Posts Tagged ‘following your intuition’

John: In this next dream there is a woman who is having an effect upon a particular place, and that effect comes from an inner quality of her being. Something about the place seems to accommodate her nature. She is soothed by it, yet at the same time unable to consciously live in it.

Said another way, she lives an aspect of it on the surface, but she doesn’t live it at the greater depth that is possible.

In my sleep I find myself pondering this situation. I’m wondering why this quality is only coming into view indirectly – subtly visible but still behind the surface? This subtle essence is making itself known from time to time as a quality of peacefulness that the space holds. 

When I picture this inner quality, as I pause, I see it as being one step behind. And, for the most part, out of the equation. In other words, it’s there but not fully alive or awakened. 

The meaning here is that there’s a change that needs to be noted and appreciated by me, as a way of being. I need to acknowledge it and take it into my psyche in an experiential way. Maybe that’s all it needs – to be recognized and acknowledged.

In this next dream I see myself come into a courtyard area. The building that it’s a part of is bigger than a normal house, and this courtyard is connected to it. I’ve come from an inner area into an outer area, and I have an idea of what it is that I’ve come to do, but I’m not able to hold onto what that is, to sustain it. 

It seems that my senses are caught by a fragrance that emanates from inside the ancient building, into the courtyard. I note it, but I’m not taking it in. There’s something about the way the fragrance affects me; I go off to one side and fall asleep. 

I lose track of what had been an inner acuity (the fragrance) when inside the building (which is part of me), and relapse into amnesia, then fall asleep. In other words, I’m unable to bring this essence from the inner (building) into the outer (shown as the courtyard) with consciousness.

I see myself in the far corner of the courtyard, totally checked out and unable to know and experience this essence because I’ve gone to sleep. 

Of course, this is yet another dream that portrays how I’m easily led astray, even after having been on the right track. This shows how I lose track of where I am in life. What is added to this idea is the potential to maintain a sense of whether something is right or not in terms of how it needs to be. To do that, I need to be able to hear it in the empty space. Or, not fall asleep from the fragrance.

So what has been an ancient setness in the inner, leads to a quality that has awakened. This quality has awakened to a point where it can sense whether something is the next right step to take or not – as a knowingness.

I’ve always wondered about that potential because I feel it inside me – of getting to a point where I just naturally know what’s going to happen and it can keep me from making mistakes. Not that I know precisely what’s going to happen, but I can feel intuitively whether it’s the right thing or not.

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John: In considering your dream from yesterday (see Crime and Punishment), we see you in a time period from the past, when wrongs, according to the culture of the time, were immediately evaluated and addressed. The punishment to be meted out is instant.

Your image in the dream has caused some offense and is going to be punished. The soldiers and elders are in agreement. So your offense is shown to you as an affront to ancient ways and understandings.

We all have this in us: a sense of right and wrong according to an ancient, inner knowing. However, the reaction you have is to escape from this punishment because it could be damaging. What you are realizing is that you have your own inner barometer of right and wrong, and you can address the issue without outside punishment.

So, something has been presented to you, and you are all the players in your dream, the young girl, the soldiers, and the women elders. Your offense, when seen and understood by you, according to this ancient wisdom that is an innate knowing, is a wonderful quality if applied in a way that hits the right note and causes things to go “poof.”

In order to focus and channel this ancient knowing better, you have to look at the patterns in relation to your action in your outer life; the parts of you that have patterns and mannerisms acquired in life that limit and confine. Those are just veils that hinder your ability to flow freely.

It’s actually a technique of sight. Your patterns are energetic echoes that turn your attention back to the past – they capture your attention and you can become transfixed by them. In other words, you become compelled to see through the lens of those patterns, and you can’t see anything else. 

Well, in this ancient vibration is the understanding of how something makes sense on an intuitive level. In following your intuitive knowings you are able to take on something, or have an interest in something, to such a degree that you merge with it, so to speak, and can connect with all the traits, qualities, or aspects of that particular flow and direction.

In time, you will come to know that intuitive feeling so well, that you will immediately recognize when you disconnect from it. You’ll develop clarity in terms of when something feels right or it doesn’t. Then it’s a matter of trusting that feeling more and more.

Whenever you go off on an extreme – any emotional outplay – there is always a part of you that can tell whether it’s right or not, in terms of how it feels to the heart. And in terms of how it feels as a quality of a space. So when you recognize other patterns and mannerisms, you’ll be able to tell whether that space feels right or not.

This acuity, or clarity, comes from this ancient quality or characteristic in us all. It’s also said to come from the energetics in life that also are ancient and permanent in a certain way. For example, whales and elephants are said to carry ancient memories that go back in time. A rock carries memory that goes way, way back. It holds it in place, so even though it’s really slow and condensed, it does carry something. It too has an aliveness that’s ancient.

Humans today are constantly compelled, through the culture and education, to search in ourselves for solutions from our past – to the way we handled an event or emotion 20 or 30 years ago. Those become the set patterns of our life that we constantly replay. We have become frozen in this, just as Lot’s wife, in the Bible, was turned into a pillar of salt because she looked back toward what she was leaving behind, rather than holding her focus on what was ahead and the possibilities of the future.

The difference between one state and the other is a difference in vibration. You, personally, are very well rehearsed in understanding things on an intuitive, vibratory, “how it feels” level. This dream seems to be reminding you of this.

In other words, it’s like that frozen state has to be jarred awake so that in the motion of that coming awake you can sense what fits in the space or doesn’t fit in the space.

It’s an unusual dream. It’s a dream that shows that somewhere deep inside you have an intuitive knowing of whether something is right or not – but on the level of human purpose, not according to man-made society.

When events arise in our lives that cause us to detour from our ancient, instinctual knowings, we lock ourselves in. It’s a form of personal involvement. It’s a setness. We even say someone is “set in their ways.” It’s like being frozen in time – in the past.

Setness carried to an extreme is like the rock having to wait and wait until it’s freed to know motion, a flow that it didn’t have before. Like you, when you break free from the setness of your patterns, it unlocks its aliveness, it awakens something that’s meant to be part of the flow of life, but that had been inhibited or prevented.

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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

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