Something Limiting

Somehow we have come to believe that we have to “work through” everything. That the way we solve things is to bang away at them until they surrender. But that’s not the way of it. Energetically, when we direct energy at something we strengthen it – no matter whether we want to or not (it’s the law!). So, the way to rid ourselves of something we no longer support is to let it go – consciously, having an awareness that we are letting it go. We want to starve these things energetically, that is how they shrink and disappear in time. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So this next one kind of adds a little color to the thing in terms of delusionality; it’s still delusionality. In the next dream, I am repressed and need to speed up. I see myself as being at an octave of 50, which is now like something that is condensed, but is condensed to the point that it knows it can shift into the overallness more. 

So I need to access that which is at 60 in order to come more out of a stifled condition. But because I’ve been back and forth a few times, I don’t see the 60 as sustainable, meaning it isn’t the answer, either. You know, it’s just what is going to happen: first it condenses, then it contracts. Things ebb and flow, kind of thing. 

So, I see the 60 as something I need to reach in order to be more at ease with how I am which will settle out in a way I do not know – perhaps, over time, back to 50. But this time, more okay with it.

And the meaning is, that in order to let go of a psyche limitation I have to live out, there is this, you know, when the breath is doing what it’s doing and connects to the dharmic effect of things, you kind of have to probe or live it out. And, as you do, you come to see life in a slightly different way by this going back and forth you do. Otherwise you get caught in things. 

And currently I am not accepting – at the speed of 50 – I’m not accepting the modality I am at, thinking that there is something more. So I think I must go through some outer emotions to get through and experience a letting go to the projections. 

You could say the scenario is I am seeing myself as if in condition and I would have an illusionary imagination that acted out like this as part of outer identification. None of this is going to be the answer. You can’t tell that. There’s something limiting about myself. And it’s a type of letting go. It’s an interesting type of catching up with the stillness. You don’t know how far that is. Could be eons away.

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Rules of Battle

We all have unspoken rules within us. If this happens, then we do this or that. When we feel afraid, we react in this or that manner. But, like in any battle, there are rules of engagement until things start to go badly, and then, suddenly, there are no rules. Our psychologies can seem like this sometimes, even when, or especially when, we shine the light of conscious awareness upon them. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My very first dream seems to have been influenced by watching Ender’s War, because all I remember is it felt like I was in some kind of a vehicle, and I was involved in a battle. But the rules of the battle were such that we weren’t supposed to be using bombs or anything, I guess, something like that.

But, suddenly, just as I’m going along with the rules, everything just blows up. That was the whole dream. Okay, that was my first one. 

John: The theme of the dreaming last night had to do with the way something is set up as a system, as an orientation. And that if there’s something about the system or the orientation that is set, even though it may pretend not to be set, that may have psychological designs in order to make it appear to be different, or to make it appear to be as if it’s fluid, and fully accepting everything that’s unfolding. That isn’t necessarily the case, in terms of what is happening around us at this time. 

And you can see that, and you’re seeing that, by something that blows up. And it’s probably because something like this is caused when you are holding out, and onto, a particular mannerism or motif that isn’t actually properly included, or viewed as able to be included, in the way that something exists, to, so to speak, go into something in a way in which you are able to go into it in a connectiveness way that embraces the whole, you don’t then go back into any kind of bifurcation. 

But you’re doing this kind of like as a type of playing with fire or something. Well, in any event, it is working with the breath in a way, and it continues to work with the breath in a way, that places an importance upon the breath; upon maintaining something in the breath. And, thus, you have your idea of holding on to something important, as opposed to a letting go. And as he says there’s a sense of something that comes up, goes across, and comes down. 

And what I’m pointing out is that you have to maintain something. That’s what I ended up seeing, you have to maintain a consistency to something that you put your attention upon. But it’s not necessarily a bulldog approach, but you do have to maintain your attention upon it, because if you break your attention up, then you’re not connected to an intertwined whole. 

So you come into life with a deep remembrance, as opposed to necessarily a connection. In other words, there is something askew, and a part of me is just screaming at the top of my lungs about there being a type of something that isn’t being noticed, and isn’t being recognized, and isn’t being brought through in terms of a clarity. And I have been feeling something like this for quite some time, and now it is, in a way, tending to be a bit louder.

