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flow-of-time

James Alan Smith

The flow is always available to us, yet it is always moving on. If we lose our connection, it moves on without us. That means we have to realign ourselves and reconnect – to where it has moved to, not to where we last were. That’s the nature of the real reality: it’s constantly evolving forward whether we are with it or not. Can we, as individuals, afford to be left behind? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The next dream points out just how far off one really is in terms of doing this process. I mean, you tend to see yourself as having experiences and certain realizations, and so you’re inclined to think that you’re making headway. But in the next dream it shows that our idea of what the flow and the naturalness is, if we really, really were to denote how it is, we are really way, way off, and that we are constantly blowing it, and blowing it in ways that we can’t make it back up. It’s like there’s just too much in life to be able to make things up where you miss something.

So, in this dream, I’m taking a dance class. To begin with I’m able to kind of limp along, and kind of fake it, because I realize I’m just not getting something. In fact, I am so bad at it that I realize that when I look at others, especially those that seem to be doing just fine, and they can do it effortlessly, I realize that my struggle of not getting it stands out, as far as I could see. It bugs me, it bothers me, but I still have hopes of squeaking through in the class. In other words, if I just keep doing it and whatnot maybe I’ll get my D-minus or something, you know, be passed more or less but, not really have mastered or caught up with anything.

And this is a class that is graded. It counts for two credits at the university I’m at. I hate it, and I’m so sensationally thrown off by it that I skip a class, purposely skip a class, as if, you know, at least I don’t have to subject myself to the misery now – for at least this time. But I didn’t take into account that upon having skipped a class, now I’m really out of it, and there’s no way I can catch up. There’s no way I can really go back.

So the dream ends with me observing the class off to one side, towards the end of the class, and I’m noticing that those who I had admired before, that were able to do things kind of naturally, and fluidly, and effortlessly, have now been put into positions by the teacher in which they direct and even lead others. And so there’s a wonderful flow to it all, in other words, instead of it all just being one awkward collage, that it has a whole quality to it that undulates with different ones able to do other things with the class. It looks really good, in terms of what they are doing.

It’s at that point that I realize that, for me, it is hopeless and that I am going to get an F. I’m wondering if this will keep me from graduating. Usually you have to have a passing grade in everything to graduate. I wake up dreading the fact that I am going to have to make this up, which means take it over, to graduate, something I hate to do because I passed at it the first time.

And the meaning is, the earlier dream set the theme. It indicated I had to adhere to an inner into outer connection as part of the Tariqa, meaning the flow, or the process, or path that I’m on, and in that dream that is what I saw as having unfolded. And I had, as the dream indicated, a certain natural way that I seemed to observe it. And maybe I was even in that dream thinking I was doing better than I was, because in this dream I notice if you fail to stick to, or catch anything, miss something of importance, or when you drop off when things get difficult that that puts you in a process of experiencing and miserableness, on a sensation level, that is equivalent of the vibration of blowing it.

And, in the end, you realize that if you had probably stuck it out you may have gotten by although it wouldn’t have been pretty. So in the end in I notice that those who got it, and found their naturalness, turned out to be very inspirational and directive and added to the whole beauty of the whole process of flow, in terms of themselves and others. I was impressed to see this, and in seeing this realized that the teacher had seen this all along – because when I was blowing it and whatnot I acted like I was able to kind of hide behind the radar screen, but you don’t hide behind anything.

So in the first dream, as hard as it is to find what is natural in the unfoldment in life in the outer world, I am seeing that I have a natural linkage to the understanding that the unfoldment is inner into outer.

In the second dream, I’m unable to take anything for granted, lucky to be barely getting by. The miserableness of the struggle is accentuated. Again, this is a flow of something that you have to catch from within in order to do it, you can’t just memorize certain actions because dancing involves a flow. It may have some set principles that you start with, but then they have to fall into the flow.

In this dream I realize that checking out from a key element of the unfoldment process is something I am unable to make up. In other words, I can’t just suddenly get it by osmosis. In other words, I can’t skip one week or whatever and so I fall away from the process, which means when you fall away you’re going to have to do it again.

Such a dream can’t help but cause me to wonder to what degree is that happening now, and in ways that I am not getting it? The dream is also designed to cause me to wonder what it is in the outer that I am doing which points this out. I say this because when a person is relating to the outer in a way that isn’t working out for them, in terms of an unfoldment, that the outer points back to some inner flow natural awareness that is a bit askew. Like they say, as above so below.

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