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d6f3oadAs we are seeing, there is a cost to the separation and the distancing of people and things. It might be more useful to always look to understand how things are connected, and how they interact with other things, and, in doing so, we can see that to separate any one thing out is to lose the perspective we need to work with it and change it. Bringing everything together might be a better model for the future, as opposed to making infinite distinctions. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just remember my last dream. In this dream, I seem to be working someplace where we work and then we kind of go up a level, and go into a room, an open room, but it’s just up a few feet from the rest of the room that’s like a dining room. We all sit around a rectangular table.

When we sit around the table, initially, there seems to be a lot of tensions going on. And then one of the young women there reveals that she’s gay. And, after a few minutes, it’s like another young woman there, who I think is like the daughter of somebody who owns this place, suddenly comes to the realization that she’s gay, too.

And, during all of this, it’s like some stuff got spilled on the table. And she’s wondering if this is us being upset with her – the reason things got spilled or mixed around. And I make a comment that, no, it’s about the tension from everybody trying to not reveal what was so, as opposed to the upset being about what has been revealed. Although I realized that her father, who’s not there, that maybe he’s one of the owners of the restaurants or something, might have trouble with the whole issue, particularly because she’s kind of taken time from when she should be working right now to stay at the table because she wants to sort this out with all of us sitting there.

At the same time, I’m realizing that, whereas with the other girl, she was very aware, with this one, who’s her close friend, this is more of just like a revelation to her, too, and that we need to take a few minutes to kind of reassure her. At the same time this is causing some tension because she’s supposed to be back at work. That was the dream.

John: What you have to do with this dream is you have to take out the action of the appearance of the dream and look at the transition, vibrationally, that is behind what is a sequence of outer appearances, or mannerisms.

And when you do, you realize that what you’re perceiving, and what you’re seeing in front of you, is a far cry from the way that there is this inner state that is spinning you. It’s like, can you catch up with how this just spins you?

You can take and you can look at and have an epiphany over here, of an insight. And then all of a sudden that leads to another epiphany over there as an insight. And you can see that this epiphany of an insight is different than the depth of the epiphany of the insight over here. And so you could easily have a sense as to how this to that and how that works, as an importance and as a flow, or you can suddenly drop even that spaciousness of pulling those two together, you can even drop that spaciousness and fall into the recognition that the whole thing is being spun.

And that, in the spinning of this over here, and that over there, you end up with something that just melts together, where something gets spun and all of a sudden it changes. This is what this is like, only its on a vibrational level. And that you could take and notice, you have the recognition inside of yourself that it’s more than this and that, and then all it requires, then, is another little letting go kind of subtle drop.

And you’re able to have those two areas, those two places in which there is some question, or bifurcation, or nuance, or aspect in terms of reaching between this and that, it just spins. And the whole thing becomes one orientation, not an orientation over here that is kind of interesting, and an orientation over there that’s more profound, and that you sort out this which is interesting from that which is profound to come up with the differences to why this is to that and that is to that, as if you’re able to schematicize the unfoldment.

Instead, rather than trying to steer, or schematicize, or to control, or to have a piece of the way you hold on to the unfoldment, as if holding on to the unfoldment is where it’s at. You just suddenly allow yourself to be spun. And then when you’re spun, it’s like you’re spun into something. And it’s no longer visible in the form that it had been – and goes into something else.

As it’s spun, all the features fall away, and it becomes something else that is just there; but no features anymore. They get spun out of it. That’s the vibration behind what you’re dreaming, that you suddenly catch, or fall into, in one fell swoop. If you catch up with it, if you feel it, if it comes across in a way that is still having to sort something out, or to recognize the distinction between this place and that place, then you’re not really quite letting go. You’re still trying to put the whole thing into your own personal cognition.

