Posts Tagged ‘inner guidance of dreams’

Spiritual-AwkenigIn the shift from our personal view of life to a more universal connection, we can often sense, or feel, that what prevents us from a deeper letting go is a type of holding on: to our ego, to our idiosyncrasies, to our psychologies. Even as they prevent us, or hold us back, we find safety in them, grasping harder sometimes when we are closest to a new freedom. At a certain point, we must realize that even after we let these acquired aspects drop, we will still be there. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, I’m looking at an energetic nature that needs to awaken to a feature of itself, but is in an illusionary way. I’m looking at my inability to let go to a deeper inner experience, within, that exists in a kind of hiddenness because I’m attached to an energetic affliction, that, in the outer, is my manifestation. There is manifestation that is the collective of all of that, and my place in manifestation is my particular affliction. 

In other words, behind that is something more, but I am carrying on in a certain illusory way that I see myself. So in my dream, I observe various scenes in which whatever is expected of me is in an outer scenario, which, when unremoved, get in the way of deeper inner awareness that is possible. 

Often this inner awareness, a supposed aliveness that, in the outer, is actually something that’s insipid and lifeless, even though I may act like it’s not insipid and lifeless, it’s because I’m not getting behind the preconditioning that exists and properly letting go; I’m not letting go. 

So this acts out on the plane of collective projections, called manifestation; see, we each carry who we are like that. So for this acting out to unfold from its trance means that I have to somehow let go of the projections – and that letting go isn’t possible yet.

So the way I saw myself, and the way others see me, is whatever my spellbinding schematic that is how I am, they see that as the way I’m lost. We’re now just zooming in on how it is that I have something that is veiled. Only from an emptiness resulting from being able to let go of a profile, am I able to be still and non-tranced out.

The theme of the dreaming was to not have a profile, or projection, per se, which is an identification that dictates over one’s ability to hold on to a stillness. In this theme my dreams involve being unable to let go of what exists as a bifurcation, or whatever you want to call it, in a created collective outer illusion. And, of course, the sum total of all of that is what makes manifestation, and there I am caught in that in an outer capacity. 

So, in the meditation dream, I am shown that I’m living this out in the illusion that is called manifestation. And to take away the dream is to take away the fabric of the breath that sustains the illusory state, and has various identifications upon a breath of images. In other words, whenever you have something in the breath where you pause, there are images pent up in that, that call for a reflective projection into manifestation, because the breath itself is the sum total of manifestation. And then you’re some aspect of that that bicycles around.

So to do away with having to contend with such dreams is to do away with manifestation. To say I don’t want to obliterate manifestation, per se, is to say that I am… In other words, if I want to maintain manifestation, if I like the way I am, it’s the same thing as saying that I am addicted to the illusory spell and identification that is a mind and its imagination. 

Or, if you want to say this another way, the outer collective of all of the thoughts, whims, wishes and projections of mankind have come together to create a way of co-creating, and living something out, in what is called manifestation. So that was my meditation aspects.

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Taking-alife-leapWe don’t always have major decisions to make. Be we will, invariably, reach certain moments in our lives where major decisions need to be made. We will do our research, we will use our logic and reasoning. Yet, in the final moment before we commit, it is often our inner guidance that gives us the go-ahead, or the no-go, for whatever step we are considering. In remembering these moments, we can see that our systems want us to succeed, and are trying to help us make the right decisions, and those are usually based upon the greater purpose of our life, whether we are clear about that, or not. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My earliest one, what I remember, it’s like in the moonlight and kind of on the curve of the earth, it feels like I’m with other people that are traveling at night, or go out at night.

And, at one point, I’m with this girl and I notice her and she takes a flying leap and sometimes she can go a certain distance through the air, but this time she gets caught up with a pack of animals that travel in the air. And so she kind of gets swept off with them into the air realm.

And I’ve gone back and her mother’s looking for her and I’m not sure I should tell her that the girl’s gone now. It’s almost like the leap that she took to travel where she was going, it was like she leaped a little too far and now she’s kind of swept off.

John: So, to get this right, the image was there’s a person that just took a leap and disappeared somewhere?

Jeane: Well, they’re like animals that ran in the air, almost like wolves, except you couldn’t see them really clearly. And there were certain streams or currents. And so if you leapt and you tried to to travel too far on that curve of the earth or something, and you got caught up in one of those swirls, and suddenly you’re swept up before that pack ran.

John: Well, it’s interesting how these themes that we have just have to be kept the same, so that one can understand it and comprehend it. Because what that’s doing is it has to do with an awakening or revealing.

In other words, it’s like you’re getting out of your usual frame of reference. You’re being compelled to take a step. The dilemma is, on the negative side, is it a step that’s off the ground and over the edge, and therefore, because it’s not grounded, it’s taking you into unintelligible delirium. That’s the negative way of looking at it.

The positive way of looking at it is that you are plumbing the depths of something about yourself that is heretofore unknown. And, in doing so, it’s like you disappear. You go to a place where there’s no news. There’s a whole other kind of awakening.

