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What propels us through life? Every day we wake and try to move things forward – it could be anything, but we usually are trying to improve something, or create something, or understand something. Are these many urges, or are they variations on a singular urge for something more? Are we compelled by a search for meaning and purpose, and, because we often don’t readily find satisfaction in those territories, we aim for satisfaction in areas that are more manageable like a career, or a business, or a family? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Very unusual subject matter. I’m actually trying to dream it in an in-breath way, the intertwinement. So, in the meditation dream, I am searching for a large container capable of holding onto an inner vibratoriness; going to take everything that’s vibratory into this container.

I’m not able to get satisfied. Consequently, I carry an uneasy frustration as a pressure, which plagues me. In other words, in the dream I don’t see myself as finding what I seek, but, what I do notice is I am somehow provided or given more than what my mind or senses would bargain for. That is, if I were able to understand, or know, what to do with the energy, the incarnated kind of vibrations, at this time.

The veils that exist, exist because I choose to look at things as if you have to catch up, which means that I’m separate. So sitting in this kind of strange sensation, where you’re kind of in a void, causes me to have a sense that how I am is foreign to the overallness, has caused me to come to realize that I have not absorbed it. This shows that I am not properly grateful, and that’s a quality of heart, now, where you put your hand on the heart.

I’m always looking as if there is something more. Such a manner is occasionally dangerously close to, and keeps the collateral damage, or the karma happening. You’d call it karma, but it’s like really another way of saying it’s a collateral damage, because as you get closer to something the degree to which you deviate you, with your energy, affect the denseness of things, the matter of things, and this sets in motion karma, or collateral damage. 

Nevertheless, not knowing what I am doing as I probe beyond my state of beingness, which we always do because then you have the in-breath that goes up to that stillness point, even though we don’t notice that. Because it’s like that, and it’s there as kind of unconscious, what you find in the outbreath you can’t stand. Not really. 

And, to go back and forth like this, the only thing you can say about it is such seeking is both productive and counterproductive. I am a human that is never satisfied and seeking more and more; you could say that that is something that doesn’t know its limitations because it has a remembrance of something, somewhere, and somehow differently. 

What this means is I am going outside of my current state of being, and, if I’m going outside of my current state of being, that means I’m taking the energetic into an out-breath, and there’s the corresponding in-breath. And so the greater density of things that everyone can take and see that they’re trying to make their life completely according to the outer way of things, can have a subtler aspect to which you could say that you also could be spiritually materialistic. Such material-ness is noticed upon the out-breath as I keep trying to consolidate the experience in a graspable way. In other words, whatever you experience even on an angelic in-breath side of yourself you try to consolidate, you try to own, hold on to in the outer. This is the pattern instead of realizing that everything is intertwined, and that it’s held in a wholeness; you yo-yo like this. And when you yo-yo you incur collateral damage because such a mannerism lacks the heartfelt graciousness. In other words, you’re not allowing yourself to experience the whole of the heart. 

Or you could maybe say it in another way, that there is a dormant effect that you’re not seeing. A dormant effect meaning because you’re only seeing yourself, or you’re seeing the outer of things, and you’re not seeing how you’re intertwined with all of that. Nevertheless, you kind of carry some sort of innate trust that there’s something more. And that’s the positive aspect in terms of the seeking. 

The counterproductive is the aspect that yo-yos and goes around, trying to somehow or another make it come together in a different kind of way. But whatever is realized in the spiritual inner has to be grounded in the outer. And people don’t know how to ground it in the outer. 

The trust is a positive part of what I seek. However, what incarnates as a form of groundedness is reflective only. In other words, the degree to which you’re free reflects in the outer, and the degree to which you’re off on some illusionariness also is visible in the outer. And who you are is all of those outer extensions. You have to pull all of that back in.

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12BgeWe may have noticed the many lives within us: one thinks our career is most important, one thinks our love life is, one is vain about our appearance, one is lazy and wants to drop all responsibility. These lives, and many more, have different moments in us, each taking the lead for certain periods of time and setting the agenda. But, these differing agendas can dilute our ability to make progress. It is always best to give all the lives within us an organizing principle, one that each of our lives can rally around and support, and that gives us a reference for making decisions. This is why every life can benefit from having a higher purpose. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my dream, I go to a lecture to hear a successful person give an inspirational speech to some aspiring young adults who are at a threshold in their life. These are students who are looking for what is important in their lives.

