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The_key_to_happiness_by_kuschelirmelSpiritual development requires letting go of the way we identify personally with the events in our lives, which means we have to give up our hope of controlling events around us. We can move in that direction by holding an inner space within us, connected to our awareness of the overall. In doing this, we can be guided by the grace of something greater, rather than struggling to do everything on our own. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In this dream, it feels like not so very long ago, but long enough that I’ve adjusted, that maybe I’ve separated from a relationship. I have a cousin or a girlfriend who has come over to visit me, and she also seems to have separated, but more recently, so she’s still a little in that kind of stage you’re in when it’s a recent separation.

When it’s time for her to leave, I drive her home, and even though this is a cousin actually on my dad’s side of the family, she’s living in my mother’s mother’s home. I go in the house with her and she’s staying there, and it feels like a girlfriend of mine from childhood is staying there too.

And then a man comes over, who is recently separated from a relationship, and the three of them are talking but, because it’s late at night, I’m actually kind of tired so I have kind of laid down with my head on the table to rest awhile before I drive home, listening to the conversation.

I know there are some things that I could even add or counsel them because I’ve been separated longer than they are, and also having been a therapist I kind of know some of the stages people go through, but I just keep my mouth shut and listen.

At one point even a girl comes to the back door, a young woman. She must not be appropriately dressed because she comes to see the guy, or talk to him, or maybe she just is looking for something, I don’t know. He goes to talk to her for a minute and it seems like when I look at this gal it’s almost like a comic book in that maybe because she’s so skimpily dressed that they’ve censored it, you know, like there’s a band across maybe where her eyes are, and there’s another band across maybe where her top was because she wasn’t wearing much.

Whatever she is wearing is black, and I figure that’s just part of the adjustment the guy is going through right now. He talks to her for a few minutes. Then I decide that it’s time for me to go home.

Well, when it’s time for me to leave, no one walks me out to the car, and it’s gotten really dark out. So as I walk out to the car, suddenly I’m having a little bit of trepidation because I’ve shut the door behind me and I can’t remember if I have a key to my car.

Then I decide my key is in my pocket, but then what if I didn’t lock my car and someone has gotten in it? I just suddenly am having that trepidation, and I wished they would have walked me to my car because it’s so dark out and I think that’s when I wake up.

John: Your dream is about this idea or process, that one has to have, of a kind of stability. And so you’re shown, or required I should say, to have to compare that which is able to be in sync with a stable old change that you’ve learned to abide by, which has grounded you and rooted you in a kind of balanced overall. Versus that which is volatile in nature, which is ungrounded and therefore lacks a certain kind of energetic prudence.

And the nature of that which is recent, meaning causing you to go through reactions based upon something that has become used to a habitual past, is that you are finding yourself having to act more out of holding on to habits than you would be reacting if you had learned to carry the conditions as they change.

And so the dream is a dream that’s trying to show you how to understand, for yourself, the importance of maintaining an overall presence that supersedes the comfortabilities of the control on the day-to-day level.

In other words, you are being required to feel the difference of how you can have the day-to-day variabilities, which can cause your attention to lurch forward into this day-to-day variabilities, and you’re comparing that, on an energetic level, with what it’s like to have the stability that comes with a long-term, overall rootedness, which has become natural and accepting and has found the space of balance over time because it has given itself permission to take on a Wholeness as opposed to a reactionariness.

You’re feeling all of that, and of course you’re putting this into the context of something in which some part of you is saying to yourself that you know that whatever one does in the short-term is disturbing.

Then the dream progresses, because you’re all parts of the dream, and so you then become a person who has been affected, and been in a household or in an environment, in which you’ve been hit by, or affected and impacted by, the herky-jerkiness of habitual energy that is trapped and caught in its nuances. In other words, that doesn’t have a sense of overall presence and balance.

And what that does is, that creates a shorting out so that you lose your sensibilities. You lose the sensibilities at the time that you’re in such a house, and the disturbance that that creates continues, so that when you go outside of the house, or basically when you then have to function in the overall with the presence, you can find yourself disoriented too.

