Polishing The Whole

wholeness2In today’s images, Jeane finds herself making a linkage, or intertwining, with the overall. That then leads to an image of polishing, which deepens the idea of a linkage between a human and creation. In this, there is no separation between the person and the Whole any longer. What a human does affects everything, yet only at the level of emptiness, or no personal involvement. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: If you could imagine a very large pool of water, like an indoor pool almost, and in it would be these rings of turquoise-colored logs. And maybe five of them make up a circle, and they float around, and the logs have like a hole in the middle of them.

A person could dive into the water and come up through one of those holes in these five logs. Except the person looks very miniature, so none of them look more than a foot-and-a-half or two-feet long, and a person can still come up in the middle of that circle.

I’m watching some men dive into the pool. It’s more likely to come up in the middle of the log, and the turquoise color is more blue than green, and I seem to think all of this has to do with how you handle a hurricane.

That’s the best impression I can give you because I lost the rest of the dreaming. Even when I was trying to recall the dream I’d see my stance off standing talking to someone in a car and polishing a black door. It’s like a lot of it had to do with color.

John: So your dream starts off in which you see an expanse of water, which means like an overall consciousness of the Whole, in which there are logs floating in the water, which are in a circle, which means that they are obstacles that have to go around and around, and repeat over and over and over again.

There has to be a way of going through those obstacles, or connecting in some fashion the overallness in which the logs are floating. You’re going around in a circle. The means that creates the linkage or interconnection is the human being, who’s able to go up through holes of these logs.

In other words, in doing so, that’s an image penetrating the barriers, or the obstacle. So you start off with something that’s a whole, and then you are affected by things that are brought into this Wholeness, or into the water of all of creation, or all of the universe, or however you want to say that.

And these objects that are brought in there are separate, or have a distinction. They’re obstacles to the openness of the water, and they have to be contained, or dealt with, or accepted. And to do so there has to be a linkage.

The ability to penetrate those logs for something to create a linkage, for something to go into those logs or those obstacles, a human trait, an intertwining is what is necessary to somehow create or establish that sense of Wholeness.

As long as those logs are looked at, and they stay separate, then you stay separate from your greater overallness. I guess there’s the term, in terms of addressing things, “absorb the condition” of those obstacles, or logs. Your image of going up like through holes that exist in the logs, is the image of the interconnectivity that you are able to establish, so that you’re back to the very beginning again with nothing but an empty expanse of water.

Is that your only dream?

Jeane: Well the other one was just polishing the door.

John: You’re polishing the door. So, yes, that’s how it works. You have to relate and bring yourself down to whatever it is that is perceived as a barrier or an obstacle. You have to bring yourself down in terms of relating to that, to where you may be communicating on a level that’s trite, but on an energetic level you’re polishing, or working a change in the environment.

It’s an image of being in another place. You’re in another place. You are in both places simultaneously. Thus, it’s like an octave, or another way of describing; instead of having logs that are floating out there that you have to contend with, and you act like you have to do something to penetrate those. That takes a certain degree of willpower.

This other is able to just simply relate and be in a space as you’re relating, even though you’re just relating in which you are actually polishing, or changing, or affecting, or causing some lilt of your being to come across. And however it is that you’re talking [in the dream] has nothing to do with anything in terms of whatever it is that you might be talking about. It’s the space that you’re carrying that is what is important – which is doing the polishing or the shaping.

So, what are you polishing? I suppose the only simple way of describing it is to describe that you’re polishing yourself. Well, actually there comes a point where you realize that it’s an illusion to think that you can polish yourself. What you’re actually polishing is the Whole, which you are part of, which is you as well.

And so if your attention is still based upon something about you, then it’s very easy to have differentiations and tangential qualities and nature to have to contend with. But if you realize that there is this Wholeness of something, and that that’s what you’re polishing, you’re actually polishing yourself – but in the greater sense of the word. That’s actually a higher octave of trying to create the intertwining. Here you’re not trying to do any of that. You’re just doing the polishing.

