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2261751Energy and matter are the two fundamental states in the universe. And each one is seeking to be the other: energy wants to become matter, and matter wants to return to energy. Is it any different for the human, who always seeks a higher connection, back into the energetic realms of its arising? And this is what our spiritual and religious paths point us to, these connections and interactions between matter and energy, but raised to a level of consciousness – which changes everything. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And that’s what my dream was like, too.

In my meditation dream, I was looking at something in life, in the outer, as a light that kind of opened up in the outer, and that I was letting go of that light that opened up in the outer. And what I was doing was I was actually, in the dream, catching up with matter, a type of matter, that was on the inner.

Now this is complete bewilderment. What was going on was the breath was being flipped. The breath was being flipped – and it didn’t matter if the breath was flipped. It really didn’t matter, although at the time, it was a sensation of complete bewilderment because I’m inclined to sense something more in light on the in-breath. And then to get the sense that there is an out-breath coming through, and yes, maybe that’s kind of so because it’s with the out-breath that you come down into things, and the thought-upon-thought is that’s a type of matter, and that was something I was trying to settle for. And I went around and around inside.

I was looking at it almost in the opposite regard way, but I was still looking at it with respect to the breath and I realized, not right away, instead I was still trying to make it make sense because I was using flip sides of the breath. I was attempting to make it make sense, and so in the meditation dream I wasn’t able to wake up with the meditation dream, and so I couldn’t come out of it because there was no resolution in that regard.

And so then I kind of went into a sleep. In other words the meditation dream was there inside, I dreamt movement around that, trying to find something, trying to make it make sense, and in trying to make it make sense I was trying to find the lightness, or why the out-breath somehow or another, as an aspect of matter, because that’s how I was looking at it, it was like the light was being given up, and that I was in a presence of light. The light was being given up, and I was trying to deal with matter. And I guess it was the flip side because I’m used to thinking that matter is the problem, and that I’m trying to deal with something more in the light.

So it was like the opposite side of the breath, flipping the breath around, just like when one does the dhikr. The Naqshbandis do it in which you release, vibrationally, in the in-breath, and the Chistis do it in the out-breath. And it was like I was getting a sensation of a visualization in the opposite way, and, in trying to view this as something that was significant and important, but it wasn’t. It wasn’t, it was just more of the same of how an illusion is perpetuated with the in-breath and the out-breath, and that this takes you outside of the stillness. But I never got it in that. In that I was in a state of bewilderment because I was still trying to make it make sense by futtering with the breath. And I got it in the dream.

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i555sWhat we see in the world around us can only tell us a fraction of the story, just as a freshly baked cake can only tell us a little about the ingredients that went into making it. But, as humans, we can connect to the energetic underpinnings of things and arrive at a much deeper level of knowing than we can get to when we only use our five senses. And, when we learn to do that, we can become a conduit for bringing new energies into the world, which can then bring about the next changes we see manifest around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So my first meditation dream is adamant about the fact that change happens from the inner, continually from the inner, and tells a long story in terms of showing how that is. And that the outer is really consequential in terms of its reflective.

And then my sleep dream proceeds to go on and show that that which is considered an inner in the outer now, or what has been in the outer now, is an inner that has been in the outer to such a degree that, in order for something to occur, it doesn’t occur with that that has been in the outer. It occurs from something completely anew again, again coming from the inner to cause that to shift and change – because it can’t change in relationship to how it has been conducting itself in the outer.

In other words, it’s almost like you could say that if it’s been conducting itself or going along in the outer for a couple thousand years, and now it still acts as if it’s got a right to turn the corner this way or that way, or drive the car this way or that way, no, when that goes, that goes as a consequence of not something emerging from the reflective. The reflective can’t do this. It will emerge from a deeper innerness.

And that is the role the masculine. The role of the feminine is to uphold that which is designed and ordained. The role of the masculine is not to sit and become so pacified that it allows injustice to continue, and continue, and continue to the point where the malaise is such that nothing appropriate or proper can transpire.

So, in the meditation dream, the metaphor for the entire energetic flow and unfoldment is represented as a chart. It shows what life is on a chart, now, and it’s a chart for a company that’s kind of like deemed to be the company of companies. It’s called Attack Resources. So I monitor, or observe, or look at the trade action of the stock, meaning I have at my disposal the key to what is going on.

The significant feature I found myself making note of is, in this imagery, is the fact that my attention was fixated upon inner price movement effects, the inner price movement effects of the stock. In the dream I had a sense of what inner meant, and what outer meant, that dwelled only upon the inner effect. I dwelled so much on the inner effect that it could be said that in this dream I paid no attention to the outer effect. I was also careful to not let any wayward thoughts interfere with the focus.

