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Concept of choice with crossroads spliting in two waysThe mechanism of instinct, which we see throughout the animal kingdom, is an automatic process to allow survival and growth into the fullness of a life’s possibility. In the human there is a further level of this mechanism – freedom of choice. It says we don’t always have to do what’s best for us, i.e., we can fast for days, against our instinct to eat. Yet it is our consciousness that guides us at this level, and, in its best usage, should also contribute to our ability to survive and grow into our potential. So, understanding how to utilize this gift of creation – freedom of choice – is critical to our possibility as individuals, and as a species. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, my dream started off, in which I had to set the equation of what things are like when you’re in a world in which consciousness does not come into the equation, that maybe you’re still operating on the basis of instinct. And yet even that is not very loud. It’s almost as if even that’s still in a kind of amnesia, or something.

Because I find myself just merely looking at myself in a kind of matter of fact way. I mean, I’m not pushed this way, I’m not pushed that way; I’m kind of blase. In other words, the image is just as neutral as neutral could get. Which also means that I have no opinion one way or another, in terms of what I’m seeing, let alone what to do. So I have no opinion what I’m seeing, even.

Well, that’s not quite true. At least, I have no opinion in terms of having to make choices, yet, because where there is an opinion, that is when I will find myself having to contend with things. So I’m in a state yet where there isn’t the sorting out differentiation, on a conscious level, having to go at it.

So what I see is just the layout, a layout that hasn’t been mobilized into a flow yet. In other words, a layout that’s just the setup. And, of course, I see a person in this setup, and that this person has no opinion – in terms of distinguishing or making conscious choices that this person carries within – access to two lights. And one hue of light is whatever they do in that regard just kind of unfolds. It doesn’t have to have much consciousness, or anything, just will take and unfold. Very blase, in other words, not much catalytic, the beginning and the end of that just has no storyline to it, because it’s just bing, bing, bing, just all natural. Doesn’t have to even be conscious it’s so natural.

But the other light disrupts, has kind of an agitation, or negative, quality to it that when you go off in that, there’s going to be damage, there’s going to be obstruction. I note that I have these two qualities of life, but kind of trust to the fact that I’m not yet thinking about it, so to speak, because, as far as I seem to be I just kind of assume, because there’s no conscious choice, I just assume everything’s going to be okay – as if I’m automatically always going to be doing the things that are with the other light, even though there’s nothing there that shows a depth as to why it should be so.

So there I find myself looking at myself. I’m in this matter of fact way, in other words, not having to make a distinguishment, not making a distinction, in other words, not having a conscious orientation. Or, you might say, lacking a freedom of choice, yet. And so there is no drama. And, like I’ve described above, one way is kind of deleterious to things, and it now has the image of being a little bit like a poisonous snake. You can feel the Kundalini of it. It’s poisonous. It’s scary. It’s dangerous.

And it’s visible and has a very particular color orientation to that way of being. It has one of those colors, like if you go into the southwestern deserts, the snake you have to watch out for is one that has of really bright reddish color or something.

And so, as I sit like this, it’s kind of an ambivalency. I haven’t yet gained a certain stream of evolution clicking in my nature. What I’m looking at, because there isn’t the conscious effect, there’s nothing to see or report. The action starts, and the journey of the soul begins, when you have to contend with more or less all the levels, or you have to partake in the vibrational lights. You have to intertwine with them, put them into how they need to be, because it’s only one light.

So what is going on is it’s a little bit like starting off in the Garden of Eden. It’s as if, for reasons I can’t put my finger on, I just am, and all is well – until something causes me to go off limits in my well being, and then what isn’t right, or isn’t properly taken into acceptance and ingratiation within, gets the best of me.

But, for the longest time, I don’t see myself as being able to make a conscious this, that, or the other – or a freedom of choice. So how can one go astray? And yet, what is good is known somehow. And what is bad, I can simply ignore. But you can’t, in other words, we’re more conscious than that, we’re not living in a total subjective state. You have the objective side, too.

So the significance of this dream is to be like this is to have no karma to contend with. It’s like having no karma, it means you’re not advanced enough to know how to play with the substances. You gotta have a sense of loss, you have to have consciousness. It’s like an animal responds by instinct, it doesn’t necessarily consciously sort this out, or that way, it’s very instinctual.