You have within your dreams both the masculine image and a feminine image. Your last dream is more of a feminine image. Your first dream has the masculine element of the logs, but it has the feminine mannerism of intertwining.

Your last dream has the idea of just being Yin, and just being receptive to what there is and relating straightforwardly, without any qualms, but being in some place inside that is doing the polishing, or is having its effect upon life. Which is also another way of saying that, in order for this to work, you have to be in such a state inside you that there isn’t some part of you that’s holding on to some confusion or projection, because polishing only works when there isn’t some projection or another, no matter how slight, occurring, because if there is, then that contaminates or that is what comes across.

What is of value in a polishing – its highest value is a state of emptiness – and so polishing has to be a polishing of something that is let go, or is a nothingness, or that is an emptiness, even though one could be talking about things and one isn’t identifying with that. To the degree to which one is identifying with it, and still trying to polish or change something, then you have a bifurcation, then you have a confusion, then you are still playing with reflections.

Your dream is kind of giving you a back-and-forth thing as you’re closing in on how it is that you’re able and meant to be able to be, in terms of a role or responsibility that you carry, or are meant to carry.

It points out that if there are obstacles in this overallness that you intertwine. It points out that if you no longer feel inhibited by things, and you’re able to freely relate, that you’re actually relating not from whatever it is that you’re talking about. You’re actually relating energetically in some other way that is creating a polishing, or a quality of emoting that then creates change – just by the fact that it is centered in this all-pervasive sense that flows through creation.


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The Greater Part of You

Today we have a continuation of the conversation we began on Friday, in Saying Yes to the Process.

Here John leads us through the ideas of the processes of dream work itself, and the unfolding of the spiritual journey as the energetically awakened person begins to see the world around them more from the inner into the outer, and explores the concept of holding both the unconscious and conscious aspects of life as one thing. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Yesterday I had a very, very complicated and detailed dream, that I couldn’t remember one lick of when I came out of it. As a consequence of that dream I was in revolt to everything. I couldn’t identify with the outer environment around me or with anybody.

Everything was nausea, everything was kind of insecure. I was kind of like cracking up.

So I went to bed. Jeane takes and has two great dreams of which she always remembers her dream. She rolls over and touches me and same thing, poof, completely gone.

I kind of laid there in the cradle not even wanting to get up. When I get up I go back to meditating and meditate until 12:30pm. Basically all morning long – still not able to identify with anybody or anything and still in this very strange state.

When I come out of it I go out and announce, which I had announced to Jeane earlier in the morning, that I’m toxic and therefore I’m not going to eat for the next three days. You know, the feminine always take that as a shocker, you know boom like that. He’s really flipped out.

At 12:30pm I get up, I take a long walk, and I come back at about 4pm, and the TV is on and I’ll be darned panning around is one of my favorite shows, A Bronx Tale.

But it’s on a channel with all kinds of commercials and it’s got a lot of filthy language in it because it is one of those types that has very deep meaning but uses extremes to get there, and they’re dubbing it out because it’s on regular TV – plus with all of those commercials.

So I’m now flipping out again because I’m cracked; I’m fragile. So it gets recorded, the other half of it or so, and I disappear again and meditate for a couple more hours because I can’t relate to anymore TV or anything.

And I come out of that and watch it and it’s really good and everything, but I’m still feeling in this state where I’m a little disconcerted. Now, as far as a certain level of sight, it’s enhanced. But as far as a dexterity in the outer, I feel very helpless and weak.

As far as talking about things that other people talk about that consider important in terms of outer things, I probably am dangerous to talk to in a state like this, because I’m liable to shock them. I might not be polite enough you know to cater to it.

Also what tripped this, the night before last, was we pretty much set up a movie we were going to watch. It’s actually a very excellent movie with a lot of depth to it, Water for Elephants.