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7caforniaIn the game of Telephone, we know that when the message reaches us it will be terribly distorted, with, perhaps, the entire meaning changed. If we ask ourselves: what is the purpose of life?, we will find the same problem, because we humans have been getting the message wrong for thousands of years. So what do we do, and what can we trust? We can trust in the universe, and we can trust in our human design, two things that are still operating as they were meant to do and be. In the case of our design, we simply are not using it correctly, because all our sensitivities are part of our ability to connect to the universal – from which we can receive all the guidance we need. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, my attention is upon a substance that’s getting screened through and filtered in a noticeable way. What I noticed was that there was nothing to see and report, in terms of the filtering process. It seemed that something was there, but, if so, it was so fine that there was nothing to see.

In other words, we’re constantly filtering and filtering, and what we end up extracting is extracting a mannerism, or a pattern, or a way, and then we feel that and realize that that has its qualities in which it falls apart. But there’s nothing to filter to.

If I had seen something of consequence, in which there was a reportable visibility, I would’ve had a different determination and unfoldment as memorable – which would’ve been a wrong kind of memorableness.

The meaning is this is an image in that whatever I am refining or filtering gets to a nothingness of consequence, or visibility. In other words, it’s a purification image.

And then I still stay on this, in the next one, in which the image I see is that I pay 109-degree hot water bill, which is affecting a washing machine. In other words, I pay the bill and the bill is 109 degrees and that’s okay, and the 109 degrees affects the washing machine. In other words, it’s like a symbol of completion, where you accept the temperature that exists and just face that bill for whatever it is. In other words, it’s like a message, it’s like a strange kind of advertising, too, that this is how it is.

So now I’m starting to deviate in this one. So I go into an area where I see a stream of water that’s flowing. It’s not flowing in the way that it usually flows, and it’s kind of something I can easily swim in. It’s almost like a natural hot springs, the whole length of it.

But, in this hot springs, I know that there is a dragon, and this is a wonderful, friendly, helpful, magical dragon, but the water is so low I’m wondering how the dragon can survive in this. And so I’m swimming up this thing, and swimming up this thing, like I’m trying to get the source, and, eventually, I come to an area where there’s kind of some run down buildings that’s at the head of all of this, almost as if there are rooms that you can go into and whatnot, and it’s as if that is like a change area and everything else.

This whole time I’ve been alone as I’m doing this, and, when I look outside, in the far distance I guess would be the ocean. And then water is coming across the white sands, just a very small amount, and I can’t help but wonder if the sea level rises maybe it fills this channel more, or if it goes down, then what if there’s global warming or something. Whatever it is, it can impact this, and somehow or another as it comes across these white sands in a very, very thin layer of water coming across, I guess it heats up or something and goes into these hot springs.

So I go back into these hot spring rooms. I’m all by myself the whole time, and suddenly there’s a room and there’s a whole bunch of guys in it. And they try to invite me in, and as soon as I go in there I realize there’s something strange about them. I comment about the dragon, and if the dragon does he make it to the sea? And they assume that he must make it to the sea from time to time, and I figure he has to make it to the sea because this is pretty shallow the way it is now.

So I’ve got to get away from them; these guys look strange and weird. Who knows what is apt to happen. And so I act like I’m going out to find the main river. Well I came up what was the spur that I thought was the main river, and, as I go along I walk out this way and that way, and of course I am careful to try to make sure I get away from these characters, and I come down to an area and there’s a huge river there.

Wow, where’d that come from? And as I come down at the head of the river is all kinds of people in the water, and lo and behold, that’s a hot springs. The water is hot there and all these people are just enjoying themselves, and I can just go into that amidst all of those people and be just fine.

So the nature of this is that this dream starts off in which I’m in a solitary way and, little by little, that gets one out of balance. However, there is the magical dragon that does cover this whole area and, when I’m wayward and off, the hot springs that exist, or the flow that exists, is even a little polluted, and I could see it’s not conducive to the needs for this kind of magical creature to live.

And it’s not healthy to be by myself trying to follow something as an unfoldment to the source, as if I’m going to sort all of that out on my own, because such an approach can lead to where I can see the sea, or at least the white sands coming from the sea, and the water that flows across that from the ocean access, but it flows across and is looked at in this way in kind of a bifurcated aloneness way which gets into a type of life that is dysfunctional.

