Posts Tagged ‘inner emptiness’

MandalaEarthHere we have a prison break, and a sense of being followed. To flee or not to flee? In this dream scenario, the prison break is an opening up of deeper, inner access. But the urge to flee may be more about perpetuating an old, and no longer useful, way of feeling safe, rather than protecting what has been gained. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had just started reading a mystery book in which the lead character is this very bright, successful man who gets framed and is in prison, and then forms some kind of alliance with this woman psychiatrist in prison. 

And that seems to be where my dream takes off, because it’s like I’m this man and I’ve been broken out of prison by the woman, and I’ve gone to live with her in her house. It feels like initially it’s kind of this very intensely sexual relationship, where we’re even making love standing up outside in front of her house, and then on the side of the house, and then we go in the house.

I always have a little bit more apprehension that we should be doing something about the people that framed me than she does. It’s like she’s kind of happy to live a little more domestic life, but I remember one scene where we’ve even gone to a cemetery for some reason, and we have this very long, old fashioned car and it feels like driving around the cemetery and leaving I still have this sense like someone’s after us, but I can’t see anybody yet. 

Then after we’ve been back at the house a little bit, and we have a dog, I think a bulldog, kind of a cute… well, it’s kind of big but cute, and I’m suddenly feeling this intense apprehension and I finally convince her that we need to leave the house, even if it’s only overnight, that we have to get out right now.

And it’s like I’m pretty sure someone’s coming and they’re after us, even though I don’t see any evidence to that, like when we see the neighbors for a minute. They’re just playing, they’re just being normal.

I’m the man in the whole dream. So I’m convincing her we have to get out of there even though she’s reluctant, and we have to leave. I’m in such a hurry, like I open a closet and I just see a half open piece of luggage of some kind. I open it up, just look around for something to throw in. 

I could only find kind of like a black-and-white top and black-and-white pants. They contrast a little. One seems to be made out of silk and the other is made out of a kind of plaid fabric, and it would be an odd combination to wear but it actually works. 

I just toss that in there and then I kind of feel like I don’t have time to find anything else. I go upstairs with her, and upstairs there’s kind of a foyer that’s carpeted and all the furniture seems to be gone. 

And suddenly these three men have come in the door carrying this huge hose and they’re claiming they’re from a TV station. We’ve won some kind of a contest and they’re going to start cleaning the carpet, and I can see the carpet needs cleaning, but at the same time I felt this apprehension that she and I need to get out of there because I’m convinced they’re part of the plot against us.

And that’s when I wake up.

John: It’s like dredging and delving into kind of like a karmic, overall mannerism, or behavior that exists, which comes from a dimension that’s out of your control.

In other words, first of all, you’re in a certain jail, and that something has to be done in order to get you out of this strange condition or state in which nothing can happen, you just remain trapped.

And so, when you’re broken free of this you don’t really for a while know where your bearings are. In other words, having been pent up in jail for so long you’re a bit out of control, you energetically are out of control, and you need to go into the depths of yourself.

In other words, it’s one thing to be in a state in which you’re totally lost, and then suddenly when you’re freed from that, you’re out of control, and you need to delve more deeply inside yourself, and when you delve more deeply inside yourself you find that you’re in a house.

Well, when you’re in a house, and you’re looking now at the qualities of yourself, in other words probing some sort of depth of yourself, you come to grips more with what is bothering you, as if there is something trying to awaken or come through. And, generally, the first impression of that sort of thing is that it’s going to affect, or destroy, or change the way you relate to yourself.

So you think you need to escape. So, fortunately, something holds you back so that you’re able to observe that rather than going and racing out in the outer, where you lose your sensibilities again because, within the house, you’re actually forced to have to confront things.

Fortunately, before you actually are able to effectuate an escape, it’s like something comes into the house with, what was it, a thing to clean everything, a vacuum cleaner? In other words, if you sit in the house where everything can be absorbed or absolved, do you still want to get out of the way from all of that?

And so this is a bit much, because that sort of thing will empty the room, and leave you in a state of emptiness, and can you sit in this state of emptiness? Or do you still need to have something to contend with, to react about or to react towards, or to in some fashion, which continues perpetuating yourself in some sort of outer context way, as opposed to an inner space in which there’s nothing going on? It’s an emptiness.

So you have, more or less, in this dream portrayed the journey of the soul, starting from a condition in which it is completely lost and nothing can happen, to where something breaks it out of that state as a type of grace.

But because you’ve been out of it so long, you don’t know how to handle it, and so you are all over the place, but then eventually you ground out sufficiently enough to go inside of the house, but that involves having to deal with a lot of issues that are at the depth of your being, which have to come out, and should that come out it aims and points itself to a type of emptiness where everything gets cleaned out.

And so you want to alter the scenario before it goes too far, but instead it’s like you don’t act succinctly, and that’s actually probably good that you don’t act succinctly because then something more is able to reveal itself to you.

And you have, then, this quality that can vacuum up the dust of things in the world, but at the same time you do not know where you fit in relationship to what is transpiring there, and this is threatening in some fashion because of the intensity and the over-the-topness of this energetic – or so it seems to you because it was able to respond without the usual substance gravitational limitations.

