Posts Tagged ‘healing through dreams’

pleyades_stardust2Our dreams can recreate the scenarios we find ourselves in, as a way to give a more complete view of what is happening. Here, John’s dream tells it in the plainest terms: he is hemming himself in by creating artificial barriers to being in the flow. And those barriers can often represent our “personal” view of how events should unfold, or our ideas about the way things should be. But we must let go to all that; we are here for the universe, it is not here for us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And in the meditation, the way this starts out is that a condo or a place, you know, that I’m in, is located between two parameters in a location that I support. And so, as long as the condo lies between the parameters, if the price is able to stay between those parameters, I am able to know how to, you know, to deal to and fro with the issue.

I know where I’m at, because it’s between those two parameters. But the parameters are a problem. The parameters leave me hemmed in. But, you know, I can exist within those parameters, if those parameters will hold together. In other words, I can buy and sell and trade and live and conduct myself between those two parameters.

So, what I am seeking to do is find a workable arbitrage or, in other words, a way that doesn’t get lost in the action. And I won’t get lost in the action if I’m able to just stay between those parameters. For example, if I’m in an antique shop, I can buy at one price and sell at another. Again, it’s an understanding of the parameters. You know where your spread is at.

Well, the sensation of a dream like this is that I’m compromised, because I am continually having to adjust my heart in relationship to how the parameters are. And I do this in each scenario and I’m using the self-limiting parameters. In other words, in your particular case you were dropped into a bigger equation, but for some reason, the inner and the outer, you know, were just at an extreme. In other words, you didn’t have them natural. In my particular case, because I don’t necessarily know what natural is and I’m dealing with trying to follow an order or something, I’m trying to put things within parameters, which is kind of a control.

So, whenever we compromise a situation, the heart gets strung out. We compromise the situation by establishing parameters. And when the heart is strained, a joy is lost. And when a joy is lost, an uneasiness exists. And the consciousness, well, it gets defiled or veiled, or however you want to say that. So that’s what this sensation is like, of functioning like this.

And the meaning of it is that I’m observing how it is that I get caught up in what functions as a spell that controls my reactions. It’s like a spell. A spell that I have just kind of taken on, given what happens, I react with flinches in the heart rather than with a letting go and an openness and reacting in the opposite direction. I’m reacting in a way that you react in the outer.

So I’m no longer able to relate with an openheartedness, when I’m in such a condition. When I’m reacting like this. Instead, I support or remain kind of mired in what is a weightiness, which is perpetuated forever long as I’m unable to let go. It’s a weightiness. In other words, the heart’s not letting go. The heart’s going back and forth, but you’re finding yourself trying to measure things with the heart that it is bounded by parameters.

If you’re able to get your way and everything stays within the parameters, then you can convince yourself that everything is copacetic, but the parameters still have an echo about them in terms of keeping you bounded. And that makes it hard for you to let go. A part of you remains tight. And if you get too close to that tightness, there’s a weight to it. And that weight, then, is very depressing.

So, to free myself, I need to drop this from my being and be empty. In other words, the example of that is to be able to be connected to something to such a degree that everything else around you falls away, which is what the path is like.

In other words, the connection to the teacher is something that is to a point that, when you connect with the teacher, anything and everything else that you have going on in your life needs to be able to drop in that split second. And when that can happen, then there can be an access. Until then, you’re still pushing off. The emptiness carries a graciousness and deep intertwined linkage, which goes beyond the duality of sorting out mannerism.

The dream is portraying how things, like arbitrage, or the self-protective notion that you can put and establish and find a security when you have boundary-written defined parameters. It’s a nice idea, but what it does is it destroys the conscious heartfulness. It is outside of the empty heart.

So, to dream something like this, it’s intended to be a healing dream in that I am shown that I lose my heart when I am not totally letting go. And I am trying to establish functional parameters instead, which means then that one is conducting themselves outside of and away from an emptiness. And when you’re not able to find an emptiness, then the conditions that predominate, that you’ve manufactured as a barrier, as a weightiness, twist the heart, and cut it off from things.

When I’m in this, it’s kind of a plight. The intensity that is a weight upon the heart, tears you up. Well, how does it tear you up? In my particular case, it can be extremely sad. And then you suffer and what happens is you suffer for as long as you remain bewitched by what you keep doing to yourself, over and over again. In other words, trying to sustain or maintain something that is not in the note of totally letting go.

It’s kind of like the idea of there being a hundred things to be done, and only one thing that’s the total letting go of it all. And to the degree to which maybe you can take and figure out how to bicycle this way and that way, and do the other nine-nine things really well, if you never totally let go, you’ve missed the opportunity.

And the total letting go is a total letting go. In every degree that you see yourself, there’s a problem. In other words, you have to become that “less than dust,” or you have to become so empty that it’s as if all of that goes for the sake of something that touches you so deeply. That has to inflect through.

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pullDust and dirt always collect in the corners of our homes – in the hard to reach places. This can happen internally as well, where we cover over an issue and leave it in the darkness. Of course it will never go away if we pretend it’s not there. In these dream images, it is being pointed out to John that he has unresolved issues that have formed energetic veils, which prevent him from seeing clearly.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: This next dream I’m in a classroom, sitting around the corner from the teacher, when a person I have known for a long time says something that makes me mad. I make a statement that is very demeaning towards him.