To leave that is to find the mighty river, which at its pure source is healthy, and where the true hot springs of life can be. Or, as I said in another way, when I leave this imbalance I find the hot springs again, but at the head of a mighty river, and a lot of ordinary people to be with.

So this is pointing out again that my tendency is to ponder and to look at things, and find all these different variables, which will be unlimited in their nature, as a type of looking in a Solomon kind of vanity way, when doing that is a bifurcation off of what is really meant to be, which is to just hold the central vibration of a letting go, that you can hold in the dhikr of the breath, or in the prayer quality of yourself, or in the meditation. Allow all of that to come together. They work together.

Spirit energy is different forms, and spirit energy can come back to you, and is carried from lifetime to lifetime. And so you have to be careful of just catching up with spirit energy, per se, because it can have its mannerism, just like how do you address the kundalini energy that’s throwing people around, in terms of them not being able to sleep, or dream, and stuff like that? That’s something that sorts itself off in a type of letting go that they have to reach inside of themselves, and they reach that inside of themselves by holding the quality of the note of the vibration. The best thing to do would be to do the dhikr.

Next dream: I am warned ahead of time about being held up by bandits who shake people down along a road. I seem to forget this, and I end up with an old pickup truck full of gold, and hidden amidst the gold is something even more precious than that cargo.

And so it’s almost as if, in this pickup truck, with me is a bunch of these surly guys that are just kind of, you know, in the state that I’m in it’s okay, but you wouldn’t want to meet them by a road. And they remind me that it might not be a good idea to go over this area, and I get this notion that, you know, yeah, they could actually call ahead and I could be waylaid, even.

Well, to go over this area, I seem to think I need a different vehicle and I go to get into the vehicle and it won’t start, which means I’ve moved away from the truck, that’s this old beat up pickup truck, that has the gold in the back and something precious there.

And so that’s the dichotomy in this dream is, in some way, I’m attempting to be adamant in my own way, and the meaning of the dream is just to stop, and the circumstances are my clue, and I need to hold tight to where I am, and there is no need to reach out. I have at this time what I need. I just need to know how to take it in, in its entirety of my being, as is.

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thepathAs we continue, it becomes more and more apparent that the safest place to be is in the flow with the energy. Whenever we let our personal indulgences dictate our actions, we make ourselves vulnerable to self-created suffering. The only safe place is on the path. (For the earlier installments, see Part I, Part II, Part III , and Part IV.) (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Right now my whole take on it is that there are all kinds of things that are a little bit askew. Just like as we were talking, some people are looking better, some people are looking worse, and it’s almost like those who are trying real hard, in maybe a spiritual capacity, a lot of them are apt to be drawing the conclusion that the motif in which they’ve been projecting, and aiming themselves, is causing them to suffer more.

They don’t realize that they’ve shifted; they’ve gone into it in a little bit of a spiritual illusion – they didn’t mean to – and they miss the door.

I mean I’m certainly seeing that. There was a woman that tried to commit suicide. What I saw about her is that somehow, prematurely, she was waking up to a proximity closeness between this side, and the other side, I guess is the way of saying it.

She’s very indulged in what has to happen in her outer, and she feels the pressure of all of that, yet at the same time what helps make that outer louder to her in a way, in a painful way that is, she has this inner quickening going on, too, but she’s not able to somehow or another pick up enough of the responsibility of an Adab to the inner, so that she doesn’t keep stabbing herself with her outer predicament.

And so as a consequence her outer predicament has gotten to the point where they overwhelmed her. In other words, our teacher has indicated that this is a path where you don’t come back, but there’s an exception. You commit suicide, you come straight back.

It’s no different than any other kind of energetic, where you take and you do something. Let’s say you’re in a bad marriage or something, and you take and you get all blameworthy, change the situation that you’re in, and then you just gloat for a while thinking you’ve found something so much better – you should have done this sooner – only to realize that over a course of time you come back to facing that same dilemma in that relationship too. It goes around and around like that.

