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7caforniaIn the game of Telephone, we know that when the message reaches us it will be terribly distorted, with, perhaps, the entire meaning changed. If we ask ourselves: what is the purpose of life?, we will find the same problem, because we humans have been getting the message wrong for thousands of years. So what do we do, and what can we trust? We can trust in the universe, and we can trust in our human design, two things that are still operating as they were meant to do and be. In the case of our design, we simply are not using it correctly, because all our sensitivities are part of our ability to connect to the universal – from which we can receive all the guidance we need. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, my attention is upon a substance that’s getting screened through and filtered in a noticeable way. What I noticed was that there was nothing to see and report, in terms of the filtering process. It seemed that something was there, but, if so, it was so fine that there was nothing to see.

In other words, we’re constantly filtering and filtering, and what we end up extracting is extracting a mannerism, or a pattern, or a way, and then we feel that and realize that that has its qualities in which it falls apart. But there’s nothing to filter to.

If I had seen something of consequence, in which there was a reportable visibility, I would’ve had a different determination and unfoldment as memorable – which would’ve been a wrong kind of memorableness.

The meaning is this is an image in that whatever I am refining or filtering gets to a nothingness of consequence, or visibility. In other words, it’s a purification image.

And then I still stay on this, in the next one, in which the image I see is that I pay 109-degree hot water bill, which is affecting a washing machine. In other words, I pay the bill and the bill is 109 degrees and that’s okay, and the 109 degrees affects the washing machine. In other words, it’s like a symbol of completion, where you accept the temperature that exists and just face that bill for whatever it is. In other words, it’s like a message, it’s like a strange kind of advertising, too, that this is how it is.

So now I’m starting to deviate in this one. So I go into an area where I see a stream of water that’s flowing. It’s not flowing in the way that it usually flows, and it’s kind of something I can easily swim in. It’s almost like a natural hot springs, the whole length of it.

But, in this hot springs, I know that there is a dragon, and this is a wonderful, friendly, helpful, magical dragon, but the water is so low I’m wondering how the dragon can survive in this. And so I’m swimming up this thing, and swimming up this thing, like I’m trying to get the source, and, eventually, I come to an area where there’s kind of some run down buildings that’s at the head of all of this, almost as if there are rooms that you can go into and whatnot, and it’s as if that is like a change area and everything else.

This whole time I’ve been alone as I’m doing this, and, when I look outside, in the far distance I guess would be the ocean. And then water is coming across the white sands, just a very small amount, and I can’t help but wonder if the sea level rises maybe it fills this channel more, or if it goes down, then what if there’s global warming or something. Whatever it is, it can impact this, and somehow or another as it comes across these white sands in a very, very thin layer of water coming across, I guess it heats up or something and goes into these hot springs.

So I go back into these hot spring rooms. I’m all by myself the whole time, and suddenly there’s a room and there’s a whole bunch of guys in it. And they try to invite me in, and as soon as I go in there I realize there’s something strange about them. I comment about the dragon, and if the dragon does he make it to the sea? And they assume that he must make it to the sea from time to time, and I figure he has to make it to the sea because this is pretty shallow the way it is now.

So I’ve got to get away from them; these guys look strange and weird. Who knows what is apt to happen. And so I act like I’m going out to find the main river. Well I came up what was the spur that I thought was the main river, and, as I go along I walk out this way and that way, and of course I am careful to try to make sure I get away from these characters, and I come down to an area and there’s a huge river there.

Wow, where’d that come from? And as I come down at the head of the river is all kinds of people in the water, and lo and behold, that’s a hot springs. The water is hot there and all these people are just enjoying themselves, and I can just go into that amidst all of those people and be just fine.

So the nature of this is that this dream starts off in which I’m in a solitary way and, little by little, that gets one out of balance. However, there is the magical dragon that does cover this whole area and, when I’m wayward and off, the hot springs that exist, or the flow that exists, is even a little polluted, and I could see it’s not conducive to the needs for this kind of magical creature to live.