Jeane selected it and I thought it was a dumb movie but it turned out to not be, so we had the movie room reserved and she had a friend that was coming down. This was in… oh, I forget what they call it – it’s a special way of filming so it’s really high tech and whatnot  – and of course we have a pretty phenomenal movie room here, so at 8 o’clock this person hadn’t showed up yet.

And before they showed up about 8:15pm, I could already feel the vibe, and by 8:30pm I didn’t even want to watch the movie. Well, what this person is, is this person is an incredibly brilliant person, very deeply developed on a spiritual level, but so insecure it’s unbelievable.

I’m so much of a type of raw energy, that if a person was really insecure, I’m going to hit that button right off the bat. I mean, I was aware of this before she showed up. I felt I needed to disappear.

And then when she showed up she greets me with all kinds of openness because she knows Jeane real well and I don’t feed her insecurity button, and she starts to crack. And then she tries to make a comeback, and it doesn’t work you know because, I don’t know, I’m just a hard ass in some sense, and I say I don’t even mean to be that way. It’s just kind of a quality there and all of it was useful because what it did is it threw me into this nausea.

I mean this is a wonderful person and what came up was a discussion in which there was another person in here that has a lot of momentum, accomplishes a lot, but is vicious…

But you know they can’t help themselves if they’re vicious and I couldn’t stand the judgement of it, so I took this person’s defense even though I don’t agree with it. I also don’t agree with any black-and-white rubbing out something. And of course that will hit the insecurity button right away, because this person finds that sort of thing repulsive. If you find certain things repulsive, and you are reactive, you’re not going to be able to carry the kundalini energy.

And she had accessed things and she had developed a sensitivity and a brilliance, but then comes the next installment that could take her miles and miles down the road – would be the kundalini energy – and it will freak her out. It’s too much for her.

Jeane likes her because she finds her so brilliant, but she’s is also very, very careful to know how to handle her in terms of her insecurity.

I joke to Jeane, I say, “That’s an amazing talent that you have.” Just like I can take someone that can walk up and stick a gun in my ribs as I’m walking down the street and just start talking to him as if they are a long lost brother, and then when we hit the corner they go one way across the street and I go the other way as if nothing had happened. And anybody else they would have freaked out and they would have gotten robbed and who knows what all.

But I don’t feed into that and so it doesn’t work. There is a kind of a natural intertwining. I think I have told you this story of this other guy that’s so dangerous that he puts people in hospitals when he flipped out, and I would talk to him and everybody else would give him a wide space because they knew if he flipped out, and you’re around, you are going to be in bad shape.

I like the guy. I never felt any… I mean I could feel the rumble of that quality in his nature that was out of control but it was almost like driving a car. I knew how to drive that, how to steer or something, and appreciate the wondrousness that this guy had inside of him too…

One has to get like that and be like that in order to break the trances of the outer.

Because the outer is nothing but a reflection of energetics, conscious and unconscious. In other words, you’re going to come to a point in your dreaming where you are going to realize that the access that you are having that is reflective has a limitation too.

In other words, the outer is all reflective and your dreams are reflective but they go to a different depth. They incorporate a certain soul element that moves around…

But the soul element is also caught in having to be in creation, in a magnetism of a human body in terms of earth, and it’s a little bit baffling and a little bit confusing, so the images that come through you speak of something on the other side, but put it in a language that has to do with symbolism that is an earth energy.

And you lead through the earth energy to understand the symbolism on the other side, or the meaningfulness on the other side. Well, because your senses work most of the time, 99.9% of the time, outwardly and the mind of course is there interpreting those outward senses, when you have a dream that you remember, what you have actually done is you have stopped the mind and have settled yourself.

You didn’t realize that you stopped your mind, when you were sleeping, but you have stopped all of that moving around in an outer way capacity that just yo-yos back and forth and doesn’t have any sense of cadence. You have paused enough in order for this greater dimension to leak through, just like when I’m unsettled and cracking up, Jeane just touching me, it sets a trepidation off where she loses her dreams, or that quality of the other side trying to communicate through as a kind of language of the macro, to which she really is at a deeper level.

