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higher-selfWhat could be more fundamental than a battle between two levels of consciousness within a life? Said another way, it can be seen as a battle between the lower-self and the higher-self. And it is really a struggle for access. Our lower-self nature wants to keep all our experience to itself, while the higher self wants access into the world through the outplay of our lower-self enactment, or living life. As we can see, both have riches that only attain value when they merge together. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I was pondering how I would ever tell the meditation dream to the dream group because I realize that they would try to look at this as a dream, but to understand it you’d have to recognize it as a vision. And so, as a result of suddenly being able to see this as a vision, I was able to recognize that the difference is that the transmission is more direct from the inner into the outer as a vision than it is as a dream.

As a dream, you have the variables of your psyche, and all of the experientiality that your soul has over who knows what schematic of time, that feeds you reflective images that are called a dream, from which you are able to, little by little, get to the point where you can see that there is something behind those images that speak of a higher-self moving around or awakening.

Well, in a vision the images are overwhelmed. They don’t get in the way. The transmission comes directly through, and it hits you straightaway. And so it caused me to actually, after all these years, kind of understand what Bahari meant when he said he didn’t believe in dreams because the way he put it, how do you know the difference between the evil one and something that’s divine? And what he really meant by all of that is that dreams, too, are reflective. They’re reflective from the standpoint that to understand them you have to be able to go through the churn effect of your synapses, and the images it throws up in its floundering capacity, because this innerness is not something that can be grasped straightaway.

However, as a student advances they get to a point where you don’t have this synaptic firing off that gets straightaway in the way, and then you can have more of a pure transmission, and that would be a vision. And that’s how you come to understand what Bahari said.

In order for me to recognize a vision, I actually have to have something that ’s so bizarre that you have to get it directly, or otherwise it’s just straight bizarre.

So in my meditation dream, there is an image of a battle between two levels of consciousness. So in this image, I am at a lower level and I represent Carthage. And I am confronting a level of consciousness that is above Carthage, or higher-self level of energetic.

Now I am concerned going into this battle because I am of the opinion that the higher level of consciousness always prevails. In other words, it’s always an inner coming into an outer. And I have to live under the terms of an agreement which are that, to the victor belongs the spoils.

So, before this battle begins, the two levels are seen as being like in an alignment, or polarity, in which I as Carthage are at a lower level ,and up this pole or however you would characterize it, is this energetic force I am going up against. To my surprise I win. Per the agreement, to the victor goes the spoils. The riches of both levels before this battle ever started, were placed in the hands of a neutral party. To my surprise Carthage went into this battle with a lot more riches than the higher force of energy. Because Carthage won the riches of the higher self was revealed to me. I have access to those riches. I give this away to my opposition.

This is what it means: to the victor goes the spoils. The loser keeps the riches it has, and I keep the riches I had going into the battle – but I already hold onto the larger amount. In other words, I’m closer to manifestation. I hold onto the larger amount. And so what has been put up by me is much more than what has been put up by the higher consciousness. So in a way the proportionality looks unequal when you look at it, but the higher consciousness that I am able to now access seems to be given back. I can do this because technically I have access to it now, and so I do not need to take this and add its exceptionally fine riches to my current overall bounty.

Although the bounty of inner wealth is less than what I have, it is pure. In other words, you can’t really mix the two together, and so I have to access it by shifting. From my perspective as Carthage, a stronger more grounded but denser overall energetic force, in other words, because I’m more grounded and denser and more in the outer, I am so glad and surprised that I won -because of my spiritual conception that the inner always comes into the outer and that is what you hearken to – and I won and now have access to this much finer level of consciousness as well, I feel l need to try to even the scale a bit. That is why I let the loser also retain what they had.

In other words, I leave the higher self. I can’t disturb. I don’t contaminate the higher self. It stays as a consciousness that it had going into the battle because it’s finer. It doesn’t mix with my greater abundance of wealth that I had to put up, but it’s of a lesser contend or metal or value, even though it’s more. To this very fine gold I also allow the loser of this battle to take a little from my over abundance, a few shekels, not a lot, that he can add to his treasury if he likes because I have way more than what I need. As the victor, I do not need to take the fine gold. I have access to it. It is simply now on another level in my awareness.

To mix this fine gold with my baser-grade coinage would create a confusion on this general level that I’m in in manifestation, and I don’t need that. So I choose to remain as I am, a consciousness on this plane of manifestation that is the dominant force. It is okay that what I have is not as refined. I do not mix this together. I simply hold the finer wealth as an inner level I can shift to as need be.

