The Next Step

Gods-touchIn this dream image, Jeane takes a journey of discovery, where she learns to take on the responsibility of something she had taken for granted. That is a great analogy for the human journey, where we are meant to awaken to the life we have been given, and begin to take responsibility for it, and our role in creation. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just kind of remember my last dream. In that dream there’s a group of us living on an island, and there’s a resort that the people, who are the natives from the island, actually keep clean and they actually kind of trek quite a ways to the resort and keep it nice while we’re doing whatever we’re doing there. 

One day it’s like we go into the rooms and we’re shown that we’re supposed to clean the resort that day, and so they have us kind of line up and we go over to an elevator, and as we get on the elevator it’s like there’s almost like a book that goes on to the elevator. 

It’s a long elevator, and on each page of the book you would put like a cleaning supply and solution, because there’s a certain way they clean everything there, so on one page and one room, that’s a first step, and then you would go through until you got to the last page of the book, and those would be the tools and the cleaning solution for whatever the last bit of the cleaning that’s done, or polishing whatever. 

You’re working in partners in a way, and as you took the tools in the book, and got on the elevator, every time one of us stepped on the elevator the front part of the elevator floor dipped down a little bit more until we’re kind of all scrunched up against the back wall kind of hanging on because you feel like the floor could go out from under you. 

And then we must have gone down the elevator or up, I don’t remember that part, because now we’re outside traveling between where the natives lived and the resort that you’re going to clean. It feels like this is a difficult trek, actually. 

At one point I know I’m in the lead with my partner, and we’re in this boat that’s going around a water flow, almost like kind of going against the flow, trying to get unstuck, or push through some areas with little whirlpools, and get to the land.

And then when we get to the land, it’s like we have a long ravine to travel up, and as we get up the ravine is such that sometimes you have to kind of jump across from one rock to the other, and pull yourself, and then we come to a little temple that’s in the middle of a ravine and there’s an oriental man there that kind of kneels down, so you can put your foot on him.

But when I come, he kind of sits back, I don’t know, maybe they don’t touch women or something. I don’t know. Maybe he shakes a hand instead, or just reaches out. All of this kind of shows us that we took for granted that people just come and they clean your room every day and you don’t realize that many times for them there was a trek just to get there to do the most basic things. 

We were just used to them showing up and cleaning, and the room looking nice, and this is kind of showing us all of what was behind that. That’s about all I remember. 

John: The thing that I’m trying to understand, in terms of what you’re telling in the dream, is it sounded like you took over the cleaning of the rooms yourself or something, but it wasn’t a type of cleaning that you actually did. It was like you were dealing with turning pages or something, right?

Jeane: No. It was like after we’d been living there a while, the group of us, there was a large group of us, were given the assignment of we were going to be cleaning the rooms. And the cleaning supplies, it was like there was a book with let’s say seven or eight pages. It was a large book and on each page was a place where a particular cleaning supply or cleaning solution went.

And so you would start at the beginning of the book, with the tool and the cleaning solution that you would first use when you started cleaning, and then you go to the next page. We’re working as a total team and maybe there would be two people cleaning a room but they would have to go from one page of the book to the other in the order of how you do it. 

But before we can even begin that, we have to go in this elevator, and then we have to trek across water and ravines and rivers and up the hill and past the oriental man, just this whole trek to where we would even get back to the hotel to clean.

John: I think I got it right then, because to start off with it’s like something is done for you, and then in the end you have to go through a long process and whatnot of transformation and change. And then it becomes your responsibility to take it on. 

The part that I question then, is what does it mean when you have taken this on? In other words, it’s like I fully understand that a person has to become more conscious, and take on more responsibilities, and not let things just kind of unfold in an unconscious way around them.  

That man is meant to take on his role, or responsibilities, as a vice regent in life more directly, but what this means, or that position that you hold, you throw another wrinkle in it in that you are describing or looking at something where, in having taken this on, after you have taken and gone through this process upon which you’ve changed, or been readied, or trained, or shaped so that you can take this on, from what had been, ordinarily, just kind of naturally provided for you.

It seems then, that this taking on creates another kind of image in terms of things. Because you’re setting up an image of what it’s like; in a sense it’s an image of what it’s like when you actually take on a kind of responsibility.

