Defying the Light

Swift_BurstStill_11-24How often do we say something, or take an action, or non-action, that overrides our better sense? And how often do we wish we had done what we knew inside was right? It’s a familiar scenario in daily life, yet it also applies to our spiritual journey, because it is the brain that can lead us astray, while the feeling in the heart is a truer guide. Here, three images make this point on an inner level, showing how we get away from our real center. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now, the way I present it may seem a little different because it’s more of a masculine way of doing it, instead of an inner container way of catching up through the depth of one’s self. The masculine tends to run in oblong ways, and then has to realize that it’s creating veils, and that it is defying the light that is possible as well.

So in the meditation dream, I’m looking at what I consider an irrational effect. In other words, I’m looking at something in the outer, or I’m looking at something in terms of how things work in life, and a part of me considers that irrational in that I’m seeing it for what it is. In other words, in terms of how it is in the outer. It’s irrational or different from how it would be perceived in terms of the inner.

In the dream the effect has to do with the taking of a position that my higher-self awareness knows is counterproductive. My lower self, even with the hint within the heart that what I am doing is not true to who and what I am, does it anyway.

So the scenario is, in the outer what comes to mind is my indulgences in market action in which I go on tangents of personal indulgence, knowing this to be a blight upon the brightness of my heart – and lightness, as well. Lightness would probably be a better word. The activity is a blight because over and over again I’m confronted with the dilemma of having acted irrationally in terms of the higher-self inner consciousness.

This is made known to me when I inflect upon the condition of my heart and notice that it has taken a beating. It is good that I am able to recognize this effect. To recognize the effect means I can shift, and am shifting, to and fro in terms of heartfelt awareness. The awareness could be something in the outer vying for the heart, and then, of course, there is something of the inner, and they have this peculiar contrast, especially when you have your mind and your attention and you’re trying to make something more out of something with the mind and the senses, when the heart reflects something different.

And what would really be sad is when I am blurred, and numb, and kind of in a hopeless condition so deep in the problem that it destroys my consciousness in an unconscious way, then I don’t have even this to try to resurrect. So that’s the initial sequence of a three-part way that things are contended with in terms of the journey.

In the second dream, I’m a player in the outfield of a baseball game. I have moved up to be in a better position in case the ball is hit in kind of a shallow way. In other words, I’m misgauging the batter is what it really amounts to. I’m assuming that he is going to hit something that won’t be very well hit, or hard hit or something, and I’ll be able to cut it off by moving up.

Instead what the batter does is he hits a ball that goes by me. The further the ball rolls into the outfield the harder it is for me to see it. As I race out to try to catch up with it, the ball is like a particle of light. It gets less and less, and smaller and smaller, the further it rolls.

By the time I’m there to retrieve it, it’s all I can do to pick it up it’s so small. It’s almost like an atom. It’s almost invisible. My sense is that the batter has hit an inside the park home run. When I throw the flicker back it gets brighter and easier to see the closer it gets to home base. As I note this, my feeling is that the situation needs to be commended for its complexity. This is in response to what had been, you know, a moment before, an initial frustration when the ball went by me.

The meaning is the dream is portraying what it is like to be out of touch with the inner flow. The further away one gets, and the more twisted around that you are from home, the less and less heartfelt light there is. It can shrink to such a degree that it is nearly invisible. However, this nearly invisible spark gets brighter and brighter the closer it comes to its true home. Isn’t that an interesting image that portrays all that?

And this one’s not all that different, but again is making a very interesting point. There is what looks like a picture or mirror in front of me. I do not see the picture, or the mirror. I only see the outline of the frame. The reason for that is it’s like I have hung and there’s little clips that I’ve used that’s not part of the picture. I’ve hung a curtain or a veil of some sort over the picture or mirror.

I don’t know whether it’s a picture or a mirror you know, I’m not able to see it. I notice this curtain was clipped on at the top, you know so it hangs down, and this covers up what is there. And what I find to be intriguing, and fascinating, is that I can tell by the way it is, it’s not part of the picture. I must have put it on myself somehow – so it can be unclipped.

