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John: Yesterday I described a series of dream images relating to food (see Manna from Heaven). Together, the images describe a process whereby, from the first image, I receive something from above, which comes to me as guidance or knowing.

In the next image I’m eating a special food (the sauce) that has all the nutrients I need. That is the guidance that comes to me from within, during my sleep. As it feeds me it causes an awakening and, through the next two images I see myself passing this food on to others, first to everyday, average people in the form of soft noodles – an easily digestible meal – and then as noodles and sauce for those on a spiritual path. They receive the full nutrient value of what they are taking in.

What this is describing are phases of reaching a state of service and heartfelt responsibility. We are all meant to be in service to something greater. And, while it is human to help people outwardly, in the sense of care, compassion, and charity, a far greater form of service, one for Creation itself, entails bringing the inner (from above) guidance and knowing, into our outer life where others, and the planet itself, can gain access to something more – through us. That is what aligns our life to being a part of the whole, rather than living a separate (selfish) existence.

After I get the glimpse of this food coming straight down, it automatically changes things. Then I have to partake of a food that is just for me and I realize that I’m to be on this food for some time, i.e., spiritual knowing can change us in a way that we can’t go back to the way we were before.

I notice how simple the food seems yet it provides me with everything I need. Before I digress to the next phase, I recognize that there’s something about this process, i.e. dream state, which causes a change when this food is brought from the inner into the outer. In other words, the food was just for me (the straight sauce), but then I have to share it with others. The process of it going from the inner to the outer changes its form (sauce to noodles). And even that form is different depending on the recipient: the average, unawakened, person receives the softened noodles, and those who a path of enlightenment receive the full message (both noodles and sauce).

In the final phase, those I am serving are more connected, and there is a sense of sacredness as the food is served. I use special tongs to take the food from the large container – this aerates the dish so it’s ready for consumption.

A deeper level of meaning is that this food, which has been refined from the inner, is recognized by the outer (others) as a sustenance that furthers their awakening process.

The imagery continued after this point, involving various ways to gauge what this “food” has set in motion: some good ways, some bad ways, some even more hidden levels. So I have to try to see some of this.

In the next image, I’m aware of a flow that’s being released into life and I see this as a flow of air, or an energetic, coming from a tube. I know there’s a meaningfulness to this simple image. The flow is being charted because hooked up next to this release device is a monitor that displays the effect on a graph. It’s got a little needle that’s making a chart line.

I wake up noticing that the chart line is coming down steadily, and it occurs to me that it’s becoming more and more stable

What’s going on here is that the new energy is being attuned to the outer environment as it’s released from the inner. That’s a way of saying that there’s a gauge on what’s occurring in terms of this process evolving from the earlier deep dream influence. Adjustments are made to accommodate this energy as it finds its realization in the outer world.

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John: Your dream yesterday actually makes a deeper statement in terms of how the kundalini works (see Recognizing What We Already Know). We spoke about the idea of sensing a gap, or having the perception that something is askew, and thinking that you need to be subordinated to this thing because you sense it as being separate. But when you come to recognize the linkage, the distance between you and the teacher disappears because you have found it in yourself.

The part that’s hard to describe is how the feminine, which craves a particular kundalini sexuality, craves it more hungrily when there is the association of something having to come from outside of herself to bring about an awakening. When there’s that sense of dependency, it’s always coupled with anger because no one likes to be reliant on things out of their control.

That viewpoint, that sense of something having to be found, or reached, or sought outside of one’s self as if that somehow or other completes or satisfies what’s needed – when you actually find the solidness of that masculine inside you, you transcend that illusion because you then become wired internally to reach what had been missing and find it inside of you.

The first part of your dream has to do with the part that’s fine and solid in part of you, and the other male figures that are passing through are the part that’s still reaching, and has a hunger, and is still caught under the misconception that somehow this lies outside of you. The part of you that’s content and solid, in and of itself, knows better and knows that it has taken in and taken on and discovered all that there is to discover in this regard.

And thus the teacher, or the go-between, is no longer visible, as if there’s something askew or separate. It’s almost as if the feminine, in its dormancy – carrying a completeness in and of itself – can only think in terms of trying to awaken, can only think that, to begin with, that it has to do with a certain magnetic connection being formed. Until it’s formed, by way of a relationship or something from the outer, until that takes place, there’s a gap.

