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thepathAs we continue, it becomes more and more apparent that the safest place to be is in the flow with the energy. Whenever we let our personal indulgences dictate our actions, we make ourselves vulnerable to self-created suffering. The only safe place is on the path. (For the earlier installments, see Part I, Part II, Part III , and Part IV.) (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Right now my whole take on it is that there are all kinds of things that are a little bit askew. Just like as we were talking, some people are looking better, some people are looking worse, and it’s almost like those who are trying real hard, in maybe a spiritual capacity, a lot of them are apt to be drawing the conclusion that the motif in which they’ve been projecting, and aiming themselves, is causing them to suffer more.

They don’t realize that they’ve shifted; they’ve gone into it in a little bit of a spiritual illusion – they didn’t mean to – and they miss the door.

I mean I’m certainly seeing that. There was a woman that tried to commit suicide. What I saw about her is that somehow, prematurely, she was waking up to a proximity closeness between this side, and the other side, I guess is the way of saying it.

She’s very indulged in what has to happen in her outer, and she feels the pressure of all of that, yet at the same time what helps make that outer louder to her in a way, in a painful way that is, she has this inner quickening going on, too, but she’s not able to somehow or another pick up enough of the responsibility of an Adab to the inner, so that she doesn’t keep stabbing herself with her outer predicament.

And so as a consequence her outer predicament has gotten to the point where they overwhelmed her. In other words, our teacher has indicated that this is a path where you don’t come back, but there’s an exception. You commit suicide, you come straight back.

It’s no different than any other kind of energetic, where you take and you do something. Let’s say you’re in a bad marriage or something, and you take and you get all blameworthy, change the situation that you’re in, and then you just gloat for a while thinking you’ve found something so much better – you should have done this sooner – only to realize that over a course of time you come back to facing that same dilemma in that relationship too. It goes around and around like that.

You’re in life to live something out, and it becomes too overwhelming to you, and you’re not quite true to the course, you’re not quite staying the course, and then you take and you do something to stop the process or veil the process, and you get into a repetitious pattern, you get haunted by that repetitious pattern, and if you were to do something really outrageous as if like, I’ve had enough, and commit suicide, that doesn’t rewrite the Book of Life.

It just causes you to have to come back and contend with it again, and probably go through that perhaps even worse then, because you’re going to come up to the point where you’re going to feel like committing suicide again. It has to live itself out until you let go of it.

In other words, till you get into a proper vibrational relationship, that is you, in terms of how it can be in the Whole, and can do that without any image problems, which is ego getting in the way.

What would I have said to that person if they would have stuck around, or if I would have had a chance to talk to them? Would I have been like a lot of the people, where you would have hugged them, and hope you’re doing better, and glad to see you? That’s not my nature.

I would have been inclined to do what is kind of a type of tough love. Now does that mean that I have an attitude, that I really don’t like them, or something? No. It means that if I smooth them a little bit, that isn’t helping them at all. Their botched attempt is going to come up again.

They reach that crescendo in order to break through something, and just putting the lid and the cap down on things is not going to get that to work for them. They have that particular acuity because that’s their karma, or their nature, to have to come to that kind of acuity. And then they don’t go around and have everybody tell them that it’s A-okay again, and then telling themselves that it’s A-okay because deep down inside they cannot hear it that way anymore.

They are, so to speak, for better or worse, afflicted by the proximity of this inner and outer, and they have to come to grips with it. I’ll never forget this person who, years ago when I was first new on the path, must have told the teacher this dream and the teacher said, “Bring it up in the group.”

And the teacher turns to this person and had him tell the dream. And then they barely had told the dream, and in the dream basically what this person was saying was that they were afraid to go to sleep at night because they would be hit by this, and hit by that, and it was like being busted into a million pieces, and they didn’t know how to put it together.

The teacher then basically tailored his talk around that, starting with the rather blunt attitude – it sounds like an attitude, but it’s not, it’s really the epitome of conscious tenderness – by basically saying, “That’s going to happen to every one of you.” You know, “I don’t know why half of you are here, because you’re all going to have to go through this at some point in time or another.”

And then he said, “You know, you can leave, because if you stay, you’re going to have to go through this at some point in time.” What kind of thing was that? Was that compassionate? Yes, but that sounds almost brutal.

He didn’t go oh, I’m so sorry dear that it’s like that for you, oh that’s too bad. He didn’t do that at all. He just jumped right over the top of it, and says and this is going to happen to all of you. And technically you’ve [Ann] already had a bit of that happen to you, when let’s say for example during the daytime you’ve gone along and you just racked your brain at trying to figure something out that was bugging you.

