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0162adWe’ve all had those moments when we are in the flow of whatever it is we are doing, and suddenly we become conscious of that flow, or our ego flares because of our well being, and we totally lose the connection. It seems an imperceptible shift, yet everything changes. We go from being and doing, in the moment, to trying to be and do. In other words, we get in our own way and limit our possibility. In development, we seek to let go in a way that keeps us connected to the flow, thereby giving us the best potential outcome for any situation. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the meditation dream I have seems to catch up with this kind of slowly, in that I’m beginning to realize that I have to access, vibrationally, a spatiality that is not in the collective consciousness of life.

I mean, this is a little bit like yesterday where I got the first download on this, in which anything that is perceivable has a recognizable reality. And when it is something that is perceivable, then it can’t make much headway.

So, in this dream, it’s like there’s a big football field. And the other team kicks off the ball, and I go in between. I’m supposed to be a blocker that’s supposed to, as they kick to whoever catches the ball on my end, I’m like supposedly a blocker to enable my person to somehow come down the field as best they can.

They kick the ball and it goes to a woman. I turn my back and, as I turn my back, I suddenly could see behind myself all of the areas that are dead spots, that if you can hit those dead spots you’re not going to get tackled. So I turn and I see the woman who’s caught the ball, and I see the fear in her eyes, and I realize: this is the last play, and if we don’t get a touchdown on a runback, it’s hopeless. And yet I can feel all that. I can feel the dead spots with my back turned to it – not indulging in it.

So I go up to her, and she’s glad to hand me the ball, and then I turn around. And, as I turn around, now I’m taking into account the running rushers – and that’s a problem. Before I just could see the blind spots. And so now I’m trying to use my athleticism to race around the end and whatnot, and then I wake up.

And I realize that, somehow or another, in reevaluating and looking at what took place, I had gotten into a set pattern again – just like you and your wallpaper had a certain set pattern, Joan Rivers’ mannerism. And so when I turned around and then started to try to make things happen, in the way that you are able to kind of think that you make things happen, I couldn’t do it.

I couldn’t, in other words, hit this Michael Jordan zone, as he used to hit in basketball, whereby everything just parted. Instead, I was taking into account everything about what was in front of me, and I was going to get tackled as a consequence, because I was still now trying to function with the same mindset that was in front of me – and you have to learn to just let go of it.

And so, the meaning is, a couple days ago I learned that as long as I had a bias, between right and wrong, I undermine the letting go flow. And then, yesterday, I saw an inner vibratory reality that shifted through the collective nuances about things.

This was a sight that I knew, like an inner light inside, because it wasn’t present in the outer, that I knew was faster than a set-and-defined outer. What I saw was not visible in the outer. I mean it was visible to me in the inner, but the outer was relating to things differently, in a more set and established way. And so it was like an energetic, and because it wasn’t visible in the outer but something I could see in the inner, it was like a type of substance, because if you could bring it through then it could affect the outer. If you could shift something in manifestation, if you could affect something in manifestation, then you were obviously playing with a secret substance that could do that sort of thing.

In other words, you weren’t limited by something; this intangible could affect the tangible. So, in this dream, if I get out of trying to finesse, or cope, with projections, I can know naturally where the empty space is at. When I just hold that space within, I can get it. When I turn and try to use this as if it’s a type of consciousness that you can grab a hold of, that’s when I’m set up to fail again. In other words, that’s when I fall back into the outer dynamics.

The meditation dream last night is telling me that to go beyond collective conditioning in life I must let go of my outer sense projections that we function with, you know, because we’re constantly thinking we’re in a bifurcated world. That is impossible to let go because, when you see limitations, you are in limitations, instead of an intertwining. And thus there will be definitions, and those definitions will keep you lost.

So I can reach beyond limitations when I place my inner beingness into an intangible vibratory state that I have no need to control. If I see it, and I focus upon it, in other words, you’re trying to do some sort of control and whatnot, you contaminate it. But if you’re able to simply access the vibration, and nothing more, and hold to just that, you won’t be setting up resistances because you wont be trying to perceive things this way, and that way. And, thus, you’ll leave the heart free to be in the overallness, without any stigmatic fetters, or spells, from the outer and its collective. That’s the meditation dream.

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WavyEvery so often we experience a moment where we haven’t done something yet, but we can still see the outcome – as if it is a foregone conclusion. This is the sense of being in the flow. When it happens to us we may not know why, or how, it happened, but it feels like something else was in charge and we were just following along. On our spiritual journey, this is the type of flow that we can experience and align ourselves with, so that we are not fighting the unfolding of events, but rather riding along with them as they unfold. When we become conscious of this, we can begin to be with this flow more and more often. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream I am looking, from within, at an awareness that does not exist from the perspective of the outer. The reason it is like this is because, as I become more conscious, the barrier between inner and outer becomes less and less. It becomes less and less. I’m aware of it, but I haven’t pulled it into the outer. Yet I’m aware that it is affecting the outer, which is a big step. It’s more than just saying the inner and the outer come together. It’s a big step; I’m actually having a sense of the effect.

So, in my dream, I’m looking at a time when I will catch up with the deeper inner knowingness that exists in my deep sleep. The sense I have, of something to come, is from this inner plane that is outside of a kind of time and space orientation that is what you deal with in the outer.