And this is a tricky dream because on one level it shows the importance of the presence in terms of maintaining a Wholeness of yourself, and on the other level it shows the importance of, well, it shows that you actually lose the key to your own being – if you don’t hold a space.

And of course you leave that space and try to go outside, instead of being able to hold the space, and balance that space out – inside the house. So then when you go outside, and because you have given up on the idea of holding the space because you have a sense and you know that this has got to end badly for people that don’t know how to settle back and allow things to adjust, so when you then go outside, which means it’s your way of moving away from something like that, your key to understanding and holding a benefit for the Whole was in staying in the house, when you go outside to try to get in the car, or to distance yourself from something that’s awkward and imbalanced, you can’t find the key.

You find the key by being able to contend with what’s thrown in your face, because in the dream you’re also the part that has the rootedness, the understanding of the presence, that’s longstanding. And you know that about yourself, but you also then have the parts of you that are reactionary to something that changes, and affects it, which creates an immediate disturbance because it causes you to lose a connection, or threatens you in terms of losing a connection to that which has the grounded, rooted composure.

And so if you fight to maintain the composure, and move away from something like that, or find yourself leaving and feeling glad and free that you’re able to leave that sort of thing, as if it’s going to be better, that sort of abandonment, without you having absorbed it, and taken it in, and solidified it, because you do have the deeper center inside of you that can do that, will leave you disconnected.

In other words, mentally speaking, the idea of pulling out of a confusion and away from a confusion tends to make sense, rationally speaking, but energetically speaking, it causes you to remain lost, or to get further lost, because you’re abandoning some part of yourself that you’re meant to be able to take in and contend with, because you have – deep, back, in a depth of yourself – you have the understanding and the abilities to hold that as part of an overallness, with a respect, and a grounding that you know you can trust, that has run the test of time.

But in the dream you’re seeing the foibles of things that are short-term. You’re feeling the long-term effect. You required to take and hold that. You’re given that choice.

When you take and inadvertently think that you can move away from the other, because you know that that can’t end well. In other words, you have your understanding in terms of relationships that are freshly wounded, that they tend to gravitate to woundology decisions, as opposed to grounded decisions, and so you come to the conclusion that you don’t need to go through that, you don’t need to contend with that.

But the dream scenario is a scenario in which you carry a soundness that you’re refusing to apply, and so when you refuse to apply the soundness to the need of the situation, and you move away from it instead of being there for it, you yourself then lose what you had. You lose your key. You too become, then, scattered and confused, because you failed to meet the challenge.

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In terms of symbolism, a key is one of the most universal. In Jeane’s dream, a car park in a forest leads to the question of who has the key? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: This morning’s dreams, the first one I remember, I find myself parking my car in a parking lot in the forest. And it’s kind of a small circular parking lot in the forest. But then once I’ve parked the car, I notice I have to get the valet key to lock it, which tells me that actually the car had already been parked, and I must have come and gotten it, and then driven it back. Because obviously the main key is with someone else.

John: You’re having complicated dreams. I mean, that’s an interesting dream, too.

It’s like having a perception that has a reverb in it, which means that your perception goes along, and then reverbs or vibrates back, or amnesically loses a remembrance. Which means that it does that because it has a confusion in relationship to how it sees itself and its own sight or connectivity.

It’s like if you had a clarity that saw something straightaway, the memory and everything would be right there. But if there are things that affect that clarity, because you had doubts, or you have issues that you think you need to sort out or something like that, then you short yourself out. Then you’re deviating back into something that has a personal aspect to it.

There you’re dropping the linkage to the whole, and there you’re assuming that something is separate from yourself, or that you’re separate from the whole, which is usually the case. In other words, that’s how you tend to see it usually – that you’re in some capacity separate. And if you’re in some capacity separate it’s the same thing as giving up a certain authority or power of your inner being.

Because you aren’t separate; you’re part of the whole. And as a consequence of you doing that, and having this yo-yo affect that goes back and forth and back and forth, that should know itself in the wholeness, but then keeps seeing itself in the separateness, you develop this reverb in the energy in which you can’t remember – you’re not staying abreast of the flow.