And so this image has me curious as to how that is because you’re projecting something in the future, in other words how it is, and it makes sense that you could do this because the feminine takes and dreams and looks at the situation in terms of it just being straightaway the way it is. 

That’s the way it looks, which means that a whole bunch of things, and it’s not explained how anything changes, it just is suddenly like that. In other words, you now suddenly have taken on and are doing things in relationship to some sort of unfoldment, that is established, that’s laid out and set forth in terms of a responsibility, where you’re in sync with a knowing of what needs to be done, how, and when.

But this very last part is what’s curious, because the dream seems to be telling you that in terms of them relating to life, other people… I shouldn’t say other, in other words, it’s like there’s both the stepping on this guy as if every aliveness then succumbs and fits as part of an integration.

In other words, when you’re connecting like this, you lose the differentiation. Every aliveness works and pulls in conjunction. It’s like a merged state. It’s like this Chinese part that is a depth and hiddenness inside of you, is now something that works as a stepping block. It works as an integrated kind of stepping block. It’s part of something that you flow through, or you step through. In other words, you step on.

The thing that’s unusual about the image is there is no arm’s length necessarily. Now, you see both. It’s both something that is, in one sense, a step on the journey that you just go right through as if it’s a part of you, you use it as a step like a tool, like an inanimate thing. And yet at the same time, you hold and treat it with a certain kind of respect as well, as an element of aliveness. On one hand it’s just part of the Whole, and on the other hand it still is treated with a type of distinguished nature. 

The dream has this vision quality, and what does that mean? It looks like something you relate to differently. In other words, when you take on the ability to be kind of a vice regent and deal with things straightaway, according to an understanding of how it is that you keep things cleared up, and straightened out, in life.

In other words, it’s like each element of what you catch up with has to do with a way of… and they are like cleaning supplies as you see it, which means it has to do with shaping and guiding and being responsible for the unfoldment, when you weren’t before. 

Tomorrow we will conclude this dream analysis, in Suffering or Bliss?

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Ride the Tiger

ride-the-tigerThe images in these dreams find Jeane being shown that, in order to reach a certain clarity within, she must a make a journey into the depths of herself, into the unconscious, into her own darkness. The images make clear that we can’t make the inner journey with the same processes with which we manage our outer lives. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just have impressions of my three dreams last night. The one I remember the best is the very first one, and it feels like I’ve gone with a woman that feels like even maybe she’s someone I employ or something, although she’s older.

I have three, they feel like stained glass windows, but they’re about as tall as a door. They’re about that shape. I’ve taken them down and they have to be cleaned, so they have some kind of stained glass pattern in them.

But we only have a certain amount of time, and then we stack the three windows on each other to carry them somewhere. And the last one doesn’t get completely cleaned because it’s been wiped off a couple of times, but it’s not as clear as the others yet, but it feels like when we get to where we’re going it’s cleaner than when we started. That was like the first dream.

John: You’re dealing with a very amazing psychological process, in that there’s the standard belief, and it’s kind of a human belief, that when you take like windows, and it’s not any old kind of window, it’s like a stained glass window that allows the light to come in in a certain refractory way which can accentuate a kind of clarity in and of itself.

But when you take those out and clean those, or in other words, do something so that they can function better, they actually do not enhance things like you would have thought that they would.

You’ve cleaned them, but yet they’re still not clean, not as clean as they need to be. And so you were shown, by your higher self, that the efforts that you’re making, that make sense mentally, for example, aren’t going to get the job done, that it doesn’t work that way, that you have to get to where you need to get to first, and then they will be clean, or cleaner.

What you can do physically with the faculties at your disposal is misleading, because you can think that you’re cleaning them, but in reality they don’t actually get truly sparkling clean, so that they do what they’re meant to do as stained glass windows, which like I mentioned at the beginning, was utilizing a certain kind of clarity light in a certain way.

That doesn’t become possible until you get to where you need to get to, which is a cute little jab at this idea that we are masters of our own destiny, and instead, meaning that we do this, that, or the other directly that however we contrive it to be, seeing a problem and then addressing it with our ordinary faculties.

And what the dream is saying is, that isn’t going to do the trick, that you have to get somewhere consciously inside yourself first.

Jeane: The second dream I remember was longer and more interesting, but I only remember the sensation and a tiny bit of it.