What I mean by that is thoughts in terms of other energetic action, you know like other stocks, or other possibilities, were never entertained. Consequently, I was firm in my belief that everything going on in the world was visible and knowable in terms of the goings on of this stock. By goings on what I mean is the expansive and contractive, up and down, cycle action of the company. By company I mean the universe, and the action is expansive, or contractive; in this dream that is deemed to be because of an inner into outer motion.

In other words the inner coming in is expansive, and then when it hits into the outer it becomes contractive because when you portray something reflectively it then contracts. So I’m treating the response as being a reflective response to the inner unfoldment, so I do not place my attention upon the reflective.

Significance: Although physical perceptions are outer in that the physical senses are oriented to the physical plane, I am being shown in this meditation dream that it is not the outer action which effectuates change in life or, to put it another way, the reflective outer is not where I look for change. I look just to the inner, which makes itself known by being the insightfulness and beingness unfoldment of the universe.

That is very odd. That is the name, yeah. Attack Resources. So what was also significant is that my attention was upon just one thing. By one thing what I mean is that I did not acknowledge the existence of any other energetic unfoldment. Because I used Attack Resources as the metaphor for manifestation, that is, for something that is in manifestation, so in other words that’s the result, like the energy has come through, and the reflective is what’s under attack – in terms of how it handles it. As the metaphor for manifestation, this metaphor is the one thing. Nothing else but this exists as the means, and device, for the unfoldment of inner into outer.

The meaning is, is because Attack Resources is me, the meaning of the dream is I, as a human being, am the means upon which an inner and outer rapport exists. I am the seed thought beingness for the inner into the outer evolution. So, to put it bluntly, the idea that the reflective outer has in some way a say in the process is delusional – based upon the meditation dream image.

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Here is the second dream for John from the same night, and it continues the thread of understanding our fundamental connection between our personal energies and the energies that surround us, both seen and unseen. For clarity, John uses the term “Cat” in the dream to describe a Caterpillar bulldozer. (For the prior dream, see Feeling the Vibrations.)

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John: Then I had this next dream that for all intents and purposes appears very, very dense.

In that dream it’s like I’m still going to school and I have this person that I know who’s kind of an easygoing guy who has a car. I need to go home to where my mother lives alone. I could try to find another means of transportation but it’s easier to basically catch a ride from him, of which I’m supposed to pay him a little bit to go out of his way even though he lives in the area, too, with his mother I think or family anyway. He feels like he’s all alone in that sense.

But he’s just like a good old boy. I mean, he’s just someone that I know but I don’t know how it is that I know him. I don’t know why it is that he’s a friend, he just happens to be there for convenience purposes as I seek to go home to see my mother who’s living by herself, who has put the house up for sale and there’s a For Sale sign in the yard.

And the yard has grass grown up, it needs mowing and there are weeds and bushes growing that need to be cut, saplings and stuff like, that so it’s obvious nothing is being done to care for this thing. Well, when he comes out I say, “Well this is close enough” and I get out of the car several houses away, going to walk the rest of the way.

I get up and I look at the house and you could hardly see the For Sale sign because of all the weeds or bushes and saplings that have grown up, I suddenly remember I forgot to pay him the $10 for giving me the ride. That suddenly grabs my attention more than anything else as I then go into this spin.

You know, I think I remember what his house looked like where he lives. I’d seen it once. I don’t know how to get there to where it is at. I know it’s in the neighborhood close by, and I figure I’ll recognize it when I see it, so I walk to the end of the block and I see the place that looks very similar to the place where he lives.

It has all the appearances of the outer, but I’m kind of confused because it’s all boarded up, so it must be the wrong house. I don’t have any other conclusion to draw. But then I look over and the house to the right of it is all boarded up too, and it has landscaping pushed around from a Cat [Caterpillar, i.e., bulldozer] and there’s a boulder in the yard and a bunch of dirt piled up and whatnot from pushing things around trying to reshape this or something.

For no apparent reason I walk up to get a closer look, and up over the back of the hillside from the backside of the house suddenly comes this Cat, and its driver is going pell mell in a wild frenzied way. It’s like he’s disturbed.

He glances over and he sees me. His head does a knee jerk. If I’d have expected him to be catatonic like that, I’d have easily hid, but I just stood out in the open to let him see me because I’m not doing anything wrong. I just had meandered over there out of curiosity or something.

But that’s not how he saw it, and he gets immediately livid and first he’s turning as if he’s going to try to bring the Cat up to where I’m at, but he can’t quite do that because of all that has been pushed up and whatnot, and he cycles around to cut me off.

I said, “Have I done anything wrong?” and he says, “It’s too late now.” Then I look to jump then because he’s carrying on like this, that maybe I’ve got to figure out how to get away. And he goes, “Oh what the hell,” and he reaches and he grabs a gun that he has in there, and fortunately I’m able to duck around behind the piles and whatnot, because as far as I could tell he has every intention of shooting me. Whatever it was that set him off to such a point that he can’t think straight, he’s just completely livid about taking care of me.