But when it has caught up or learned to take this on for itself, that’s when it moves to a point where it’s no longer dependent upon the teacher to create the inflection. Because that’s the point where you have already gotten the memo, so to speak, or that masculine part has opened up and become part of you, so that there’s nothing reachable or touchable in terms of an outer capacity any more. It’s a very deep dream.

The theme of the dream is one of catching up with something that’s already within you, but you don’t know it. That’s the theme of the dream and yet we make this journey, and we go through this maze of the outer life in an illusion, or in a state of amnesia in terms of recognizing that we actually, at the depths of who we are, already carry it as complete.

Generally speaking, we just aren’t able to have that recognition in the physical world because we’re not able to stop long enough to see that it’s naturally so. Instead we see ourselves as proceeding in some regard or way and, when we see ourselves as proceeding in some regard or way then we have dreams that have to do with something haunting us or chasing us, or that we’re finding new things in new rooms, or that we’re jumping from this place to that place.

What we’re doing is circling that part of ourselves that, in a flash, when it awakens, means that all of that illusion drops away, because the time and the space in the outer illusion then goes into that vacuum of nonexistence. While you’re Traveling Toward God, or even Traveling In God, you still perceive that there’s an aspect of linkage, or interconnection, that needs to come together.

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John: In this dream I’m in an area that’s larger than I’m able to absorb. It’s way too big; I’m out of sync with the environment. I see myself walking around in a daze, unable to sort anything out. Everything going on there is beyond my comprehension.

Then I realize that I feel uneasy because I know I’m in a place where I have a way to go before I can catch up perceptively. If I were directly confronted with all that is there in one fell swoop, I’d be overwhelmed.

As I move about, barely noticing things, another part of me, who is like a separate person, is directly relating to the speeded-up inner energy of this place, or outer energy; it depends on how you look at it because it’s seems a different place, but it’s still within the zone of something else that exists. 

My perception is that of two separate people (other than me) working things out. In other words, there’s the environmental outer person who’s a direct reflection of this place, and there’s the go-between inner person who is able to relate to this outer person, or at least try to relate. 

I mean, this inner person has an aspect about him that’s able to intertwine a bit with this place, so he’s getting aligned. What occurs between the two of them is something that I come to know indirectly, as things are worked out between them.

Somehow a part of me is able to absorb this process until I’m able to readily free-flow in the higher-speed variables of this place. I know that I need to be able to touch these variables. To begin with I can’t even imagine how that’s possible.

Then, as the process between these personages (they feel like personages somehow) memorize or go at something there, I come to know it by way of inflection and realize then that I’m able to relate to those variables a little bit more. That says I’m catching up to them energetically.  

That’s when I realize what I’m missing. Until then, a gap existed in which the go-between, on his own, stepped into the scene and was able to reconcile things on my behalf. His reconciliation enables me to ingest information in what seems like an after-the-fact way. 

That’s how it is in the beginning, but eventually even that falls away and I see myself (to my surprise) directly relating to the variables of this place that have awakened inside of me. When I find myself able to handle the variables, that’s when the presence of this second, outer personage, and the image of an inner, go-between personage, fall away.

What does this mean? To begin with I’m in a place that has more going on in it than I’m able to appreciate. That’s how it is when a person begins the “Traveling in God” phase; my denser self doesn’t yet know what it’s missing, but it’s working on it. I know there’s a lot going on, but I’m unable to bring it into focus.

But my higher self comes alive in this place. To begin with, I’m grateful that I, alone, don’t have to contend with all the overwhelming variables that are there. But as my higher self aligns to it little by little – the rate I’m comfortable with – I become more able to absorb or take on, directly or indirectly, the energetic variables at play.

The time comes when I (in a state of amazement) am able to do what I didn’t know at the beginning was even possible, which is to see myself able to directly engage with my environment. That’s when the place of inner initializing, or aligning, or memorizing, is suddenly over and I’m able to handle the transmissions.

I’m no longer able to determine if it’s a transmission that’s from another zone, or just part of this place. I’m just in it. While I struggle to keep up, I still have the sense that the energetic is part of this place. Ultimately, when I’m fully able to keep up, I come to realize that the whole energetic I’m experiencing is within me.

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