And it’s not healthy to be by myself trying to follow something as an unfoldment to the source, as if I’m going to sort all of that out on my own, because such an approach can lead to where I can see the sea, or at least the white sands coming from the sea, and the water that flows across that from the ocean access, but it flows across and is looked at in this way in kind of a bifurcated aloneness way which gets into a type of life that is dysfunctional.

To leave that is to find the mighty river, which at its pure source is healthy, and where the true hot springs of life can be. Or, as I said in another way, when I leave this imbalance I find the hot springs again, but at the head of a mighty river, and a lot of ordinary people to be with.

So this is pointing out again that my tendency is to ponder and to look at things, and find all these different variables, which will be unlimited in their nature, as a type of looking in a Solomon kind of vanity way, when doing that is a bifurcation off of what is really meant to be, which is to just hold the central vibration of a letting go, that you can hold in the dhikr of the breath, or in the prayer quality of yourself, or in the meditation. Allow all of that to come together. They work together.

Spirit energy is different forms, and spirit energy can come back to you, and is carried from lifetime to lifetime. And so you have to be careful of just catching up with spirit energy, per se, because it can have its mannerism, just like how do you address the kundalini energy that’s throwing people around, in terms of them not being able to sleep, or dream, and stuff like that? That’s something that sorts itself off in a type of letting go that they have to reach inside of themselves, and they reach that inside of themselves by holding the quality of the note of the vibration. The best thing to do would be to do the dhikr.

Next dream: I am warned ahead of time about being held up by bandits who shake people down along a road. I seem to forget this, and I end up with an old pickup truck full of gold, and hidden amidst the gold is something even more precious than that cargo.

And so it’s almost as if, in this pickup truck, with me is a bunch of these surly guys that are just kind of, you know, in the state that I’m in it’s okay, but you wouldn’t want to meet them by a road. And they remind me that it might not be a good idea to go over this area, and I get this notion that, you know, yeah, they could actually call ahead and I could be waylaid, even.

Well, to go over this area, I seem to think I need a different vehicle and I go to get into the vehicle and it won’t start, which means I’ve moved away from the truck, that’s this old beat up pickup truck, that has the gold in the back and something precious there.

And so that’s the dichotomy in this dream is, in some way, I’m attempting to be adamant in my own way, and the meaning of the dream is just to stop, and the circumstances are my clue, and I need to hold tight to where I am, and there is no need to reach out. I have at this time what I need. I just need to know how to take it in, in its entirety of my being, as is.

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thepathAs we continue, it becomes more and more apparent that the safest place to be is in the flow with the energy. Whenever we let our personal indulgences dictate our actions, we make ourselves vulnerable to self-created suffering. The only safe place is on the path. (For the earlier installments, see Part I, Part II, Part III , and Part IV.) (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Right now my whole take on it is that there are all kinds of things that are a little bit askew. Just like as we were talking, some people are looking better, some people are looking worse, and it’s almost like those who are trying real hard, in maybe a spiritual capacity, a lot of them are apt to be drawing the conclusion that the motif in which they’ve been projecting, and aiming themselves, is causing them to suffer more.

They don’t realize that they’ve shifted; they’ve gone into it in a little bit of a spiritual illusion – they didn’t mean to – and they miss the door.

I mean I’m certainly seeing that. There was a woman that tried to commit suicide. What I saw about her is that somehow, prematurely, she was waking up to a proximity closeness between this side, and the other side, I guess is the way of saying it.

She’s very indulged in what has to happen in her outer, and she feels the pressure of all of that, yet at the same time what helps make that outer louder to her in a way, in a painful way that is, she has this inner quickening going on, too, but she’s not able to somehow or another pick up enough of the responsibility of an Adab to the inner, so that she doesn’t keep stabbing herself with her outer predicament.

