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Jeane: So, I didn’t dream most of last night, and then I had a dream just before I woke up.

In this dream I was playing somewhere near a house. It looked a lot like my maternal grandmother’s house. I don’t know what I did, but there is a guy in the woods, a young man, who I realize is hunting me. He is looking for me, so I run away.

At first I try to go into my grandmother’s house. Thinking he will figure out I’m there, I run over to a neighbor’s house. I know they have an attic that people can’t really see. Their kids actually climb around toys going up the stairs, so it looks like you couldn’t even make your way up there.

So I go up to that attic room. I’m there for a while and then the scene shifts: it seems there is a little black cat, or someone is like a cat, and the tip of the cat’s tail has been torn off. I’ve taken some black thread and sewn it back on.

I didn’t do a very good job, however, so the tail comes off again. Now, the man who was chasing me has taken the place of the cat with the broken tail – it seems like it’s no longer the cat that has the tail. He’s going to have to let me sew the tail back on him – that’s what his role is right now.

I have a little trepidation about this because I need to sew it on better than before. I think I know how to do it so it will look okay and stay on this time, but at the same time I’m really concerned that when I sew through part of the tail it’s going to hurt and the man might not sit still for that.

I feel anxious about this and I’m just getting to the point where I get the man to sit still. I’m going to sew the tip of the tail onto the rest of the tail, and I think that’s when I wake up.

John: That’s a pretty deep dream. And I think it’s trying to take into account how you’re intertwined with, and affected by, different things. You start off with someone trying to find, or catch, you and you go inside someone else’s house to hide, and where you hide there is a black cat who has lost its tail – is that right?

Jeane: Yes.

John: Which turns out to actually be…

See, I knew in this dream that wherever you were going to hide, there was going to be something in the hiding place that was going to reveal your location. I could tell that this dream was about a type of intertwining.

In other words, the dream starts off as if everything is separate: you, the man, the house, and the cat. The feeling is that there is something you need to avoid (the man), so you go, first of all, into your grandparent’s house and then your neighbor’s house. So, you’re going into places that you feel are familiar and where you feel you have a connection.

But all of that is separate from whatever it is that’s trying to perturb you, or affect you, in some way. What you find there is this black cat, which to begin with you might identify as something that’s an inconvenience, but that’s there nonetheless.

You don’t make the quick association that this is what you’re trying to get away from (represented, again, by the man). You don’t see the linkage of this cat to whatever it is that’s coming after you. That could be because it’s a black cat and a cat has a feminine quality of precociousness to it.

In other words, that which is coming after you is not necessarily as bad as it seems. You’ve been connected to it, or linked to it, in some fashion.

Tomorrow we will delve deeper into the inner workings of this dream.

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John: In this first dream I’m being shown how to take and use a throwing disc. It has a hole in the center and is like a Frisbee; there’s a way of using it as if it’s a type of perpetual motion object.

There’s a person who’s showing a few of us how to do this. The others are really just there, I guess, because it’s ultimately going to fall upon me to have to pass along this understanding. The way it works is you throw the disc at a wall, it bounces off and hits another wall, and then bounces off the corner and comes back, like a boomerang.

In between, there are all sorts of obstacles. Some how or other, the disc works its way through all of the obstacles without getting stopped or slowing down. It comes back with the same energetic force no matter what it bumps into – nothing is lost. That’s why I’m describing it as a “perpetual motion” object.

So when it is thrown, I don’t have to worry where I’m aiming, because the nature of the disc is that it will find its way back. On my first attempt I throw it out very weakly and slowly, not with a lot of force or power. Even so, it seems that no matter what force I throw it with, it still comes back at the same speed, without losing its energy.

Now that I’ve been trained, I have to take this skill into my (outer) life. Only I’m not playing with the disc any longer, I’m just playing with energetic force. The energy needs to be sent out into the universe, and I don’t know if it is supposed to return or just be encompassed within the universe.

