Posts Tagged ‘holding an inner space’

rs33tWe have seen how our dreams are always trying to help us make inner connections, and give us guidance, for how to handle the processes of life. Yet we can also, consciously, take our outer situation, and, in this example, the outer situation is a health issue, and bring it into our inner processes for letting go and healing. This idea helps us to remember that we really are a wholeness, and that our systems want to help us heal and have the best opportunity for succeeding on our way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: When I went into the meditation, I had this strange physical condition, in that there was something that was impacting the way I was able to hold the space within, something that held my attention in kind of a way that was caused a constant echoing pain. And so this resulted in the meditation dream being something that I had to take into account, or utilize, or otherwise it would predominate, in order to truly let go.

Now, in the past, when I’ve had it, I have taken whatever the illness is and incorporated it into the dream and got it to dissipate, or lose its overriding sense of significance. And this had to be handled in somewhat the same way, in that if one continued to look at it, in terms of its significance, in terms of its loudness, you wouldn’t hear, or recognize, anything else but that. And I know that I have this quality inside of myself that’s able to absorb the characteristics of other things around me without being infected.

So, somehow, I found myself having to utilize this principle, pulling it all into a quality of wholeness, and, to what degree was I able to do that? There was this in-between zone that came up in which that there was something that I could sensate, that had the deep innerness, and then there was something in the physical that was not affected – in which that was all not in the ordinary, but just a dense, dense state.

And so, then, in-between would be then this point where I was neither in the inner, and neither in the outer, or be this kind of middle zone. And so this is a place where you don’t actually go anywhere, but you’re not really in the physical, and you’re not in the inner, but, by not being in the physical your ego and senses don’t quite come together under any kind of spellbound control – and so there’s no way of indulging. You’re not really indulging, in other words. You’re just in-between. You’re not really going anywhere.

And so the sensation was, then, hallucinogenic, and various things would pop in, like I would see, for example, options that could be used to rectify, or accommodate, being able to get used to the eye, for example, hurting, like one of them was even seeing that I had reached a point where I was able to give back the bottle, or whatever, that one used to drop something in the eye.

And I notice that when I went into the space that resulted in that, I recognized that I had gone into an area where the two conditions predominated: one of sheer physical density, not thinking and contending with anything, just blindly going forward. And then, the other, that had this huge innerness, that had a sense and sensibility about it. And noticed that the result, then, was like another beingness that couldn’t sort itself out very well, that was caught by moods and stuff, and the moods were the father, and the beingness, when it figured that out, was able to kind of support and hold that overall space. But it didn’t do anything for my condition, other than suggest that I push my way quite a ways through.

So that was like the meditation dream, and so then the sleep dream had to be done in a way so that you weren’t in this in-between state with the quality of something keeping you from going somewhere.

So the sense of letting go, again, the greater letting go, had the sense of like images of pouring water over your head, in a way of kind of cleansing, of which to do all of that resulted in kind of another kind of battle over the fact that, who has the right to do this? Which was whatever was the predominant energy, in terms of what I was holding out on.

Or instead of the image of what one could do, in terms of regulating and focusing the soul energy over the equation, I had the dream glimpses of being able to get out of the car and move in a way in which your feet would be washed, again a way of cleaning and letting go, so that something more can happen.

And then in terms of laying here, prior to the alarm going off, and even after the alarm going off, there was a soothing state that had that kind of quality and condition about it. In other words, there wasn’t the mannerism that’s projected in terms of having to sustain a particular modality. It’s as if what took place pointed out the absurdity of that, because a lot of that middle zone that one contended with stayed as a middle zone, because one couldn’t find the fluidity properly, just was continually acting up in a last second way that was kind of jarring you, and so had to be held accountable by this whole new way, deeper way, of being.

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Within-the-EmptinessIn this dream scenario, John finds himself in one of two rooms. He is in the empty room, while the other holds a vicious dog. These two rooms can be seen to represent the inner and outer worlds. Can the two worlds interact safely? The challenge of a spiritual journey is to maintain the inner emptiness, while having involvement with the chaos of the outer world. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the next dream it starts off in which there are two rooms, and a door separates the two rooms from each other. And I am in a room that is empty except for my presence, and in the other room, in which the door is closed, is a vicious dog that is out of control.  

