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eye-of-the-stormIt may seem counterintuitive to realize that we have to bring stillness into the chaos of life. And that means our personal stillness. We will never be able to calm all the situations we come across, but we can always control the inner stillness – once we have built that essence within us. And we build it through conscious practice, and we won’t be very good or last very long to begin with. But, over time, our systems will see that it is important to us, and support our desire to have such stillness. Then it will be our serene radiation, in a chaotic scene, that will bring a sense of calm and relief to those nearby. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I was a little unsettled last night, and I feel like the dream I had was a dream I’d had before. It was just a bit chaotic.

In this dream I’m a counselor, but I seem to live in a cabin that adjoins other cabins, that adjoins an area where people also go out and party. Then the office is down some stairs and over in front of maybe a lodge and things. And so I check with a secretary that I’m going to have clients coming, and I had run into some clients and tried to get them scheduled. It seemed to be couples more that I was working with. Everything’s just a little chaotic.

One woman I’m going to see I think by herself, and I’m trying to go back to my cabin, and I’m thinking I’ll go through the backdoor because there seem to be so many people around. And I start to go down one dark way and I know it’s a shortcut, but then I look there and it’s all dark on both sides and you’d almost have to crawl part of the way. So I’m deliberating, because I’m a little bit started in that passageway with her behind me.

Then I look again and I see what looks kind of like an ominous man standing in this passageway, down near the end of it, and I think this just isn’t that smart. You can’t even see what’s anywhere in here; it’s too dark, it’s long, and I don’t like the figure of that man there.

So we back out and I take her another way. Now, I still bring up to a passageway that’s a shortcut into my backdoor, but just when we’re about to get there some policeman stops us because he thinks we’re breaking into my place – because we’re not going in the usual way.

So then I have to end up, I think, going through where the party, or the patio, is to go and see her at my place. And then, as I leave there and I’m going back to the reception area, I run into an area where different people are sitting, and several clients are there, and I introduce myself because it feels like I’ve met one of them and her husband but I hadn’t met the others. And I’m not sure about the timing; like I am not sure if I am actually supposed to see them next, or if I had other people scheduled.

And then the receptionist is a little miffed with me because by taking someone in the back way she hadn’t realized I was with somebody. Then I realized that my next group of people I have to see it’s actually three couples, or six people, that are sharing children that they’ve all had amongst them, between marriages and divorces.

So then I take them back to my place and I’m trying to sort them out – so I actually get out a blackboard. I’m trying to put names up, having one of them put everybody’s names up, and which kids are with whom, when, and where, so I can at least just sort out the players and know what’s going on here. And I think that was when I woke up.

John: Although it’s hard to see, in the dream, what you’re doing is you’re contending, or evaluating, how to relate to chaos from the standpoint of amidst the people, or quietly. In other words, the chaos is just the natural order of things.

The place that you have, if you go in the front door it’s just going to be over the top chaos, and yet the people you work with live in a kind of chaos. In other words, you’re having to sort something out. And so the idea is: can you isolate that sort of thing in order to get it so that it makes sense, or balances out?

So what you find out is that on your first attempt trying to come in through a back way you create isolation, you create a distance, you create gaps or barriers. There’s a darkness. So what you’re doing is you’re taking something that exists, in a realm of chaos, and you’re trying to deal with it in an isolated way – and that seems to raise more questions than it answers. And then you go at it again, only this time the situation has gotten louder in terms of the kind of chaos, the nature of the chaos, the complexity of it.

In other words, before it was just like one person or something, and now all of a sudden it’s three couples and they have all the kids, and which kids go to which? And you’re going to try to do that in an isolated way, a quiet way. And so the whole point of it is, you can’t avoid it.

In other words, if you ponder that image of having to deal with three couples trying to figure out how to pull all of that together, in relationship to separating it out from the chaos, coming at it in an isolated way, you find yourself unable to make a proper distinguishment. Yet this is a choice that you’re trying to make because going into the front, or facing it head on, seems way too wild.

So what is this dream trying to say? Well, the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with examining and taking a look at the fact that we live in a life in which around us is nothing but constant chaos. The outer events of things, our senses and everything is constantly engaged in that, and it is a reflection. And out of this chaos, one has to find the stillness. Out of the chaos… you’re dealing with the principle of the great transformation.

In the chaos you’re meant to catch up with the stillness. The tendency is to try to screen the stillness separate from the chaos – as if you could distinguish this over here, and that over there, and you actually can’t do it. This is a key bit of information in that it’s easy to recognize, or to come to know, or to see that in the up and downness of the breath is a lot of bewilderment and spiritual illusion, or, you might say, the flux of transformation and chaos. And that there is a stillness, but you are not going to catch up with the stillness by taking and pushing away and trying to create an isolation, or a separation, from the ordinary chaos of things. You’re in the midst of that. You have to contend with it.

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