And you went around and around and around and around and around, and so when you went to bed you were out of whack too because you still haven’t solved it. And then when you fall asleep, part of your process is still trying to work on it. You can have horrible, horrible sleep.

Do you remember those?

Ann: Yes, oh gosh yes.

John: We don’t have that much anymore because, we’re lucky but I remember having stuff like that.

Ann: Oh my gosh yes. Talk about brutal almost.

John: That is brutal torture. It’s like being haunted.

Ann: Yes because then you are like aaah – you get up and you’re exhausted.

John: Yes. You are exhausted. You didn’t get your full night’s rest, and it’s this sort of thing that some people get caught up in the swim of and it will break you down. You can have a breakdown as a consequence of this.

You never get a reprieve. Something doesn’t come together. The soul doesn’t catch up with something. Your body doesn’t get properly rested, and oh my gosh on an energetic level you go backwards. And what do you look like? You look like hell.

And I’m seeing more and more people that are looking like hell.

Ann: Boy that is so true, isn’t it. Wow.


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groundingIn this continuing discussion of the new energy that has arrived on the planet, one aspect of being in tune with it – rather than resisting it – is that it is occurring on a vibrational level in all of us. There’s an element of trust required to let it in our lives, because if we put our personal view on it, and expect to keep some idea of “control,” it will turn up in us as pain and suffering – in both subtle and not so subtle ways. (For the earlier installments, see Part I, Part II, and Part III.) (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: You can take it all into account. You’re meant to be able to take it all into account. You’re meant to be able to live throughout the Whole.

Isn’t this interesting? This is the new energy.

Ann: Just incredible. Wow. It’s just incredible. Oh boy.

John: And who can you explain this to? How can anybody get it? I don’t know how you can logically explain it, because the way that one tries to understand things has to do with the conditions in the outer as the example.

And if you reduce it to that kind of way of talking, the perspective of that way, that’s like the person who is suffering now. They are suffering because they are following this one particular way, this very linear way of putting the pieces together.

And this component they’re trying to put into that way and it won’t fit in there anymore, and what they’re trying to put it in has been thrown in the garbage. That process which was wonderful has been thrown in the garbage.

You have to step out of those shoes. That will be very, very interesting because how do you use language to try to get that person to step out of their shoes?

Also, the thing about it is you have to… this is a trait that the feminine has to watch more so than the masculine. The masculine has a certain ruthlessness about its nature that probably helps it a little better in this regard. But in the feminine nature, let’s say you’re looking at somebody and they’re struggling. You’re trying to ameliorate it. You’re almost trying to empathize with it. You’re trying to kind of go at it in their way for them a bit. You’re kind of like walking down the road with them in this way.

And instead of being able to just come right straight down and let the chips fall where the chips fall, and trust, and trust that something will be able to sort itself out, maybe not then, but later.

And when you’ve done something like this, and you are true to yourself in doing something like this, to begin with you kind of suffer, but to the degree that you have a capacity inside of you to hold the space open, something then heals, and it sets in motion a transitioning etherically, is the only way I know how to say it, whereby the other person starts to catch up, they start to get it.

Like I had a good friend call me up and I think he was drunk at the time. It just bothered him and bothered him and he was tearing himself up and, of course, because this new energy has hit, a part of me doesn’t know how to be poker faced, I guess, and I told him he looked like hell.

Then he’s working on this particular spot that we own together, trying to fix it up. And I say, “Geez it has ruined it, it’s ruined it” you know, just like it has really been bruised and hurt…  And all of this became, and was taken in by him, as a reflection upon himself, in too much of a personal way. And as I’m talking with him, it’s like he’s telling me how he has been hurt, and how I hurt him. He’s a wonderful, wonderful guy.

Normally I sit down and meditate at 10 o’clock, and he calls at 10 o’clock, and I get off the phone an hour and a half later because in the talking to him I finally soothe the situation, or something soothed the situation, and he went right to sleep.

I could hear him snoring there or breathing, asleep, and so it was almost like he went into a Dhyana.

First of all that which was carrying away on him, kind of got taken into account or evened out so it wasn’t tearing him up anymore like it had been, causing him to go berserk. And then he went into a soothing state where the qualities of how you are, and who you are, come through and take over.