As long as I remain where I am at, there’s nothing that can affect me, because the door keeps these two places separate. I’m suddenly made aware of the dog in the next room, as if the door is cracked open or something, or I can see through the door. 

I can see that the dog is out of control in his eagerness to tear someone, or something, to pieces. The dog lacks focus and attention in terms of how to channel this energy. The dog is in such a pent up condition that, because there’s nothing directly in front of it to channel this pent up nature, it’s going catatonic attacking the floor, chewing on the floor.

The meaning is that a turbulence exists that I do not have to directly invoke. I’m able to see this from within and, because of this inner consciousness, I am able to see what lies ahead. In other words, in terms of the lower self of one’s nature, or the density of something in creation, you can actually start to see how something is intended to unfold.

And you see it from this empty room space I am in, in which there is this inner space that is able to note energetically what lies ahead. And because you’re noting it pre-manifestation, you’re noting it in a way that is before a manifestation in which you’re in front of something there that can tear you to pieces. 

When I shift to a state that is between the two worlds, I’m challenged to reconcile both conditions, both states, the state where there’s the emptiness, and then the state where there’s something that is totally out of control.

I see the empty space I have within or, in other words I can feel the empty space I have within, and now I am put in a position as to whether I can take that as an awareness into a world in which everything is being torn to pieces.

If I am consumed by the mad dog outer, then the inner state where there is a quiet aliveness and aloneness, and peaceful abeyance, is going to be lost. In other words, you have to hold that at the same time that you’re able to go into the upheaval. So can I handle both? 

That is the mission that is impossible, if I’m not able to work with both states simultaneously in order to create a shift in the flow. From this dream I’m meant to realize that the shift has to be from a depth within where nothing exists yet, in an outward capacity.

So I have to use this empty space to bring through a vibrational shift, which acts upon the focus, attention, and energetic mannerisms that currently predominate. In other words, instead of those continuing to live out, and they have a life and a manifestation that they will continue to keep unfolding and reflecting and spiraling, in order to deal with that, one has to get to a point where that is all absolved in terms of how something comes across or comes through.

In your particular case, that sort of thing that you’re confronted with would be absolved through the vacuum cleaner, which is able to come into the room and make sure that the space stays empty. Because it’s only if the state stays totally undefiled and empty, is it possible for you to be able to link to, and connect to, the energetic flow from within that needs to be brought forth into life.

But if you perceive something as being too much, or reject that, then whatever you go into in terms of a condition, or an outer state, of yourself, whatever you go into is going to be taking that out of control, or dog animal, energy of yourself, which can have a loyalty, but is still deluded and is still deluded by having to respond to the outer conditions – as if those outer conditions exist independently of you.

You can do it all from this empty space, but who can sit in this empty space?

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Inner Self8In these dream images, Jeane is struggling with spaces – where and when to meet a sailing group, and where to have her offices. Yet, ultimately, what this points out is the need to be able to hold a space – within oneself – as a part of the overallness. Once Jeane reaches that point, she is able to reconnect with the flow, and the space she is in adapts to that. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The second half of my dream is so loud that I lost a lot of the first half. What I remember of the first half of the dream is it feels like I’m trying to get together with a group of people who are meeting. 

They’re meeting in the evening, maybe even in a bar or someplace, but what they’re really meeting for is that they’re forming a sailing class, but it’s a class that’s going to learn how to sail certain types of boats.

And some people have done this before and others haven’t, and so we’re going to meet and I guess part of the purpose of the meeting is to pair up and things. That’s about all I really remember of the first part of the dream. 

It’s trying to kind of coordinate to get together with these people, and trying to figure out who had sailed before and who hadn’t, and where the class was going to be and all of that. The other part of the dream got so loud.

John: Well, what you are doing is, you’re having to hold the space, you’re having to determine what the setting needs to be in, that you’re able to then take off and sail. And so that’s what you’re attuning yourself to, vibrationally, is the space that you have to hold, or maintain.

So you start off doing that in order to continue.

Jeane: Part of where the dream goes is, it feels like I’m in some kind of a medical setting where I work, and most of the people who do counseling have their offices in one part of the building, but I seem to be in another part. And this part isn’t terribly well arranged.  