In other words, you’re losing the recognition of how something is designed to unfold – and you can have an awareness of it – and because you doodle back to something that’s bugging you or bothering you, you give up the energy of the intertwined recognition that you have.

It’s like going from an element of a type of consciousness, to a flashback, or I should say a huge kind of step back, to where you don’t quite get it anymore. And then you try to take it from where you don’t quite get it anymore, to remembering something. Well, how can you remember something? Because whenever you take and do that sort of thing, where you veil yourself with a mannerism, that’s when you lose the sight that was there.

This dream is actually kind of similar to the dreams you were dreaming last night (see The Hearing Center), in that the subject matter seems to be: What are the traits, or qualities, or characteristics, that one carries on an energetic imbalance? And it’s an energetic imbalance in which you still buy into relating to something separate from yourself.

Well, I guess what it’s doing is it’s showing you the consequences of doing that, that it causes you to lose the naturalness that you carry and automatically know. Because the pristineness of that is a quality that just sees and knows. And when you take and shock yourself with something else as being valid, and a separate thing for you to have to contend with, that blurs and veils what you were experiencing, when it was all open and free.

Jeane: I also say the dream kind of shows us that we’re usually given a key that will show us what the truth is; it reminds us.

John: Well, you had the key at the very beginning, but then you lost the key so the issue is how is it that you lost the key?

Jeane: I never lost the key. I just lost what the reality was. The key that was there reminded me of what the reality was.

John: It reminded you that you have to hold the center in yourself, because you always have the key. It’s not something that gets deferred. And in deferring, it caused you to forget where it was, because you always had it.

In other words, you took a step back and identified it as something going on that is separate from yourself, and therefore you forgot your overall remembrance of the key, the overall knowingness that the key is you.

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Today, John’s dreams highlight the energetic difference between connecting to what we see around us, or reaching a deeper level and connecting to the energy behind what we see around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, that [Jeane’s dream, see Part of the Equation] was a good way of doing it, and it causes me to have to tell my dream last night, that I had when I went to bed, first, before telling the meditation dream, because it has a similar kind of chemistry about it.

It does it slightly differently but, because I’m the masculine, I tend to often times not see what it is that is right in front of me, that should be obvious for me to see.

The feminine nature just finds itself in just some sort of state that exists in the outer, and whether it has an inner connection or not to begin with, the feminine just doesn’t make that distinction because its concern doesn’t tend to function that way and, as a result, the way its attention does function it has to do more with how it feels the overallness of the space, or not, and the masculine’s attention functions in terms of the specifics, the detail, the way something comes down, or the way something is impacted, or affected, as a kind of almost a discriminatory way of being, but what you’re discriminating is hopefully conceivably the dropping away of the slower limitations of the outer, to adhere to the only thing that is real which is the inner coming into outer flow.

This is the role, the responsibility, of the masculine, which is often times said that it of having the passage rite of bringing in the clarity. This in a way is almost so simple that you have to keep saying it over and over again because it’s so easy to miss it. And the reason why it’s so easy to miss it is because we live in an outer world, and so the perceptions are based upon the senses and when the perceptions are based upon the senses, and maybe that occurs say 99% of the time, and the senses then correlate to how we think, the inclination then is to make reflective decisions based upon how the outer is unfolding, instead of from the faster energy that is tweaking all of it.

So, to show how one gets spoiled or dumbs down or loses clarity or how all of that kind of tweaks back and forth, I have three aspects. You had three aspects. I mean your third aspect was bringing in the Led Zeppelin. Your middle aspect was recognizing how to not have to be in a hillbilly mode, which has got to feel absolutely horrible because you don’t have any energy there, and everything is just getting by day by day. At least the second part had more interest to it, but it too would get nauseating at some point based upon the fact that it did and you recognized that something more from an inner level was needed, thus came the Led Zeppelin music.

In my dream I start off with, first of all, kind of being in a recognition of the inner into outer flow, I mean just kind of naturally there. I don’t have to be told. I mean maybe if everything is left in its perfect state of coordinated ordination, it’s going to work like that. And so, the first part of the dream is reflecting the fact that I’m settling for an old energetic habit.

