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When a person is described as being “good in a crisis,” it usually means they stay calm and are able to think and proceed without being overwhelmed. On the other hand, many of us will react to something by trying to match the speed of the event: if it is a fight, or an argument, people will speed up to handle what is happening – but that is often an unsuccessful strategy. We can apply this same concept to the way we handle anything: are we changing ourselves to suit the moment? A developed person would make the case that we should always be calm and collected on the inside – and that that is the best way to handle anything, even the most fast-paced situations. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I seem to remember that I had an earlier dream where I was dreaming about the movie we’d watched, The Imitation Game. And then it felt like I had a dream where I was trying to work with a situation with my dad. 

And, in between there somewhere, I had a dream that I remember where it felt like I was trying to catch up with this person that had, I guess the best way to explain it, it felt like I was up in some rocky mountain area, we’re actually climbing up rocks, and there was a man there that had like a red cap on. 

And I tried to climb up to where he was, but he had taken off. And it felt like you and I, and someone else, were trying to catch up with him. So, in the process of chasing him and trying to figure out where he was, we all got separated. And I saw him run out on the edge of a trail. And then I lost sight of him for a minute, and when I looked again, I wasn’t sure where he’d gone, which way he’d turned.

So I went to where I last saw him. And then pretty soon I found myself in this strange city. When I went in there I met some women that were living there, from the United States, because this was a foreign country. I knew she was from the US because of her accent. And she was living there, and she was starting to talk to me about, how would I feel if I were living there? 

And then I go and I find you. And I try to tell you where I last saw this person we had been seeking. But you don’t want to hear about that anymore, you’ve given up seeking him and you just want to live in this foreign country now. 

I don’t know if I can relate to living in that foreign country, because it’s like you’re not interested in anything that was before. You’re just kind of in this foreign country now. I think that’s when I woke up. 

John: So your dream is starting off looking at a type of Imitation Game, in which you have a pattern of trying to keep up with something, or to speed up. That’s what your dad is doing, too, right now. Normally, your dad holds a calm, and you, when your dad’s around, are inclined to have to speed up as if you’re trying to keep up or maintain something, kind of like a complex of some sort there that’s drawn out in terms of thinking that that’s how it’s to be done. 

And now you’re seeing your dad actually do this. And so you have that on one hand, pondering that as important. And then, as an offset to that, you are looking at something that can be in a whole other way, shifted from all of that. To be shifted from all of that, to be in a whole other way yet still, somehow or another, in life is to catch up with something that’s beyond this way of being; it’s in manifestation, so to speak, which is like a type of stillness. 

Now, you’re reporting to yourself that you can’t do that. And that you still need, or want, or seek to have to contend with things. The way you’re contending with things is a practice stillness where you can’t quite hear something. In other words, it’s like you were saying yesterday, when things get commotive it’s like it scrambles, and you can’t quite hear; you’re not able to sit in the stillness. And, therefore, you’re not able to quite hear things. And that’s what it means by the comment inside your dream of not being able to identify with things. Like I’m used as someone in your dream as not being able to identify with what is bouncing around or carrying on. 

What you’re doing is you’re jumbling all of this together. None of those are the answers to what you seek, but it’s your way of trying to let go or to sort out from it. In other words, on the one hand you have the speeding up as if you have to keep up with something. On the other hand, you’re recognizing that there’s something somewhere else, but you can’t maintain that something somewhere else. And the reason is because you don’t quite hold the proper stillness because when you try to be still, or calm, about it, it’s still churning inside – and so it still has its effect upon you. 

So the theme of the dreaming is triggered by the fact that you’re looking towards a quality of letting go-type stillness. And you’re looking for it in some sort of actionable way. So you’re taking the collage of all of that in your dream, you’re doing kind of a collage effect where you were, so to speak, doing a type of circling of the wagons, which means that you were touched or affected by something and are still trying to zone into what that is.

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We have been looking at what it means to be connected to the world through the heart, rather than just through the brain or five senses. And when we speak of the heart it has to do with an inner feeling connection with everything that exists. In that connection is a stillness that is not available if we are disconnected. Yet when we put our focus on all the vagaries of the external world around us, our life is connected to the commotion, and the stillness is lost to us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I know I had a dream in the middle with a phrase that seemed really important to me that I’ve forgotten because it goes on into a dream where we’re going on a trip with a group of people with Dean [a teacher], but I get separated from the group.

Now, when I get separated we’re out in a little more extreme landscape, there’s a large canyon kind of carved out of the rock there, and I see others going down into this canyon area on the trail, and I go over. And there’s one path, it almost is like you’re going to have to slide down the rock a ways and then there’s a trail right below there that I can’t see but I know is there.

And I look over to a side and I see there is a little easier way to maybe walk around a distance and get there, but I see other people going down this little faster, steeper way – so I decide to do that, too. And it works out okay, just is a little throat-in-your-mouth kind of step, and it’s a huge kind of canyon that feels strange, but I do know that as we get down to the canyon and we go over to the other side, and we go into the rock of the canyon, it’s like there’s a hotel that’s carved out of the canyon, that it’s almost like it has several levels to it including an area with steamed pools, and then the hotel rooms. And there must be other things in this area where you would go outside the hotel and be in a landscape again.

Well, at first I’m just in the hotel. The main thing is this is the only hotel out there, so I figure it’s where we must be staying but I don’t know for sure, so I stop a woman who’s actually a manager of some kind but she doesn’t know our group by the names that I know, but tells me that it is the only hotel out there. So I’ll probably get it sorted out if I go find the front desk and she gives me directions there.