So what is interesting, in my dream, is I found that I know about what is going on now, that somehow deep inside I know what is going on now, but when I see it from deep inside I’m not appalled. But when I see it in the outer, I might be. So I am able to accept what I see, and be okay when I open my eyes, because the inner and outer make sense in terms of what I perceive as unfolding.

What I’m saying is, I had a dream in which I took in an inner unfoldment awareness that, to some greater and greater degree, makes sense for me when I open my eyes. In other words, the degree to which I’m catching up with this innerness. I saw myself at a point, from an inner awareness coming into the outer, that I could work with the innerness.

I’m able to do this because I know what is to be, on a vibrational level, and thus go into such a vibration with a greater and greater inner into outer ease. Or, in other words, I should say bring the vibration from the inner into the outer. Basically they’re one and the same because everything is vibration, even though it appears dense as a time and space kind of appearance or mannerism.

So this is becoming a knowingness that is attuned to a play within, as if I am in a football game and am able to design the last play to accommodate the vibration. In other words, that image was, it’s like the end of the game. Everything is kind of hopeless. You have one play, just like if you’re watching a football game and the ball’s kicked off, and there’s six seconds left, and the game’s basically over; what can you do in six seconds when you catch the ball? And what you can do is you don’t try to run it back, you save the six seconds, and you have one play. And so you have one play and you’ve got to go the length of the field.

How do you go the length of the field? You have to have a certain vibration, that you can get into, that can will it to be – that can just make that happen. And so I’m looking and seeing how that vibration can be.

I’m designing and sensing the vibration that can make all of that Hail-Maryism possible. Isn’t that interesting? That’s what actually separates a good player from… you have two good players, but that’s the intangible. They can be equally good, but some can just will something in.

So anyway that’s what this image is: how you do this. Or, to put it another way, from a vibrational knowingness of the within, I am able to accommodate how I am in the outer from there to here, or however you’d say that.

So I’m not sure if the meaning makes much sense because I was in such a groggy space with this meditation dream. The inner and the outer are vibrationally intertwined, and I am able to see how this is, and let the unfoldment flow. When I am reactive, and distraught, it’s because I am not in conjunction with the unfoldment.

What I am finding to be interesting is the flow may be better accommodated, timing wise, if I access the inner into outer, and adjust accordingly. I may sense it, but can I do it?Or am I always to some degree on the fritz? If a violation of the process exists, my heart will suffer because I am not functioning in conjunction to the unfoldment process of the whole.

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5Funny thing about a spiritual journey: we are both the problem and the solution. We are the problem because the psychologies and identity issues we have developed – by being born into a world detached from human purpose – prevent us from being our natural selves. And we are the solution because the totality of our design wants us to respond to our purpose. There are many paths and ways to do this, but those are just pointers along a path that each person will have to pioneer for themselves, because we all have different hurdles to overcome. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream I went through a process in which the effect of that process within causes one to reach this kind of letting go, or inability to indulge, like I am accustomed, or had been accustomed, to doing in the past. And, as a result, my time is more freed up because I am not so construed to contending with outer features and factors – as if they have some sort of control, or ownership, or effect over my state of being.

They’re there, but I’m not sure just what to make out of them anymore, especially in relationship to the fact, in a certain confusing way, where once upon a time that sort of thing would have held me in its grip, or in a kind of trance. And so I have a dream in which it portrays things like what you were doing in terms of a demeanor that I have towards what there is, that is somehow or another a demeanor of a type of letting go that has me somewhat surprised.

But before having this dream I had the meditation dream and, in the process of the meditation dream, it was as if I was catching up with the whole idea of what it’s like to let go, and how the letting go opens something up and is what is important in terms of awakening.

So there’s a number of steps that I seem to go through in order to kind of fall into this space, this inner expansive, or letting go, space.

So in the meditation dream I start with an image of being able to look, from above, down upon a playing field; and there’s a game going on. It’s like a football game or something. Two sides are going at it, and each side has to factor in the presence of something that is holding its attention or, in other words, an obstructive aspect.

So that’s the dynamic. It starts off not yet coming fully down into life, able to look down at something and see that there’s this whole thing going on, all having to do with something, and of course, if you were to ponder what it’s all having to do with, you’d ponder it from the standpoint of, well, I guess it’s the football and they’re going at it this way and that way in order to move this obstructive object around, or aspect, which is the football.

And then the image shifts, and there is a progressing to a state of being in which the free flow comes real close. And to come real close, then I come into the dynamic of being the obstructive object that is used as the principle object of the game. So now I am the football.

And then the whole thing shifts, the access shifts, again and what I do is with the slightest little affect, in other words, in this shift I have to be careful of the slightest little effect because it can throw things out of a balance, and could cause an indulgence.

And so I find myself having to transform that somehow or another in the outer, so that as the football is in relationship to the whole playing field, and I have this closeness, that you don’t have this whole intensity there that causes misconstruances of attention that go this way, or that way, and break up a continuity.

So what is going on is I am seeing what it is like to be in manifestation, having to live under set rules of engagement, that must be put off. They have to be set aside in order for the players of the game of manifestation to get over some outer effect that would predominate over their attention.

And so then in the next aspect of awakening, it’s as if whatever that was that had one indulgence, there’s a letting go and I am deemed to be the aspect itself, that is in play on the field, causing a back and forth dynamic. And then finally a suspense is able to be lifted, and the challenge transcended, as I am able to shift from that inner effect with ease, and affect, in the outer, an unfoldment process.

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