When you dream and then you are reducing this to images that you then cypher through to see what’s going on as a movement of the soul at a deeper level, what you’re doing in the dream process is first and foremost is you’re establishing first of all a stability and a sense and a training and an understanding, and a strength, by which you then can be subjected to access of the greater part of yourself.

When you are really fairly trite and dense, you can’t handle much and so everything is kept really basic. The outer is the outer and it’s no more than that. But then when you start to get more subtly refined and developed inside, to where you can access the greater part of yourself, then you come to recognize that the outer is nothing more than a reflection of the inner.

To begin with you struggle with your dreams in that you have to somehow get to the point where what you see in your dreams you don’t apply in an outer context. To begin with you do. To begin with you think oh, well it means I did this, that, and the other – I’ll change that in terms of what I do tomorrow.

To begin with, it’s a lot like that, all still cycling around your narrow perspective of life. But ultimately it gets to where you can’t do it that way anymore. That’s the nausea that you hit, that’s the third part of your dream. You can’t do it that way anymore.

You cannot be subjected to the limitations of power and control; you are intertwined with it all. You cannot handle you being treated as if everything operates in its own separate way and is distinct. You know better than that.

When you get like that, well, here’s the dilemma you run into, like Jeane starts out and she recognizes both the conscious and the unconscious, and then she learns how to take and put that sort of thing into kind of an order by which she can then express herself. Her dream described right where she was at in terms of using the energy, but it also portrayed the nausea in another way.

And I said to her that her dream was where she had both the conscious and the unconscious simultaneously. How can you be okay with it just being that way – in a state of a type of nothingness?

In other words, it hasn’t been formed into anything whereby you’ve streamlined yourself to utilize it. That can break you into a million pieces. That can cause you to throw away everything that you had identified with in terms of the sense of satisfaction.

There’s a way of interpreting your dream and this would be a completely wrong interpretation and fortunately you haven’t gone there, I don’t think, but there would be a way of interpreting the dream to think that your marriage is going to fall apart or something. And that is completely, completely totally wrong.

And that’s how the kundalini energy can destroy you, because that isn’t what the kundalini energy is about at all. The kundalini energy is there to cause you to take a step within. Everything in the outer, all of that, is meant to be an inner to outer correlation, not prison.

The outer is not a prison, it’s a reflection of the inner. Ultimately the outer reflects the inner.

That’s why when things are in a certain state of flux, here in creation, there is a similar flux in the ethers, or in the higher self, or the higher whatever, as above so below. And we are sitting with an access to it all, by being able to hold into the depths of something as the microcosm. In other words, there’s both the expanse and the contraction and the expanse and the contraction ultimately reveal the same thing.

As an example, the contraction you could take and put something under a microscope and you could see that every cell is identical to every other cell in the human body. Basically they have a blueprint, and that blueprint has a quality about it just like a fingerprint. It has a quality about it that is unique.

The microscope or the technology of minuteness can take and break the atom all the way to the point that it can get to the epicenter of all of the energy in creation where you have the big bang or poof effect just through a type of nuclear kind of way they call it nuclear anyway, a nuclear kind of going and going and going to the point where through the microcosm you get to everything that there is.

It goes that way too. We live in the microcosm. We have access through the microcosm to everything in the macrocosm. It’s amazing that there is no time and there is no space and you can play with it either in terms of expansion or contraction.

And a human being yo-yos back and forth between expansion and contraction which is the same thing as saying one minute they’re happy, and the next minute they’re sad, and one minute their heart is dancing, and the next minute their heart is crushed.

And then they start to maybe even develop some of the traits from Proverbs, or Ecclesiastes or whatever, that in other words don’t get too elated because then you are going to get sad or whatever as if there is an equanimity, which is a kind of Buddhist term now.

You know, trying to find that love of equanimity so you do not throw yourself around. This is just the order of things. Another way of saying expansion and contraction would be conscious and unconscious.