Because I have no need to shift my awareness to this finer level all the time, which wouldn’t make sense because I am located in manifestation where I have access to all the lesser grade wealth that there is, this is enough for me. I am resigned to that.

Meaning: this image is like a vision. In this vision I am seeing more how it works in terms of the universal consciousness of the creator. The inner is not going to obliterate the outer as I conceptually feared and believed as I was going into the battle. Such a belief is a spiritual illusion which gets in the way of the awakening process.

It’s true that the inner is a much finer substance, and there’s not as much of it by far and away. In other words, you’ve got a whole bunch of things that you can see and perceive and get caught up in that is in the outer, but the inner simply makes itself accessible to its lesser grade counterpart in manifestation as part of awakening.

I exchange this inner level as taken in to manifestation. In other words, the way I handle it is it works as a means in terms of becoming more grounded, the inner does. It becomes more grounded, otherwise it’s too intangible, and it gains a footing by way of the few shekels it didn’t have before when it was simply hanging out in its higher consciousness.

This is a vision establishing the understanding of life I had been misconstruing. The loser actually doesn’t ever lose their fine wealth. If this was so, this would defy the laws of the natural world. Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it merely shifts and changes in subtle ways. As the so-called victor, I have access whenever I need to access the higher consciousness by shifting to this higher consciousness that is within.

Because I am located and agree to remain in manifestation in which there is a lesser grade vibration, that’s a reflective one actually of something that is really real, that’s the innerness, I freely give up what I have here in abundance and perhaps someday even all of it to this innerness so it is able to come down into manifestation more. To the degree I do this, is the degree I bring the inner into manifestation.

I have been changed. I am now a foot soldier in manifestation that has access when needed to this finer inner presence, and correspondently from what I am able to let go of, this finer consciousness is able through me to be more grounded in manifestation.

The inner comes into the outer in a shift in consciousness. As the veils drop, the access becomes more and more apparent. That is how it works. My lesser grade awareness, to the degree I’m able to truly let go of it enables me to ground this finer inner vibration as a substance of my innerness. Such a shift enables the inner to come down more and more into manifestation, to enrich and quicken the world’s soul upon this plane, with this subtler, but virtually inaccessible, inner essence.

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glogIf we take the idea of living a life from the inner into the outer to its logical conclusion, we can see that we will have dropped our attachments to the material aspects of life, and the ego importance that that requires, and thereby gained a deeper connection to all of life and become intertwined with it. That is when we can be guided forward energetically, acting in service to what we can do for the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in my first dream it feels like there’s a period of time when a series of us, like you’re thinking a whole factory in some ways, but it feels like it’s more in the sky, that we were spinning, or making some kind of thread. And there were three of us that never talked, and we started spinning what we were making differently than everybody else.

But because no one knew what we were doing, because we never talk, they just left us to do it – even though we were spinning these little balls. They looked like little balls and then I guess you could pull a thread out of them later. While we were doing this it might be like a string coming down, and then a little ball on a string, and a little ball. We were doing this… It just didn’t look like how anybody else was making thread or whatever we were doing.

Well then at the end of the time, when we start talking again and it’s all done, we reveal that we were actually making a different thread, and it’s a stronger thread. But if we had talked about it at the time they wouldn’t have let us do it, or you might have gotten attacked for it. Because they thought maybe we’re going to produce the same thing they were doing they left you alone, even if it looked like you were doing it differently.

So we were able to create something different by never talking about it and, in the long run, it was stronger.

John: There are two things noticeable about the dream. The obvious of course is this idea that you’re designing something, from a standpoint of attention, that is done in a way that is separate from how everything else and what everyone else is doing. And slightly different than the idea that you can play with the energy lines in order to cause something that needs to happen or is meant to happen. In this particular case, you’re actually working as if in creation, spinning and weaving threads of things to create a result that is better than what existed before.

Now there is actually a very deeper meaning that surprised me when it popped in. And the deeper meaning is, you’re remaining quiet in order to maintain a key, in terms of your attention, because otherwise what you’re doing could be affected or impacted by the thoughts and the sight of others who are used to things being different. So by taking and maintaining or keeping your own council, so to speak, of however it is that you’re able to hear something inside in terms of what will make things better, you’re able to bring about a result that wouldn’t be possible if you got yourself contangled in the opinions and ideas and karma of others.

