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Memory Pain

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We understand how experiences shape us: if we have been through something that etches itself indelibly on our psyche we will never forget the experience. For instance, if you burnt your hand badly on a stove, you’d likely never be casual around a hot surface – the memory would be too ingrained. In this way, on our journey, if we know the alternative clearly we may be more focused on how we make progress on the path – because we have experienced the sense of loss of having to live without our higher connection. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: There can be interesting ins and outs of that. When something operates in a shadow dynamic, the shadow dynamic can even be in an amnesia. You can have a shadow dynamic quality and an amnesia associated with each other, in which, again, there isn’t quite a viability or functionality directly in the outer – and that something is wounded. 

Now, when it is like that, what you’re going through is reverberations of repetitive memory pain in the heart. So what I was seeing last night is that when you have a repetitive pain in the heart, everyone has the very first degree of it where they get caught in identifications in terms of having to function in the outer, where you have to go through the phases of being born, and then adolescence, and so on. 

And then at some particular point there are people who develop an awareness in terms of the fact that that is, somehow or another, limited, and that there is so much more. What surprised me was those people who develop that recognition, and start working upon themselves according to precepts, and concepts, oftentimes get further away. And, generally, if you were to make a general rule, get further away because they get caught up in the idea of being and acting in some way that’s somewhat spiritual, I guess, and use that as if that’s what takes them somewhere. 

And what I was surprised to see is that if, after the first level is recognized, instead of becoming subtler and learning to slowly start to redirect your attention and pull back, if by chance instead you stayed out there, that is, after the heart had gotten to a point where it recognized the absurdity of things, if you stayed out there and beat up on the heart even more, to the point where it was undeniably loud, to the degree to which what you were doing, and identifying with, was hurting the heart, the memory of that pain will slingshot you faster than if you’re trying to go at this one baby step at a time, subtly – because you get caught in spiritual illusion.

That’s why it is said by a teacher that if they come across a student that has done a lot of work, and practices, and this, that, and the other, it is harder than if they come across someone who knows that they’re a bad person. In other words, just still carry some sort of extreme density that they need to move away from. And the earmark of that is the way that the heart has come to denote the distinction; it’s more clear cut. 

You can kind of deceive yourself and lie to yourself and placate a bit if you’re trying to become more subtle in your approach. There is a danger in trying to become more subtle in your approach, in a submissive fashion, instead of just finally being exhausted by it to the point where you just totally let go and fall into an empty space. 

You go back into a subtle way of carrying yourself, and you have a certain sight in that, you have a certain recognition in terms of how it is with others. Yet somehow or another you crack, maybe you’re not strong enough to maintain it, or whatever it is, it becomes even more inner and you no longer can function in the outer. There’s still that saintly quality that shows, it just isn’t readily accessible and flowable, in the outer anymore. And, when it flickers, it flickers and then it’s forgotten. In other words, it can come up, it can show for a split second, and then it can fall away.

Which is an interesting phenomena, because the connectivity to the breath is different. It’s kind of a depiction, I guess, of an aspect of the soul journeying to go home, so to speak, which is a home at a depth in terms of its overall intertwined heart. And yet it’s not there. And it doesn’t have the quality of a true letting go and surrender that is strong or something, that isn’t shattered. Well, it’s like the time is up for someone that’s like that, as opposed to something that can still carry that note into life.

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Above to Below

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It seems to be our human nature to always strive higher. We want a better score, or a quicker time, or we want to make the next discovery and create something brand new. This is an urge that expresses itself at every level of our being, yet its strongest element is for reaching for the stars – energetically – in an effort to bring what is higher down into the lower, physical realms, and to bring us ever closer to what created us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in the meditation dream there is a flow that takes the psyche into matter. It is this approval in life that is important. I ask if it is okay to proceed, and I receive permission. So that’s the dream.

So in this dream I start out with what others would say is not possible. I receive permission for this to happen. But, when I received the permission I didn’t factor in the ramifications, because whenever something comes directly through it’s going to have ramifications. 

But, in kind of a black-and-white absolute sense, desperate times lead to desperate measures.

So, in the sleep dream, I’m looking at all the constructs of a reflection in the outer. I’m looking at the building blocks to see how solid it is. In other words, it’s something that you can feel as a solidity in your bones; you can tell when something is unbalanced or unstable. I look at the components of a reflective object to see if it is grounded, how solid the object is inflects to the inner more succinctly. In other words, it doesn’t inflect to it, it means that you’re connected to the inner that is inflecting more succinctly. In other words it’s coming through. 