What we consider consciousness is in the outer an idea of how to best fend for yourself, and the most responsible and know how to walk across the street without getting hit and all of that we consider that a type of understanding as a type of consciousness. What we consider unconsciousness is a person that’s sleepwalking and they walk across the street and kabango. That’s unconsciousness.

That unconsciousness is a quality that includes everything in the overall. Consciousness has taken and streamlined and limited something.

Here’s another way of describing it. The world is created out of sound. So everything resonates a pitch or a sound. There is a sound in the universe and you can hear that sound.

Now let’s apply science to it. So science has come along and they’ve taken and they have figured out what’s called frequencies. And they can make a frequency, we will call it a cellular frequency, and the cellular frequency can handle voice technology, it can have the frequency that can transmit television and news radio and such. That’s streamlined, that’s precision, that’s taking something out, of you might say, a type of unconsciousness and made it conscious in the outer.

Then you can take the same frequency and you can go from what’s called analog to digital in which you tighten the frequency and now it handles and transmits and projects better things like data packets.

And then you could say well gee, I have accumulated all of this. I need to be able to contain it in some fashion. So now they’ve developed what is called microwave, which is a type of working with light where you zip this to maybe a home base like a central computer or something. So now you are able through the microwave to spray this around when before when you took something out of the macrocosm as a microcosm, you limited it, because a radiowave can only project so far, but now when you convert it back to light you can start to expand it back out into the macro.

The secret, the key here is to get to the point where you can be both conscious and unconscious simultaneously.

In other words, the dream I had last night is I went home and there’s a baby laying first of all kind of in the middle of the bed or towards the middle of the bed and suddenly it’s laying right on the very corner on the end.

And I start to wonder what would happen to this baby if it rolls off the bed. Sure enough, the baby rolls off the bed and eyes open up, the mother goes over and picks it up, the mother being my mom, picks it up, and the baby can talk.

Pretty sharp baby! The baby’s joking around about something that dad had said that indicate that the baby is going to be put on welfare, and the baby is laughing about it as if this is a joke because the baby knows. The baby can reason and knows stupidity when it hears stupidity.

Then finally I’m looking at the baby, the baby says, “Who are you?” I say, “I am your older brother.”

Then the baby comments about that, makes some comment, and I say, “Yeah, there is another brother, but I’m the oldest.” And then I try to remember another brother I had, but I can’t remember him. So it’s like he’s my other brother, but I feel like I am 40 in the dream yet my younger brother’s 20.

And the whole thing is this baby is in a state of unconsciousness, so to speak, connected to the soul of things, and I’m in a state of sophistication connected to creation and supposedly having lived life and have a certain conscious recollection about things, yet to this baby everything is unconscious.

Wow, I am a baby. That baby is me, we’re intertwined.

Ann: Boy, that’s pretty powerful.

John: So both the conscious and the unconscious have to be carried together. It’s the only way that inner can properly come into outer, it’s the only way that the inner and the outer can be correlated.

Otherwise, to the degree to which you have a depth of awareness inside of yourself, you’re going to keep building bigger castles, and you’re going to have no problem with the kundalini energy, except the kundalini energy is not designed the way the teacher’s teacher put it. The kundalini energy is one third on this side and two thirds on the other side.

It’s designed to open you up to the greater part of yourself. And when you open up to the greater part of yourself, then you come to find out that this path is about service. The reason why it’s put in those words is because you have a responsibility to the Whole.

And as you take on that responsibility of the Whole, you function differently.

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Going Together

John: In our last post we looked at a complex and interesting dream that Jeane described (see Trouble on the Way).

In it, she was struggling with protecting a woman (a feminine aspect of her) from her husband (the raw masculine energy in her), while trying to make progress along some train tracks (a spiritual path).

So as the scene begins, there has to be a grasp of the situation, and that’s where you start in the schoolhouse. There you come to understand things (school) and to what degree things are out of balance, or elusive (the surprise of the woman leaving her husband).