The meaning is, is that this is another image that contends with the awakening process. First, from the meditation dream, you have the actions which defy an inner common sense. Such actions may make sense to the mind, but not to the heart.

Second, I am shown that the further away I get from this inner connection, the harder and harder it is to recognize it. To be able to perceive the light, even when it is but a flicker – it’s challenging. And it’s commendable because I suppose, using the dream image as a reference, I would be in really dire condition if the light were to hit out of the ballpark. As it rolled out there it just go so small that I reached down a couple times and I had to cradle it in my fingers it was so small to make sure that I had it. To throw it back in, knowing that it wouldn’t be a problem when it got back towards home base, but it would be too late, too, because the person would have hit an inside the park home run.

And in the third dream, I am just shown that the veils were created by me and, therefore, are removable.

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Functioning From Within

Shifting our way of being from responding and reacting to the outer world, to responding to a guidance from within, is truly fundamental in the journey away from the apparent separateness of ego identity, toward becoming a part of the connected Wholeness. Today’s dreams delve into this struggle. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The dream I had, what I remember of it, it was like there was an energy that would come down. It came down straight like a line, but at an angle, and then it would refract off. It would hit below and refract off.

The energy was alien but it would set something off, and so then we would be trying to figure that out, I think. I just can’t remember that much of it, but it was followed by a little image and in that image it’s like maybe you had visited your family. And you had a shirt, and in the pocket of the shirt you found a folded piece of paper, and I saw it was a message from your father but maybe it’s kind of a hidden message because people just think it’s a piece of paper that you had.

But I can see on the back of it there’s some writing, even though it looks like an address and a number, but I know it’s a message from your dad.

John: We’re both playing with the same thing, and that is: how the energetic needs to be. What is off, what is not working, in your first dream, is the dependency of an energy coming down that takes and awakens and keeps something viable and alive, and a person has gotten dependent upon it being like that, only the energy is refracting off. It’s not coming through.

What the dream is indicating is that the normal flow that one has to work with, or depend upon, is not properly reaching the source, in terms of the ability to flow creatively. And when situations get like that they spin more and more reflectively out of control, and less and less connectively within.

It’s really, really important that one connects within and goes to an inner depth, because you can’t subsist any longer trying to take and be balanced from the situations that exist out there because there isn’t the customary usual feeding type flow that comes in.

That is what your first image is doing, and the second image is indicating, and was your way of pointing out, that there is a guidance or a knowing that one has, as a light that comes through from some place at a deep inner depth inside them, and that unless you are connected to that, unless you find that, unless you hold that, unless you honor that you have something like in the first image. You will end up with a situation in which you’re guessing, in which you’re acting but don’t have the ability to make a proper access, and therefore you become depleted. You get depleted and your energetic is drawn out and worn out by the reflective conditions around you.

The oddity of something like this is that the only thing that measures this is the heart, and the heart has to have a longing or a yearning that pulls for something to be a particular way because the mind and the senses, this never makes any sense to the mind or the senses. The mind or the senses bifurcate off of the energetic in terms of how they go into the outer and deal with the reflections, but the heart doesn’t.

The heart starts with an overall and finds that the mind and the sense is limited to a narrowing, and if you’re trying to function by way of connecting to a transmission that is bifurcated and not there, to where you’re only thinking that you’re getting the memo. In other words, the feminine nature is such that it sits in a world in which it has gotten accustomed to having the energetic come down and awaken things.

But that awakening that is happening around in terms of appearances is bifurcated, it’s off, but there is an inner light that one can have – when you look at the second dream – that one needs to be careful to stay attentive to. And if you stay attentive to that then something will be okay.

What you’re doing is the scenario that’s triggering these kinds of dreams is you realize that I’m kind of going away, and what I’m going away into is something that has its own different separate kind of reflective energy. And you kind of know that that is bifurcated in some fashion, but I’ll be okay if I hold to the heartful inner energy, which is like my father’s energy.