This was like a loud dream that I had and when I dreamt this I couldn’t figure out what it meant. It’s one of the first times I’ve written a dream down from start to finish and not a clue as to what it means.

Then I started to play with the dynamics of what is going on in this dream, and I had to also look at the theme, which is a very complicated and deepened theme because we have suddenly been shifted to having to recognize that we’re intertwined with the vibrations around us, not with things in an animate way.

In other words, it’s a very slight thing. I mean, it’s kind of stupid that one didn’t think of it this way from the very beginning, that you are entwined with the vibrations around you, the physical objects are lifeless, they’re empty, they’re dormant, they have no aliveness whatsoever. It’s the energetic that you are entwined with.

And perhaps that’s what is bugging you too, in your dream, is that you have to drop this appearance of things and realize that where you’re intertwined, where your attention needs to come to a kind of understanding for shift purposes, is that you encompass the vibrations in life around you and that the physical conditions have nothing to do with anything at all (see Who Are You? and Something’s Missing).

What is alive is those vibrations in the environment and you’re affected by those. That subtle shift is probably very, very important because when you see the things that are going on, some of the craziness that has happened here in the building and all of that, those are all vibrational things that have happened.

The night before I actually could get behind the mentality of why this guy did what he did (see Tearing the Threads). It’s like he’s not able to become comfortable with himself because he’s ranting over certain trends that are going on that bug him.

What he’s not doing is sorting this out from the standpoint of the whole. He’s just sorting it out in terms of his depth of vision and thinking that he has certain entitlements and, in that regard, his actions and his conduct, because he has got this personal selfish motif, his actions and his conduct are hard to understand, are peculiar because he’s coming from this hierarchical, very self -centered image.

That strikes me as bizarre because I’ve never seen anyone look at their surroundings with so much black-and-white attention upon themselves, and not recognizing how it is that one correlates and is correlated to others.

So, what I did was in terms of understanding what it was that made him tick, I understood that through the energetic. I suddenly saw the energetic and how that energetic was because I caught up with how that intertwines. So I have that as a part or component inside of myself upon which I can come close to, to see things.

So then when the dreams last night hit, it was like no more trying to look at peculiarities in the outer, more into realizing that that has nothing to do with anything, that there is the vibration behind that on the inner that is meaningful and you are intertwined with that vibration.

That’s what you are, that’s who you are, that’s how you are, and that you shift to take that in. You let go of the outer appearances and nuances – that only keeps you in a trance – and you look at the vibrational effect of how things are around you and when you do that you find your identity. And doing that enables you to make the shift.

In my particular case it brings out that which is hidden, because when I go home it’s like I haven’t been there forever. And then when I try to take care of some sort of other attendant detail that’s more important than visiting my mother who is trying to sell the house and who knows where she’s going to go to next, it’s almost like does she have a reason to live anymore to be selling the house, and then I place my attention in terms of that can wait as I have to make sure that this person who gave me the ride is properly compensated that I paid my dues and debts.

Instead I seem to run across a renegade raw energy, masculine energy, that’s just livid over something that I’ve apparently done that I don’t even know what I’ve done. I mean, he takes and gets one look at me and he just goes ballistic as I’m just standing out in the open completely in a trance, have no idea.

So livid that he comes directly after me and all of this is in a sequence in which something has been missed energetically because the physical objects around there are… well, the house that my friend probably lived in that would be his home it’s almost like in this dream there is no consequence of time. That’s all boarded up.

I think I’ve made a mistake but maybe not. In other words, identification with physical objects have taken me outside. What your dream indicated was the shift that’s necessary into which one makes this shift. The shift is actually a shift into a recognition of energy and energies that one wasn’t recognizing because they were looking at the house, the appearances of the situation as opposed to the energetics of the situation.

It’s a subtle shift in terms of who you are, recognizing who you are. In my case I can’t recognize who I am because I’m still looking trying to find something specific. I’m still looking at the images per se but not really seeing something more behind it.

In other words, what really is going on with my mother, what really is going on with my friend who also I think is going to visit his mother or something? Is there a responsibility that I’m dropping or losing, causing then something to fall apart in relationship to the mother?

Well, quite likely, on an energetic level, especially if I’m not catching the memo of something in terms of a sight that is infuriating the masculine because I should just automatically know this stuff. In a roundabout way I do know that it’s all energetic, but I guess I still don’t quite fully believe that or something. The fact that I’m looking at appearances, and letting the appearances block out the energetic, and therefore in the flow of the energetic, the energetic, the vibrations are everything, there is no such thing as time.

But in the appearances there’s all kinds of time. I mean you could be standing there looking at something thousands of years old all of a sudden when it wasn’t thousands of years old. The gap is one of being vibrationally disconcerted or not connected or intertwined.

How can you shift if you don’t get it, if you don’t recognize that that’s the place, that’s the place, and you can’t shift as long as you have your identity haywire.

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