Feeling the Pain

Jeffrey Smith
Jeffrey Smith

When we speak of the differences between masculine and feminine, there are many levels to it. Each gender has both aspects within them, and we also carry the genetic history of what has happened here between the genders. And the act of letting go is the process that lets us get beyond the parts that limit us, and enables us to become more fully in sync with the oneness of the universe. Of course, the challenges within these processes vary within each gender. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: This, I noticed, was a masculine way of catching up with something at this new stage of things, and that masculine catching up of things results when you’re able to bring the pain forward, when you bring it forward so that something comes out of that into life it comes out as a fullness on the in-breath – which is the feminine breath.

And what I saw was the healing that has to be done is on this reactionary, emotional content level of that in-breath. And the in-breath being the feminine side quality of what is normally a… In other words, the masculine is comfortable with the sight and bringing down this out-breath that comes right down into life and sets things in motion, awakens things in what is a feminine manifestation, but doesn’t know how to let go to that – as that comes up, can it sweep that in?

And manifestation is this huge, huge reflective of the overall, but condensed so that it has appearance and seems to work in a schematic of time. And so the masculine quality comes down, accesses it, reaches it, but then where it hits kind of a feminine characteristic is it has to get beyond its mood, where it goes off in kind of an emotional content way, where it doesn’t quite penetrate and reach its deep inner pain. And when it reaches that deep inner pain, then it can bring something through and then that becomes a completeness and a wholeness for a masculine.

Now the feminine sits as a principle not having to deal and sort out the raw energy like the masculine does and try to find the state in which to work and then contend with this deeper pain, this really deeper embedded pain, that is kind of a quality that has some emotional content and everything else in it, that’s normally not noticeable, that is there as a result of abuse by the masculine flow of energy but has a quality of importance in that if the pain isn’t contended with you can’t have a fullness of the in-breath.

You know, that will create a quality of kind of a grief or something that will hold over the atmosphere.

Now the feminine’s approach to this is different. The feminine sees itself as not quite having everything… you know, not knowing whether everything’s going to be okay or not, and relying upon the masculine sight and guidance to kind of help put things… to bring through the memos of things. And then it sorts out from what it hears, what feels right to itself.

Now, the feminine has to let go of the self-consciousness and the heebie-jeebies and all of that sort of stuff that it feels in a world in which it sees itself as overwhelmed and weaker in relationship to how all of this stuff is, so the feminine tends to be self-conscious, tends to not give herself credit for how she can hold the responsibility of the presence in manifestation.

So she has to quit all of this activity and settle back and let this stuff rise up inside of her as a knowingness. It’s a type of hearing center that awakens for her, when the masculine is trying to work more through a type of sight, because the physical is made out of sound and, you know, manifestation is an aspect of sound, created out of sound, and the godhead of things is an aspect of light, So the feminine has to stop making all this noise in order to hear something and feel something inside of her, and when she does that then she catches up with the animus

She catches up with that side in terms of a sight or a natural knowingness. She catches up with it that way – if she can stop and be at peace. Now it’s really, really hard and there’s all kinds of things that the feminine does that portrays how she is, you know, just being disconcerted and out of whack in terms of grasping this deeper depth of her masculine side of herself.

In other words, she will choose to automatically react to the way the driving is, or she’ll be self-conscious about appearance of things. She’ll worry about things that the masculine will pretend is okay, even if he knows that it’s not okay, he at least feels that that’s his responsibility so he will try to make it work – and if he doesn’t, he creates pain.

The feminine tends to understand the emotive aspect of things better than the masculine, and so the masculine to get to the misuse of the vibration of energy, to get to the pain that stands in the way, you know, of… in other words he can have a tremendous understanding of how something is in relationship to what is meant to be, you know you can understand a lot intellectually, and he can have a wonderful understanding but in order to bring kind of the heart of the world a joy, to bring something more out that emanates and rises up out of the higher octave of the manifestation, he has to feel the pain, he has to feel that part of himself that’s gone off a bit.

The point of this is to try to show in terms of the overall theme of things of how as one is functioning in manifestation, in a spiritual process path, the purpose is to try to portray kind of what this journey is like, and to try to portray it at a different stage of where things are at now.

In other words, for the feminine to portray what is involved at the stage of knowing how to drop and let go of certain self-consciousness and acting up and doingness of things, and able to kind of know how to let everything be in a way where it feels okay and it is okay. In other words quit making the noise that prevents that from being loud and clear.

And for the masculine it’s to recognize that in the struggle and delirium to try to contend or ground in physical existence that there has been something that has abused the feminine quality nature of things and created an emotional imbalance and a deep embedded pain. Now the masculine is good at covering that pain up, and not even noticing the pain and continuing on as if that pain doesn’t exist.

