Posts Tagged ‘in a war in a dream’

one-with-UniverseIt is easy to forget that we are designed to make a spiritual journey, because it seems so removed from the culture and society we find ourselves in. But, like all living things, we are born with all the physical and mental abilities to fulfill our purpose and thrive in life. So, as adults who choose to return to their human purpose, we need to undo the things that block us and prevent us from our natural capabilities. Fundamental to that is to come to understand and recognize the defense mechanisms we have created to cope with our experiences – because they serve to separate us from the oneness that we seek. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I lost my second dream, I’ll have to see if it pops back in. But what I remember a bit about the first dream is that I seem to be a woman who, I’m out in the countryside because society feels like it’s been really disrupted.

And it feels like back in time, you know like a younger you know 50, 100 years ago or something or more, and I seem to be trying to protect a child that’s with me, who will become more in the future. He’ll have some position of leadership.

And so I’m trying to like pull people together around me, and watch after him, but everything’s in a disrupted state – like there’s been war, or something, going on and we’re wandering the countryside. And so I’m trying to keep people awake and pull it together. That’s about all I remember of that dream.

John: So the deeper theme of all of this is, the beginning and end are connected. And so to take and have a glimpse, or an understanding, of how something is unfolding, and is set to unfold, there’s actually never anything new under the sun. It’s already in place. It’s just that we become veiled from how something is.

And we’ve developed this whole battle that has to do with whatever the mind is, meaning the mind is like somehow or another limited in terms of our perceptions because we perceive in such a limited way, having our nature confined and contracted like it is, so that the impressions that we have are based off of our senses, then, in this contractive state.

And when like that, then we’re biased and influenced by our surroundings, as if the surroundings are real. And we actually have created our surroundings, so as we’ve continued to shut parts of ourself down we continue to limit our grasp of an essential, all-pervasive overallness that permeates life.

In other words, it’s the mind that’s behind all that there is in manifestation and we have developed a limited mind, an illusionary mind to that all-pervasive mind, that is based upon having shut things down, contracted, and gotten into a mode of having created a world in which our perception is based upon our five senses. And so what we come to know, then, is illusionary. In other words, it’s just not real.

And so what you’re really doing in the dream is you’re going back inside of yourself to try to awaken that which you already know. It’s repressed, or hidden, in some capacity because of trauma and events – like you might say a wartime scenario, or whatever – that caused you to develop defense mechanisms upon which you took yourself outside of the way you need to be in terms of a greater overall all-inclusive beingness, or basically this all attunement kind of mind.

So you’re playing with this dynamic of past and future, or beginning and end, and so you have a sense of something more that’s possible, but that more that’s possible is a recognition that the way you are at present, in terms of being affected by the collective in your environment, is unacceptable.

But your conditionality is holding you from breaking that trance, and the reason is is because you have shut things off. Over the course of time, you have continually shut things off, and shut things off, and annihilated this, and annihilated that, so to speak, in terms of your awareness and awakened state in the overall – to the point that you’ve become so veiled that it’s like you have this need to go back and awaken to refine the parts of yourself that have been repressed, or subrogated, from consciousness.

And so, you know, this is the part of the journey, or the Sufi path, of being able to go into the depths of one’s self. And when you go into the depths of yourself you discover things that are traumatic or, in your dream, like a wartime past. Which is the same thing as traumas and stuff that you’ve had to take and make decisions on, in order to try to protect yourself, a protection however that is one of thinking that you have some control mechanism at play here, some choice in this regard, instead of just recognizing that you were created out of everything, you are actually the one mind that permeates everything in all of eternity.

However, you have exercised your freedom of choice in terms of trying to establish a sense of control for yourself and, as you’ve done that, you have confronted barriers that you have established, meaning veils, to create this segregated separateness of yourself. And the segregated separateness of yourself has gotten to the point where it has choked out the vibrancy of your wholeness, and has put you in kind of a sickened condition.

And in order to discover what all there is, you have to go back to where an aspect, like a wartime trauma of some sort, first originated. You have to go back and touch that. You have to go back and notice that, and you have to go back and let go of that mechanism that you put in place, which influences how it is that you’re capable of acting in terms of being real – because you are actually living in a bifurcated state now in which you have conditions and patterns that you follow, that are based upon having cut yourself off from the prime inner directive of your overall beingness.

And so in order for the future to unfold, you have to break these habituations that are entrenched, that just are there, that make sense to how you see yourself, that is in terms of how you see yourself in the present and in the outer. And if you look at yourself closely, you realize that your reactions and your mannerisms have some sort of conditional habituation about it, and if you take all of the manners, and patterns, and habituations and you total it up, that’s what ends up creating this idea of ego. And the heretics way of seeing ego and mind as correlated, that’s how you end up with this personality or persona that functions in this alienated way from what is real.

So, the theme of the dreaming was going back and finding oneself, in terms of who they really are, and not taking and sitting and contending with being yo-yoed about in terms of these habituations that one has that predominate. And as long as you just sit there and don’t like this, and futter with that, in terms of some sort of predilection that you carry, you’re just going to go around and around and around in a circle, that even psychologists know that in order to heal something they have to take it back to the vibrational source, you know, from which the trauma started. And then the acting up, and the carrying on, that a person does that continues to reflect in the outer for reasons that a person can’t put their finger on anymore, can be dropped, because you realize that you don’t need that defense mechanisms or pattern for your well being.

