Posts Tagged ‘free flow in a dream’

R984We’ve seen many sci-fi movie scenarios where an Earthling finds themselves on another planet – and what do they do? They observe, they study, they try to figure out the meanings of things. But, as a rule, they don’t get personally involved, or think that it is about them. So how is that different to our situation? We find ourselves born on a planet hurtling through space, and we are meant to study, observe, and learn what we can, but we are not meant to get personally involved. Why? Because in a 1000 years, everything we know will be proven wrong, and everything that seemed to matter won’t matter at all. That’s why the spiritual path is important: it offers a way to become part of the things that will still matter in a million years. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The last dream I remember I ran into an old friend of mine who kayaks a lot and I want to go out kayaking with him, at night, and he wants to spend the night with me. Usually we’ve just been friends, but it feels like in the dreamworld maybe we’ve had a relationship where occasionally we’d spend the night together.

Well, we go out kayaking, and then we seem to come to an area where I run into a woman I know and she’s been learning some dance, a rather complicated dance, from an aboriginal of some kind. And so I’m studying the dance because it requires her to kind of squat down, and get flipped over, real primitive dance, but she seems to be able to do it. And I’m interested in it, and maybe meeting the person that was showing her the dance – although I’m not sure I can do the dance.

And while I’m doing all this and the three of us are together, I realize that I think he makes love with her, and I realize that when he makes love with her there’s this thin stripe of color. It might be like a thin stripe of green, with maybe a pale white that goes down the middle, that would represent that. But if he were to make love with me it would be a different color, and maybe with other people there’s a different color yet that each thing represents.

So I’m kind of interested in that. And we’ve gone to her house. It feels like they’ve gone to bed. I’ve gone to explore the dancing, or I’ve come back to her bedroom. I think her stepmom, who has a room next door, comes into the room, so meanwhile our friend is hidden under the blanket, but the stepmother discovers him but she doesn’t seem to mind. She’s explaining why she doesn’t mind.  And that’s all I remember of the dream. It was just an odd little dream where I was studying trying to see these different colors and the dance.

John: The theme behind the dreaming, as a general subject matter, is that of atmosphere. Now what I mean by atmosphere is you’re having to feel what it’s like under different scenarios, and so you’re not actually contending with things anymore. You’re more recognizing the characteristics, and mannerisms, in the environment that you’re in, which means that a part of you is free.

In other words, you’re able to travel, or to move about, as opposed to being overwhelmed or contending with something specific that you have to burn off as a dross. Now, it’s not entirely true, because in the watching you’re still pondering these different colors of which the effect of a particular mannerism upon you would have a certain way in which you would correlate, and relate, and be brought into having to contend with life. But this is more your way, actually, of understanding a freedom.

And you could take all of these traits and you could say, okay, on one hand is the trait of something that is looking for something, that feels that it’s missing something, and so it doesn’t know what it’s looking for and so it settles. It finds itself ending up going from this to that, settling for this or that, always looking but never really finding the pure light, or what it is that it really needs.

And then there’s another part that takes and conducts itself with a certain free flow, and in this whole thing, you know, you’re kayaking which means you’re on a path, or on a journey, and to you these are things that are perceivable along the journey. In other words, there’s another friend that you run into that has a free flow, that dance. It has a throwback memory in terms of how it is to just let things flow, or hang out.

And so you have these two extremes in yourself and, technically, you’re somewhere in-between – and you’re not sure if you should be in-between. In other words, you’re able to watch and see that something which is free tends to sometimes then get caught up by something that is needy, and what that tends to look like in terms of the effect that rubs off, and you’re starting to see that there is this kind of vibrational world, or reality, and it’s a reality in which one’s relatability is color-oriented.

You have the lower chakra colors and the higher chakra colors, and they all contain information, and within the information is a certain way of functioning, and relating. And you’re able to denote that if you were to appease yourself of that particular need of this other, that it would have another particular aspect effect, definitional quality of light effect, upon you.

And so you’re coming to know, and you’re coming to recognize, being kind of as a traveler, rather than taking on specific identifications, you’re coming to know that it is in the traveling that everything is important, what is important is important. In other words, a beingness in any particular way has its limitations. Sure, there’s the part that can do the sophisticated dance that hearkens back to the aboriginal and an ancient memory and whatnot, but that still is trying to hold onto something – but it’s freer.

And this relates to the part of what you see in life, the part of one’s self that has a deeper, inner knowingness, but still leans on that knowingness as if it’s a somethingness. And because it still leans on that, it is still subject to the effects of another part of one’s self, or extreme, in life, in which people don’t know any better that they’re just going about looking for this, that, or the other for satisfaction purposes – thinking that’s the end all be all, and find momentary satisfaction, but don’t realize that what they settle for in that momentary satisfaction, or coming together, is another kind of limited spectrum of being, or trance, and that one can go from one mode to another mode.

And yet as a traveler watching everything going on in life you’re able to see how it’s like this, or it’s like that, and so you fortunately have a freedom to be able to travel, to kayak, to basically bicycle about things because you have a sense that there is something more. Now you have this sense of something more because you can tell this by being a good watcher, by being able to see that if it’s like this, it’s like this, if it’s like that, it’s like that, and you’re able to denote what that actually signifies vibrationally, or as a color.