You’re in life to live something out, and it becomes too overwhelming to you, and you’re not quite true to the course, you’re not quite staying the course, and then you take and you do something to stop the process or veil the process, and you get into a repetitious pattern, you get haunted by that repetitious pattern, and if you were to do something really outrageous as if like, I’ve had enough, and commit suicide, that doesn’t rewrite the Book of Life.

It just causes you to have to come back and contend with it again, and probably go through that perhaps even worse then, because you’re going to come up to the point where you’re going to feel like committing suicide again. It has to live itself out until you let go of it.

In other words, till you get into a proper vibrational relationship, that is you, in terms of how it can be in the Whole, and can do that without any image problems, which is ego getting in the way.

What would I have said to that person if they would have stuck around, or if I would have had a chance to talk to them? Would I have been like a lot of the people, where you would have hugged them, and hope you’re doing better, and glad to see you? That’s not my nature.

I would have been inclined to do what is kind of a type of tough love. Now does that mean that I have an attitude, that I really don’t like them, or something? No. It means that if I smooth them a little bit, that isn’t helping them at all. Their botched attempt is going to come up again.

They reach that crescendo in order to break through something, and just putting the lid and the cap down on things is not going to get that to work for them. They have that particular acuity because that’s their karma, or their nature, to have to come to that kind of acuity. And then they don’t go around and have everybody tell them that it’s A-okay again, and then telling themselves that it’s A-okay because deep down inside they cannot hear it that way anymore.

They are, so to speak, for better or worse, afflicted by the proximity of this inner and outer, and they have to come to grips with it. I’ll never forget this person who, years ago when I was first new on the path, must have told the teacher this dream and the teacher said, “Bring it up in the group.”

And the teacher turns to this person and had him tell the dream. And then they barely had told the dream, and in the dream basically what this person was saying was that they were afraid to go to sleep at night because they would be hit by this, and hit by that, and it was like being busted into a million pieces, and they didn’t know how to put it together.

The teacher then basically tailored his talk around that, starting with the rather blunt attitude – it sounds like an attitude, but it’s not, it’s really the epitome of conscious tenderness – by basically saying, “That’s going to happen to every one of you.” You know, “I don’t know why half of you are here, because you’re all going to have to go through this at some point in time or another.”

And then he said, “You know, you can leave, because if you stay, you’re going to have to go through this at some point in time.” What kind of thing was that? Was that compassionate? Yes, but that sounds almost brutal.

He didn’t go oh, I’m so sorry dear that it’s like that for you, oh that’s too bad. He didn’t do that at all. He just jumped right over the top of it, and says and this is going to happen to all of you. And technically you’ve [Ann] already had a bit of that happen to you, when let’s say for example during the daytime you’ve gone along and you just racked your brain at trying to figure something out that was bugging you.

And you went around and around and around and around and around, and so when you went to bed you were out of whack too because you still haven’t solved it. And then when you fall asleep, part of your process is still trying to work on it. You can have horrible, horrible sleep.

Do you remember those?

Ann: Yes, oh gosh yes.

John: We don’t have that much anymore because, we’re lucky but I remember having stuff like that.

Ann: Oh my gosh yes. Talk about brutal almost.

John: That is brutal torture. It’s like being haunted.

Ann: Yes because then you are like aaah – you get up and you’re exhausted.

John: Yes. You are exhausted. You didn’t get your full night’s rest, and it’s this sort of thing that some people get caught up in the swim of and it will break you down. You can have a breakdown as a consequence of this.

You never get a reprieve. Something doesn’t come together. The soul doesn’t catch up with something. Your body doesn’t get properly rested, and oh my gosh on an energetic level you go backwards. And what do you look like? You look like hell.

And I’m seeing more and more people that are looking like hell.

Ann: Boy that is so true, isn’t it. Wow.


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