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Jeane’s dreams explore the territory of an inner space, which we can connect to, that offers guidance and knowings. So often we are too noisy in ourselves to connect to this deep reservoir. We have to let go of our patterns of reactivity with which we try to manage the outer world, and begin to listen to the inner voice that knows much more than we do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I think I remember my last two dreams best. In one of them I remember part of it because it was like several of us, and we seem like we’re older kids, are going out and playing in a swimming pool – but nobody’s watching.

This girl I know, and I, we tend to be doing these really high acrobatics, almost like off first or second stories or something, into the swimming pool; kind of learning how to jump down from great heights, or swimming down from great heights, or float down from great heights.

It’s like we can do some unusual things, and go into the water, but we only do them maybe when we’re around, when the kids are around, or one or two of us are around. I just remember that we were doing these unusual things around the water and so the water was important to us.

But then it’s like I’m going to have to move neighborhoods.

John: But you’re only doing those things when no one was watching you?

Jeane: No, maybe just when the other kids were around, not when adults or anybody else was around.

John: There’s an effect that is happening inside one’s self that has qualities, and characteristics, and mannerisms, in terms of its dexterity and what it’s about and what it can do, which isn’t something that is done collectively. It’s a dexterity, it’s a quality, it’s a trait that you can catch up with inside of you, but it doesn’t readily show or make itself apparent in the outer.

In other words, this is kind of an inner into outer thing, or something that exists from being able to hold a space inside one’s self, and the dreaming is about this space, this interval, qualities and characteristics of what becomes possible when one is able to stay and come from this interval of where the inner turns to the outer.

The consequences and result of what can happen there, is not readily apparent to others. And they have no cognition, or recognition, of it because it’s coming from somewhere that isn’t visible. You hold that space, and you act from that, and you take on a consequence that, as it occurs in life, it’s not necessarily understood, it’s not necessarily recognized, it can be somewhat apparent to you in terms of a recognition and realization in an after-the-fact manner.

But at the time that it happens it’s only amongst those that are of like nature, just like that which comes through from within can have a particular tremendous value in terms of its overallness and that that is now getting extended so it can now run its whole motif in an even longer consequence way, from within.

However, when it’s turned over to that which is in the outer, the effect gets blurred way, way down to something that’s pretty minuscule in terms of its effect and importance, in terms of changing or doing anything of any real consequence.

But the whole nighttime effect of the other, that goes beyond what you can put your finger on in terms of understanding, is likened to how the inner is able to function compared to how the outer is able to function in its much reduced capacity.

It’s like everything is from inner into outer and it really comes from that depths of the space, of the secret of secret spots, that is located where the in-breath turns to the out-breath, and then that which you can really look at and visualize and play with and try to make sense out of reflectively has this real minimal effect, and you don’t have much to do with that, very, very little to do with that.

Jeane: Then I think the dream shifts and it feels like I have to go with my family. They moved to another city. This city is on the water, so instead of just a swimming pool now I’m going to be moving to a place on the shore of what seems like a pretty big body of water.

I go to play with the other kids there, and there’s this wonderful water to dive into and play in, but they also have deep underwater sunken houses. One of the games, kind of almost like an initiation, they play is that maybe you’re supposed to swim into some of those houses and even go see what’s at the bottom of the stairway and stuff, but I feel like I’m probably going to be too claustrophobic or chicken to do that.

John: When you take and you’re going out and you’re playing with the other kids there’s not much meaning, there’s not much interest, other than probing the depths of yourself, which is like going to who you – are as a house underwater.

That’s kind of like the effect that you sort out in terms of how you are in the outer, and if you sort that out in the outer, that can slingshot you to catching up with who you are on the inner. And who you are in the outer is just a reflective thing – it’s not who you are on the inner. But by going to the depths inside of you, you’re able to pull down the recognition of where it really is coming from, as it’s streaming in from the inner.

Jeane: Then it feels like I’ve moved into a house with the dad in my dreams, because I’m a younger person, and I discover this house is haunted. And it’s haunted by a woman who sings. Sometimes if I peek around the corner I can see her floating up in the air and she’s like an opera singer.

There are other times when she comes around and there are certain things she wants. It’s almost like she wants me to dress a little more femininely. When I go out to the department store I find myself looking at this shelf with different kinds of bedroom slippers which are all kind of feminine and different colors.

But it’s a sale table so I’m having trouble finding something I really like. I’m wondering which ones even she would approve of, and there’s several scenes in the house where I kind of peek around a corner, or I find certain things happening, just because there is a ghost. And she likes to sing and she’s kind of feminine and it’s kind of interesting for me.