And I look at this and I realize that this is what a teacher does to a student. They’re able to come to them at night in this vibrational way. It’s almost as if you can have a dream: did they give you the dream? Or did they just set in motion something that quickened a particular vibrationalism that is part of who you are, they being able to, on a vibrational level, note the soul. And that, in and of itself, sets in motion reflective mirroring that causes you to go.

Is that how the teacher works? It appears to be so. It appears to be so. All vibrational. And a teacher that functions like that cannot be dealing with the little shit, you know. They can’t be sitting there going around and around and around and around. You know it just, it drags them down.

You have to let go to a certain degree, in order to catch the hint and the subtle inflection. And that hint and that subtle inflection just keeps going and taking you somewhere. It’s all vibrational. Until eventually, you don’t count.

Yet there is a quality about you that may have been an ego overwhelm, at some point in time, in which it was horrible. You know, it was a density that stunk up the place. But ultimately that quality and that trait, once honed to where it gets with the Whole, and you flow with the Whole instead of guiding that quality for some other kind of edification, once you get so that you do that, then how you are you come to know, is absolutely just fine. That is the bit of God or something, that you are.

So how is it possible to annihilate anything? In other words, if you see some part of you, yes that part of you could be holding you back, putting you in moods and stuff like that, and yes, maybe you have to go into and face that to some degree, but ultimately you don’t go anywhere.

How you are, is how you are, and you just have to know how to live and be all it is that you are.

I even had this dream the other day… first there was an earlier dream and then the answer that I was told is that the reshaping in the outer has to do with me. I go wow, wow. I don’t know what that means, but then that sets in motion the next dream that drills down on what me is.

And so in this dream, my brother and I are living on a mountainside, on a place that has a little cabin and it sits up and has a tremendous view and you look out over a steep drop off nearby and you’re completely isolated.

We’re away from all kinds of civilization. Our car is broken down so we can’t connect to them even if we wanted to. It’s a small cabin and the belongings we have make it a little awkward because it kind of clutters the place up.

Well, one day I wake up in the morning and I say to my brother, I say, “I think it’s leaning. I think this house is no longer on the level anymore.” I test it by putting a marble down on the floor or anything to see if it will roll. Instead Mark says, “Well, what do you expect? You’re way up in the air. You’re really high like this. It is going to be a little like that.”

And so that mood and that attitude is such that I can’t accept that. I mean there’s an attitude behind that. I have to figure out what’s going on, so I go out the door and then I walk around to the front, and to my shock and amazement the slope is just sloughed off, and here is the house sitting there and it’s right on the very brink where everything is sloughed away. And so if any more were to slough off, the house would go over the edge. And of course our car that was broken down anyway, you know it’s gone – it’s gone over the edge.

And so I go back inside and I ask Mark I say, “Gosh, what are we going to do?” Again it’s like “What do you expect. I mean this is kind of like the way it is.” And so I say to Mark, “Umm, we need to call somebody. Who should we call?” Mark says, “Me,” meaning not him but me – call myself.

That’s what fixes it. Yeah, that’s how it works in the outer. We are all of that. Every little thing that happened.

And our problem is, we hear our own loudness too much, and then eventually when we get outside of that loudness and we allow that quality to just be in relationship to how everything is in the Whole, we just soar because we fit in hand and glove just like we’re meant to fit in.

But when we pull it back and we go around in some sort of quasi recognized peculiarity of a me, myself, and I, we suffer to beat the band. We are in a state of bewilderment as to why we are having our moods and our attitudes and our hurt heart, and why somebody is doing this to us and that to us, and the world is acting up and mistreating us…

And we’re tripping and falling this way and that way and it makes no sense why this should be happening, this is just not right, it’s not fair, and then we realize oh, okay we get a little stabler in our demeanor so we walk a little straighter again, but still it’s just a question of degree, I guess, because then when we hit a mood then all hell breaks out again and we go around and around like that.

And we have to realize that walking a little better, or the degree to which everything is falling completely apart, are still one in the same. Both of those are still working with some sort of identification in terms of us, instead of us just being there for the outer.

This is something in terms of the new energy.


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wholeness_archetypeAll human beings are designed for a journey back home, back into an integration with the Wholeness from which we have come. Jeane’s dream reflects this struggle, one that requires that we let go of everything that separates us from that Wholeness, and embrace all that exists. It is the journey back to God. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had one, it was more like a long experience. I had a couple of dreams, but in this longer experience it’s like, as I’m dreaming, I’m kind of snuggling up to your back, with my back up against your back.

