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We all have unspoken rules within us. If this happens, then we do this or that. When we feel afraid, we react in this or that manner. But, like in any battle, there are rules of engagement until things start to go badly, and then, suddenly, there are no rules. Our psychologies can seem like this sometimes, even when, or especially when, we shine the light of conscious awareness upon them. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My very first dream seems to have been influenced by watching Ender’s War, because all I remember is it felt like I was in some kind of a vehicle, and I was involved in a battle. But the rules of the battle were such that we weren’t supposed to be using bombs or anything, I guess, something like that.

But, suddenly, just as I’m going along with the rules, everything just blows up. That was the whole dream. Okay, that was my first one. 

John: The theme of the dreaming last night had to do with the way something is set up as a system, as an orientation. And that if there’s something about the system or the orientation that is set, even though it may pretend not to be set, that may have psychological designs in order to make it appear to be different, or to make it appear to be as if it’s fluid, and fully accepting everything that’s unfolding. That isn’t necessarily the case, in terms of what is happening around us at this time. 

And you can see that, and you’re seeing that, by something that blows up. And it’s probably because something like this is caused when you are holding out, and onto, a particular mannerism or motif that isn’t actually properly included, or viewed as able to be included, in the way that something exists, to, so to speak, go into something in a way in which you are able to go into it in a connectiveness way that embraces the whole, you don’t then go back into any kind of bifurcation. 

But you’re doing this kind of like as a type of playing with fire or something. Well, in any event, it is working with the breath in a way, and it continues to work with the breath in a way, that places an importance upon the breath; upon maintaining something in the breath. And, thus, you have your idea of holding on to something important, as opposed to a letting go. And as he says there’s a sense of something that comes up, goes across, and comes down. 

And what I’m pointing out is that you have to maintain something. That’s what I ended up seeing, you have to maintain a consistency to something that you put your attention upon. But it’s not necessarily a bulldog approach, but you do have to maintain your attention upon it, because if you break your attention up, then you’re not connected to an intertwined whole. 

So you come into life with a deep remembrance, as opposed to necessarily a connection. In other words, there is something askew, and a part of me is just screaming at the top of my lungs about there being a type of something that isn’t being noticed, and isn’t being recognized, and isn’t being brought through in terms of a clarity. And I have been feeling something like this for quite some time, and now it is, in a way, tending to be a bit louder.

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ima3swgesWe may adopt many psychologies in our early life, ones that stay with us all of our days. Perhaps we learned to cry to get a response, or acted sad to be comforted. In time, we think these adaptations are who we are, but they are not. We will never rid ourselves of all of these mechanisms, but we can write new scripts about why we do what we do. For example, rather than helping another because it feeds some psychology, we can realize that we can help another just because it’s the right thing to do, and we want to live in a world where such things happen. This way, our satisfaction is already gained, and it requires nothing from anyone else. We can rewrite so many actions with our conscious intentions. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I dreamt a lot last night, but I only pulled out part of one dream; seemed like the dreams were really deep. But the dream I remember, it’s like I’m in the mountains somewhere, kind of wooded mountains. And you and a friend of yours come along. I don’t see him real clearly. I know there’s someone else I know there.

I suddenly notice that you’ve gotten a bit away, so I run to catch up with you because you’re going on a hike. But because I run to catch up with you, I don’t have my water with me. But I notice that you, and the friend that’s with you, both have buckets of water, except your bucket’s a little more square than round.

And I was assuming that you would share your water with me, and that maybe it wouldn’t fall out of that strange bucket as we hurried along, but I wasn’t sure. But I’d already dropped, or left, my bucket so I just had to count on that. It feels to me like, as we went further up the mountain, at one point we met a friend of mine who was involved with the Course in Miracles. I mean, I just remember noting that. And that also I was a little bit worried about the bears in the woods. We’d even seen some bears, maybe a bear cub and a mama bear. And that’s really all I remembered of the dream.

John: The vibration behind your dream, this is working with some psychological way that you’re feeling yourself. The part that keeps coming up, and it’s a cycle thing, you cycle to this over and over and over again, in that you have as a core, feminine nature, the idea of having to be attentive to kind of how a quality of something needs to be in the atmosphere. This is the core, but this isn’t the dream, yet. This is the core quality nature that kind of is a primary echo that you have.

But you aren’t inclined to recognize that something needs to be given to you. You give in order to receive, I guess is the way to say it. In other words, there’s a psychology there – instead of being able to settle back in terms of what is a natural entitlement. And so, rather than acknowledge that you have a natural entitlement, if you’re feeling uneasy, you try to give more. You try to serve more, you try to help more.

Because you hear that echo, that, in the carrying of things, in the responsibility of things in the outer, in the home atmosphere of yourself in the outer, that this is something that you need to do. The care must be given that there isn’t an ulterior motive, in terms of doing that, whereby you receive in exchange for the giving.

It’s an interesting psychological flip that you’re getting hit with, because the dream is then saying, okay, now, it’s like the feminine has to try to rescue everything in life, the masculine and all of that, has to accept the masculine and cause something to pull through. And it’s easy to get caught in the idea that you’re doing this in order to create a reciprocation. It’s easy to do this from the standpoint that if what you’re doing doesn’t come first, there can’t be a reciprocation.