You take the leap, in other words, you make the plunge, which is kind of an image that’s often, you might say, commonly purported when someone is confronted with a major decision. Can they make that major decision? Can they leap off of whatever it is as a constrained quality of their nature, jump off of, jump through, or go beyond a particular barrier.

So you’ve got a couple different ways you could look at it, both the positive and the negative. I’m inclined to think that because it’s a process of waking up, that it’s more along the latter – that one is reaching states and awareness inside of themselves, or that they are approaching that anyway, and/or you’re facing it and you’re taking a leap off of what had been an edge, or probing into the frontiers of yourself, in a way that had not heretofore existed or occurred. And, as a consequence, that changes you.

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4edgesWe may never be a blank slate, but letting go of everything isn’t what we think it is. It would appear that we have to strip ourselves, internally, of all mannerisms and mechanisms that bias us in one form or another – and that’s not possible. But, there is another way: through our higher connections. It works this way: the higher pushes out the lower (they can’t co-exist). So, when we are with our higher connections, they can neutralize our lower aspects, only allowing and supporting our better selves. We don’t need to fix ourselves, we need to develop higher connections that will do that for us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, my thing last night was more of a vision of looking at everything.

So, in the meditation dream, I find myself pondering a condition that lets go of having to hold on to anything. And so I find myself kind of releasing, and there’s a sense of freedom in being able to release my ideas of what’s meaningful; there’s an openness to releasing my ideas of what’s meaningful.

To let go of everything means to let go of whatever little nuances, that you carry, that are touching you. And there’s always something that’s affecting you, and touching you. And you may not realize it, but it’s always subtle. And if you do, somehow or another, get so that you drop whatever it is that you see as an expectation, or unfoldment, or something, or process or whatever, an image in which everything is released occurs – but the vibration occurs first. And then the vibration projections all fall away. And seeing this, then, also goes away, as manifestation then just blows up into a million bubbles.

I hadn’t expected it to be that way. The crack up was like a million bubbles. But in manifestation, it goes like that, too. In other words, if it doesn’t have that breath and whatnot going back and forth, holding on to it, and maintaining it, into some sort of mannerism. It’s like it goes into a million bubbles and then it evaporates; floats away or just evaporates.

And, as you look around, like for me what ended up is, all of a sudden, what was formed really quickly were energy lines. In other words, the energy line goes up, and then it goes across, almost as it spreads out a spaciousness. And then it comes down at an angle, like at a 45-degree angle, or something. And as soon as it comes down at a 45-degree angle – and it’s doing this really rapidly. I mean it goes boom, boom, boom, comes down at a 45-degree angle and that’s when I come out of this to report, like a vision.

When it does that is when it’s back into something that can be reported, then. And what’s reported is just the energy line. And I’m not sitting with any recognition of a manifestation,

or anything like that, just an energy line. Just energy lines.

That occurs after everything has blown up. And the visualization of what these bubbles look like is, to begin with, manifestation was something that had a thought aliveness to it. And so when you take that out, then the result is like the bubbles. It’s almost like molecular, just all of a sudden there, but without the nucleus or anything that holds it into a composite, in some fashion.

And, in looking at it, I knew that at one point in time that it had that, but now it doesn’t have that. And so it’s a million pieces, just floats away. Now, I don’t see how it goes anywhere, when it’s like that. And then when it eviscerates, it’s like, I was trying to imagine whether that floated up, and then floated back down, or what, but what happened was, that was just a brief image, and then everything went into that energy line. And out I came.

What was interesting is, if I sit back, I can see the little flickers of like kind of an aspect of a focus, in which there’s little white spots and whatnot. But what I was seeing there had a kind of a light coloration to them, almost a type of reddish orange. They weren’t just little white dots, and there was just movement to all of that. And they rolled in, they didn’t just sit there, they moved left and right and they rolled into each other, too. It was just a tumult, tumult vibration.

So anyway, this is kind of like a condition. Going through this makes it difficult to put much stock, or pay much attention, and actually feels like, in relationship to this, there’s actually a sense of me in which that other feels like it’s a lesser vibration. I notice when I’m taking and I’m listening to, I just note something more. And I have to reach down to point out whatever it is, that’s different from what he says, or otherwise, what he says just kind of hangs there.

In other words, I don’t sort that out, yet, very well. And it’s like his presence can, especially if you’re near him, his presence can induce you into a type of what I’d call almost trance with all of that. I guess that’s what holds the strength of tariqas together is those various trances, which have developed to where they hold on to something. And yet, it’s gotta get outside of the breath, in terms of the breath, per se, in order to catch up with the stillness.

What was so interesting was what happened at the very beginning, that set all of this up, where all of a sudden was this idea having to be totally removed from whatever it was; just no longer wanting to understand, or take into account anything, other than what was it behind everything  that was totally removed, or let go, and then that’s what sets this off.

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