But there comes a point in time when you develop a certain type of awareness, in relationship to the denser aspect of things, where you can work with raw energies and you can understand the principle upon which life needs to open up where you then have no choice because then that step comes where you have to feel the pain, where you have to sense the pain.

And when you first sense the pain it shuts everything off because the pain is so deep inside. And so you’re kind of dull and you’re kind of a stupor and you fall back into the senses of it all, the senses of the outer. But if you stare and you look at the pain and you bring the motion of that from somewhere repressed, you bring that through, you bring the energy through that crack or however you’d call that, you’re then able to bring something then that touches life, that works with life.

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To Do and To Be

Listening-to-intuitionWe have been taught from an early age to do things in a linear, step-by-step way. And that is useful for many tasks. Yet when it comes to personal development, or a spiritual journey, a linear approach can be a limitation. Why? Because linear logic puts our focus on our brain, and our brain is much more attuned to what it already knows – like a computer is. Our other faculties, however, such as intuition, can be attuned to the whole of things and can give us a greater connection. In this way we have to use all the faculties we are born with to make a journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Ann: We were talking about making sure that we’re not throwing anything out. You know, making sure that we’re looking at everything and not throwing things out, that everything is important.

So I was having a couple of dreams about mounting trash and I felt later when I was looking at it that it was probably a reflection of what we had talked about. You know in a couple of different dreams I had trash piling up and I was kind of trying to sort through and, you know, put things, you know, into perspective and where they belong and then, you know, kind of figuring out, well, let’s see can I do this, and then dumping trash out on the floor and sorting through that.

So the theme of these dreams was kind of I think a reflection of what we had talked about, recognizing that, you know, you can’t really throw anything out, that you really have to take a look at everything.

John: Well, also what it’s doing is your attempt to let go. And so what the dream is kind of portraying is the struggle that’s involved in trying to let go has you still trying to figure out what is this and what is that.

In other words, the idea of letting go means that you just kind of go into an emptiness. When you go into an emptiness you just kind of go into an inner sight that’s there in a stillness, in a quietness. If however, you know, the attempt to do that has you reverberating between things as if you’re sorting something out, that sorting out isn’t necessarily a letting go. That sorting out is still something that is holding your attention from letting go.

An example of how that would be for me sitting down and meditating is if I sat down all of a sudden if I’m continually fidgeting to get comfortable, and I’m itching, and scratching, and all of that – then that’s not letting go. And that’s not getting to the state where something then from a type of non-mental mannerism I won’t have gotten away from that.

And so the reverbing back and forth trying to sort something out and whatnot is… well, it denotes a mental vibration. That’s one thing that it denotes. The other thing that it denotes is on a deeper level it’s trying to figure out where the inner and the outer are. In terms of the blasé of it all, it’s all vying for the heart and something more distinct needs to be there so that you aren’t caught in just the sorting out, and the sorting out, and the sorting out because that can be exhausting.

You know, it’s like a lot of people will meditate, for example, and let’s say they have the idea that they have to sit in a particular rigid posture, and that they have to follow their breath and focus like this, and focus like that. At some particular point that can be very exhausting.

And so the vibration that you’re going through is like kind of just like it’s a precursor before letting go, just like grief is a precursor before letting go. If you don’t have that, and you’re able to be open and receptive and let go, then something more of the inner is at hand, otherwise it’s not noticeable.

So when you’re trying to sort something out, when you’re trying to find your way in relationship to things, you’re still caught under a kind of mental malaise. It’s kind of like saying that there is an understanding of things that gets in the way, and that you have to stop the trying to understand and then you have the automatic knowing.

When you know something within, you know, the average person that may have to think and ponder this stuff will think, boy, you really thought about this. But you didn’t, you felt something vibrationally and back again to the breathing, or you breathed back in the light and within the light is the imbedded information. It’s as if something may have come down, could have touched you in a particular way.

In other words, if you were to look at everything as if everything is like a crop, and the human being is like a crop it produces something. And so the output, I mean this is a very crude way of saying it. So the output coming down touches the essence of the human being inside and they let go and, as they let go, they breathe in. By breathing in, if they breathe in the quality of this we’ll call etheric and they breathe all of that back in, then it is said that it is like taking something back, taking something home.

In other words, if you don’t fully breathe it in, then you get caught in the sorting out, and then you get caught in the dynamic of trying to grasp where you’re at, and then you get caught in a dynamic that’s kind of like outer trying to find the inner.

The fact that everything is intertwined, that means that there is a way, of kind of on an etheric overallness, in which you can feel everything in the outer, everything that’s there.