In other words, it’s like they’re going to college, or are about to go to college, about to make a major step, and so they’re listening to this inspirational speaker. The person who is speaking is deemed to be of renown, and I’m talked into going to listen because I know one of the students. The student probably even has talked to the speaker, because what unfolds indicates that something got tweaked.

Well, I go to listen, and I sit in the front row. And, of course, they’re all young, just starting out in life, and I’m kind of an old geezer; I’ve made my run. So the student who invited me, apparently having spoken to the scholar, must have been holding me out with some esteem with the scholar. Now, as I said, I’m the old person and everyone else is young just getting started in life, and other than the speaker, who probably deems that he has lived his life in an accomplished way, everything’s at a drawing board here.

So, at a lull in the presentation, the speaker asked me if I went to college. Well, I can tell by the nature of his question, that the idea of getting a college education and credentials is a meaningful process. And I say to him, in answer to his question, that for me a college education would have been a mistake. I speak of another lifestyle in which I made sacrifices that others deem unpleasant. I point out that things have worked out for me, and I am now free to do whatever I want. I’m able to just play around and enjoy life.

I then say, it is not as if I never went to college, I just never went to get a degree because, to do so, would have been a mistake. Nothing that I did was designed to make me into something specific. I never graduated. When I was done, he sort of disappeared. A bit of his presentation was shredded. His pitch was about following a particular thread of development, or unfoldment. What I spoke about was an exception to that, in that I was coming from a focus and attention that was listening, apparently, to within, because from the outer, this makes a lot of sense, those conceptualizations that he was presenting.

So, the meaning is, I am having to contend with two parts of myself: there is a side that notices what others notice to be important, and reflects that. And so I’m able to look at that as a reflection and projection. And there is another part of me that knows such criteria and way of being shuts a person off from finding true freedom.

So, what is the dream doing? The dream is working with softening my energetic that is more effective when I step back from any particular way and take in a greater overallness as my beingness. To do so I have to let go of the definitions that others impose upon themselves.

Reason for dream, or, in other words, the scenario that triggered it: a four-point plan was presented to society by a teacher I know. In reading the four-point plan I realized there are going to be people who take it literally. That would have been a problem for me, and I am glad that I opened up to more than a directed system. For me that would have been a mistake. It would have defined me in a self-limiting way.

That is what I find that I am really reacting about; in other words, what was I reacting about in terms of this four-point plan? Was I reacting in terms of the idea of grief? Well there’s more to grief. It’s important in terms of an aspect of letting go to catch up to love, but then don’t go mistaking that for love because that’s not true. As an aspect, or form, of love, just like joy is love’s strength, too, and grief, maybe as a way of catching up to a letting go.

So when you take and you present it as a four-point plan, or any kind of system or plan, and you present that in the outer like that, all you’re doing is like admonishing a person to go ahead and follow an A, B, C checklist to getting ahead in the world, like going to college and so on. What that does is it shuts down the fertileness of something that is an aliveness trying to be in a quickened way.

And it’s susceptible to being deceived by following some singular thread, or another, and not take in a much larger picture. So that’s what I’m reacting about. Because, deep within, there is something expressing itself, in this dream, as an energetic seeking much more.

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im909sAll matter has energy, yet all energy does not have matter. The more matter an energy has, the more it is slowed down from its pure state – which is always faster that its material state. In our processes, we try to let go of reading all the information we receive from the physical world, and instead try to connect to the more refined, more pure energetics of the electrical realms. From the electrical realms we can get more information and intelligence in an instantaneous way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I went around and around with this, almost in terms of getting a bit of a reprimand as well, in terms of the process. So what I was describing, in terms of how the stillness is, was this unusual experience in the meditation dream, in which, instead of taking and being aware of something in the environment, it’s like my meditations are most effective in terms of something being realizable if I just let go to an inner stillness, and then out of the inner stillness come images.

