Posts Tagged ‘hiding in a dream’

a22spIt’s nice to think that we always face things head-on, with confidence. But, as we discover, not all parts of our nature have equal amounts of confidence. It’s true in waking life, and it’s true in our dreams. Here we find a woman on the run, hiding and being followed. Yet, since we are all the characters in our dreams, we can also see that there is also a wooing going on, as wary lovers try to find the best way to accommodate each other – so they may begin their future together. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I didn’t think I was going to be able to remember any dream from last night because I kept coughing; had a headache. But towards morning I had a dream and, in that dream, it feels like I’m a woman. I have some children. I’m living with a man, but I take the kids and I run away from him.

And I seem to go to something like a villa, somewhere in Italy, and the villa is kind of in a little village where they have all these white stone walls, stucco walls. And I’m hiding out there, and I seem to like it because it has good music.

There is a man there at the villa, but I can’t tell if I’m actually with him, or if I avoid him sometimes. It seems like I do both. And then there’s a woman who brings the man I had run away from to the villa, or the little village. Sometimes it’s like she helps me hide, and sometimes she helps him find where we are.

I also remember that there was a garden area with some marble steps and, at the top, there were these headstones that were partially made out of leather and alabaster. And they were the carvings that represented some famous lovers who had been buried there. I think they were performers of some kind, singers or something,

And you could kind of pull a little bit on the stone and it would come forward, and you could see the statue and the carvings. And then you pushed it back a bit and it tucked itself into the leather, which helped protect it from the elements.

I think three different statues there representing famous people that had been buried, one was this couple, and the other I don’t know who they were. And then it seems like I’m trying to keep a certain freedom, but I also have the kids there. It just wasn’t a real clear dream to me.

John: It wasn’t a real clear dream because you’re hiding from something that’s trying to break itself through. Even the headaches you have, that you pretend have something to do with dust and this, that, and the other, are actually the result of something trying to awaken, or come through. And you have these headaches as kind of a dense nature that you carry to try to keep things in check.

It seems that there really is something to this idea that a person who gets on a spiritual path gets to a particular point where physically they can break down, or start to suffer more. And, of course, a lot of it’s easily explained from the standpoint that they get more sensitive, or something, and they can’t eat like they normally eat, and require circumstances to be a little different.

And, in this particular case, in your particular case, your whole dream went into describing and portraying this whole quality that you have in which you are doing things that peek at, and yet somehow or another, work with, hold in some aspect of your nature, that which you protect.

In other words, you have these kids that you run away with, that are your kids. And then you have this peekaboo way that you deal with the masculine, with what you find there. But what you’re saying in that is that there is a setting in which what is important and necessary for something to come out, in terms of how it is that you need to be, well, that you’re sitting veiled in, yet you have your moments in which something comes out, and you do have a sense of what it is that has to be protected.

And then you take and you repeat that, in another way, where you see these statues or whatever and you realize that if moved forward they have one kind of dynamic; pushed back, left in a kind of staleness of the past, they have another look. And yet somehow or another you have a sense of the before, or of the timeless beyond.

And, the thing is, your dream, this dream that you were able to pull out, you weren’t able to pull out the other dreams before because the other dreams before would have involved you breaking through, confronting a physical dimension, that is there, because the subtle loudness behind the denseness of the physical dimension is something that is being kept in check yet by the outer quality of your nature.

It’s being kept in check for some reason because the time isn’t fully right, or ripe, for it to come out, apparently. Yet you have the peekaboo with it. And so, when you mentioned the headache, I immediately saw that this was correlated to something that inside of you that is trying to find its way. And the outer circumstances, the effect of the physical outer, is imposing this limitation.

The way that you work with that, or struggle with that, is causing you to slowly break through it – yet you don’t break through it as naturally as you could and, as a consequence, you have headaches and such. And, of course, almost in answer to a frustration, you have this dream.

And the dream portrays this little quality of, you might say, a scoping out that is occurring in a very steady and unfolding capacity. That’s interesting.

What a theme huh? Because the theme had to do with being able to recognize and identify a quality of a deeper innerness that’s at the depth of a person’s nature and being, even though outer appearances could easily, and tend to, suggest otherwise, because it’s the outer appearances that predominate, or appear to predominate, most of the time. Rarely is a person able to see through the outer appearances to denote what is trying to move around within.

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Stillness vs. MovementWe often speak about the energetic effects that we can have on things around us – if we are developed or connected in our lives. That can seem hard to imagine sometimes, but it might be more clear when we think about someone who is comfortable in an emergency situation. The fact that they are not in a panic, and that they can take charge, can bring relief and calm to everyone in the room. We could say that person has a development in that specific area of their life – usually through prior experience. In spiritual development, our connections could allows us that ability to give what is energetically needed in any type of situation – whether we’ve experienced it before, or not. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation one really goes on an extreme and sets the tone. In the meditation dream I am shown the importance of an energetic unfoldment whenever I take in more than what I expect. When I take an unfoldment for granted, I am apt to get in the way of a natural process.