All I know is that it’s not supposed to change. It’s supposed to maintain itself. I’m supposed to be able to look out there and see that however it has affected or touched something, that effect remains unaltered.

At first I see the energy penetrate, and it seems to be going through all that I can see in front of me. However, when I take a look more closely, I realize that what I’ve thrown out there has changed. It has been altered and distorted.

This is very disconcerting because I had such high hopes that this could be done and somehow saw that it could be done. Yet when it really counts and is projected out there as an essence of one’s self, as an impulse of one’s self, it degenerates into this appalling distortion.

This result is unexpected and it tears me up inside because I know and feel within that it wasn’t supposed to happen. I start sweating again during my sleep because of this. My whole sense of what I was shown was taken in so literally, I hadn’t expected that this could even happen.

In my sleep, the stress of this causes me to sweat profusely. I’m unable to realize what has gone wrong or how something designed to stay intact has fallen apart.

Tomorrow we will look at the second dream in this sequence and discuss the overall theme and how they the two dreams are related.

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Jeane: In the next dream it also feels like I’m always on the run, although sometimes I pause and change directions. My persona is female in this dream.

Initially, I’m with a group of people and we seem to be running towards a body of water, but everyone stops because it looks like we can’t climb over the rocks that are in the way.

But I notice that one of the rocks, a huge rock, has eyes painted on it; it almost looks like something that used to live in the sea, but that came out of the water and became a rock.

Even though it looks like we’re initially blocked from getting to the water, I find a way to get access by climbing over the side. When I reach the water, it looks like a scene from a south Pacific island because a whole group of people are paddling toward the shore in those narrow wooden boats.

John: I’m confused. I’m trying to get the sequence of this down. You’ve gone over some barriers to reach the water?

Jeane: Yes.

John: And there’s also something that’s pursuing you?

Jeane: No, I’m not sure I’m being pursued, but I feel like I am moving very fast, and I have to climb over rocks to get to the water.

John: But you have the sense that there’s something in the past?

Jeane: I feel like there’s something after me in a way, yes, but I…

John: But you can’t put your finger on it.

Jeane: No.

John: And so it looks like, so far, that you’re taking the feminine approach, in which you’re following along in a natural way.

Jeane: So then, when I get to the water, it feels like my way will be blocked because there are all these people paddling in these narrow boats – one after another. It feels like either the boat, or a paddle, will hit me, particularly as they are paused for a moment just prior to starting a race or something.

But I seem to be determined, so I notice that there is a narrow little pathway between two of the boats. There is  a very thin dock, and one can go in the water underneath this dock and not get hit by the paddles.

After I go out into the water, I get onto a boat. Then I look towards the land and realize I have to head back there. I’m not exactly clear on the next sequence, but somewhere in this dream I had seen a male friend of mine who’s a little bit intense.

Somehow, at some point, I become aware that this friend has been taken over by a demon or something, and he’s turning that dark energy on people. That’s why I have to go back to shore – to help with that situation.

When I get back on land I realize there are other people who have been taken over by these “dark forces” and they’re trying to hide this fact. If one pretends like they don’t know it, then the others won’t attack them.

I’m moving amongst them as though I think they’re okay, even though I know they’re not. I know that somewhere among them is a baby that they’ve taken, but the baby still hasn’t been touched by all this dark energy. If they don’t realize that I’ve recognized who they are, I might be able to get to the baby.

Then it feels like I do get to the baby. I don’t really see that I remove the baby, maybe just touching the baby was enough. However I do have to keep moving because I realize that this force (embodied by my male friend) is chasing and taking over people. I’m aware of it because I knew him before the force possessed him.

So I have to go and face the situation. I might be able to help. I’ve left the house where all the people had already been taken over, and I feel like I have to go back into the village. Perhaps I can help. Because I knew him before, maybe I will be able to touch something.

We will delve into the inner dynamics behind this dream in our next post!

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