And now I’m seeing that it’s possible that these images can flash before me so fast, that if the flashes were to slow down, to like a palpable pace, that’s when you would have indulgence, ego, and corruption of the flow. That’s when the personal would come in; that’s when the lower self comes into the equation.

By being able to take in a wholeness of all of life in at this incredible speed means that I’m able to catch up with the inner knowingness. In other words, it’s just there, it’s infused, so to speak. So what I’m shown, however, is that this inner knowingness is basically a way of taking the outer reflections, of an inner essence, and realizing that if they go by fast enough, or if you speed them up, that there is no time for an indulgence. In fact, this can be so fast that, in layman’s terms, what I’m being shown is that this is a speed that the ordinary human senses, that sort of outer nature, cannot discern, cannot see.

Which means that my human condition has these barriers that hold me back. And so, the stillness, or a still dream, when it is happening, and when I’m able to report something back, I’m actually catching flashes that are quicker than the outer, which is of sound, maybe flashes of real light, that I’m able to somehow denote, but I don’t hold on to. They go by so fast that there isn’t the contamination, or the rub off, like there is in the outer where you noodle with it all. Our tendency is to try to keep up; that’s how our lower self dictates. But what I’m talking about is an inner essence that is going in a capacity that is too much to notice. It’s, therefore, also too overall and all-encompassing.

So then I ponder: what can this be like to try to put this together? The knowingness is the result of a speed of light inflection going by so fast that there is no time for indulgence. The speed is so fast that my lower self cannot control what is flowing; it cannot see the flow as an inner speed. Consequently, the effect of a knowingness is consciousness. In other words, when it’s like that, I guess you’d have to say that the knowingness is like a consciousness in a stillness. It’s infused from like a stillness, yet, actually, it was like images, but you just couldn’t pick up on it.

It’s kind of like they’ve discovered, in terms of running commercials, that they can put one frame of a subliminal frame, that might show a juicy hamburger, to entice your taste buds. But because it’s just one frame going by so fast on a screen, that it only has a subliminal effect because, in terms of your sight senses, you don’t actually see it. And yet some part of yourself does grasp the speed of that. And so it has its desired effect.

A human being actually does have some sort of discernment to a greater speed, and if you can sneak up and catch and grab that, you can set in motion something inside of them much greater than speaking to them in a black-and-white dense way.

And the significance, and the suggestion, of the dream is that this has me wondering if absolute consciousness is a speed within that has no time for indulgence. The flashes of light go by so fast that, in the higher self, there’s nothing for a denseness and indulgence to get a hold of. The speed is so fast that it is as if it never happened – yet it did happen. And yet, as that happens, is that what it’s all about?

Such a speed, as a stillness, beyond the capability to take in, that being what is really real. In noticing from within an overallness that is all-inclusive, as a flash, it’s like that because it’s absorbed it all to the point where it doesn’t register to the senses. That’s when I realized that my physical nature, how it’s missing so much; only my soul keeps up, or, this light, that is perceivable if i can catch it, is what is going on.

My physical isn’t able to let go, to be enabled, so the pure light can’t be there. Or, in other words, is there, but is unpalpable to the physical senses. That which is not perceivable to the physical senses, because it is occurring at speed beyond such faculties, is, from the perspective of the physical senses, well, you’d have to say it’s a stillness. Or it’s a non-existence.

That’s the suggestion: that to a higher-self stillness, the essence of all there is, is this. By slowing the process down, I now know what stillness and consciousness are about on the plane of the soul. The overallness is too vast, and fast, and I know now that the place of the soul is a plane of pure light. I mean now I know what they mean when they describe it as a pure light that you can’t see.

And I now know that the flow that involves the God essence, a seeing and hearing outside of the human faculties of power and control, I know what that means now. In other words, that power and control is something densed down to where you try to grab a hold of it. And to the human faculties, they have to have a somethingness to work with. They don’t know that they’re lost in a nothingness, because the human faculties can’t work at such a speed, a speed that is noticeable by the universal soul.

Stillness is the conditioning which the physical senses are unable to perceive because they’re not able to be there. The lighter, or the higher-self, speed supersedes and overrides all that there is. That’s why it’s always inner coming into outer. It’s just that the outer just really can take and confuse things.

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