And in a way I am trying to do something with you, but instead I’m doing some kind of work with a member of our [dream] group. I can’t remember what the work was like, but I had to keep doing that work, which was okay in a way, except I was also trying to be with you.

But I couldn’t really be with you because I had to be doing this work with him, some kind of energetic work with him. That went on for quite a while.

John: The theme of the dreaming last night was to be like a vacuum cleaner, kind of… to be able to take and sweep up energetics, which are parts of ourselves, that are stranded or estranged. And they are stranded or estranged because we have gone through things in life that cause us to break the linkage to the Whole, and you can’t connect to the Whole without taking on the Wholeness.

Now, you take on this Wholeness in stages, like first of all you have to kind of merge with the teacher. Well, a part of that process is you also then have to accept life in terms of how life is. Well, the most complicated thing then in life would be human beings who have the freedom of choice that has caused them to go off on some other octave. So you have to work towards being with that.

Well, you do this in stages. Just like you have a process that connects and sees the higher self of your nature through the way that the teacher works with bringing that into clarity. You also have to come to see how in a group mannerism, or setting, that you are part of all of that, that you don’t see and come to recognize yourself as on a path, for example, that’s doing its thing but is separate from them.

Now you’re catching up with what is a like-minded kind of similitude that is easier for you to see, especially if it’s like a type of catching up with the group energy, or the reincarnated group energy. But that then has to ultimately shift as well. First you have to be able to do that, to then realize that there is still something wrong with this picture, in that you still have issues with the density of things, in terms of people and such in the outer.

Ultimately you’re going to have to absorb. You’re like a vacuum cleaner. Absolve yourself of any ill well, or separation, or confusion that leads to separation, in terms of everyone else. Until you do that, you just have to sit and watch. You have to take on that responsibility that has created the distance, the gap, and if you don’t do that then you’re continuing on all levels to make decisions in relationship to the vibration, or however you want to say this trait is, in which you carry some mannerism, attitude, belief, judgment, need for security, however you would say that.

As long as you carry some sense of that, then you first of all can’t properly connect to the teacher. Second of all, you can’t properly realize how you fit within the group, and the wholeness of the group. And third you can’t bring any of that into the world as long as you don’t accept human beings, and the condition that they are in.

If you have a belief that the way they are is a problem for you, and that their ignorance weighs you down, or endangers how and where you’ve gotten to – as if it can be taken away – then you don’t make the necessary step or shift.

Your dream actually has a higher octave sense to it. One of the reasons why something can’t shift or evolve is because there is still this idea or need to have to determine and distinguish between what energetics are important, and what energetics are not important, instead of getting to the point that you can be with, and work with, accept, accommodate, all things – even though they may come across as hitting you in a way that you consider as a kind of craziness, or anger, or evil, or controlling.

If you can get to the point where this sort of thing is set aside in terms of everything in the outer, you hit a kind of compassion upon which the world is created. In other words, the world wasn’t created to have the feuds of things going at it that ultimately destroy it.

The world was created so that everything could rejoice and flow and in the process everybody being open and free like that makes for the overall to work, as opposed to individuals thinking they have to climb a tree towards better and better jobs and security and whatnot, that always comes at the expense of some separation, or pushing away from others as if that is necessary in order to enjoy some concept of the good life that each person tends to have.

Your dream is showing that other than a connection to the teacher, and to the immediate environment around you, you have to open yourself up to take on that connection as it relates to the group, the wholeness of that. And from that then your prayer will extend to what the teacher didn’t talk about. It will then open up to the prayer or the connection to the Whole, to the world soul.

And for that to happen, and it can’t happen until you have taken and set aside whatever grievance it is that you carry, in any regard, that somehow or another vents some aspect of anger or frustration, or raises issues of emotion, or however it affects each person.

In your particular case the principle of getting angry and upset and whatnot, you’ve gotten a long ways with that, and you know that that doesn’t accomplish anything. But can you then continue on that thread and take it out to the point where you can accept everything in your environment, where your perspective becomes broad enough to take all of that in?

If it does, and if it can, then I think the story about whether there are two components or not, goes away, because there’s only a Oneness. Your dream is catching up and is pointing out stages of development and explaining how you’re racing out on one stage to expand out and accept, and that stage is in relationship to the similitude of the group.

And the degree to which you are intertwined gets you to fully accept that. But then there will be the outer and to what degree can you take and accommodate and heal the surrounding?

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