But I do have two offices that adjoin each other, and maybe even though some people come and go in one, I can see people there, and there’s a little confusion about whether I’m supposed to meet with somebody or not.

So somebody does show up, and it feels like before I see someone, it’s almost like one or two of the other therapists come by and we’re actually looking at the space because they would kind of like me to be where their offices are, but the difficulty I have with that is the office I’m in now, even though it’s somewhat separate, it has windows and stuff and I don’t think theirs do.

So I’m a little reluctant to give up having windows, but after they’ve left, even though I don’t remember scheduling an appointment, it’s like I have somebody come and I’m having trouble now with a place to see them. 

And then somebody else comes at the same time, and before I know it, there are three of us and we’re sitting at more of a table, and I’m trying to first see this woman who brings in her little girl, about a 10-year-old, who’s a little nervous about seeing a therapist.

Whatever office I have, it just seems to be now I’m just in a space where I seem to have to see people just as they come, wherever I’m at, because where I’m at keeps changing at this part of the dream.  

This woman with the daughter that maybe doesn’t speak that much English and she’s brought her in and she needs to be seen, but I’m still sitting at a table now with one other person who has come to see me, but I have to do something first to reassure the little girl.  

Then it just feels like those people are gone, and there are some people that I’ve counseled that I’ve seen in a group before, but suddenly they’re showing up individually, and before I can see one, the other one pops up and the space keeps kind of expanding. And I’m trying to sort out how to fit some of them in.

And then I see another one I hadn’t even known was there sitting and waiting. Then I go over and I look for a piece of paper to write something on, and it has all already got writing on it by you, or by somebody else, and I have to keep turning it over until I find a piece that I can put something on. 

So I’m just trying to figure out now, I’m trying to write down the name of at least one of them so I can sort some stuff out here, and then I try to tell them that maybe I can sort it out where I give a certain number of minutes to one person, and then I see another person who I guess I’d started talking to, and now she wants some more time, too. 

I can’t remember her name. Then I glance out. It feels like we’ve shifted from an office to where we’re all sitting on a bus. 

John: First of all, in the first part of your dream, you establish as a base the fact that you have to work in an overall way. You have to find the flow that takes into account everything around you. And you’re finding what that feels like, and how that feels to you is how you’re meant to be in relationship to this overall.

But then as the dream progresses, you’re still trying to guide, or direct, or hold onto something – like whether you have an office with windows or something like that. And so you’re still trying to hold back something in terms of the whole flow, in other words, where you have certain things that would be nice to have, your creature comforts yet.

When you let go of that, and are able to be affected by things randomly, or just in the flow of life as life comes to you, as opposed to having to steer it, or guide it, in some capacity, you find that that this, then, takes you back into the flow.

So you’re now able to meet with the groups, with the overall again. You somehow or another created a distraction when you had to have, or felt you needed to have, a particular kind of space from which to work.

But now that you realize that you can work from whatever the dynamic is that you end up in, and can meet with the group and be okay, you’re realizing that the difference between the first part of the dream, and then this dream, is you’re coming back to what is essential, in terms of letting go, so that you can carry the greater overallness. 

You would have thought the dream would have ended there, because that’s plenty of dream right there, but it doesn’t. The dream then says that when you have developed the ability to meet with the overallness of others, and have let go of the need to protect some sort of space that you have to do this in, so that you can do this in whatever setting you’re in, then you can now have more of an effect, which is more masculine oriented, which is you can now, instead of providing the overall setting, you’re now able to take and work succinctly and directly with individuals as opposed to the group.

In other words, instead of being a quality that’s able to hold the overall space together for something that is important to the Whole, you’ve done that, and so that has been established. You don’t have attachments to sort out, so you’re holding the acuity of that together, and you’re holding it so much so together that you have that capacity inside of yourself to bring something through.

Usually you can’t bring something through if you’re fogged up with moods, or mannerisms, which still haven’t been made comfortable. And so when you’ve been able to accept the overallness, you can then go and make another shift inside yourself, which is a masculine shift, and bring something through specifically, which is oriented to being able to work one-on-one.

And now from this, you’re now progressing, because you were doing this all within a contained environment, and now your dream sounds like it’s about ready to progress into going out of yourself now or, in other words, into the bigger schematic of what’s considered an outer, as opposed to just the inner – because the inner and the outer have to be one and the same, too.

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