There’s a danger here in taking and recognizing, and accepting inside of yourself, that there is a value in terms of a part of something, somewhere, coming to you, which is part of you coming to you. And this process is always going on. It’s easy to, somehow or another, seem to think that A leads to B, or something, instead of realizing that this part is always going on simultaneously, with equal measure. Maybe that’s a way of saying it.

And it’s easy to, perhaps, lose track of this fact. Because you have a naturalness in your core nature to being able to be in an atmosphere in a way that facilitates the atmosphere. And thus, the facilitation leads to you being accepted, or a part, of what is going on, and not left out. And that you have to clamor to stay on board, or something.

It’s a subtle oddity, it’s a very subtle oddity, because it’s kind of self demeaning, I guess is maybe the way of putting it, almost as if something isn’t there for you, unless something else is done. It’s a strange way of kind of sitting in a type of subtle suffering, or feeling a little odd-man-out, or something, in the schematic of a vibration.

It’s a funny sensation, because in a world of wholeness, nothing is having to do A to get to B; all of it is just there. And maybe it’s veiled, but you don’t have to go through a formula context, a whole formulation context, to get there. You have to let go of, or perhaps that’s the only kind of key thing that might be a formula aspect, is that you have to let go of whatever nuances it is that you are perpetuating, or supporting, in terms of an ideation of how something unfolds, of which the letting go is the letting go – if you want to call that a formula, but you don’t stay quickened into something in relationship to A begets B.

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Culvert Science AQ2We know from the analogy of flowing water that, when we have a blockage upstream, the water will begin to take a new course through the landscape, and the more water runs through it, the wider the course gets. It is like that within us as we form defense mechanisms, for protection, as a response to the contradictions and stresses we find in the world when we are young. Many times, this process creates blockages that prevent us from flowing in certain ways, sending us off in odd directions, i.e., into anger or emotion, that is no longer a protection but a limitation to what we are trying to do. Our dreams can help us unravel these mechanisms, enabling us to lessen the effects of the blockages. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The way I dreamt it is, in the meditation dream, to get the flow right I have to go back in time to determine the reason why things are the way they are today. I do this over and over in my dream; I keep going back to something and back to something. I’m reverbing back to something, reverbing back to something, as if I’m trying to get it so that it makes sense to me because it doesn’t logically pattern to do this.

I keep doing it, though, to try to prove or establish with myself that this is a viable approach, because rationally thinking, in terms of how my five senses and mind works, I can’t get there that way – because what you can think about is very limited.

So I guess another way of saying it is, you can say that this is an approach that is kind of irrational to the outer mind, yet I have found inside of myself, in terms of noting that there’s something that percolates back there, that this better explains what I need to know about my conditioning, in other words, how I am, why I am the way I am.

Until I learned to do this, I was limited to looking at everything rationally, meaning outwardly rational, and I was therefore unable to break out of a confusion that I carried. Of course, I didn’t know I carried a confusion. The confusion, of course, is the separation.

So the meaning is, is that to go deep within, to another inner time frame, which is how you tend to feel it because you’re going back to address what you’ve suppressed, or hidden, or veiled. In fact you’ve hidden it so well that you can hardly find it anymore. You just react outwardly, for reasons that make no sense. You just keep doing the same thing over and over again, habitually, as a conditioning that’s based upon something that got frozen into a defense mechanism.

So when I go deep within, as if to another inner time frame, what I am doing is I’m explaining to myself why I react the way I do today. So this is what I dream about; I dream about going there in order to find something more, because how something is in the present is unacceptable. It’s a delirium.

So you could say that the purpose of the dream is to point out that the linear perspective, which is your outer five senses and such, that that is a perspective that is not able to access the understanding for why things are the way they are, and why I am the way I am, so I have to have this awakening that goes back and touches the root. This, you might say, kind of inner approach, or basically probing the depths of the wholeness again to untangle what one has nailed down thinking that they’ve nailed something down that’s viable, gives me the sight that I need to access the vibrational impression pent up within. In other words, it’s like an impression, or a defense mechanism, and then you continue to keep playing that out and playing it out and you don’t even know why you play it out, and that influences my psyche’s reactions over and over and over again as a pattern.

So why is this important? There are reactions I have today that are tense and awkward, which I seem to do over and over, that make no sense to my linear mind. For example, if I am bumped by someone, even if it is an accident, my first sensation is to be reactive. You should just be able to drop it, but I have a defense mechanism inside that won’t do that. Even if I know that I should be able to do it, I can’t do it because it’s entrenched. It has to do with a repression that I have established that has taken me outside of the whole, so that I do this kind of control thing. So when I go back to the root cause, when this defense mechanism first started, I am able to identify experientially the reason today for the habituality.

To see the pattern energetically from long ago explains where this habitual pattern is coming from as a bifurcation. And, of course, it’s a bifurcation of the way of what is real. So often it is from a wound or trauma that I repressed within. The contraction, as a result of the defense mechanism, causes me to shut down instead of being in a greater overall connective flow. As a result then, of the shutting down, the habitual pattern will then blind me from the inclusive perspective of the whole – to which I am just a part of all of that.

The limitations, having shut down, then created these defense mechanisms and annihilated things in terms of creating ways that I try to kind of control my well being, the limitations I have placed upon myself are just illusions I think I need in order to sustain a separation from effects – that I suddenly developed the peculiar notion were out of my control. In other words, I want to control, instead of just be. Such definitions blind myself as a result of these reactions, and such reactions then veil my beingness from the wholeness that is permeating all of life.

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