By holding onto the outer unfoldment, I get in the way of life’s natural ebb and flow, energetically. See, so I’m above all of this in a way; I’m in a different state, which makes me feel almost crazy.

I am meant to embrace the flow from within, and not experience the unfoldment as a kind of outer agreement world duality. I hurt myself over and over when I conduct myself as if I am entitled, instead of appreciating the natural overall unfoldment from within.

So, in the first dream, big story on this first dream, I’m in a large building. It’s kind of like a brick building. I guess you’d consider it a humongous house, although it doesn’t look like a house. It looks like an apartment building or something. It’s got halls in it and stuff like that, but I guess it’s more like a big house.

And it’s very late at night. Everyone’s in bed, and I suddenly notice a change in the energy, something’s about to happen. And, as I look out the window, I see a bunch of guys who are racing along, as if they’re militia or something, but they’re like a gang, and they are breaking into the buildings.

And they have it down to a timing. They’re break in and abduct everybody, and torture them or whatever they do, and they knock off building after building in ten seconds or less. And so I see them coming. I see how fast they’re going, and so I look for a place to hide.

I go into the corner of what would be my father’s bedroom, although I don’t see him in bed and there’s like a little well or like a depression where light comes out. You know you see those often times along sidewalks or something where there’s a cut down, a lower spot.

Well, this bedroom has a little lower spot like that, and a light down there. And there happens to be a bunch of mesh wire, so I jump down in that hole and pull this mesh wire over the top to hide myself down there. I don’t have time to do anything else. You know, I don’t even have time to address the light down there. I’m going to have to hope that it doesn’t shine through the mesh. In and of itself, why would anyone disturb the wire mesh laying there, unless they had a reason to?

So the bad dudes break into the place, abduct everyone, and go about whatever it is that they’re doing in terms of terrorizing, and torturing, or whatever it is that they’re doing. Unfortunately the light does shine through the mesh, and so the leader of the banditos sees this and says, “El macho” which I take to mean man of the house hiding down there.

Yeah, it had more than just that. Yeah, it did. You’re not going to pull the wool over his eyes. So he pulls off the mesh and I’m abducted. But he doesn’t torture me like the others, and we even seem to carry on a conversation in a normal way. And the whole time he has my sister all twisted and contangled in knots, as he’s doing his thing, afflicting people.

But I’m calm through all of it. It’s as if nothing’s going on. I’m just casually talking saying, “Well, I saw you guys coming. I happen to be up even though everyone was asleep.” And I’m indicating that I was watching them and I say, “What did you guys give yourself in terms of timing, ten seconds or so to break in to each place?” You know, just real casually, it is what it is, and his reply is, “Yeah, that’s about right.” So I mean you have this chitty chatty rapport.

Then suddenly, I don’t know, out of the blue, I guess the panhandlers are out late at night, and there’s this panhandler and he comes by and he acts as if, there’s people, maybe he can get a handout? And his eyes get really big as he sees what is going on but, you know, he’s an idiot. He is harmless, but still could be a problem from what he saw.

And so I say to the big boss, the main bandito, “I wouldn’t let him go if I were you. He looks like a problem. I mean he reacted, see? He could blither away somehow.” Of course this guy notices it, too.

He grabs the guy. He acts like he’s infuriated, pulls out a knife like he’s going to kill him on the spot – but he can’t do that. He’s not quite that kind of guy. And then he says to himself, that in the future, in other words if something were to happen and he’s caught and he’s brought before justice for prosecution, because he’s adequately terrorized everybody, that he can see five abstentions meaning, you know, they won’t say anything because they don’t know what could possibly happen if they talked. And then one person who talks, and of course that could be this guy.

And so he then, as if he’s commenting about it all, as if he’s reviewing everything in the scenario and he’s saying, everyone that he’s dealing with is acting according to Hoyle. You know, they get terrorized, they take all of this stuff going literally. But he indicates that he’s impressed by one man, and I know that that’s me because nothing fazes me. I’m not freaked out like everyone else. I’m just going along with the situation in a calm and balanced way.

The meaning is, the dream is portraying a demeanor that is able to take into account everyone as they are with an understanding and acceptance. To be like this is to reside beyond self-imposed limitations.