John: It’s showing that you have this connection on an inner level. What pulls this out is the recognition, as the teacher would describe, he can feel or get a sense of something. He does this through the heart, and the quality where the heart resonates a breakthrough. It’s like a tap on the head or something, so he’s able to see and help recognize and come from a knowingness inside of himself that way – and that incorporates a type of listening center.

What that means to you is, you have kind of an access to some sense that you have inside of you that is of a sensitivity nature. In other words, it’s not just that which goes on in the dense outer. And so the closest that you can come to realizing that, is that you can let go of a certain self image that you might have by being able to access this quality that you can feel as a sense inside of you.

And when you do that it supports pulling you together in terms of the inner connection. It knows how you are able to become and be more feminine in your nature. Actually, being more feminine in one’s nature is to actually be able to touch the beauty that lies within, that sparkles within, which is the spirit energy that is trapped within matter.

And of course rather than say it that way, you’re saying that you’re subtle senses are such that you’re able to recognize a listening center that some consider as haunting, but you I guess could call it like that because you create the image of that, but it’s really something that you know how to reach and that you can access that is helping giving you information. Just like a person can take and find a power animal in the shamanistic tradition, and that too can take and have some constructive purpose, up to some degree, in terms of working with earth energy.

And the ability to recognize something that is still floating around, that is opening up in terms of a spirit energy that is trapped, just like it is trapped in you in terms of within the matter of your being, and has within it an understanding and a sight that takes in what it is that you can have access to – if you allow yourself, or if something about your nature is such that you can come to pick this up.

It is kind of saying that you have that type of insight. You have the sensitivity to have that type of insight, and you’re doing it in what seems to be the smooth way. A lot of people when they have that sort of thing affecting them they’re not sure if they aren’t a little crazy as a consequence of it, because it doesn’t seem part of ordinary experience. But in your particular case you’re able to recognize that it’s okay and it can be a little haunting or something, but it is helping you to understand something. It is showing you something.

Another thing that can influence something like that is pondering the effect of archetypal influence upon one’s nature, and I guess you could say that this is akin to something like that in that the archetypal influences can either completely distort and control you, or they can become something that causes you to have a recognition in a subtler way.


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In Jeane’s dreams, we can follow how the imagery leads her from an awakening, or an inner stirring, toward a deeper inner connection, where things happen in a natural and magical way – without the usual struggle.

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Jeane: I had two dreams that were really hard to remember, and I was going over rehearsing them, and then I fell into a repeat dream that was so dominant I forgot my middle dream.

The first dream I had, the main features about it, it’s like I’ve gone into kind of a crowded living area, and into the room of a young woman who’s psychic. And it’s like when I have to go to the bathroom, it’s like she has almost like sacks that go into the ground at certain points, or into the floor, and you can over there and pee. And if there’s one that’s kind of a little closer to the bed that works out better.

But then she suddenly gets fussy and wants us to use one that’s kind of around the corner, which I don’t particularly want to do. So I think I’m a little irritable in that. I don’t quite figure out why she keeps changing what she wants.

And then it feels like when I go around the corner to where there’s kind of a divider and then there’s somebody else, a young man is renting a room or something. And he’s decided that since she has all these people coming and going that maybe he can sublet the back of his room, which doesn’t feel quite right.

It’s like because of what he sees is going on at her place then he wants to do something that brings in more people, or differently utilizes his space.

And then that seems to just shift into a dream that the only thing I remember about the second dream was that I would keep shifting whether I was the… I think I was a young man in it, or if I was the man or I was the woman. It’s almost like I could be all parts in it, but I never got back to pulling out that dream because the repeat dream, or what I felt was a repeat dream, came in that was so dominant.

John: The repeat dream is the dream you’re going to tell next?

Jeane: Yes.

John: What you’re doing in this dream is there’s something that you feel that is affecting you, that is astir in your nature, that causes you to have to look at how you function or live differently. In other words, it uses a peculiar analogy to get there. In other words, it has to do with whether you relieve yourself in this way or in that way, or over around this corner or however, as if you’re following a thread in terms of this process of how you’re releasing things, or as a type of release.

But it’s more than just a type of release. It’s also a way of unfolding to where you get closer and closer to the inner recognition as you are going about outer reflections. The outer reflects the inner. What you’re seeing is that you have a different responsibility.

In other words, you have all these other considerations that you have to take in, that is like a tightening up of the process in terms of how you’re unfolding, or relieving yourself, or however you want to say that.

And so what you’re describing is the spiritual path as perceived by a type of focus and attention that you have with yourself.

Jeane: What feels like to me a repeat dream, it’s even a repeat dream in the dream, it feels like you and I’ve been on an assignment with a number of other people and one of the parts of the assignment is when we got to a certain place, which happened to be my maternal grandmother’s house, that we would put on a certain skit and everyone would come up with a different skit that they put on.

