Posts Tagged ‘feminine principle of upholding the overall’

pulled-in-all-directions-megan-bell-honigmanOur dream today echoes much of the reality of daily life, i.e., in it Jeane feels pulled in all directions at a chaotic family gathering. Is this just a reflection of the pressures of holiday time? Not really. The symbolism behind the images points out that, as we develop on our spiritual journey, we have to take on more and more of the natural Wholeness of things. Until we are able to embrace this Wholeness, within, we will feel the tug of aspects of our identity that aren’t quite ready to let go.

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Jeane: One dream I’m at my dad’s house, and there are a lot of people there. The people in the house, it’s almost like they’re trying to get a meal together. My niece is there, a lot of different people.

I seem to be sleeping out in the yard, near the hillside, and maybe one of my nephews is sleeping out there too, or great nephews, it’s someone younger, in the same area but not in the same bed.

I remember at one point I leave the house. I’m trying to get the food together and I’ve gone out and I’ve gotten some food, but I’m a little worried that I’ve got cookies but they don’t have nuts in them or something. But I’ve taken that food in and then I’ve gone out to check on my bed.

Well, for some reason a bunch of twigs have fallen on my bed, and there’s a little hole in the hillside next to my bed where it’s almost like a little, I don’t know, something about the size of a doghouse, except it’s just dug out of the hillside.

I look at that because I want to make sure there are no snakes in there. Then I push some of the twigs off my bed – that looks a little suspicious, too. There are all these twigs and leaves on my bed, but I don’t seem to knock them off the bed, I just move them around a little to make sure they’re okay, because there are covers under that, so I don’t seem to be bothered by that.

Then I go back in the house because I’m still checking on whether people have food. I mean, it’s just really crowded with people. Then I’m going to go downtown and that’s kind of like a shift in the dream.

John: So the purpose of the dream, the energetic purpose of the dream, is that as you’re watching yourself dream this, you notice that your attention is going this direction and that direction, as you’re having to cook something, or you’re having to do this, and you’re having to relate to a lot of people.

In other words, some part of this dream, with all of the activity of you having to move around in it and deal with all the people that are there, and all of that, some aspect of that rubbed an energetic off on you that left you overwhelmed. An image of your bed was a way of coming back and trying to go back into a consecration of the energy so that it isn’t all over the place.

The purpose of dreaming something like this was to get you to recognize and identify that, as you take on a greater beingness as part of a Whole of yourself in life, you have the challenge of figuring out how to do that without losing boundary control, if you know you’re taking and dealing with a big party and all these people and whatnot.

At some particular point, if you felt the vibration of that, it kind of estranged you from how you would like to feel yourself, and it can create even a type of frustration; you know that you’re not necessarily being true to how you need to be. In that frustration you can go and, in terms of trying to redirect it, it’s like the twigs, and a cave or something on your bed?

You’re trying to find some sort of order. Twigs actually can represent how something is every which way, but the fact that it is on your bed and whatnot, it’s like you’re pulling it back together so that it doesn’t leave you, like in the main part of the dream, having all of these people milling around and you’re having to do this, that, or the other in terms of a responsibility and obligation amongst all these people. If you look at yourself, it rubs off on you.

In other words, something gets taken away from how it is that you’re able to be. You lose a concreteness inside you. And the other image is trying to go back, noticing that things or twigs or everything is destroying and whatnot, and trying to pull it back together into a focus.

Only the difference in a dream like that for you, versus a dream like that for me, is you have to accommodate it in relationship to a greater Whole that you’re able to connect and tie into.

In other words, all of it has to be absorbed as an overall cadence that’s in your world. When you can do that, is when you can actually then start to have a meaningful effect in terms of touching things, because that’s when you will have developed a greater Wholeness to it all.

The dream isn’t going there necessarily showing you that you do that sort of thing. The dream at this particular point is getting you to realize and identify how it is that you’re being affected by your environment, and that you need to exercise a kind of discipline and take yourself out of that in order to be true to yourself.


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Jeane: My dream seems to have been affected by my concern about my father, and whether he should go to see the doctor or not.

How that’s represented is that I seem to be in a different country, and I’m down in a coal mine with you and someone else.

Someone has taken a certain feminine energy and brought it into another part of the mine. I don’t know the best way to get the energy back. I’m wondering whether we should pursue it right now, or whether we should wait for it to come back, or whether we should get help with retrieving it.

I waver back and forth between these options. I don’t feel like I come to any conclusion about it.

John: First of all, the image places you in a foreign country, and in a coal mine. So right away we see that you’re out of your element, i.e., you’re not on your “home” turf.

A coal mine is also something that’s against a naturalness – it’s digging down below the surface, disturbing the bowels of the earth. So this image shows that you’re seeking to make decisions about how to handle this process, but you find yourself out of your depth.

The problem is, you can’t accept something on one level, and then seek to control it on another level. The bigger question becomes: Does the feminine have a right to micromanage something, when creation itself doesn’t?

The feminine, and her understanding within creation, has certain aspects of the masculine in her nature, so it’s easy for her to go off and think that she needs to micromanage or attempt to control something. Yet to do so is to narrow down the overallness that she naturally can hold in her being.

The feminine should not be doing that. She needs to leave things alone and allow them to be free. This goes along with the principle that the feminine has to know how to let something die. In other words, she needs the perspective to recognize what best serves the need of the greater overall.

If the feminine imposes her will upon something, she can stifle it, and, of course, your dream is indicating the ludicrousness of trying to do that. You’re already in a coal mine, so in one regard you’re accepting of something that’s an unnatural situation. At the same time, you’re rejecting something else, i.e., you feel something must be done to return the feminine energy. Digging a coal mine affects the wholeness of creation, yet the wholeness of creation is affected all the time as a part of the learning and evolving process.

The earth renders itself up in support of the human, so we can grow and learn. Animals, too, play a role in enabling the human to find its way. The feminine can’t then come in and make clearcut decisions about things because that would be overstepping her bounds, which is to uphold the overall. In other words, it would be attempting to dictate how that overall should be. That desire, which historically has been carried to an extreme by the masculine, is what gets us into trouble.

If everything is left to its own devices, it will find its natural course. We have to trust that. We have to know that. Of course it’s hard to know that in the face of circumstances where the power of what exists is so entrenched. But who are we to try to level the playing field on behalf of creation? That’s like putting ourselves forward as having some sort of superior consciousness, like a god.

In your dream you find yourself in a coal mine, and now the best thing to do is to just accept where you are and know how to let go. But instead you see yourself wanting to catch up with some aspect of your deeper feminine nature, in order to have a say about what takes place there. Some part of you thinks that by going to a greater depth inside, you’re going to know; but you can never really know.

This reminds me of the old story of the Zen master who’s approached by a woman from the village. She tells him her son got a horse, and asks “Isn’t that great?” The Zen master says, “We’ll see.” A few months later the woman returns and says, “My son fell off the horse and broke his leg – isn’t that terrible?” The Zen master says, “We’ll see.”

Then war breaks out between the villages, and all the men go to battle. The young man can’t go because of his broken leg. The woman rushes to tell the Zen master of this good fortune, and, of course, he says, “We’ll see.”

Basically this illustrates that we don’t have a broad enough perspective to truly know what’s good or bad. If we’re really conscious and neutral about events in life, we’ll just say, “I don’t know.” We have to wait and see, i.e., not be personally invested in the outcome, because it’s all part of a greater evolution. 

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