whether it’s a jacket or clothes on. We always have our essentials.

Well, at the very epicenter of this journey, or shift to something new, you have to drop all of that.

And so the grandmother or whatever it is that normally comes along, in this particular instance, is not necessarily a deeper part of you, as it would usually be. It’s more like a part of you where you are caught up in ideas of responsibilities, and idiosyncrasies, that have to be taken into account before you can do any kind of shift.

In this particular case all of that has to be dropped so that you’re in an emptiness. And you can use that state of quietness, and the energy that surges there, in order to shift across. That’s what is at the basis of being able to take the step, and then your second dream takes and relates to the fact that you still now have the lower octaves of appearances and such that as you’re making the shift, that haven’t been completely let go of, still malingering with their qualms. But nevertheless apparently not so loud, and not so controlling, as to keep you from making this transition into this new space.

Jeane: Then I think right before I woke up I had a brief dream, and all I really remember about it is I seem to be at the house of some people I know that have certain leadership qualities. But they also have patterns I don’t trust at all – for good reason.

And within the house, and out in the backyard, it’s almost like they’re having a picnic or a gathering or whatever; there are people around. But there’s a point when everybody is supposed to settle and meditate, and I’ve gone over to a rock to sit there, but then I’ve also got my eye on the couple that are like the leaders. Because I feel like I have to keep my eye on him, and other things that seem to go on there, I never do seem to be able to meditate.

John: You have to put this part of the dream into the context of the two that came before. And so in the primary dream, where you went across to the other side, you still had your little nuances. And because you still carried those little nuances, you actually carried those across to the other side. But they don’t belong to the other side; they function as a kind of contaminant.

So you can’t quite own that space and, as a consequence, you still have something that you carry that is like a mannerism, and responsibility, in your way of being that hasn’t been dropped. And so you are still feeling that you have to keep your eye on this, or you have to sustain something like this. And the problem is, you don’t.

And you’re feeling, in this dream, the degree of focus and attention that this takes away from you, from another space that is also possible and is meant to be there, and you’re realizing that this is compromising that to some degree. So it’s kind of like you’re in a watching mode, of noting that as you have taken – as shown in the other dreams – and created a shift across, first you let go sufficiently enough to be able to have the emptiness to be able to be light enough in terms of what you were carrying, to be able to acceptably take the step across.

But even as you took the step across, you still carried certain appearance issues and whatnot, and certain equivocations as to whether this was quite right or not. You weren’t completely sure. And the degree to which you carried that still had an effect upon the space, in that it now manifests as having to keep your eye on something, to a type of lack of total freedom, which you could have had, had you dropped absolutely everything and made the step across.

But because you still have a little yet to have to contend with, you’re finding yourself having to factor that in, which was part of keeping your eye on this guy or something else that is going on there, and that takes away from this greater dimension inside of you, that you know is meant to be a part of the space that you’re shifting into.

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An Act of Defiance

October 5, 2012 ~ d2k ~ Leave a comment

The states of nothingness and something are explored in Jeane’s dream, where she finds herself unaffected by the state of things around her, yet something is trying to draw her back in. It points to an element of resistance on the journey toward truly letting go. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: It felt like I had one long dream last night, and in the dream it almost feels like there had been a storm the night before, and things had occurred in the town based on the storm, and that one’s trying to figure out all of what went on.

And it’s just more than what one believed happened, and maybe some things were like people were robbed or people had fallen down in the mud, so it feels like slogging through the mud the next day, uphill or slightly uphill, and it just seems to go on forever trying to sort out what happened the night before.

That’s the best I can describe the dream.

John: It’s actually a kind of letting go. You’re describing a type of letting go condition because there’s a sensation behind it where you actually don’t notice anything.

In the dream you may have still been noticing something, but then again it’s very, very close to not noticing something. In other words, you’re just able to move about and the degree to which you feel that you’re slogging through, or there’s something to persevere through, is the degree to which you’re holding your attention on to something.

But within the dream context itself, is a surprise. There seems to be a surprise in there. The surprise seems to be that you can somehow or another just drift about in things, and this can surprise you, but that isn’t how you’re perceptions think that they need to operate. So you look to see yourself as slogging along, and slogging through things, but you’re almost, on a real deep level inside yourself – not quite able to believe that.

You can see yourself slogging through things, but then again there’s a higher self, or deeper part of yourself, that can see yourself as not even being affected, or having to be affected by that. So you’re going back and forth noting the distinction, in terms of what you kind of create as an illusion, or as an issue, or as a reflection.

How you kind of support it and maintain it, and how you can kind of let go of it at the same time – that there’s a place inside that can just let go of it too. It’s an unusual condition and state to be in because it’s an overallness of your nature that just seems to be somewhere else.

In other words, not in the circumstance of creation or life, and yet at the same time the degree to which you denote your senses, or some process that’s going on with the recognition inside, is the degree to which you still see yourself slogging through things.

So it’s kind of like you’re setting up a contrast between an emptiness or a nothingness, and an aspect in which this is how a doingness still tends to be, or to look, and you’re feeling the distinction. Right?

Is there more?

Jeane: The only thing more, is it seemed like near the end of the dream, in slogging out, that there was somebody to the side that thought maybe we’d robbed something, but it feels like the robbing it’s like if you’re slogging forward maybe you picked things up or you turned leaves over or something. But I didn’t see anything as being robbed. I didn’t quite buy into that. I just saw this whole process that kept going forward.

John: It’s a strange sensation where you flicker almost in defiance to the emptiness. You flicker back to where you take on some barrier, or take on some weight, or take on some mannerism – and it’s like a type of defiance.

It’s like you know you can let go of it and yet, at the same time, can you take it back on again? It’s like a strange dare that one plays inside themselves because in the emptiness you don’t know what to do with yourself, and then in the strange dare where you can kind of, make-believe, take it on again.

This is a cute way too of taking and looking at the contrast between a deep inner awareness, overallness, and the degree to which something can have an imagined effect – and you toy with that.

It’s a condition that is almost a strange kind of peculiar defiance, a defiance to the emptiness even, or the nothingness. You presented that, and then go into the reflection or the illusion with some sort of audacity. The interesting thing about this is, as you do this, a part of you, you’re testing your nerve is what you’re really kind of doing, your nerve between the emptiness and something that is imaged, as if you’re playing with fire in terms of being thrown out.

You can test your nerve in this way where it’s like if you go into a certain density or emptiness, if you go into a certain reflection, does that then throw you out? Can you do that without being thrown out?

You can even play kind of a really strange delirium if you go into the density of some reflection again, does that then throw you out of the space of the emptiness? Does that make you unqualified and unworthy? And it’s almost as if a part of you is saying, I’m going to do this to see. I’m going to do this because I’m not going to be bound, or I’m not going to be limited. I need to do this too.

If you think about that mannerism of doing it, that’s a strange, strange way or attitude, but yet at the same time, it kind of goes along with how we are in creation. We are in creation. So, can we make it this kind of… can we sustain and be in this way, as a kind of tomfoolery?

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