And so you find yourself ending up with being portrayed in this dream where you’re currently at, and so you’re currently at a particular state in relationship to what? And I think this “what” has to do with a chamber that opens up, in which the energy that unfolds is a type of energy that you don’t directly feel that you have a right, on an individual, personal level, to channel this into the world around you – as if the world is one thing and you are separate.

You haven’t yet gotten to the point where you realize that none of this is actually going on, and that everything that is happening around you is a flicker, a reflective flicker, in a manifestation way of vibrations having dropped to their lower note.

Therefore there’s a density that gets constellated in creation that changes very slowly. You kind of need a little of that yet, or otherwise you would have been able to sit in the empty space and let everything get vacuumed up so that there were no karmic quality traits that yet existed to kind of keep you from reaching the depth of yourself, the true depth of yourself, which is an emptiness where nothing is going on, and it’s pre-manifestation.

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Brimblecombe-Fox_K_Stillness Within_2010In John’s dream imagery, which faces the same issue as Jeane did in her dreams (see Flow and Reaction), the struggle is to maintain an inner quiet that is connected to the Wholeness of life, rather than succumb to personal reactions and mannerisms. Our patterns of personal reaction to events, in our outer life, close us off from the grace of creation. And in our dreams, those same types of reactions veil us from the guidance of our higher self, which is trying to awaken us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I don’t approach it quite that way. I’m coming more from a predilection of dwelling on things, and needing to pick up a greater Wholeness of what’s going on all around me – as if that’s what’s missing. I’m having to take what is specific, and recognize that there’s a greater answer in the overallness. 

Are either of them right? No, they’re just dimensions and levels that are quickened in our being, which occurs when one takes into account these aspects, both at an objective, and as a subjective, overallness, when you take them into account as what the whole equation needs to be.

In other words, you can’t be just one way or the other. You have to be both. It’s an unusual way of dreaming, but I think my dreaming might make it clearer because I go at it from a specific standpoint.

In the dream I start off with looking for an easy solution, as I probe an inner depth. And the easy solution is to deal with the situation in a particular way, which is fairly obvious on the surface. In other words, this is what you see. 

Once you’ve felt something for a while, and you do go to a certain depth inside, there’s the first obvious response that you experience. However, I am shown that this is inadequate, just settling there is now inadequate: I need to take on subtler and deeper depths of myself.

So as I go deeper into this feminine principle of accounting for a greater overallness, I actually stop a certain kind of doingness, or reaction action, because I find that doing what was obvious and apparent as a solution is not what you naturally reach to all the time.  

There’s a greater depth that doesn’t do that, because when I look at the overall, more expansive, levels within my approach, the opposite is what becomes apparent. The opposite is a quietness where you don’t respond or react to reactions or mannerisms, because at these levels I’m shown that I need to simply let go. 

That is the gracious answer to everything that is bothering me. It occurs when I touch a depth within, where having to do something has reverberations. This occurs when I reach the state where silence is the golden elixir. 

Until I do that, I’m inclined to still reach to an answer, in terms of how to deal with what is disturbing to me. In other words, until I reach that depth. In other words, I still have these feedbacks and responses that synaptically come up, and these responses are still in the realm of reactions.

And such reactions are not taking into account the greater overall depth of myself. The greater overall depth of myself takes in other inner levels where there is a Wholeness, and in doing so becomes quieter and quieter in terms of, then, reaction and response becomes more and more peculiar, because that interferes and disturbs the quieter and quieter mannerism. 

This dream where I see myself as having to take into account a situation in life where there is an obvious response that comes up where I notice how that is. In this dream I also notice that there is this other person, and that person is like a side of me that exists on more levels of beingness, who sees all of this from an opposite approach mannerism.

That this is an approach that goes beyond the obvious. And so in this dream, the obvious reaction response, which is seen as coming from a particular depth of myself, can be even quieter to which then reaction response goes silent or empty.

Seeing this greater overallness, with expansive other levels taken into account, stops me in my tracks. My action reaction has consequences for an awareness that takes into account this dimensionality. In other words, you maintain some actions and responses, feed on each other, and continue whatever motif you go off on as a tangent. It’s a spiraling.

So when I am experiencing this greater beingness inside myself, I sensate with an auric key, which adheres to a quietness. Upon this quietness every reaction response is seen as a karmic loudness. The inner depth of overallness that I am talking about is a beingness that is able to find the empty space within every situation.

The deeper meaning of this is, in a dream there is typically a response to that which is in movement from within, which is seeking to wake up. The movement is reflecting from an inner depth and a higher consciousness. The inflection carries a vibration that reaches a depth, and reaches a deeper note, which goes beyond what is readily apparent.

What is readily apparent is the inflection that has this motion action reaction upon it, or to it, as one’s inner depth level of one’s self. This tends to throw one around because the effect is noticeable. What isn’t noticeable is that this effect response is also able to be absorbed by a greater beingness that has an overallness that is rooted into and from an emptiness or quietness.

Each state we experience in a dream needs to be placed into such an emptiness, and that emptiness is the real station. To begin with we are swept up by the loudness of the state. Our reactions tend to be in the way, they get in the way, of a quietness. 

When we are able to take on an expansive station where the levels of our beingness do not need a doingness reaction response, that is when a greater auric sensation starts taking everything into account.

And that is when everything naturally bounces off of this greater auric field, that is, in effect, able to accept everything as being a flicker from out of a Wholeness, which is, in and of itself, empty and silent.

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