Consciousness is another step. So it’s like this light, at one point in time, or this quality, was even like a snake energy, or a Kundalini energy, that has kind of a poisonous effect. Yet I don’t acknowledge that I have a shadow yet, because I’m not conscious. And because I’m not conscious, I don’t carry a self-consciousness that can see a delirium, or delusionality, or that something more of a clarity of a wisdom needs to be there – as an aspect of pulling the two together.

So at best, all I can say is that, what I’m portraying and describing is kind of talking about what is like a kind of insipid state, prior to freedom of choice.

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im009At birth, we have traveled far to get here, from a state of full energetic connection, to an incarnated form in the densest level of the universe (we can’t live in a moon ecology, we need a planet). Yet this does not mean we have fully forgotten where we are from and what our possibilities are. Deep inside, our design holds all the keys to unlocking this knowledge. What is external to us is merely meant to give our inner energetic form a palette with which to grow and evolve. Physical evolution is for the planet, spiritual evolution is for the universe – and for our energetic self. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: If you’re sincere, and true to yourself, you come to realize the more you see yourself moving about in these ways of ideation and distinction, the fainter, even though you sense something, that approach of fishing expedition quality within, you notice that it becomes fainter, not louder. That doesn’t make any sense.

I mean, you’ve got the right notion, you’re turning to the right focus and attention of having to come back to a greater heartfulness, but what you’re doing, in terms of this, that, and the other that your senses pick up on, the intuited memory just keeps staying subtler, and subtler, and subtler because you’re still using the same modality. And so it’s like you’re becoming more sensitive, so to speak, in this approach, but you’re sensitive in that you’re catching up with maybe little leakages, or inflections, of states. But you’re still holding on, though, to this overall mindfulness approach, a type of mindfulness that caused you to go out of the demiurge into the landscape, and then into the movement of the landscape. And now you’re going to move around, again, in that landscape as a way of driving back? That’s the same pitch. You can’t do it that way.

So, try as you might, this heartfulness that is echoing as a beholding, within, that is an a vibratory stillness, that you can image, that you have imaged in your bifurcation into both a motion and sight, or time and space, you have the freedom of choice to bring about this imagination, as if in your imagination something can rise up to a better image or something, or return of an image of stillness. And every image, then, that you toiter with like that, veils you in some subtle way because it’s still within this same waywardness, it’s just that you are trying to be a little more sensitive because you cannot quite stab yourself with the bifurcations as loudly as you did before. You have a more measured self-affliction.

And you sift that way. And the more you sift, putting the perceptions, as best you can, in this sifting mode, into a heart of a knowingness – the best that you’re able to sense that – in order to catch up with the feedback, or kind of like guidance, you’re still bicycling about, though. And you still seem to be away from the all-inclusive stillness that you have a faint memory of.

At some point it becomes nauseating that your sorting out gives birth to more and more impressions yet; subtler impressions, but still impressions, which grip you and cause the heart to note its exhaustion, its frustration, its need for something more, even though it may not know what that something more is. But it can come to a point where it can kind of know what that something more is, but it’s lost in its methodology. Because the methodology that you’ve been under is one of spiraling about more, and more, trying this, that, or the other yet. It’s like the whole image of moving the deckchairs around differently or something. And what you do seeks to elude, because something is an unfoldment, and that unfoldment involves a letting go.

It’s not a fixer upper project in the outer. Well, at some particular point, the yearning, or this quality of an echo inside, wins out more, and more, and more as if something is coming into its timeline of coming through. Which means you have a part of you that can’t help itself. It can’t weaponize any longer to this, that, or the other as options, and you just seem to collapse. That can be like a mental breakdown. And yet at the same time, if it’s done with poise because of something echoing inside, and you are straining in a space of drawing that forth because you know that there is a naturalness there, and it’s in the letting go, you actually can have glimpses, or a reset, where the senses feeding specific mindfulnesses, just seem to stop.

And when they do so like this, out of nowhere comes an awareness of a greater heartfelt beingness essence. So then, because this is not the teaching that the world provides, in terms of the senses and the mind, in terms of self improvement, or however the various modalities are, you’re trying to move back to something as a deeper echo, and yet as you do so, it’s almost like you drop your personality of motion.

And so then you catch up with, or maybe you hear, the statement that kind of rings somewhere that you have to die before you die, which is just nothing more than saying that there’s a letting go semblance of pure, still beholding. And that an all-engulfing heartfelt wonderment just is. And that just is, is everything. And the seeing is that of an overall stillness.