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A to B

ima3swgesWe may adopt many psychologies in our early life, ones that stay with us all of our days. Perhaps we learned to cry to get a response, or acted sad to be comforted. In time, we think these adaptations are who we are, but they are not. We will never rid ourselves of all of these mechanisms, but we can write new scripts about why we do what we do. For example, rather than helping another because it feeds some psychology, we can realize that we can help another just because it’s the right thing to do, and we want to live in a world where such things happen. This way, our satisfaction is already gained, and it requires nothing from anyone else. We can rewrite so many actions with our conscious intentions. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I dreamt a lot last night, but I only pulled out part of one dream; seemed like the dreams were really deep. But the dream I remember, it’s like I’m in the mountains somewhere, kind of wooded mountains. And you and a friend of yours come along. I don’t see him real clearly. I know there’s someone else I know there.

I suddenly notice that you’ve gotten a bit away, so I run to catch up with you because you’re going on a hike. But because I run to catch up with you, I don’t have my water with me. But I notice that you, and the friend that’s with you, both have buckets of water, except your bucket’s a little more square than round.

And I was assuming that you would share your water with me, and that maybe it wouldn’t fall out of that strange bucket as we hurried along, but I wasn’t sure. But I’d already dropped, or left, my bucket so I just had to count on that. It feels to me like, as we went further up the mountain, at one point we met a friend of mine who was involved with the Course in Miracles. I mean, I just remember noting that. And that also I was a little bit worried about the bears in the woods. We’d even seen some bears, maybe a bear cub and a mama bear. And that’s really all I remembered of the dream.

John: The vibration behind your dream, this is working with some psychological way that you’re feeling yourself. The part that keeps coming up, and it’s a cycle thing, you cycle to this over and over and over again, in that you have as a core, feminine nature, the idea of having to be attentive to kind of how a quality of something needs to be in the atmosphere. This is the core, but this isn’t the dream, yet. This is the core quality nature that kind of is a primary echo that you have.

But you aren’t inclined to recognize that something needs to be given to you. You give in order to receive, I guess is the way to say it. In other words, there’s a psychology there – instead of being able to settle back in terms of what is a natural entitlement. And so, rather than acknowledge that you have a natural entitlement, if you’re feeling uneasy, you try to give more. You try to serve more, you try to help more.

Because you hear that echo, that, in the carrying of things, in the responsibility of things in the outer, in the home atmosphere of yourself in the outer, that this is something that you need to do. The care must be given that there isn’t an ulterior motive, in terms of doing that, whereby you receive in exchange for the giving.

It’s an interesting psychological flip that you’re getting hit with, because the dream is then saying, okay, now, it’s like the feminine has to try to rescue everything in life, the masculine and all of that, has to accept the masculine and cause something to pull through. And it’s easy to get caught in the idea that you’re doing this in order to create a reciprocation. It’s easy to do this from the standpoint that if what you’re doing doesn’t come first, there can’t be a reciprocation.

There’s a danger here in taking and recognizing, and accepting inside of yourself, that there is a value in terms of a part of something, somewhere, coming to you, which is part of you coming to you. And this process is always going on. It’s easy to, somehow or another, seem to think that A leads to B, or something, instead of realizing that this part is always going on simultaneously, with equal measure. Maybe that’s a way of saying it.

And it’s easy to, perhaps, lose track of this fact. Because you have a naturalness in your core nature to being able to be in an atmosphere in a way that facilitates the atmosphere. And thus, the facilitation leads to you being accepted, or a part, of what is going on, and not left out. And that you have to clamor to stay on board, or something.

It’s a subtle oddity, it’s a very subtle oddity, because it’s kind of self demeaning, I guess is maybe the way of putting it, almost as if something isn’t there for you, unless something else is done. It’s a strange way of kind of sitting in a type of subtle suffering, or feeling a little odd-man-out, or something, in the schematic of a vibration.

It’s a funny sensation, because in a world of wholeness, nothing is having to do A to get to B; all of it is just there. And maybe it’s veiled, but you don’t have to go through a formula context, a whole formulation context, to get there. You have to let go of, or perhaps that’s the only kind of key thing that might be a formula aspect, is that you have to let go of whatever nuances it is that you are perpetuating, or supporting, in terms of an ideation of how something unfolds, of which the letting go is the letting go – if you want to call that a formula, but you don’t stay quickened into something in relationship to A begets B.

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