In other words, that becomes the message, and it becomes the message because the way I notice it is as follows: I start off with the dream making a choice that on the outer level also makes sense.

In other words, I know what the inner level is saying, but it just so happens that the outer level is also kind of in a kind of cohesion. It’s still somewhat quickened, or alivened, or affected on a one-to-one direct correspondence to the inner flow. So you could actually, to begin with, spoil yourself by actually settling for making a decision in relationship to what you see as outer quickened events that are happening around you. And it will work out if you do that.

And when it works out like that you tend to get spoiled and you tend to think that that’s okay as well. It’s just like a person who takes and goes on a gambling machine and wins the jackpot and even though they intellectually know that the odds are designed to beat them in the end, they somehow or another go into an active imagination inside themselves that thinks they are above and beyond that scenario, and that they have some sort of rights based upon how something worked out in the outer.

But the whole design of things, that has been designed from the inner, that was designed as an outer mannerism, they lose that recognition and then you beat up on yourself and you get delirious.

Well, to begin with, this is something like that. I’ve gotten spoiled because it just so happened that you could make this decision based upon an inner into outer, which requires a little more consciousness and a little more attentiveness, and you could have been a little bit stupid and made it based upon the outer consequence of what was unfolding – and it would have been just fine. It would have just happened to work out just fine.

Well, when you do that you dull yourself down. You’re dropping yourself to the lowest common denominator, so the next thing you know that when you see the next sequence of images, you dulled yourself so you don’t necessarily know which is the inner and which is the outer.

So everything, the distinction, everything seems very, very hard to decide, very, very hard to know which is the inner and which is the outer, because you’ve dulled yourself.  You no longer have a ready access to the subtler inner inflections, and you have lost touch of the overall connectivity. Now you’re relying more heavily upon the outer senses, and so you put yourself into kind of a…

Without a succinct clarity or subtler adherence to the inner coming into outer awareness, you’re hit and miss, you’re all over the place, you fall back into the fog and the delirium, in other words, which is easy to do because, as I indicated, your surroundings support that because it is 99% awareness through the senses of the outer that you’re in, so it’s hard for you to hold a consciousness that adheres to a general overall vibration, which is what is alive that comes through, and that is what we are.

We’re created in the image of that inner into outer vibration, and that we need to adhere to that. It can be described in various ways as a raging wind, or light, or however you want to say it, but it is where the attention needs to be placed, because the outer is nothing more than a reflection of that in a slower way.

And because it’s in a slower way it sometimes can be in the past, and this other vibration, this raging wind or light or whatever you want to call it or a fire or inferno or whatever you want to call it, of an innerness, can be in the moment. And because it’s so much faster the outer consequences can be left behind. Thus if you’re reflecting and making decisions based upon the outer consequences, you can get it wrong because you’re not where the attention and the focus is supposed to be, which is this… well, as I describe, which is the secret substance.

In this phase where I have lost the clarity and need to be able to discriminate to what is real, I place myself into scenarios in which I suffer, because I’m making decisions based upon the outer. I suffer because I’m not complying with the inner into outer overall knowingness; in other words settling for outer nuances.

In the third phase of dreaming, I have reawakened to how I need to be. There isn’t much to report because when I recognize and adhere to the inner into outer flow, everything works out as it is meant to do. In other words, what works out is what is intended, and I come to just readily embrace and accept that because the other is not the real way of going – that’s the deviations.

The reason that everything works out as it needs to be is because I am following a conscious inner knowingness that is connected to the overall energetic that predominates in all of creation, instead of the denser outer reflections that often times misrepresent what is really going on.

The reason the outer sense perceptions get it wrong on many occasions is because that which is the inner, Will of God, is like a light, and the outer reflections are often left behind are more like a delayed effect that correlates more to that which is in the past, thus being too slow.

Your dream correlated to this. Do you see how it was, one, two, and three? You said more simply though. I had a big long deal there. You didn’t have much going on, but every sentence there changed the energetic and I was afraid that if you cued the third in, I might not have the ability to take all three of those and distinguish them as they needed to be distinguished because they were a process.