And so you’re coming to know it in the feminine way of a quality of how it is that you notice, in terms of how you are able to be, or carry, yourself. It is a type of seeing, but it’s a subjective type of seeing. In other words, you’re not taking and making clearcut black-and-white distinctions. You’re just noting it, and in noting it you’re letting go of it. In noting it you’re seeing to be something, recognizing it to be something, and some part of you as a traveler quality knows that anything that is denotable like that has its limits.

You don’t need to know what that is, how to octave that. You don’t need to play a good, better, or best. You’re just drawing a general assessment of that, and you notice that no matter what you do to shift this way, or that way, it is always something that has a particular effect, or quality, and what you’re looking for as a traveler is something that has no effect and no quality upon you.

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f7fe7d0_nFor many reasons, the natural freedom that we have as children gets blocked up. But it is still there within us, and can come out at interesting moments in our life. In childhood, such freedom has a purity to it, a purity that is lost as we make our long journey. And there is a poignant moment in this dream that shows how we can turn to that freedom as a form of escapism, rather that as a return to our natural state. And understanding that difference is important to our development, in the sense that we want that part of our nature to have its expression, yet it should come from the purity of our higher intentions, not the indulgence of a defense mechanism – which requires us to be conscious about it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: As my dream continued, it was like what I picked up at the jailhouse actually was a young girl that had climbed down the ladder and she kind of invisibly follows me around now. I don’t know if she’s a family member, or just somebody that was part of the group.

And she and I go back to the train station area with that man that kind of fascinated me, because of how he kind of free flows and everything. And he also has a stuffed animal that I’m kind of fascinated with, that’s like a little stuffed ostrich or Dodo bird or something. You know, one of those things that girls like because they’re kind of goofy, and they’re a bird, you know.

And when we get to this train station it’s like I want to run away to New York with him, even though somewhere in the back of mind I know that my mother or other people that are at the house would really want us to be returning there, but I’m kind of still fascinated by his free-flow and I see him go in, you know, rather than just get on the train for New York, he kind of diverts for a second to go into a shop to see if they have any last minute work for him where he could set up some stuff for display and earn a few extra dollars.

And they didn’t, but he continues to free flow and we go to a counter. It feels like we’re buying tickets for New York, and I don’t know if we actually go to New York, or if we just go to another area of the train station, but since I’ve kind of decided that I’m going to go with him, and this young girl seems to be with us, too, it’s like he suddenly bought me a new bird. It actually comes in a package the way it looked like in the beginning, this stuffed animal.

But what that does is, when I take the stuffed animal out of the package and see what it looked like in the beginning, and then glance at it in terms of what it looks like when he’s been carrying it around, I realize it’s like I see through him suddenly to what he’s really like, and he’s not really one to take on responsibility for me, or anybody else. It’s just not how he is because the bird that he’s carried around quite awhile is in pretty bad shape when I compare it to the original. And because I was pretty young, initially, I was impressed with his free flow, but now I kind of see it, it actually, you know, has a certain lack of responsibility in the world.

And the young girl I have with me now, it’s really not going to work out, because I can still feel that there’s concern somewhere for my mother that we should be back at the house completing whatever holiday it was that we had started out with there.

And I kind of look at him and he knows, yes, I need to go back now, because I see him now. I enjoy his free flow, but I see him now, but he can’t really have other people along with him in that free flow. He can’t really be responsible for some people our age, especially now I’ve got this fresh bird out of the package and everything, too. It’s like I’m just seeing life a little differently.

John: The thing is, is you’re not grounded with the free-flow of your nature. And the reason why you’re not grounded with the free-flow of your nature is because the trauma, or the conditioning, of what happened before, where some parts of yourself are repressed, and threatened to be blown up, and all of that, and the whole reactionariness that came out of that, even if it was relieved, it left a trauma in your nature.

And so, as a consequence, you approach things in a way that, when you get to a particular point in your life, you get to the issue that you have to get through. And that’s the Prostitute energy. In other words, you can sense that a part of the way that you are in the outer is affected by something that has happened long, long ago. And, of course, one of your images is like being buried alive and creating a trauma in that effect, and this image is a parallel of that, in which there are images of yourself that are trapped, and booby-trapped, so they sit in a dire condition.

And it’s the free-flow part of yourself that gives you some sort of escapism relief from that sensation. And then it’s as if, okay, that part can be freed, but the trauma of that is still sitting in your nature. So then when you turn back to look at the free flow you realize that your approach to the free flow is to try to be more like that, only to find out that it’s a type of free flow that isn’t grounded, it isn’t stable, it isn’t going anywhere, it doesn’t follow through with its focus and attention.

And so as a consequence now, I dreamt the answer to that. The answer is you have to keep your energetic level up, or otherwise this sort of thing pulls you down. We do share something in common, because I took and went back, too, and looked at how that worked, only the parts of myself go ahead and let themselves get killed. They get killed.

As a consequence of that, there isn’t the trauma. The fact that you ended up having to try to sustain, or to maintain, in kind of a bizarre way, led to kind of a sense of a relief through a prostituting of the energy.

In my case I gambled, gambled and lost, and that has its trauma. And that’s why I’ve described myself as the Gambler, and why? I mean you gathered information about this from a type of past life memory or something, or something akin to a past life memory, or at least going into the vibration, closer into the vibration of that which goes back. I just can’t stand the giving up energy, that when you get tired you get that way. In my particular case, I’ll go until I create an accident.

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