And in that dream, what it feels like is, as I go to live with a group of people, I go from having maybe been living with some lions, I think they were lions. And in the morning what the people do when they get up is they go out and they go to one of two big pools to cleanse themselves, like you swim, or you get in the water, and then you get out.

That’s kind of how it works in the morning, so everybody will go down to those pools in the morning. You would think I would go down to the pools with the people and get in, but it feels like the cats still insist on carrying me down there.

I remember the bounding sensation like I would be on the back of a cat, and it would bound and then jump right into the pool, and it might even intimidate the people that are still there, like I might need to swim a little bit apart from it once we’re in the water.

John: That’s an image that is showing that you’re a particular kind of raw energy that you need, in order to make a journey into a means of going into the depths of yourself, and that raw energy, that quality in your nature that is typified by this cat energy, is something that’s seeking to impose its way upon you.

In other words, it knows that you can’t do this on your own. It’s insistent that you have to work with that, and utilize that, if you’re going to go down to the water and the water is something that is a form of consciousness that is there, to which one can probe the depths of that.

The cats represent a type of raw energy, and the way you’re utilizing it, because it’s raw energy, is representing a type of masculine energy. And so without that you’re not able to penetrate the depths of yourself, in other words, get into the pool of things, the waters of which there’s the depth that is possible in which there’s a consciousness and everything else there.

You’re not even able to come to that where it can be stirred without the seed vehicle, which is this cat energy, which is masculine, which is a raw energy, which is made available to you and is saying that it has to make this possible for you, and you have to ride it right down to the water’s edge.

Which is very interesting because it is kind of like an answer to kind of a mystery in terms of how something works. It’s like a progression of that dream because instead of the taking down of the stained glass windows, if it was on a similar motif, you would be using your understanding and clarity of things to try to go down to the water on your own. But then, from that first dream, you learn that no, that doesn’t get clean quite that way.

It doesn’t quite work that way, that there’s a process of evolvement, conscious evolvement, which you have to catch up with, which will make this clean. And so from that kind of inflective insight to the first dream, you have gotten the hint, or the inflection, and so you know that you have to allow the cat energy to take you down and the cat energy is masculine energy.

In a roundabout way, a parallel dream would be the dream that Peter Kingsley wrote a whole book about, in which he described how the maidens took the chariot down into the depths below from which something could be realized, the maidens being feminine, and the masculine going down into its depths, or man having to go down into the depths of that which is unconscious, inside of one’s self, in order to realize that the consciousness that has to be realized there, that we all have to face.

In other words, we can’t aspire to it in some other means. We have to actually face our dark side. And in your particular case, the means to be able to open up what is already imbedded as the waters of yourself, you have to utilize the seed of the raw energy, the masculine energy. You have to ride that down to the poolside.

That inflection evolved from the first dream in which, when you finally get to the consciousness that you need to get to, it will be cleaner. All of your efforts in the meantime are kind of interesting, and cute, but don’t really quite do the trick.

And so you get that memo somehow, and so you realize you have to ride the masculine cats down to the water’s edge and then see what that stirs up.

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The Suspense Is Building

vortexIn these dreams, Jeane continues her dance with the masculine energies, coming close and backing off in one scenario, and missing appointments in another. If a third dream from the night had been remembered, it might have even taken her a step closer. This is a good example of how each dream in the course of a night can further the inner conversation we have with ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: It felt like I dreamed a lot last night, kind of repetitious dreams. In the earlier dream it felt like there was this man that is always kind of intriguing, and available and unavailable at the same time, and I seem to be having kind of an approach-and-avoid relationship with him. And all very public.

It’s almost like all of us involved are aware of what everybody else is doing in a way. It’s almost like I approach him and then I back off before it can go any further.

Then there is some kind of scene where it’s almost like he approaches a group of us women. We’re all lying on these cots or bed or something, next to a railing in a very open room. And it feels like he comes and he’s with us, but then it’s almost like we go unconscious and we wake up in another space where he is. But we’re more separate now rather than all of us women being together with him.

That’s about all I remember of that dream.

John: You are describing the effect of how… In this case the guy is affecting a group of women, right? And so the guy is like a teacher, and what he is doing is causing something to shift in terms of the space that it is in, right?

And because you see something shift in terms of the space… well, it is not what you expect, right? It’s not in keeping with the flow that you’re accustomed to is it?