In my meditation dream, I am seeing myself able to maintain, in other words whatever the maintaining means in terms of what is going on around me, even though it isn’t easy because the situation where I am not moving, or doing anything to… it’s not easy because I am in a situation in which I am not moving, there is no motion, kind of like your hillbilly scene, and not doing anything to affect the dull state that I’m in.

I guess what I’m saying I’m doing is, I’m holding onto a condition that is fixated, and there’s a fine line between being fixated, in terms of caught up in the outer, and being caught and fixated upon something that lets go of the outer and just adheres to the inner, that’s transcendent.

In this particular image I’m doing the flip side, I am fixated upon the inner, and I can tell I’m close to waking up, in other words where I’m going to have to come out of the inner back into the outer. I’m doing my best to maintain my support for the prevailing condition. The prevailing condition is I am in a place where the inner is quickened, and when I awaken, back into the outer, how much of that am I going to be able to sustain and maintain – as the deeper part inside myself?
When I do awaken, open my eyes, I realize that I am letting go of a focus I had been in deep within as I am coming back into creation. And in doing that is when I realize where I am at and why. By that I mean I realize I’m in creation, which is in an outer, and for a split second there’s the inflection of what there is as a deeper purpose in the outer, but that’s such a fleeting inflection that it quickly evaporates because I’m back in the outer and whatever the burdens and the mannerisms and the traits that are going on in the outer, that dominate over me, is all picked up.

So what I am saying is that, as I’m maintaining the inner state, when I’m in my deep sleep, and therefore situated in its energetic, intertwined focus, on an outer level there is an imagery, more or less a designed condition to that occurrence, but it’s reflective and it can be very slowed down.

What happens as soon as I break the inner link, I come back into my physical senses. In coming back I automatically lose the focus to a deeply entrenched inner awareness. What I’m able to barely remember is what I write up each evening as my meditation dream. I am always amazed by what comes up each time.

In other words, reflect upon, or still carry as some sort of wavering essence, from deep within. And to catch up with it, it has this dreamlike quality so that I can sort it out from the symbolic of the dream. I’m amazed, over and over again, that what is really going on is this inner energetic flow from deep within.

This inner energetic flow is what shapes creation. The effect from this innerness appears to remain unconscious when I fail to notice the deeply symbolic dream images night after night. In other words, if you just fall asleep and nothing is going on then you are just affected by the affairs of the outer and this other is so deep within that you are amnesiac to it.

As a consequence, of essentially addressing this mannerism, a mannerism between distinction between the inner and the outer, I am now realizing that what I am able to notice, which comes across as a dream, is the result of a secret inner substance and its inner message.

I mean, what else is it? It’s something that’s going on from somewhere really, really, really deeply inside, kind of like a teacher would call it that we’re created in the image of a thought of God, so to speak, and that then has a consequence of an action and out of that arises all of this innerness that is quickened.

And then you find yourself in the outer trying to figure out how all of that works out in the malaise where it is dumbed down and hidden.

The subject matter of my correlation to this inner aliveness, or awareness, is unlimited because what I am able to perceive more and more is this deeper and deeper awakening inner consciousness.

In other words, I perceive more from the epicenter to all that there is, and that all that there is takes in this entire plane of manifestation. When I’m in manifestation, relating to my senses with the mind then correlating itself to those senses, I tend to look at things in such a microcosmic way that it’s very easy for me just to not catch this big picture, or the perception at the epicenter.

What I know by the inner vibration and its corresponding symbolic images stems from… well, you could call it a thought of God, or you can call it the secret essence behind all of manifestation. Without this inner secret substance that is at the core to everything, there would be a nothingness.

Perceiving this causes me to notice that the energetic vibration which we perceive to be the inner aliveness originates from within our inner being and is feeding corresponding outer images on the plane of manifestation.

It’s like feeding them, or you might say that the slower denser part of our self is throwing off that kind of remainder effect, in a slower way instead of the faster way, in which it’s all there in the moment at the time, as is this raging wind or something. If this inner energetic vibration were to ceased to exist, there would be no awareness, and without a sense of awareness there would be no creation.

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