Well, in the original dream, you and I had arrived there alone at night and none of the others were there, and we had come up with this great skit because I never really knew that you could kind of dance and sing and I even had this big wig I put on and we had gotten these animals to participate including this really large poisonous snake.

It had gone really well but we had done the whole skit without anyone else there. We just knew that was going to be part of our assignment. That was the dream I’d had before, and then I have it again.

In the dream this time we arrive at my grandmother’s house, but the whole group is there, and then they tell us we have to do our skit. I hadn’t known we’d have to repeat it again, but of course none of them were there when we did it, and so I’m a little off base because I don’t know what will happen as far as getting the animals there or anything but sure enough the big, large, poisonous, pink, female snake shows up.

And then it’s like I look at the ground and I just do something with focus and waving my hands and suddenly all of the – it’s almost like the ground kind of opens up – and all the other little critters appear. And so that will be part of it.

And I send you off to find your notebook because you had written down the lyrics to the song, which I didn’t remember, and I go off into an inner space going through various rooms looking for a place to change into the outfit and the wig that I wore, and I have some trouble finding a place to change because the rooms we’d used before have changed into a stable and there’s even a saddled horse there, and another one’s a restaurant with people there now, but I finally come back.

I seem to have gotten my… whatever changes I needed to make happen so that we go on to sing. And I go right up to the poisonous snake and it actually has a feminine aspect to her and she is huge. I mean, like she has a face almost as big as a human’s, big python type, all pink, and I actually do some things where I’m scratching her face and getting ready for the performance to sing to her and somebody else is commenting that they had really kind of slacked off on what they were doing for their skit but it felt like we kind of went all out.

You do the singing in the skit for the most part. I just have to get your notebook for a few lines. I guess that’s the main dream.

John: That’s a dream that takes you completely outside of the world of the outer, and into a world so connected to the inner that the reflections that occur in the outer are no longer reflections per se, as if they’re estranged or disconcerted or separate from the inner.

In the first dream that had to do with you trying to figure out where you needed to be and how you needed to be, that dream had a bewilderment and awkwardness to it in that you were still trying to catch up with the ability to grasp or follow the thread to a knowingness of how it is that you are, or are meant to be.

In the second dream, you found it. You know that the energy comes through and awakens and quickens and makes everything alive, only it’s a connectiveness to the innerness, so that the aliveness in the outer is not some sort of like dead reflection, it’s a direct correlation.

In other words, it becomes a symbolic way or a meaningful way of directly creating the inner. In other words, this is a dream that has this whole creative quality to it, and it indicates the role of the masculine as an aspect because the feminine should have a completeness and a wholeness and know how to dance, and the masculine is going to be awkward that way because it does not know how to catch up with the reflections, from which it is able to reach a knowingness or a hearingness. In other words, bring that through almost as if it speaks it into an aliveness in the outer.

The power of the dream is this whole beginning part. In other words, as you’re sitting and trying to understand that, what has occurred there, you’re lowering the energy because you were just living it and going through with it naturally, without any forethought or mannerism at all, a lot different than the awkwardness of the focus and attention in the first dream to try to be where you needed to be, or to follow the thread of however it is that you are directed to be in that regard.

And there’s a certain tension in that because you haven’t yet pulled through the inner in its all encompassing way, and you somehow know when you’re like that that to properly live or relieve yourself, you have to catch up with that as a responsibility.

In the second dream it’s just suddenly there and it has a whole magical element to it in that what it is that you experience turns out to be what manifests around you.

Jeane: The only part of that dream that I forgot near the end is it feels like I go over and I look down a level, where some stairs are, and you’ve gone down there with some guys, and you are apparently moving and so you’re carrying your moving boxes. I’m considering whether I should go down and help you move in, but I’m pausing because I do not necessarily want to carry the same kind of weight boxes the guys carry, so I’m thinking that maybe if I got handed the clothing boxes or something I could carry those in and help you unpack. But I’m just pausing and deliberating on all of it because so far you’ve got guys carrying the boxes for you.

John: That’s still devolving as if it’s something that you still have to contend with or something, because in the first part of the dream it was all working in cohesion, the awareness that was an aliveness that then corresponded to things that were automatically there as if created through the inner energetic. That was all there in the initial first part of the dream.

And so what you did is you just… I mean, it’s almost like you just nonchalantly described what it’s like to bring inner into outer and what that can be like in just kind of a, plop there she be, kind of way. And the other part of the dream has you kind of somehow or another trying to reconcile all of that, and it doesn’t work that way. You can’t reconcile it.