Now, there’s a certain protection in that space as it initially opens up. But when that protection is removed and you have to go out into the world on your own (you step out the school door), you quickly find that you’re no longer safe.

This is just like the opening scene in a play, because there are phases to this that are part of what’s evolving.

There’s a scene in which the overall scenario is not being fully appreciated, shown by the two men distracted by getting their pants altered. What that image signifies is, how does one “wear” the particular unfoldment? The masculine aspect (of those two men) is obviously not being attentive in the same way that your feminine aspect is being attentive.

That difference causes a kind of amnesia gap, but in another scene it’s recognized that things are on the move, and that those from the schoolhouse are now able to shift and go to a whole new place.

Then there’s the whole idea of whether all of this is happening safely, whether there’s protection for all this to unfold naturally. There’s something in your whole sense of things that isn’t properly covered.

In other words, how does the security exist in relationship to a number of things, and especially in relationship to this one woman who still has a shadow condition of things affecting her in such a way that she loses the balance, the protection, the way of feeling herself, in relationship to what’s been presented, or this attempt to awaken?

So you have all these different aspects emerging at the same time. You have an understanding that’s being brought through, and you have a protection within that process.

As a consequence, you have a shift in terms of things being able to progress to something more, i.e., the next destination. That’s the schematic, that’s how it’s supposed to flow. It’s like a three-step process.

The question is, is it complete? What about the woman (a feminine aspect of you) who has something going on that causes intrusions, in the way of the raw masculine energy looking for her and still trying to disorient things?

What’s the flip-side of that? The flip-side of that raw energy is something that has become almost too pacified, which appears at the end as a woman who has a gay husband, showing you that something has been left out. Something is yet askew.

You have the entire flow. You have a process all laid out, and yet you have these idiosyncrasies, these little complexities to sort out.

Jeane: I was feeling the feminine balance wasn’t quite there yet.

John: Well, is it the masculine/feminine? It seems to be shifting octaves between one extreme and another. In other words, it has a masculine with overly raw energy (the angry husband) that then becomes something that’s too pacified (the gay husband). It’s almost as if the middle ground is skipped.

There’s the process of unfolding (changing your lives) and yet there’s this part that‘s acting up, which has to be included somehow. If it’s not included, then you get something that’s too pacified because it’s missing that energy.

In other words, you can’t get where you’re trying to go without all of it, i.e., all aspects. So this shows that something is not being dealt with or taken into account. The understanding of how it needs to proceed is there, but the addressing of a certain kind of energetic that’s needed – that’s not quite figured out.

And how is this to be figured out? Well, the hint is that there’s some sort of fear that still exists. There’s some sort of reaction that’s still percolating in the background of what’s unfolding, which operates as a distraction.

Consequently the whole flow forward is jeopardized by these deviations, and that’s where the question of the protection comes in. In other words, you’re losing a kind of a cadence (you’re always trying to catch up), but still moving in a way that you need to move, but you have these issues to resolve.

The purpose and wonderfulness of a dream like this is to reveal to you that, in a process, there are things you have to be careful not to leave out. And you have to look at the attitude you use to solve them. I mean, you show a certain judgment toward the raw energy – of trying to exclude it.

But you have to allow a certain degree of that in and be okay with it because it’s part of the process. When you try to shield things from that energy, you end up trying to move forward in a way that isn’t quite right or safe.

So how does the process consummate itself, in terms of taking on the whole, so you don’t eliminate the raw energy of things or have a judgment or reaction toward it? Why would you have a judgment and a reaction to it?

Well, it would be because you have a belief or viewpoint that, somehow or other, it (the raw masculine energy) needs to change. But does it? Or do you (the feminine) have to change to accommodate it in some way? Because without it you end up with something that isn’t quite right. It turns passive, which implies that the kundalini energy, which is essential for truly going home, has been compromised in one way or another.

It’s an interesting dream, with a whole movie-like scenario to it.