And so as a consequence her outer predicament has gotten to the point where they overwhelmed her. In other words, our teacher has indicated that this is a path where you don’t come back, but there’s an exception. You commit suicide, you come straight back.

It’s no different than any other kind of energetic, where you take and you do something. Let’s say you’re in a bad marriage or something, and you take and you get all blameworthy, change the situation that you’re in, and then you just gloat for a while thinking you’ve found something so much better – you should have done this sooner – only to realize that over a course of time you come back to facing that same dilemma in that relationship too. It goes around and around like that.

You’re in life to live something out, and it becomes too overwhelming to you, and you’re not quite true to the course, you’re not quite staying the course, and then you take and you do something to stop the process or veil the process, and you get into a repetitious pattern, you get haunted by that repetitious pattern, and if you were to do something really outrageous as if like, I’ve had enough, and commit suicide, that doesn’t rewrite the Book of Life.

It just causes you to have to come back and contend with it again, and probably go through that perhaps even worse then, because you’re going to come up to the point where you’re going to feel like committing suicide again. It has to live itself out until you let go of it.

In other words, till you get into a proper vibrational relationship, that is you, in terms of how it can be in the Whole, and can do that without any image problems, which is ego getting in the way.

What would I have said to that person if they would have stuck around, or if I would have had a chance to talk to them? Would I have been like a lot of the people, where you would have hugged them, and hope you’re doing better, and glad to see you? That’s not my nature.

I would have been inclined to do what is kind of a type of tough love. Now does that mean that I have an attitude, that I really don’t like them, or something? No. It means that if I smooth them a little bit, that isn’t helping them at all. Their botched attempt is going to come up again.

They reach that crescendo in order to break through something, and just putting the lid and the cap down on things is not going to get that to work for them. They have that particular acuity because that’s their karma, or their nature, to have to come to that kind of acuity. And then they don’t go around and have everybody tell them that it’s A-okay again, and then telling themselves that it’s A-okay because deep down inside they cannot hear it that way anymore.

They are, so to speak, for better or worse, afflicted by the proximity of this inner and outer, and they have to come to grips with it. I’ll never forget this person who, years ago when I was first new on the path, must have told the teacher this dream and the teacher said, “Bring it up in the group.”

And the teacher turns to this person and had him tell the dream. And then they barely had told the dream, and in the dream basically what this person was saying was that they were afraid to go to sleep at night because they would be hit by this, and hit by that, and it was like being busted into a million pieces, and they didn’t know how to put it together.

The teacher then basically tailored his talk around that, starting with the rather blunt attitude – it sounds like an attitude, but it’s not, it’s really the epitome of conscious tenderness – by basically saying, “That’s going to happen to every one of you.” You know, “I don’t know why half of you are here, because you’re all going to have to go through this at some point in time or another.”

And then he said, “You know, you can leave, because if you stay, you’re going to have to go through this at some point in time.” What kind of thing was that? Was that compassionate? Yes, but that sounds almost brutal.

He didn’t go oh, I’m so sorry dear that it’s like that for you, oh that’s too bad. He didn’t do that at all. He just jumped right over the top of it, and says and this is going to happen to all of you. And technically you’ve [Ann] already had a bit of that happen to you, when let’s say for example during the daytime you’ve gone along and you just racked your brain at trying to figure something out that was bugging you.

And you went around and around and around and around and around, and so when you went to bed you were out of whack too because you still haven’t solved it. And then when you fall asleep, part of your process is still trying to work on it. You can have horrible, horrible sleep.

Do you remember those?

Ann: Yes, oh gosh yes.

John: We don’t have that much anymore because, we’re lucky but I remember having stuff like that.

Ann: Oh my gosh yes. Talk about brutal almost.

John: That is brutal torture. It’s like being haunted.

Ann: Yes because then you are like aaah – you get up and you’re exhausted.