And so how do I measure this? Well, I have to find another symbolism to try to measure it with. So I consider gold to be the closest thing in the outer to something somehow stable, or set. In other words as if gold is sound. And so what I’m seeing when I take and I feel something in terms of a solidness because there is the variance – there always is going to be the variance – just how much do you carry the groundedness, the Chi, the knowingness inside?

I’ve done the math on it. In other words, 32, then I reduced it to 8 over 11. And that is 72%. And that would be 21 and a half grams if it was gold, which is a lot – as an outer reflection of an inner connection.

It is solid to the point that I can feel it resonating in my body. This suggests that I am closer to what is meant to be as an inner into outer, meaning the inner has shaped my being to be a reflective connective container. The lighter and more ungrounded, vibrationally, a connection is suggests either a misalignment, imbalance, confusion or failure to catch up with my inner soul essence. 

What I’m talking about is the above and below are intertwined, even though the outer is reflective. The closer a person is to the inner inflection, the more they are experiencing the above. Similarly, the more solidly grounded the person is in life, the more they’re able to embody the image from within into creation. In other words, they can create the reflection.

When worry predominates and there isn’t a natural physical balance this signifies that change is not able to come from inner into outer. The psyche under such circumstances is askew. The physical gets torn up; a person’s health reflects the imbalance. Projection from the inner has to be looked at carefully in terms of how this affects the whole. Nothing is perfect in the outer. 

So a vibration coming into the outer needs to be embraced as a meaningfulness. The more genres it penetrates, the more spiritually connected it is. I do an assessment of the inner inflection I am denoting and find myself saying: I don’t want you to die. What I mean by that is I am concerned about the clarity of the transmission and its inner into outer focus, because I know if it is out of sync there will be collateral damage. 

For example, a visionary has an inner eye that is able to see vibrations within matter, or in life, which is like within matter because you can do this without time and space. The seeing is inflective. What this is, is a rootedness of above to below. The keener this is, the closer you are to a shift.

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The Scramble

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When we see athletes preparing for the hike of the ball, or the pitch, or the serve, or the starter’s gun, we often see them bouncing on the balls of their feet, or somehow keeping themselves in motion. This helps them flow into a reaction, rather than having to start from a dead stop. The energy and inertia is less if we stay in motion, and the same is true for our inner agility: we want to refine our foundational principles throughout our lives, yet we want to stay free enough within that framework to respond to any need accordingly. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: And the last one’s almost a little bit more like a long image. It’s like I’ve gone up to this, it’s almost like a little cliffside because it feels like black rock that’s been carved out. And if you go up a way there’s a little cave that’s curved back into the mountain. It all looks like very black rock, in a way. 

And up there are three, I think they’re young men. And I’ve come up there to help them with something. But I’m explaining to them that it can’t be like it was before, because before it felt like they were all healthy. And now they’ve been somewhat broken, or something’s gone wrong. 

And so I’m there to work with them, but I’m just explaining to them that it won’t be like it was before; it’s almost like we have to work with how they are right now to get better. So it makes it a little different.

John: So what you’ve done is, in the last dream, you’ve established the scenario: the one, twos, and threes. And then for the four, as part of four, it’s all been skewered. 

And you’re having to scramble with what it is that you abide in, and can hold on to. You’re having to scramble with that. In other words, you’re having to be ambidextrous. It’s kind of like what has to happen when you are able to shift into, and experience, something within, versus how it is in the outer in terms of your senses and perceptions. 

From what you’re able to pick up within, you have to be able to scramble in terms of the outer. In other words, how it is that you find yourself being in the outer still is going to have to – in order for you to properly connect to the oneness – in other words, it’s important that something comes in as a clarity, with a letting go, and then a tuning in, and then an unfoldment is possible. But there always is going to have to be the scramble in terms of how that situates, or effectuates, in the outer. 

So it’s kind of like this step four that you’re talking about, that is normally spoken of as a step of completeness, the completeness has a slightly different definition. The completeness has to do with you including into the definition of the word completeness the ability to be able to mutably scramble when the conditions are thrown up in the air. 

That’s interesting, because most people, once they get into a schematic, they then lose their flexibility again. And, this time, it’s a completeness based upon one’s ability to be mutably adjustable to scramble. So you did kind of a 1, 2, 3, 4.

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