I see myself as being everything. In other words, I’m in an all-pervasive wholeness. I am like that because I do not subrogate my nature. By subrogate means repress and do some sort of cram down which is where you get all caught up in the affairs of the outer. That’s another way of looking at subrogation. And whenever you suppress something, then your natural energetic, which is all-inclusive, then is confined to having to sustain the energetic to keep something hidden, repressed, defense mechanism.

I am able to notice idiosyncrasies; ordinarily you don’t notice them because you’re shut down yourself. You’re always looking at yourself, kind of thing. When you think you’re looking at something, you can’t actually see it straightaway, but I’m able to notice the idiosyncrasies but do not judge or shut down. In that regard, I am like a light that is not put out. Or another twist on el macho, the main man, able to resonate a stillness into the overall.

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IMG_4125As we have seen many times before, to be chased in a dream is a signal that an inner connection is trying to be made, but that we have resistance to it. The greater our resistance, the more intense the chase becomes. That’s why it’s said that, if we could have just a bit of awareness in a dream, we should allow ourselves to be caught. Yet if universal purposes are trying to get our attention, and to catch up with our inner lives, if we are too obsessed with our personal issues we will become invisible to what is universal and the connections won’t be made. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the theme of the dreaming had to do with opening up a breath to things, and how you open up that breath, how you come to know that there is more going on than just the appearances in the physical, and that there is a way of going into that and realizing a whole other vista.

So in the meditation dream, I am pursued by a person and, to start off with, my image of stickiness is reduced to a kind of… instead of calling it a stickiness, which is your feeling of the presence of the overall, and until you overcome it and are no longer affected by the comings and goings of things in the overall with the senses, and the mind, and ego and all of that.

In other words, the feminine works more in an overall sense of how she feels things, and the masculine tends to work with it in terms of specific aspects that affect things. And so in the dream, the specific aspect that’s affecting me comes across as an image of being pursued by a person who’s intent upon destroying me. And just like the stickiness, can keep one repressed, and confused, and dense, and amnesic, and destroyed.

The pressure of things, you know, having to do this, and that, or the other, or having to contend and having to separate this from that, that also can come across as an image of being pursued by something that’s intended as a vibrational aspect that’s intent upon destroying you.

And so in this dream I stay just ahead of the pursuer, and I’m actually able to hide from the pursuer always just out of sight, and reach. Well, I come to a place where I’m told by another person that I’m safe if I stay here. In other words, it’s like he’ll look after me or something, or protect me in some fashion. So I’m able to be covered up by a blanket in a way that’s like hidden then, from whatever it is that is trying to oppress, or pursue, or catch up with me.

And in doing that, it’s like I become kind of like inert and frozen, so to speak. It’s as if I’ve gone into something dense in manifestation or, in other words, it’s like I’ve regressed and slowed down my state of being. In other words, I’m just an object that’s covered up with a blanket now, having accepted the fact that I’m okay being here.

So the person, being the pursuer, comes to where this area is at and comes directly to where I’m at – but he doesn’t recognize that I’m what he’s trying to pursue. He assumes that what is there is just some inner object; he even puts his feet up on it, or upon me. He even moves me about, not realizing that I am what he seeks. The surprise of him suddenly figuring out what is going on would be intense, yet he never figures it out.

At one point I’m even slid or moved off into another room, and the proprietor who agreed to keep me hidden and protected is now anxious for me to leave. In other words, it’s like all of a sudden what if something had woken up, then what? It’s as if the pressure is too much for him, so he flicks coffee beans. In other words, when this other guy isn’t looking and I’m kind of in between a doorway now or something, in another room, he flicks coffee beans over in my direction; in other words, as if I would eat the coffee beans and be able to go on my way.

The meaning of this is, and what’s going on here is, the dream starts out with me feeling I am separate from the energetics in the outer. So if you feel you’re separate from the energetics in the outer, then the outer is always pursuing, or affecting, you in some manner, because that just isn’t so that you’re separate, and so you’re haunted by the effects that you have to maintain to keep up the appearance of being separate.

Eventually I succumb to the realization that I am protected and have nothing to fear by the surroundings that are me. This results in a closeness, which means that something condenses, you know becomes static, that’s suddenly there, you’re consumed by it but, in a way, you’re still kind of energetically separate because there’s still the other.

And so to break this motif, I have to be speeded up. That’s where the coffee beans come in. So to be speeded up is disconcerting because I would prefer, you know because one’s lazy and everything, to be out of sight and out of mind. But I realize that the amnesia has to come to an end, and the concept that I am pursued by outside forces won’t ever change if I remain dense, and veiled, by my physical nature.

To rectify the illusion, the action of all of this, you know the awakening process, the consciousness in all of this, is that of being speeded up so I can see, and take in, all parts of myself in an intertwined and harmless way.

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