But this is your dream so you’re using me as an example of what you have to do to hold onto something inside you, that you have to find that inner linkage that feeds you and exist there because the energy coming down and through, that you may have been able to get along with in the past is bifurcated, it is distorted, and therefore not giving you what you need.

Now, my dream describes more in detail as to why that is.

I’ve been seeing this and not understanding what it meant before when I would see myself like on a job and kind of lost in the job and not remembering what it is I was supposed to do and where’s the foreman and where’s all of that. This time when it repeats I actually get it because now I see why it’s like that. There’s something that’s been dissipated or lost.

So this starts off where I’m in a warehouse where the shelves of product are getting empty and I’m losing my memory all the time, or as the time keeps progressing, in terms of what should be on each of the shelves in terms of the large pallets of wood that stock the shelves.

In other words, what we have is we have these huge shelves or bins that hold pallets of various sized wood and ordinarily if you’re really, really connected to this place you’re connected to something in which those shelves are full and also you know a means that if they need to be filled, what goes where.

In this dream, because somehow or another I am not making the proper connection to that linkage, that part that I use as a resource base, I find that what I am doing is I’m taking certain sized wood and loading it off to one side. And those piles that I make, as time keeps progressing, they keep getting smaller and smaller and less and less stable because I’m starting off with one set of confidence, but I’m not able to sustain it because somehow or another I’m going back and forth getting disoriented as to where I’m finding what I need.

As a consequence, I’m getting less and less done, and more and more black workers are being hired and they walk around with their shirts off and I’m told that they are the real deal, meaning that they would be good hard workers that seem to be able to stick to the basics and know what it is that needs to be done, and I seem to be pretty drifty. They can work harder. They are more consistent than I am. I don’t have any direction anymore. I know that this can’t continue. There’s no supervisor around. Eventually I will become helpless at this rate.

The meaning is I’m becoming less and less capable of self motivation, and am relying more and more upon subjectively feeling my way around. That’s why I’m dreaming this dream. This too only goes so far. You can’t just subjectively feel your way around.

In your dream, of course, the energy coming down is bifurcated, and so in your dream if you’re going somewhere to do something you have to have an inner linkage or you’re in real trouble now, because why is that? That’s the means to hear and to remember. The energetic for that is not found in an outer way.

The dream is showing me that I am losing the inner connection from which this is all made known. I lack the inner guidance that is there and then I’m losing the connection to what it is, and what it is that I should be doing, and when I should be doing it, and how I should be doing it, and where I am to find things because I can’t find them reflectively and I got to know that they’ve got to be built there as a resource that just sits there inside me in an unlimited capacity.

So I become more and more dissipated in terms of the inner condition, is what I’m seeing, because the thing’s on the shelves. I shouldn’t have to load those things on the shelf. I just need to support their existence there because they are naturally somehow there.

It’s the part of me that I don’t know that is the real deal, that takes and has the handle on the shelves, and product that fills the place up, from which I can then take and do my thing. But only if I have full access to shelves that are full of product in this warehouse, as opposed to the shelves getting empty.

What the dream is saying is that there is a means or a mechanism or connection inside that is dissipating and this is a dream that is after the program, which means that the program builds you up to a degree and then you kind of slide from that, and as you slide from that the shelves go empty and then pretty soon you’re caught in not knowing how to flounder your way around.

In other words, a heartfulness is needed to link me to the inner space or inner source. Without this I slowly fall back more and more onto a delirium of not really having a good way of knowing what I’m doing. The best I can do is reflections with a memory shot, and no guidance, and no listening center.

The scenario of that of course is the dissipation that happens when you just sit back and you don’t have that real deep connection that you had at the program, where you suddenly got full and then as you’re sitting back you’ve been adjusted and pointed in terms of the means upon which you need to be at this point in time, attuned to that, and that’s at that space where the inner turns into the outer. And so instead if you’re sitting there thinking that you could somehow mutate from that, and that other is just going to be there amnesically, you find out that something goes whacky in terms of how you feel your own heart and it is the heart that you have to hearken to.

