Posts Tagged ‘holding a vibration’

alchemical_cosmosFollowing on from yesterday’s post (see Being True to One’s Self), the imagery continues to plunge Jeane into a kind of chaos or mayhem. The purpose of such images is to demonstrate the need to hold the inner connection no matter what happens. Easier said than done, of course, but the struggle to maintain our connections to our higher self is a fundamental process on the spiritual path. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The next scene it feels like I’ve ridden with Dad downtown, but he gets going pretty fast and there’s a lot of snow, and he kind of goes up on the side of a hill of snow that’s been piled there.

So I pop up out of the car and I end up on the top of the snow, maybe slide down, and Dad’s gone on. He hasn’t quite noticed that I popped out of the car, so he’s gone on down around the corner.

I go looking for him, but I’m not sure where he’s gone. You know, I go around the service station and then it feels like I go to the event that we’re all going to, which is maybe at a church where they’re serving food and again there are a lot of people.

When I get there I tuck my purse around this little corner into a little cupboard, so then I can go on about, noticing the food they’re gathering and all the people that are around. And then I seem to go across the street and my sister and my niece and some other people are at a restaurant, and I look at what they’re being served.

Meanwhile, it feels like Dad has taken off. He’s forgotten he’s supposed to give me a ride back home. I’ve gone over to this building that’s actually like a treatment center building. I’ve gone to look in there, and I remember I’m standing between two elevators. And the elevator doors open and there are two people on one side, and there are some doctors talking right by me that had come out of a room. They’ve opened up a door and I can see the people in there must be getting detoxed or something because I can smell a whiff of marijuana or something and there are some people on the floor.

That must be where people come in when they need to get detoxed. The doctors have left and I’m not sure which elevator to take, the one on the right, or the one on the left? Well, then one on the left arrives first and I get in. There’s just one person in there, and I push the button.

The elevator does this very weird trip up. You feel like it actually is going, I don’t know, not in a straight line but it does kind of a swirl going up. It goes way up to like the ninth floor or something.

Then the door opens and the gal gets out that I realized must have been a patient. She was even lying on the floor when she talked with me. And so goes in somewhere and I look around. Maybe I even talk to some people on that floor.

For some reason I feel like I have my purse, or my phone, or something with me, and she took it, so I look and there may even be an exit on the ninth floor, but I realize I need to go back down to the ground floor.

Even though I’m dubious about it, I think I take the same elevator down. I’m looking around to see if I can do something about locating my purse, because even though she took something, I remember that I’d actually put the purse behind a cupboard, so I went and I found that.

And then it felt like I’ve lost my phone, but then I find my phone in my pocket and I go to see where my sister was at the restaurant and I realize they’d eaten these kind of interesting salads and I have phoned my niece or my dad to come and pick me up again from the house, but I decided before I go there I’m going to take one of these salads up with me and I’m having someone prepare that salad, I think, before I leave.

John: The dream has all kinds of things that have to be sorted out, to try to bring them into some sort of focus. So, the whole thing has to do, again, with discrimination, and how you place your energy and your attention in terms of your overall center of gravity to things.

And maybe the best way of describing it is that you have to have your attention in such a way so that it doesn’t get bifurcated by this, that, and the other around you. And the purpose of a dream like this is to get you to recognize that you actually have to hold on and feel the vibration – and not lose that vibration – as you go about and you do things. Otherwise you end up identifying with the activities that you’re doing.
And when you end up identifying with the activities that you do, then you don’t do other things that you would ordinarily be able to do, and would kind of do, as mannerisms and actions and conduct that you still feel you have a responsibility towards.

So what you’re doing is you’re talking about multiple levels of veiling yourself. In other words, it starts off where you have a responsibility towards your dad in some sense. The fact that you are putting your focus towards a responsibility towards your dad, is also a deviation or bifurcation of the energy from a greater vibration of an overallness that you can feel.

But you choose to do that. You choose to take on that responsibility even though it is a bifurcation from the one singular note or whatever that you could be experiencing.

You then go into further deviations of yourself when you have all of this other activity and mayhem going on, which then occupies and takes up your attention. So that now, even your responsibility towards your dad is turned into another kind of mayhem, because all of this other veils you again, and gets in the road in terms of grabbing your attention, so that whatever was important about how you are aiming your overall focus of beingness, has gotten disarrayed yet again.

What you are dealing with, what the purpose of the dream is doing, is healing you on an energetic level, in terms of the fact that you are seeing, as you’re dreaming, you having this overall quality of your nature that is getting diffused by not being able to hold onto something that keeps it stabilized in terms of what is important.