John: Yes. You are exhausted. You didn’t get your full night’s rest, and it’s this sort of thing that some people get caught up in the swim of and it will break you down. You can have a breakdown as a consequence of this.

You never get a reprieve. Something doesn’t come together. The soul doesn’t catch up with something. Your body doesn’t get properly rested, and oh my gosh on an energetic level you go backwards. And what do you look like? You look like hell.

And I’m seeing more and more people that are looking like hell.

Ann: Boy that is so true, isn’t it. Wow.


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groundingIn this continuing discussion of the new energy that has arrived on the planet, one aspect of being in tune with it – rather than resisting it – is that it is occurring on a vibrational level in all of us. There’s an element of trust required to let it in our lives, because if we put our personal view on it, and expect to keep some idea of “control,” it will turn up in us as pain and suffering – in both subtle and not so subtle ways. (For the earlier installments, see Part I, Part II, and Part III.) (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: You can take it all into account. You’re meant to be able to take it all into account. You’re meant to be able to live throughout the Whole.

Isn’t this interesting? This is the new energy.

Ann: Just incredible. Wow. It’s just incredible. Oh boy.

John: And who can you explain this to? How can anybody get it? I don’t know how you can logically explain it, because the way that one tries to understand things has to do with the conditions in the outer as the example.

And if you reduce it to that kind of way of talking, the perspective of that way, that’s like the person who is suffering now. They are suffering because they are following this one particular way, this very linear way of putting the pieces together.

And this component they’re trying to put into that way and it won’t fit in there anymore, and what they’re trying to put it in has been thrown in the garbage. That process which was wonderful has been thrown in the garbage.

You have to step out of those shoes. That will be very, very interesting because how do you use language to try to get that person to step out of their shoes?

Also, the thing about it is you have to… this is a trait that the feminine has to watch more so than the masculine. The masculine has a certain ruthlessness about its nature that probably helps it a little better in this regard. But in the feminine nature, let’s say you’re looking at somebody and they’re struggling. You’re trying to ameliorate it. You’re almost trying to empathize with it. You’re trying to kind of go at it in their way for them a bit. You’re kind of like walking down the road with them in this way.

And instead of being able to just come right straight down and let the chips fall where the chips fall, and trust, and trust that something will be able to sort itself out, maybe not then, but later.

And when you’ve done something like this, and you are true to yourself in doing something like this, to begin with you kind of suffer, but to the degree that you have a capacity inside of you to hold the space open, something then heals, and it sets in motion a transitioning etherically, is the only way I know how to say it, whereby the other person starts to catch up, they start to get it.

Like I had a good friend call me up and I think he was drunk at the time. It just bothered him and bothered him and he was tearing himself up and, of course, because this new energy has hit, a part of me doesn’t know how to be poker faced, I guess, and I told him he looked like hell.

Then he’s working on this particular spot that we own together, trying to fix it up. And I say, “Geez it has ruined it, it’s ruined it” you know, just like it has really been bruised and hurt…  And all of this became, and was taken in by him, as a reflection upon himself, in too much of a personal way. And as I’m talking with him, it’s like he’s telling me how he has been hurt, and how I hurt him. He’s a wonderful, wonderful guy.

Normally I sit down and meditate at 10 o’clock, and he calls at 10 o’clock, and I get off the phone an hour and a half later because in the talking to him I finally soothe the situation, or something soothed the situation, and he went right to sleep.

I could hear him snoring there or breathing, asleep, and so it was almost like he went into a Dhyana.

First of all that which was carrying away on him, kind of got taken into account or evened out so it wasn’t tearing him up anymore like it had been, causing him to go berserk. And then he went into a soothing state where the qualities of how you are, and who you are, come through and take over.

And I look at this and I realize that this is what a teacher does to a student. They’re able to come to them at night in this vibrational way. It’s almost as if you can have a dream: did they give you the dream? Or did they just set in motion something that quickened a particular vibrationalism that is part of who you are, they being able to, on a vibrational level, note the soul. And that, in and of itself, sets in motion reflective mirroring that causes you to go.