It leaves you feeling confused because it is not something that you’re accustomed to. You’re being shifted in a way that isn’t in keeping with how you are used to, or accustomed, to see things unfold. The setting is more like, there’s a group of women and you have a certain cohesion together.

You’re laying down together, and maybe you each come in slightly different ways, but by and large there’s a similitude with you. I mean, you’re all lying down. You’re all going along with what is unfolding in a particular way.

Then he comes along, and what he does disrupts that and creates a certain kind of confusion.

In your dream this is throwing you off. It’s throwing everybody off. But of course you’re only relating in terms of you, but it is a bit much for everybody.

So your dream only goes up to the particular point where you’re thrown off. It doesn’t say anything more than that in terms of what that causes to come out, or come up, when you’re thrown off. So it’s one step in the process. I wonder if your other dreams go further?

Jeane: Well, in this dream it feels like I’m at a house in a neighborhood. I almost feel new in the neighborhood. I’m approached along with some other women by a man who wants us to participate in something where we will have to fill out forms on people.

So he’ll bring the forms by, and we have certain meetings, and maybe we go to some place around the neighborhood, and we get the information to fill out the forms by meeting with people.

There’s a man who’s supposed to participate in this, but he’s not able to make that first meeting, so we try to schedule an appointment with him. But then we forget it. Then it feels like we suddenly try to do something in the house because I’m kind of new there.

Suddenly I get pulled out to go to a meeting. Of course, it doesn’t feel that interesting. It’s almost like the census or something. Do you know what I mean? It’s forms that have to be filled out, but they don’t necessarily make that much sense to you, or you thought it would be interesting in the beginning, but it’s not very interesting, really. It just kind of takes up time and meetings.

And then I’ve gone from the house into work, and I know my friend who’s a physician is there, and there are other people at work. And at work it feels like I keep trying to get things done, and I get interrupted, or have meetings that I’ve missed. And then somebody is telling me that I missed this meeting with this guy to fill out the forms again.

I swear no one even told me about this meeting. It’s like seven something in the morning, and it’s before I would normally work. I never remember scheduling it, and yet I keep getting told I missed it. And they don’t want me to miss it one more time, but then I don’t even know I have it.

I almost feel like you could lose your job over this, but no one even tells me about it, and it’s just confusing because it feels like there are all these things to do, and all these places I’m going to, from one place to another at work, and I just don’t have it down as far as getting there at the right time to get things done.

John: Where your last dream left off you’re now trying to sneak up on this, and first of all it’s like your routine in life involves having to attend a meeting, or there is a meeting that’s set up – it’s kind of casually done – that involves a guy that’s important for bringing something through.

And you to begin with just blow it off. You completely disregard it. It doesn’t even register. In other words, you knew that something like this was to happen and it doesn’t register. And then it’s as if this was more important than you at that time realized, because it comes up again.

It actually never really went away. It’s just that it percolates and rises to the surface in some aspect of the way you feel yourself. And this pattern that bugs and needles you, is catalytically trying to cause something, that you carry, and the way that you live, to awaken in a new way.

You know that something in the setting has to change. You’re recognizing the fact that this meeting has to happen now, and you’re affected by the way your sense of all of this won’t go away now.

And so you’re still creeping up on something that before you took it up to a particular point, then didn’t realize that there was even more. The dream just stopped there. And then in this dream, you blow it off to begin with, but you are not allowed to blow it off. And so now the scenario is pressed upon you more; that you know that you have to ultimately pay attention.

At this point, in this aspect of the dreaming, you haven’t yet gotten to the point where you’re paying attention to it. It’s pent up. The suspense is building. It’s kind of like a condition that one carries when they know they need to do something, and they’re just not doing it.

It’s almost like it has its own crescendo that builds up and builds up until you do it. It bugs you because you just can’t let it go. This is building up. Going forward, do you add more to it?

Jeane: It felt like I finally had sat down. I was writing things down to get them straight, and then I was going to phone him myself to see if I could set up an appointment, even though I might tell him I don’t think it’s that interesting to do what we’re doing with these forms.

But at least I can be aware that I’ve set up the time and keep it, or schedule it, on a day he is coming in anyway.

John: For you to have carried this all the way through, I wished you would have done that. Instead, you took it up to a particular point where something hadn’t yet broken through, and it would have been nice to see how it breaks through.

It would have been nice to gain a sense of what that whole new way feels like, in the overall, as opposed to the sense of the change itself.

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