So in your dream you’re attempting to understand something in terms of what’s able to unfold, and emerge, and awaken in the future by going back and addressing the contractions that are like an inner war that you have come to believe exists as a result having put yourself in a position of shutting down for purposes of coping. 

So, yes it’s true, as you become more conscious you are able to see yourself functioning in the future. You have a quality of an emergence that has this futuristic viewpoint, or perception, to it. But the beginning and the end are one and the same and, in order for something meaningful to unfold for the overall, you have to go back inside and redeem yourself.

So the going backwards, or going into the depths of yourself, which is like going back and saying this is where the whole path starts, is the ability to take and look at yourself, probe yourself. But what you’re probing is you’re going back and you’re untangling, and removing, the fetters that you put in place, from being able to be in an all-pervasive way. And when you’re in that all-pervasive way, the past and the future come together. So you’re doing that in order to have a recognition of what is meant to be.

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David Billa

Jeane finds herself in an old castle in a foreign land, which is a good description of the world we experience when we are merely playing out our usual patterns and psychologies. Why? Because the world is new every moment, and if we want to have any inkling of what is really at play, we need to experience it just as freshly as it is happening. We may never be free of all our mannerisms, but we need to tear down the fortress. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had these long dreams and I only seemed to pull out a small part of them. I know in one dream I’m going through a really old structure like a castle in a foreign land. It’s like I go from room to room and observe the people there, and then I seem to be leaving the castle because it feels like the country’s at war and you have to evacuate.

And I go out onto the square and there are some trucks that you don’t know whether they’ll let you on them or not. They’re like the kind of trucks that have a back and open that soldiers are piled in, and you don’t know if there’s any room. You don’t even know whether they’re friendly soldiers or enemy soldiers – and they’re in a large square.

But I go up to one truck and the soldier on the running board seems like he recognizes me, that he knows my boyfriend or something, so he lets me in the truck. And then I discover there’s not really that many people inside the truck, once you get in; it’s an open back. So I go to the back of the truck and I start pulling up some women, but it’s like these women they’re more two dimensional, like they only seem to be about an inch or two thick or something, so they kind of slide over the back of the truck kind of like you see in a cartoon thing. Some of them I pull in and some I don’t because I’m kind of a little confused about how they look, too.

And then it feels like it just shifts to where in order for me to get out of somewhere I go up to a woman who’s wearing a long… it’s like the bottom of the dress is black and the top is white and she’s holding two things. It might be some type of sustenance or food, that she holds up near the top, that it feels like I need to get. The dreams are just kind of flitting… they’re long dreams but they just don’t stay with me.

John: What you’re trying to sift away from, or let go of, is something that you’re feeling as a tone, or mood, or mannerism, or demeanor, or energetic that you have, that you realize limits you.

You can’t help it, you still feel it, and you know that there’s something so much more if you didn’t feel that because by feeling it it defines you and causes you to have to be in a particular way. And that’s kind of like the awkwardness, or the struggle, you find yourself engaged in in the dream.

What the dream is doing is it is working at enabling you to recognize that there is so much more than just that characteristic that we take on. In other words, when we take something on, when we have a particular mood and are in a particular mannerism we are pretty much… or the tendency, I should say, is to be stuck there, to hold onto it, to not know how to shake it off, to not know how to let go of it, to maybe have a fear of letting go but thinking that we have to contend with it in some fashion.

And so what’s happening is it’s kind of like being tossed around by the fact that there is this characteristic that has its way with you, and you are sensing that you need to let go of it, and break free of it, and that you need to come into more of your true, natural, feminine, overall being by going inside. But what you see inside doesn’t seem to have any continuity to it. In other words, the women slide back and forth. In other words, they don’t quite own their space yet.

Well basically what’s going on there is a type of probing, in other words, you sense how it is. There’s a sense of something alive or awakening inside of you and so you are attempting to touch that, with the image that you’re having where you are migrating across and to a quality of being in which something like that is able to be accessed, realized, and lived.

The theme of the dreaming last night had to do with this quality of recognition that comes through of an inner awakening that stands behind everything that exists in our environment. In other words, when you are hip, so to speak, hip to this whole inner transmission flow from within, a way that you see yourself in the outer where it’s in a world of projection, and there are all of these various things that affect you in some fashion or another, it’s hard to take any of that too literally, or too seriously, because you come to recognize that behind every expression and mannerism of yourself is this inner essence that is moving around, or is coming into fruition.

And this is a type of fruition that exudes and extends out over everything around you, but it can’t, and doesn’t, do that when you find yourself trapped, or stuck, or holding out in a particular mood, mannerism, motif.

And the outer is the greater teacher because it will show you to be in some sort of projected state, or there will be things that will be projected that will touch and effect you. And that effect you have to see beyond, you have to live beyond, you have to peer beyond to where there is that awakening inner aliveness that is behind it all. Even if it’s veiled, even if you can’t see it but you can just sense it, the key is to keep sensing it and sensing it until it consumes you or becomes you.

The shift that you went into was something that you were shaping as an image in relationship to that space, so that what you were able to start to see, in terms of yourself in the outer, would be something more in conformity to this inner quality coming into its own.

The prior aspect of the dream had to do with you on the hunt, so to speak, of that, and not quite catching up with it as it is intended to be caught up with – so that it exudes over your entire being.

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