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216947-fullIt is part of our culture and society that we have been trained to believe that fulfillment lies somewhere outside of us. So everywhere we look are the trappings of something new we need to have to make us happy. But what if our urge for such external fulfillment is just our way of compensating for the fundamental truth: we are all searching for the “more” of life, but it can only be satisfied through our inner development and spiritual connections? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in this next dream, I now talk about a type of bifurcation that I do myself, that I go round and round in, that keeps me out of a certain kind of stillness.

So, in this dream, of course, I do it by way of an example, in this dream, I overhear two travelers talking. They’re staying in the same place as myself, it’s like even in the same room; two guys. And one says to the other, “Let’s go back for more.”

And the other says, “What about what we have?” And the first guy says, “It will be okay where it was left.”

And so I’m in this room, and this gets me curious, what in the heck are they talking about? What have they got going on here? So, when they leave, I decide to follow after them. And, in the stairwell, I notice a bunch of things they have shoplifted; they’ve accumulated. Most of the items are mechanical and are things one doesn’t really need. You know, they may help a feature here, and help a feature there, but they’re not that big of a deal, you can easily deal without them. They’re over the top.

The one thing that stands out is a miniature toilet. Now, what’s this miniature toilet all about? And, in my dream, I actually had a sense of how that was different, and unique, and signified something. Well, toilet is an aspect of the transformative and removal of things.

So, I contemplate turning them in. But, in the dream, decide to not go out of the way and make an effort to disturb, because what they’re doing will catch up with them in due time. Who am I to be the one that decides how to police things?

So the meaning is, the theme of the dream has to do with the nature of where we hold on to a nuance, or mannerism, which causes our unfoldment in manifestation to be on a tangent. In other words, this is an aspect, now, that comes down from what had been a type of poisoning, or infection.

And so, to truly let go of nuances is to mirror a deeper inner beingness that is clear, free and still. These guys are availing themselves from this with their personal waywardness. I don’t do anything because, in the meditation dream, I realized my role as a co-creator is to mirror the deep inner potentiality of a letting-go stillness – and not to try and change manifestation.

If manifestation weren’t here for a purpose, and was meant to be different, the will of God would have brought this about long ago. Who am I to disturb anything? What happens as veils, and veiling, in the outer, is a process that goes beyond righteousness.

So, as an aside to the theme and nature of the dreaming, I went over again and again the vibrations in my sleep that self-impose and cause the world around me to be re-oriented according to the nuances. This is a fascinating idea I didn’t realize has so much potency.

In the sleep dream above, what I did was delve into an aspect of waywardness that I am carrying. This is an accumulator trait that I am stroking myself with. The meditation dream has already portrayed how this causes my co-creator nature to be bifurcated from its stillness. And that this is being allowed to see where it goes, in terms of how I work this out. Very interesting.

So, the scenario is, I am considering how I need to take a responsibility over things around me that I have brought into my frame of reference, and can do so based upon a type of letting go of my wayward bifurcation – that I don’t necessarily absolutely need – and let go of it in a productive capacity that opens up the inner stillness of the higher self. See, that’s the deeper theme of it all.

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hoardingIt can seem perfectly sensible to store things away in preparation for “needing them someday.” This urge can be driven by practicality, or a feeling of safety, or a fear of being without. And it is just these same type of urges that keep us holding on to our psychologies and defense mechanisms: fear we won’t recognize ourselves without them, the safety of not feeling vulnerable without them, or the practicality of being expedient in social dealings. Yet these issues are lower-self territories. Our higher self has more important things to do. It is often when we see the greater need, through our higher self, that we can overcome what is preventing us in the lower self. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, the dream starts out in which I realize I’m overwhelmed because I do not know how to sort out what there is that is situated and lying before me. In other words, I’m in a malaise, and I have no plans for facing this, and am allowing the holding on to drain me with its contractual weightiness.

In other words, weightiness is caused by the mind that holds onto things, and you hold onto things thinking you’re going to need it later. Whether you do, or not, you still tell yourself that story. Suddenly I am able to see, it’s almost like I’ve had the good fortune of being able to drop this weightiness of the mind so that there is in a flash, like a flash of light or something, is a flash and how to let go of it. It is like a flash because I have reached a place inside where I let go of the mental weightiness as something that I’ve been holding onto in an attached way.

Until I hit this flash, I held onto what was there as something I wasn’t ready to let go of. I would justify holding onto this as being something that I would need, or needed, even though I may not necessarily know how I needed it. The idea in and of itself was sufficient to keep holding on.

However, when I speeded up to a space within, in which there was no time and space, that I felt compelled to sustain, then it was easy to realize at that time that this did nothing for me, that what this was doing actually was draining my energy. Now what it was doing for me was something still in the imaginative, unrealized, and therefore made up spiritual perhaps in that kind of way of looking at it.

To begin with, in the dream, before I reached a depth within in which there was an inflection to a vibrational emptiness in which my mental imagery attachments could go poof, I carried a weightiness that I couldn’t sort through. As I felt this weightiness I saw myself as looking around in what appeared, you know, in terms of inner visualization, a kind of warehouse cluttered with things that I felt I might someday need.

In other words, I could feel how this controlled me, these things that were just there, because I had to at least acknowledge their presence, and had no way of knowing how to open the place up. Then the letting-go inflective hit, in a flash, in which I felt how to go to the end all, be all before me, meaning I could let go to only that which touched me in the flash – and none of this touched me in that flash of light. This was like a denseness.

The result of this vibrational flash was I was able to glean, I was able to denote, to take in, the letting-go vibration, and the energy behind this letting go carried me into a spatial quality of emptiness from which I was able to realize, to recognize, to be in a stillness where I am simultaneously empty and free. Being able to be empty and free is what you always seek, but you’re caught in the weightiness.

So the significance of this is, this dream has caused me to bring through all kinds of thoughts that I was repressing as an aspect of the vibrational weightiness that I had. I don’t mean to walk around in this weightiness, but am. It’s a mental thing, not a heart thing, and it has to do with projecting, in a mental way, responsibilities and duties and such that are imagined in which I rationalize, and of course my way of rationalizing is saying that I need to hold onto it because there are situations and circumstances that are going to come up in which I’m going to need to have this.

But all projections like this come from the mind, not from the heart. When I let go of the mental gymnastics the heart can, in a flash, know what to do, or what not to do. The heart in a flash is free of such contanglements. It’s like, you know, shifting automatically one place to the next. There’s nothing gradual about that.

The meaning is, what I am dreaming about is the distinction between heart and mind. The mind is heavier and geared to reaching reflective conclusions. When the reflective magnetism is dropped, a person is able to experience the heart. The heart is a vibrational letting go to an inner emptiness in which that which dreams this inner place denies the essence of that light.

If the image doesn’t conform to the heartfelt insight of letting go of the mind-conditioned weight that is there, because I do not know how to let go, or be able to release, my beingness into a stillness – I sit in kind of an inner prison. I sit in the mind. I sit in the reflective barrier.

Prior to this dream, there were thoughts and vibrational images I took to be important because I identified with such outer perceptions as physical responsibility. The difference is I came to realize a higher-self responsibility in which I was able to let go of outer physical limitations. The higher-self beingness required an inner freedom to be there as a letting go emptiness in the overall spatiality.

So the importance is I can yield to the importance of not having to constantly carry a mental weight and expectation, preconditioned mannerism, that I’ve imposed upon myself and, therefore, am not letting go of it, and not getting into the overall stillness because I’m making that louder. The question is: can I let go? And if I do let go, am I going to pick it back up again in some other capacity of reflective mental gymnastic and gyration? So that’s the meditation dream.

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