You’re in a human body, so you’re going to be aiming your attention in an overall sense, in some fashion or another. But you just need to take note on how that comes with a price. And in your particular case, you started with something that for all intents and purposes, in terms of evaluating things, you would say, okay, this is important to me in terms of how I have my overall attention.

But you weren’t able to sustain or maintain that very well because you allowed yourself to be noodled out even further by other little things that were going on, until eventually you’re so diffused that the importance and meaningfulness of how you’re using your overall vibration has gotten dissipated and, as a consequence, your ability to correlate and relate to yourself is getting lost – with each phase.

In other words, because you feel a linkage and a connection to your father, the use of energy in that particular way still can have a way of enhancing or feeding and is not that far astray so that you can’t do both. In other words, it is like the expression, “Head in the clouds and feet on the ground.” But feet on the ground in what regard?

You still have to have the head in the heavens so to speak, or the linkage and connection to something that you know is important that, as you function in life so that you don’t end up all dissipated.

The dream also is a precursor to developing a skill set for magic and changing things. And as the teacher would say, most people can’t really do much damage because their energetic is not refined to the point where it focuses upon being able to shift or to change things. And you had your focus deviated off to one side more than you realized.

And you can monitor all of this. In other words, you feel this, but you’re doing it in an overall way. I look at it specifically, but you have to look at it overall. How is it that you are able to carry the overall and at the same time maintain that connection?

It is a little bit how seed thoughts work. You can have a singular thought that seems harmless in and of itself, that can rise up from the ethers inside you and be fairly attenuated and close to you holding a center with yourself. But then as you start to entertain the thought, the danger, in terms of discrimination, is then that thought leads to this, this, and that and that and that, and pretty soon you’ve lost track of the original place that you started from.

A person that is really diffuse can’t even carry and hold and maintain a conversation. They just drift every which way, they flip flop every which way, because they’re not being true to some listening center inside of them.

What you’re doing is you’ve created this whole slide, energetic slide down, and actually this is a step back. What you’re doing is a step back in order to see how something goes forward. What you’re doing is actually going backwards inside yourself. You actually know better than this, but you’re revisiting it as if it is an old dormant pattern in your nature.

You’re revisiting it so that you can then see, “Well this is why I no longer do it this way. I do know where I want to place my attention.” But it’s useful to see how you look when you get completely diffuse, so that you can realize and recognize that when you do place your attention, however you do that in an overall area of responsibility, that you are making a sacrifice. It does run you full-fledged into sacrificing.

In other words, there is a way of holding yourself in an overallness that does nothing, but we don’t live in a world that does nothing. We live in a world in the outer and you then have to somehow do both. You have to maintain both places.

If you don’t maintain both places, then the value and the orientation that has the discriminating feature inside of you, which is that vibration, gets diffused to the point where all kinds of mayhem occurs around you.

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Jeane: I don’t remember everything in this next dream, but I’m working in an agency that treats people who are addicted to drugs or maybe both drugs and alcohol. As a part of this work, we have to go out on emergency calls and sometimes we work in teams of two or three people.

The other people I work with are in an office in another building. A man there, whom I used to work with, has spread the rumor that I’m going to assault my emergency call team. As a result, one of them plans to assault me first.

An emergency call comes in and, because I know what’s up, I’ve picked up a baseball bat. I know that one man is supposed to sneak up on me, so when he does I just hit his legs out from under him.

While he’s on the ground I make the point that if I had really planned on beating any of them up, I could easily do so now that he’s on the ground. I tell them that that was never my intention, and tell them we should just drop the whole thing.

I know this dream had a lot of other parts to it, vehicles and other things, but I just can’t remember them.

John: Now we are looking at the third dream of the night (see the previous discussion in Part 1 and Part 2). So you began this journey by learning to hold a note, or a vibration – and not doing anything else. This was being done completely on an inner level.

Next we saw you begin to bring it from the inner realms into the outer realms, and the imagery showed you trying to hold that vibration while you re-adjusted to the outer world – you are trying to fit in again, but not lose the vibration you have connected with.

Now we see the story develop even further, with you taking action in the outer realms. So this vibration is being brought further into life in its expression through you. But, the force of this process is pushing and pulling at you.

The key is not to become too reactive to that struggle. The degree to which you react can cause you to lose recognition of what you are trying to bring through. You are trying to embody something new that you have connected to, but it’s not always easy in the face of outer world pressures.