You’re too much in the essence and its aliveness that comes through is created through the presence of that essence in as an absolute a way as you’re able to do it. It has a slight flicker in there where you recognize an aspect of the masculine, in other words that can sing the song or make the note or something like that, but other than that it would just be one seamless flow and it still is a seamless flow, you just throw that in to make sure that one recognizes how it works in terms of your having caught up with your fullness of being.

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John: The thing we have to look at in life is a need to realize that we’re playing with a level of magic. And to reach that magic we need to learn how to let go of things without causing too great an indulgence.

An indulgence can come in many ways. It can be nothing more than a tone, or a mannerism, that we take on, as if we’re entitled to take it on. Or it can involve the rising up, in our nature, of anything other than the qualities of attentiveness and compassion. And an indulgence can involve our automated reactions to our life experiences.

My dream is set in medieval times – there are castles and everything. I find myself, and the group I’m with, being overrun by invading forces who have swept through the land and taken over.

Instead of running or retreating, however, our teacher keeps us pressing on into the territory that’s just been taken from us. It’s like we’re ignoring what’s happened and we’re heading right into the enemy’s reinforcements.

The enemy has decimated our position and left us powerless. We don’t even have weapons to defend ourselves. Still, rather than give up, or retreat, or regroup, the teacher has us proceeding along, as if he knows something the invaders don’t.

I can sense that the enemy closely monitors every move we make. They see us out in the open, instead of being wise and pulling back. The teacher seems fully aware of what he’s doing – he even says that we’re getting very close to where we may be subject to an ambush.

I complain about not having any weapons to defend an attack, which seems imminent. The teacher agrees. Our movements are like a display of deep inner faith, because nothing about our circumstances indicates that these are the actions we should take.

Then the dream shifts, and I notice that there’s a veil that separates us from the invading forces. A moment earlier it felt like we were surrounded and our every move was observed. Now it feels like we’re not as helpless as I thought. With this shift, I can see a barrier separating us from the enemy.

I also had an earlier image where I saw a dog lunge forward to take food right out of my hand.

The meaning of these dreams is that there’s a place deep inside in which trust defies the limitations of the outer. They show that, first and foremost, I must trust and abide in my inner connections. If I get too enamored at what I have externally, or I think that I’m holding a particular space (symbolized by territory or food) that’s important, something can come at any moment and take it away from me.

In other words, if my attachments are too heavily based in the physical realms rather than the spiritual realms, then the “invaders” can swoop in and take it. Even the dog, which is a symbol of friendship, will snatch what I hold onto right out of my hand.

However, if I can follow my inner guidance and ignore outer appearances, I can thread myself through any obstacle. It’s when I react to what outer appearances imply or suggest, and let them guide my actions – like retreating in fear – I throw away my inner connection and my trust. Then I can only live in constant fear of losing myself or, I live in a fear in which I do lose myself.

The forces in outer life will always be bigger than I am, because what is hidden actually yields to them, or stays dormant in the presence of them. It is only by me trusting in what is hidden, trusting that I’m in good hands, can I help bring what is hidden out into the open – into life.

Next I have an image that adds information to these dreams. I mean, I could say that something’s missing from the first image because the kind of trust that’s being asked for, few people in their right mind would be able to muster, unless they had “heard” some guidance.

It’s like the story in the Quran where Moses meets the “Servant of God,” later identified as Khidr. Moses asks to accompany him in order to learn, and is told that he has to abide by whatever Khidr does and not question him. Moses agrees, yet each time Khidr takes an action, Moses, shocked by what he sees, always questions what has been done.

It’s not until Moses has broken his promise for the last time and the two must part that Khidr reveals the true compassion behind his actions, a compassion that was hidden from Moses because of his limited viewpoint.

So, in this dream I’m shown a force that has four levels to it. I’m told that the last person to approach this force inadvertently awoke a lion ferocity that had been asleep therein.

As fearful as I feel, I can’t help but notice that the roaring ferocity of the lion is only active on the first level, but that there are three other levels that are still dormant. My sense is that these three levels can only come into being (be awakened) when one has stilled the first level.

In other words, what’s required to pass the first level is to not react to the ferocity of the lion. The law of the lion who is rudely awakened is that he controls the appearance of the present.

In other words, as in the prior image where the invaders seemed to have every visible advantage, there’s still more to consider than what’s immediately discernible. If we react to the most obvious – our external reality, the invaders, a ferocious lion – it becomes the only level we see and experience. In a sense, the strength of our reaction (the ferocity of the lion) confirms it as our reality. Yet that’s a very limited viewpoint that cuts us off from deeper levels of knowing and inner guidance.

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