Everyone in the classroom hears the statement, but they don’t actually know what set this off. All they know is that this statement that I made is uncalled for. So, suddenly I begin to feel real bad about what I have said and done.

And I’m sitting with my back to this guy and I can still feel the friction or animosity, or that which isn’t right, still percolating. In fact, what’s strange is it’s like he’s making a sound, but there’s no sound coming out. I mean the sound that’s coming out, it is vibration. I can’t be putting on headphones to get around it, because that wouldn’t be a permanent fix to the problem.

Well, I realize it can’t continue like this, so I tell him I’m sorry for what I said. It was uncalled for. This uneasiness – I have to get rid of it. Is there anything I need to know? I shake his hand as if to consecrate this moment as a new start.

He shows me a piece of paper with computations that have to do with an old debt that he incurred on my behalf back in 1984. Apparently there was a lawsuit that affected us both, which he paid for, and that I never compensated him for.

On this piece of paper there’s like a spot, or a section, that looks like my handwriting, that shows that I paid him $284, but I indicated at the time that this was only half of what I owed him. I’d completely forgotten about that, so I ask him again what I owe him and he refers me to the note.

The meaning of this is, when I become reactive for no good reason, this uncalled-for behavior is often an unconscious reaction to some pent up issue that has been suppressed. It’s in the body and it reacts that way. By opening up, so this is able to come out, I’m able to get to the bottom of the energetic wound to heal it. If I’m really set in the mood of the situation, the veil remains. I need to confront the indebtedness and until I do the wound will never go away.

So, in this next dream, I am pondering what it is that I need to do to clear up an imbalance and indebtedness that has me shutdown. The answer is: I need to come to grips with an energetic flow, which isn’t possible until I face the issue.

This unfolding is seen in my dream like a perspective—it’s like a camera that starts off to one side and it slowly rotates from the side until it comes all the way to the front, like making an arc. And until it is right in front of the object, so that the view is straight on, until that occurs, it isn’t until then that I am able to see with clear vision.

In other words, to unblock a barrier to a flow of creation, I need to confront the imbalance, and until I do, there is a stigma. In other words, you can’t get the camera to take on the perspective of the flow of the view. Things stay set.

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John: So in our last two posts we have been looking at the process of bringing light into the darker aspects of ourselves (see Coal into Diamonds and An Explosive Situation). The dream imagery first showed this as bringing coal out of a basement (from an inner depth). The next image showed you trying to manage the fear of live hand grenades.

The hand grenade image speaks of the potential danger in opening up the Pandora’s box of our inner selves. Yet it is a process that’s critical to spiritual development because we need to become conscious of our intentions and thought processes, i.e., we have to gain awareness of the personal training and history that often controls our reactions and decisions.

Now, in the last image of An Explosive Situation, you saw what seemed to be stagnant water running clear and pure – signaling that something must be changing. But it’s hard to accept that anything’s changing in us because we can never be sure. The next time you look at an inner issue, after having given it some time (under the blankets), after trying to sift through all of that, you’re never sure whether it’s going to go off or not (like a grenade), or whether you’ve really overcome it.

Yet as a consequence of approaching it in this way, you can actually reach a point where you’ve created a process of purification. What your dream is doing is using a play on words, in terms of what’s alive and what’s dead: the water, the water bug, and the frog. An aliveness can be described as something that no longer has to sit in a state where it reacts to everything (like we do with our ingrained patterns).

Instead, it sits in a purity, which can appear as a stillness, from our perspective of time and space. That’s why the bug and the frog can appear to be dead, and in purity there is a death. You’ve died to the world, so to speak.

But the imagery also shows something that’s very different, in that the water is then seen as pure and everything is amazing, and it sits in a stillness. And even in that condition, where something has become purified in its overall nature, you’re never really sure that it has.

Can it move (swim away)? Does it still have an action that could go off and be like the old pattern, or is it really as still and yet alive in that purity as it could possibly be?

Jeane: One of the things I remember is that the children in the dream seem to know where the grenades are but they wouldn’t tell the adults. Then at one point I overheard the conversation of one of the women in the house, whose feelings were hurt because she found out that one of the men she liked was dating other women in the group. I remember thinking there was a time in my life when that could have been me finding out something like that, or I might have chosen a man like that, but I’m not like that anymore.

John: Well, there’s a natural acceptance to things in the flow in the outer. That’s where the statement comes up, “in the greatest surrender is the greatest freedom.” If you view it from an outer perspective it actually means you’re more vulnerable and, as a consequence of being more vulnerable, stuff is going to happen to you.

But from an inner perspective, you’re less vulnerable. If you’re more subjective, and if you just let things go, you actually have, at a depth inside, access to a universal grace. It’s like the idea in the Bible about the lilies of the field, i.e., even they are looked after.

It’s like that with children as well. It’s the younger part of you in the dream that’s not entangled with the world and that knows where the grenades are; there’s no worry. As we go through life, we develop a woundology through our experiences. It’s the child part of us that knows to just let it be, that it’s all fine. And so it’s the children that seem to have the greatest sense about how to trust and be at ease with what’s unfolding, not the adults.

The adults still have their conceptualizations from the past and perhaps bad memories of this and that. That part of the dream is showing you that this greater depth inside is what you need to feel and what you need to connect with.

What’s interesting about this part is it’s kind of joyful, it has a gleefulness to it. It can laugh at things a lot easier. The part that’s more adult is going to worry about whether those grenades could go off at any time.

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