So what I am doing, and what is going on here, is I’m describing what you call a descent from a oneness to a beingness within the oneness, where there is a loss of an all-encompassing sensation of oneness. And so I scope about, in an individualized sense, seeking, all seeking but we seek in the wrong ways. We seek for this, that, or the other as something palpable, as if it’s palpable.

And then suddenly you get it and you just let go of such a seeking. And this letting go of an idealized visualization, or idealized nature, of yourself is the precursor, it’s the step to returning to a stillness, because the letting go goes into the stillness naturally. And the stillness, being all there is, embodies an enraptured heartfulness. You can’t find yourself in any capacity when you’re doing anything other than this. So what you have is you have a beginning, middle, and an end – and the beginning and the end come back together.

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pc_tia-1The idea of veils between us and reality has been around for a very long time. And, because we can’t see these particular types of veils, we tend to dismiss their existence. Yet we know that if they were literal veils that blocked our senses, we would do everything we could to remove them and gain a clear sense of what is really going on. But it is the veils we create with our focus on the personal, or through our defense mechanisms, that prevent us from accessing a much greater wisdom, and guidance, and enhanced experience of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the meditation dream, I start with a scenario that needs stillness. I pick a subject that cannot shift to stillness, and, given outer appearances, the reaching to a letting go is deemed to be nearly impossible. So this is the subject I picked. Well, this is a subject we always pick. We’re indulging in some aspect of the breath, and so the stillness is completely veiled.

So, in the meditation dream, I carry a commitment to find the letting-go stillness. In other words, somehow or another I’m adamant, realizing that whatever it is that I’m bifurcated on as a nuance, I can’t stay there with it.

And, in doing so, know that this is impossible in every outer scenario, meaning breath scenario. So I even identify a “How To” tab on the internet, from within, to use in various uproarious outer situations. In other words, where I can push the button and go to the stillness, because I’m not seeming to do it just as it is, per se.

So I take this theorem, which works as an approach, and offer it into life. What do you think happens when I offer this theorem into life, in terms of how you can just snap into a stillness? Instead of embracing this as a means to go beyond the back and forth-ness of the breath, and reach stillness, a debate, instead, ensues.

The collective consciousness is holding on to veils as a defense mechanism that it feels that it still needs, and is coming up with exceptions to the rule, where it is okay to remain delusional, or in this relatability with the breath.

So what do I do? Do I fight this absurdity? No. I am compelled to reconcile this letting-go stillness in exchange for further duality – the concept being, life needs it.  In other words, you just let it be. You let the delusionality be, in most instances, when it can’t hear it, when it can’t accept it.

So, what’s the teaching? I’m still a bit on the fence on the subject of stillness being all there is, and that there are needs in creation, in which going into the delusionality is valid. In other words, I’m shaking to the sleep dream in which, yes, it’s valid, there is something to the breath, and the breath is to reveal the hidden wonders.

So, when put this way, by the meditation dream, an absurdity becomes apparent. So what gives? What gives is that there is a mirroring of stillness, by an abiding in the presence of the stillness. And this is what affects life, as need be. The concept we have to make a statement of some sort, in the outer, is to not get the significance of the all-pervasive interpenetrate-able condition of stillness in the essence of life. We don’t do it by pretending in the outer. We do it by abiding in the stillness, and reflecting it unremittingly. That is what is meaningful.

So, the deeper meaning is, upon the level of letting go, stillness is a communication into life that is etheric. In other words, how else would you say it? I’m realizing that it’s beyond this modality of what we deal with, because what we’re dealing with here as in the modality is caught on some aspect of breath. And yet the breath is meant to be used, as in the sleep dream, to bring about all the other planes of existence.

So that is the essence of it all; to act as if there is anything more is to torture one’s self with delusionality. The rendering up is the mere vibration only, not in doing anything. In order to get to the point where you can see all of the aspects, or catch up with all of the aspects, of all of these multiplicity of levels of our beingness, we have to get to a stillness. As long as we continue to indulge in some aspect of in-breath and out-breath quality of having to be, then we do not catch up with all of these hidden wonders, all these other dimensions.

To get in the doing does harm to the fabric of our beingness in life, and actualization perpetuates the image of there being a functional dynamic separate from stillness. So, then, what’s the net effect? The net effect is to get to the face before you were born, before you were in manifestation. And that’s what caused this amazing sleep dream.

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