It’s the heart that you have to pay attention to. You can’t have your attention focused into the outer and how the outer looks and responds and is because that will just take you into a type of delirium because, as much as it wants to know, and thinks that it knows – it doesn’t know.

We exist at a point in time where everything has to come from this empty space. And, also, as a scenario for the future is I’m going into a situation in which those I will be with, like Rick, who is going to give me a ride to the airport and my mother that will be there, they’re all going to be acting out upon outer reflections and my challenge will be to reside in the inner in order to be able to sort out what needs to be done and what can be done.

Look to the inner, feel the inner, hear from the inner, as the place for heartfelt inflection, and not get caught up in any of the outer nuances.

In other words, function from within, the aspect of my own light, in terms of how I hear it. Otherwise I’ll be pulling from the outer reflections and I can never do that anymore. I can’t be doing that because that just depletes the shelves to the point where you’re in a total delirium – and what a strange feeling you get when you don’t have that connection to reside in.


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Divine Will

John: We’ve been examining what it means to surrender to the flow of life (see Playing it Safe). When we resist that, by being a slave to our own personal involvements, psychologies, and patterns, we disconnect from everything else in the universe. That’s how we deceive ourselves.

But, if we can get out of our own way, we then somehow gain access to natural knowings about what to do next. Said another way, we are more able to appreciate the flow if we take personal aspects out of the equation and connect strictly to what is natural (universal), or predesigned, in terms of Divine Will.

The closeness of the connection is determined by the degree to which we are able to step aside from our ego-based experience and instead participate more like a natural, living organism in what is unfolding. 

It’s an aliveness, and it comes with catching up with Divine Will, beginning from our inner selves and reflecting that into the outer world, and then it begins to work from the outer world into our inner lives. That is the whole cycle of creation, when a human being is living as they’re meant to live – open to the heart of hearts of life itself.

Basically humans have come to believe, through our self-centered view of life, that our safety is based in our personal protections. But those become the veils of illusion – they’re like our own personal filters – which prevent us from seeing and experiencing the whole of life.

The removal of these veils leads to us to an understanding about the evolution of the soul in the greater scheme of things. Said another way, it’s like the light from within rises up to touch the light of Divine Will, which comes down to touch the spiritual, universal essence imbedded within each of us.

I have this dream image in which there is a great big pot of soup, or stew, being cooked. It’s a huge melting pot of things, and there is a cook. The cook from time to time steps aside to gather more ingredients, or more components.

When that happens, as I’m sitting around watching the cook work, I’m compelled to step forward and stir the pot a bit so it doesn’t burn – but only while the cook is away. It’s like a natural ebb and flow between us, as I step forward and recede.

It’s an interesting little image because I don’t see myself as the cook, but I still do have a role in the process of creating this whole pot of things. The cook never asks for my involvement, I just naturally respond to the need.

What’s obvious to me, in terms of what this image means relative to our ongoing transition here in Las Vegas, is that everywhere we go things are constantly being redesigned in terms of their various functions within the greater Las Vegas environment. It’s an ongoing evolution – nothing is static in terms of the elements of the city fulfilling their roles to the utmost of their possibility.

So part of this message is to understand that nothing is to be denied, that everything is part of the mix, and it’s just a matter of being able to handle that, of being able to work with that, and to not become overwhelmed (which is when our ego protections fill the gap created by such disconnections).

The magic, of course, is in working with all the ingredients that can be added that can cause or allow something to unfold or happen. We can (safely) get lost in that magic as life flows this way and that, just as there is magic in the ways of Las Vegas. We can see everything as a flow of light.

Las Vegas already does its best to simulate the flow of light – that’s what’s so intriguing about it. But who is able to pierce the veils, because each person tends to go off into their own little octave? As a consequence, we might appreciate it in a certain linear way, or sometimes get a little overwhelmed because we see ourselves as not catching up because we’re not in the flow of it.

Whether we are speaking of a city, or of a spiritual journey, humans are not meant to impose their personal expectations on life as it exists and is flowing. We are meant to include ourselves in the flow, knowing that we carry all the protection we need through our deeper connection to Divine Will.