Is that how the teacher works? It appears to be so. It appears to be so. All vibrational. And a teacher that functions like that cannot be dealing with the little shit, you know. They can’t be sitting there going around and around and around and around. You know it just, it drags them down.

You have to let go to a certain degree, in order to catch the hint and the subtle inflection. And that hint and that subtle inflection just keeps going and taking you somewhere. It’s all vibrational. Until eventually, you don’t count.

Yet there is a quality about you that may have been an ego overwhelm, at some point in time, in which it was horrible. You know, it was a density that stunk up the place. But ultimately that quality and that trait, once honed to where it gets with the Whole, and you flow with the Whole instead of guiding that quality for some other kind of edification, once you get so that you do that, then how you are you come to know, is absolutely just fine. That is the bit of God or something, that you are.

So how is it possible to annihilate anything? In other words, if you see some part of you, yes that part of you could be holding you back, putting you in moods and stuff like that, and yes, maybe you have to go into and face that to some degree, but ultimately you don’t go anywhere.

How you are, is how you are, and you just have to know how to live and be all it is that you are.

I even had this dream the other day… first there was an earlier dream and then the answer that I was told is that the reshaping in the outer has to do with me. I go wow, wow. I don’t know what that means, but then that sets in motion the next dream that drills down on what me is.

And so in this dream, my brother and I are living on a mountainside, on a place that has a little cabin and it sits up and has a tremendous view and you look out over a steep drop off nearby and you’re completely isolated.

We’re away from all kinds of civilization. Our car is broken down so we can’t connect to them even if we wanted to. It’s a small cabin and the belongings we have make it a little awkward because it kind of clutters the place up.

Well, one day I wake up in the morning and I say to my brother, I say, “I think it’s leaning. I think this house is no longer on the level anymore.” I test it by putting a marble down on the floor or anything to see if it will roll. Instead Mark says, “Well, what do you expect? You’re way up in the air. You’re really high like this. It is going to be a little like that.”

And so that mood and that attitude is such that I can’t accept that. I mean there’s an attitude behind that. I have to figure out what’s going on, so I go out the door and then I walk around to the front, and to my shock and amazement the slope is just sloughed off, and here is the house sitting there and it’s right on the very brink where everything is sloughed away. And so if any more were to slough off, the house would go over the edge. And of course our car that was broken down anyway, you know it’s gone – it’s gone over the edge.

And so I go back inside and I ask Mark I say, “Gosh, what are we going to do?” Again it’s like “What do you expect. I mean this is kind of like the way it is.” And so I say to Mark, “Umm, we need to call somebody. Who should we call?” Mark says, “Me,” meaning not him but me – call myself.

That’s what fixes it. Yeah, that’s how it works in the outer. We are all of that. Every little thing that happened.

And our problem is, we hear our own loudness too much, and then eventually when we get outside of that loudness and we allow that quality to just be in relationship to how everything is in the Whole, we just soar because we fit in hand and glove just like we’re meant to fit in.

But when we pull it back and we go around in some sort of quasi recognized peculiarity of a me, myself, and I, we suffer to beat the band. We are in a state of bewilderment as to why we are having our moods and our attitudes and our hurt heart, and why somebody is doing this to us and that to us, and the world is acting up and mistreating us…

And we’re tripping and falling this way and that way and it makes no sense why this should be happening, this is just not right, it’s not fair, and then we realize oh, okay we get a little stabler in our demeanor so we walk a little straighter again, but still it’s just a question of degree, I guess, because then when we hit a mood then all hell breaks out again and we go around and around like that.

And we have to realize that walking a little better, or the degree to which everything is falling completely apart, are still one in the same. Both of those are still working with some sort of identification in terms of us, instead of us just being there for the outer.

This is something in terms of the new energy.


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