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The Finer Blueprint

5521We often go through our day reacting to things that we encounter. It can be a type of defense mechanism – in a sense, when we react, we deflect what is coming at us. That means it doesn’t really land deeply in us. Said another way, we don’t really take it in. And that’s okay when we’re talking about the mundane aspects of daily life (chores, bills, etc.), but what happens when something much greater comes to us energetically? If we just reflect back everything indiscriminately, we can filter out even what we are seeking. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Is this kind of something that’s a precursor to the change that’s unfolding? In other words that something is shifting and that the orientation that we have is entirely different?

I was also looking at what it takes now to communicate and relate. I mean we’re used to talking with people that in the past you could talk and listen to someone that spoke in a very streamlined way, never laughed, and you would focus and you would come to understand what they were talking about.

Nowadays half of the communication is based on the laughter because somehow or another the laughter creates a letting go shift that isn’t otherwise possible. And so it caused me to ponder even that.

It caused me to ponder from the standpoint of how the in-breath works. When something touches you as a result of something coming into life, you know as an energetic coming down and through, as that hits your nature and you suddenly get something, there’s kind of an in-breath. And within that can be a chuckle or a laugh, as opposed to shock. And if you have the little chuckle or little laugh, you have the letting go. If you don’t have the little chuckle or little laugh, then you’re not able to quite breathe right and it leaves you a little stunned.

So what is that in-breath? It’s breathing in liquid light. It’s breathing in liquid light. The way it works is something like this. So, as I’m talking, let’s say I say something that resonates well with you. And as it resonates well with you, let’s say you never heard of it before so you’re not quite sure how to take it, and you have a little more breath in your nature than going, ahh, like breathing in like a lightbulb moment. Instead you kind of sit with it in a stillness. That stillness is a breathing in of that light. And then what that means for you is based upon having breathed that in.

That is what is different now and it’s the subtle thing that is different that no one is noticing. Like if you’re talking to the ladies and you’re bringing up something and they’re getting excited about what they’re hearing, if you notice closely, if you watch them closely, you’ll notice that the appreciation they’re getting has to do with something about the in-breath. In other words, you may be presenting something that’s tweaking something, that’s causing something to open up, and their ability to grasp it, or to own it, or to get close to it has to do with breathing it in.

It’s the in-breath and as a consequence even the teacher’s been teaching this as a technique now. In other words, the technique would go something like this: He would go ha, ha, ha laughing really loud. And then he’d say, okay, now do it quietly and you can feel that gurgitating inside. And then he would say, now breathe it in, now take it back in, breathe it in with the in-breath – and that’s where the aliveness is at, that’s where the change is at, that’s where the shift is at, that’s where the intertwining is at. You have let go by doing that.

Do you notice how your insight and your clarity is accentuated when you take and as you’re coming to appreciate something it’s almost as if you sweep it back in with your breath, as opposed to having to act it out in terms of thoughts? In others words, just a slight difference isn’t it?

You’re used to acting it out. In other words, if something happens and it gets your attention and you get all speeded up then, for most people, that then means that that quickens something and it invokes a response coming back from them.

Often times, let’s say if you’re with the ladies and an idea comes across and everybody wants to talk at once, and yet better than everybody talking at once, if the person can go quiet they can breathe in and breathe in the essence, breathe in and get it – or they can act out with the mental. And when they act out with the mental it dissipates it, it burns it up. It will go flat. You won’t be stroking the heart.

And the reason why it works like that is that the mental faculties that are designed to work in terms of coping and fumbling about with the reflective outer, it’s denser, and the heart is quieter, and the heart is subtler. And so when something happens in an etheric way, like something coming down and through from inner into outer, as that affects the outer, the breathing in that you need to be able to do to catch up and own that, that in-breath, is like breathing in the ethers of that energetic light, or liquid light.

And you come to know something by that process, as opposed to the need to ask questions, or go through and respond synaptically, as opposed to watching how all of this is a knowingness natural to yourself – if you breathe it in.

That’s why it is said, for example, that if you have a burning question and you’re sitting in front of a teacher, it’s best if you can hold that burning question without it affecting your ability to sit still it will infuse itself and you will breathe in your answer. Or it will seem as if the teacher somehow or another answered your question, you will suddenly get it. It’s kind of like you draw the need to know.

So what you’ve done is you’ve reoriented how things work. Well, I shouldn’t say you reoriented. It is that you went to the finer blueprint of it. And the finer blueprint of it is something is coming into life and, instead of reacting and being affected by that in terms of how whatever it is that’s different is exploding on the scene of the outer, instead of responding to that like that, you somehow or another recognize that something is different and instead of trying to relate to it in just the outer context, you breathe in this change agent coming down through.

You breathe it in, and then you’re at ease with it, then you’re quiet with it. And now you’re in a position to facilitate the inner flow. You’re there as opposed to being part of the problem of acting up and responding in the outer.

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