So I must do that because the next thing I know I’m in one of these rooms that’s kind of carved out underground with you, but I must be agitated about something. I feel like I know what I need to do is take a walk. You even know what I need to do is take a walk, so I get up from the bed. But I had assumed you’d come and take a walk with me and you’re not going to, which really annoys me. So when I leave I just slam the door in a way that makes this big booming sound along the whole corridor.

Then I walk down and out and I seem to find the pathway that goes outdoors. When I go outdoors it’s actually daylight and I run into Dean and we decide to sit down at a table and I have a dream I want to tell him. And there’s a phrase and it’s a phrase I know from the middle dream I’ve forgotten, that I feel is really important. I’ve even written it down in ink on the iPad cover and I’ve got my iPad with me, which I put on the top of this little bench as we sit down.

And then I’m going to tell him the dream and I have to remember that phrase, and then I hear this loud crack and I turn around, and it’s almost like there’s some kind of a cathedral type building up on the hill to our right, that almost looks like a building from the very first dream, and obviously something’s going on with the ground there. And you can tell even a boulder is starting to come off the building, that we need to get out of there because these rocks could come down and hit us.

So Dean takes off, goes around the building, kind of back and around the building that we’re sitting on. I pause because I go back a few steps to pick up the iPad; I don’t want to lose it, so I go around the front of the building and I look at where to go. I see a tree in the distance is just totally shaking. It’s like a cherry tree or something in bloom, and it’s totally shaking. I even see a rock go flying through it like it’s come from somewhere.

I get kind of far enough out in the lawn that I’m not near a building that might fall down, and I’m not over near the tree where I saw the rock fall, and everything gets calm. When everything gets calm I look up to the building on the hill and I see all these people streaming out of it, on all levels of it, and they all seem fine. And then I walk around the building to where Dean had been a few minutes before and he’s coming back to that area.

Suddenly this bus pulls up so maybe we’re all going to jump on the bus and get out of there, but Dean is saying something, and I even have the sense he’s right, to just calm down, we don’t need to get out of there right away.

John: The underlying theme of all of this that is being played with, with nuances of how it opens up and how it unfolds, has to do with the way that one accesses a certain quality of heart clarity that is a connective intertwined linkage, that is designed and is conducive to how a person is meant to unfold.

In other words, every person has an inner essence that has been placed into creation, but behind that essence of emptiness there is like a thought or focus that has crystalized for an expression to be possible. But it’s not just any old expression, it is carefully tailored so that it is linked and intertwined in a way so that the emptiness and the wholeness of the heart, in its overallness, is not lost.

And so it requires a familiarity to conducive vibrations that hearken to the depth of that innerness, that is basic and deep within one’s being, that emanates through, that inflects through. Even though they are in the outer, this inflects through. And if you do not catch the inflection, then you move further and further away from this essence of emptiness, this emptiness of soul energy that’s universal in a wholeness of all of life. You move further and further away from it.

Now, as you are in life, in creation, there is like a quality that you carry, that is able to touch something in creation, as long as it remains convicted in its focus, so that it doesn’t lose track at a depth that it can feel inside of itself of that essence from which it was originally, from which it comes as an original orientation of beingness.

That’s the general schematic of the process, but then in your dream you have to contend with how it is that you keep the heart clear to the intended unfoldment of an essence that has been compacted into manifestation. You have to sort out what it means to be at an inner depth, to be at a deeper state inside of yourself, trying to bring something through, to bring something out, which is like the underground house.

In other words, to what degree can you go out there on your own, or not? And you have to be clear as to whatever that is that you’re identifying with, does it deviate from, is it a contrivance of mannerism, that deviates from a deeper knowingness?

The dream starts off with this deeper knowingness that has to do with the teacher, and then there is the attention that is placed upon another energetic that you’re attempting to bring and carry along as part of yourself. And then there is the recognition that, as you get into the outer, there is a tendency for things to be perhaps even more in a state of disarray. But there is a grace, like the cherry tree, that shows that this is somewhat elusive because it is all held together under a presence, and a power, and a connection within the heart that relates to everything being just fine, that is only possible when there is the orientation to just that energy, to just that essence in the outer. In other words, the bringing of the two together to create what is real.

When you look at something like the house is shaking, and the turmoil that is happening, and you look at that outside of the focus and the presence of the teacher, that means that you are putting something like that, the commotion of things, you’re putting that into the heart, and into your frame of reference, instead of the quality of essence that emanates from the teacher.

This is so hard to describe because what we’re talking about is to be careful what one puts into one’s heart, there are ways of putting things in one’s heart that take one outside of a natural connection, that they also have that is automatic and natural, that they can turn their attention to and maintain and sustain.

And in the first dream you’re indicating and showing that you can have waverings in terms of thoughts and mannerisms that can cause you to lose it. And in the second dream, that sort of thing is actually kind of taken out of it, and what exists instead is what you choose to take on, or take in, to embrace, and whether what you embrace is something that is still, and whole, or something that is not quite conducive to how your heart nature needs to be. So it’s all commotion.

It’s kind of an Alice in Wonderland kind of dream, you know, where you’re manifesting something to correspond to how it is that you’re tending to experience your heart essence. This is quite a theme isn’t it?

Jeane: Yes.

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