And this is an answer to a problem and a dilemma that I have had over and over and over again, and that I noticed that whenever I do things I like to involve others, but the problem is by involving others I get caught up in their karmic nature – and that fouls things up.

But what this dream is portraying is to heck with their karmic nature, to heck with how they are, maintain something that you, yourself hold on to, and flow, and follow that and yes, look to make sure that you’re not jumping over the top of something that’s intrusive or something, or hurt somebody else or whatever. And that you have, in terms of the bigger picture, a right to do this; but don’t go making it a democracy or whatever in terms of commiserating with others who just don’t understand because they’re not under the same focus or attention in terms of how something can be designed or flow. That’s the deeper meaning of this.

Also, what this dream portrays, or underscores, or recognizes and acknowledges almost as if you were to try to search for a scenario that would trip that depth of a meaning statement in a dream, in other words, not get mired in what they are going through and hold the focus of something that is pulling a better result together. And it may not be in keeping with how they’re inclined to look at things because they’re still caught up in nuances, and mannerisms, and habituations, and attachments, and patterns and everything.

This is an amazing trait and quality that points to something else like what a saint does. A saint is under orders to do something, and so doesn’t do things necessarily with the perspective of any personal mannerism or nature. A saint does things because they recognize the inner will orders that are important in life, and they just do it. And a saint, when they do that, from one way of looking at it, it’s no big deal because they have a connection to what needs to be. They hear it and they follow it because they have no choice.

And that a student who takes and does something that is surprising has the choice and, therefore, that’s why there is always this question: what is the more noble thing in life? Is it the student, or the teacher? And the argument goes back and forth, and the thing that surprises life the most is when a student recognizes something and does it because he’s not under orders.

So in a roundabout way, if you look at how something unfolds, and especially if you’re working towards something that is unfolding that benefits someone else, and you’re able to take yourself out of the participation or involvement or entwinement in it, you’re now playing in an area and on a level that has to do with being able to better hear the inner orders or will of things in terms of how life is meant to unfold.

This is only possible when you are able to take one step back from someone else’s karma and see what a better needed end result needs to be, and you make it happen for someone else. And there is a flow in doing that, and that flow is reciprocal – but that isn’t what you pay attention to.

You’re actually addressing a very deep thing. To begin with you do not know. All you know is when proper boundary control is there and you’re able to see what needs to be done, you’re catching up with the orders of things in terms of the will of life. That’s a pretty deep subject.

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Core-of-the-Perseus-ClusterWe probably all know those moments when we seem to have full awareness of what is going on, and we are unflappable in the face of it. Usually it happens when we least expect it, and fades just as inexplicably. But that idea can give a sense of what it means for us to hold an inner location, or an inner stillness, purposefully, as we go through life. The inner quiet allows our higher faculties to respond, rather than our lower emotions. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And in my dream last night, I’m a guest of a person who makes things happen. He’s a dealmaker. I’m staying at his house. He gives me some final cues in regards to how I need to conduct myself. Because there’s a person that’s going to come over that I need to meet and he is about to arrive.

There’s something that I have to do and he’s brokering the bringing this together, so that it can happen. And then he indicates, just before the guy arrives, that I should go get my swimming trunks. That way in the photo op, I will look like I’m more in charge. I’ll have them ready, you know, and appear to be more, I guess, in a photo op, more of an action person.

Now, this is a big house and I am in the other side in a bathroom where I’m talking to him. And I realize that the doorbell rings and this guy’s rushing to the doorbell, well I have to race across even almost visibly before the two of them there, to get to my room where I’m staying, to get to my suitcase to where I can get out my trunks.

And there’s also another person, as I have been talking to him, I find out that I need to also make connection with, and this is a person that I know from high school, and he is in charge of something that has to do with getting official recognition.

Now, when I have to go through this area to go past the guest again, you know, that I see in the other side of the room, to get to my room, a sadness over all of this weighs me down and I have to lay down.

My checking out takes me into a stillness, away from the situation. But my involvement is needed in the outer. So the disengagement takes me from the need in the outer, and what this does is making me even more sad-hearted because I’m not keeping up.

The meaning of this is there is a natural flow that exudes out of a quiet space within. I have not found out how to naturally intertwine the inner stillness with the outer aliveness. This cadence is needed for the inner and outer to come together. The inner stillness reflects the thought of God or the divine Will. When I am not able to integrate and intertwine this innerness with the outer, a sadness prevails. The outer flow stagnates.

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