So, in the example you are given, someone has come at you in a threatening way – because they felt threatened by you first. You take a baseball bat and knock him off his feet, but you don’t go any further – you put a stop to the aggression and misunderstanding.

Just having gotten his attention by using a baseball bat is walking a fine line, because that’s dangerously close to completely losing your sense of the overallness that you’re meant to sustain and maintain as a presence in life.

This last dream is showing you how this outer life, this mirage of things, can, if you’re not careful, knock you off your feet no matter how good your intentions. It happens in such a way that you end up responding in kind. What I mean is, you can end up operating at the level of what’s going on around you.

This outer world is what it is. We can make a difference, but not if we buy into it and start acting according to the way it conducts itself.

In this dream process, you’re bringing something into life from somewhere else. Can you maintain that subtler linkage and hearing inside yourself, when placed in a situation in which everything around you doesn’t recognize or support that?

If you can’t, then you are revealing to yourself what needs to be worked on by you in order to eventually hold on and maintain the flow no matter what the outer circumstances.

Everything new that we gain through spiritual dream work and meditation will be tested by the world we live in. It is up to us to be the stillness in the outer chaos. It’s not easy, but that’s how we can eventually come to embody certain qualities that are important to carry into life.

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John: I have two very different dreams here that actually deliver the same message.

In the first dream I’m in very hot and sweaty conditions and I’m supposed to hold onto a vibration in a slow, steady, and consistent way. It wasn’t supposed to be this way – at least it’s not what I expected.

I’m convinced that I can sustain this vibration at an even quicker pace. Then it wouldn’t need to be so slow and be in such a hot, awkward environment.

Still, I resist my temptation to go faster, and as it turns out I see that I was better off going at this very slow pace. Eventually, the environment did cool down.

I found something very humble about this approach – a quiet consistency. There was no fanfare, and no frame of reference because this was not something that I would have chosen. My expectations gave me the urge to speed up. If I had done that, I would have missed out on being able to see myself as being steady, slow, and consistent.

That’s the first dream.

In the next dream, I just an average person and I’m in a parking garage. There is a man there – a dignified businessman in a suit – who has a bicycle as his means of transportation. It’s time for him to take this bike back out onto the street, but he doesn’t trust himself to do it.

What’s odd about this garage is that there’s an embankment that falls off to one side and you have to walk along the edge very carefully. Then you have to back the bike through the door. If you don’t know how to do that you could fall over the edge and never get it out. He’s afraid to try for fear of falling off the edge.

So, here I am, an average Joe, and I’m looking at what’s involved from his perspective, not from my perspective. I’m getting into his paranoia and his concerns and I can feel that they are being exaggerated.

I advise him on how he could proceed, but he won’t proceed. He’s reluctant. So, I say, “I’m so confident in what I see that if you want, I’ll do it for you.” This causes him to snap out of his reactivity for a moment.

He replies, “I’ll have to think about that,” which means he’ll just go into another kind of paranoia. I say, “I’ll give you two minutes to decide, no more.” He replies, “I believe you can do it, so go ahead.”

I take the back part of the bike off. I see a door off to one side, so I take the back part of the bike through that door and there is a little place that joins the outside and I shove the back part of the bike out of the parking garage. I didn’t even know about this door earlier – it wasn’t part of the plan.

However, the bulk of the bike won’t fit out that way, so I have to do what I had originally planned and go along the narrow embankment edge. So, I have to shift, from his fearful eyes to my knowing eyes, and the whole thing looks effortless to me – once the reactivity is taken out.

So, without even thinking I walk from one end of the parking garage to the other along the edge, as if it’s no big deal, and realize all I need to do is repeat that process with the rest of the bike.

When you put these two dreams together, what they are showing me is that I need to deal with life as it exists. In both scenarios, expectations color my perception of what should happen. In both instances, what should be an effortless process is made much more difficult because of what I bring to the situation in terms of reactivity or expectation.

If conditions are awkward, I can still go that route. Things don’t have to unfold according to my expectations, or timetable, for me to be connected. I need to drop these self-imposed limitations. Mostly these perspectives are never about serious issues anyway, they’re just mental distractions or old patterns. When I feel the strength from within, I’m able to proceed effortlessly; the problems just fall away.

So, on an energetic level, when expectation and reactivity fall away, the part of me that’s in emptiness, or in freedom, takes over with ease. It changes my experience of everything.

When this knowingness from within is reached, everything becomes simple for us. When I drop my projections about how I think things should proceed, it allows what is meant to be to occur naturally. The connection then is to a greater overall state that is simply there, without anything to complicate its overallness.

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