The Big Drama

John: In Jeane’s dream yesterday (see The Support of the Whole), the image showed that part of her had made a connection to the overall, while a part of her still had hesitations about that aspect of letting go.

When we see ourselves as part of the whole, it means that the events in the outer no longer have a certain type of validity; they no longer dictate how we respond in ourselves. It means we have a way of seeing and understanding everything that’s happening around us that’s less personal and more universal.

When we view the world from a separated, personalized viewpoint, it’s like we take some aspect of life and we dwell upon it and dwell upon it until it becomes our anguish, our pain, our heartache that we’re going through. It becomes a big drama.

But, in a spiritual development, once we get through, or let go, of the personalized drama, then our attention can shift to everything else, and we can view events in life as part of the natural dynamic. We no longer see ourselves as separate, but part of an unfolding process.

Until that point, we’ll still be coloring, or adding personal bias, to whatever we perceive around us. We’ll still be coloring it with some aspect of our drama and, therefore, keeping everything separate because we’ll be sorting it out in relationship to this non-empty state that we still choose to carry. So everything will still be evaluated, or filtered, in relationship to that.

You might say your dream has asked you the question: can you go off and be okay without having a particular, defined presence, functioning as if to reflect things to you as a mirror? Can you now do this for yourself – in relationship to everything in life? A part of you says yes (you’re moving) and a part of you still says no in the dream, and that’s the part where this guy comes in and starts going through the closet.

So that’s the neurosis. I mean, you’re still not quite fully believing it and so you’re still having to go and sift through the evaluation forms in the corner, as if there’s still some sort of reality in its own separate, distinct way.

See, in an emptiness, in a state in which you lose yourself, there’s no evaluation left. I mean, there’s only an evaluation left when there’s the idea that things are separate and distinct, i.e., you have to look at something over here, and then you have to look at something over there, and there’s a distinction. But you only see these distinctions when you’re looking at reflections of the truth, not the real truth, because reflections take something out of the flow of what is real and they suspend it out.

As a reflection is suspended out, it’s almost like a motion picture on a screen. It’s set and fixed. Then, if you relate to the image that’s set as if it’s real, and that’s how you approach and react to things, then you have to evaluate that setness. There’s no aliveness in that.

If you go back to when the image was first created, all the aliveness exists there and it’s fluid and it changes and it correlates and it relates and it includes and intertwines, but the projection itself doesn’t do that. The outer world we see and experience is such a projection.

So if some part of you is coming into the office and grabbing forms for evaluative purposes, that’s the set quality trait that’s still there: some aspect of you is still taking the reflection as literal. So you have to contend with that aspect in you – there’s still work to be done.

The key to this dream is that you have two energetics going on, and you have to try to feel the both of them. You have to feel the energetic that has the bravado that’s able to recognize that it does have this independence and freedom and linkage and connection upon which it can fall back and be okay.

And then you have to feel the part that still has to knee-jerk and go through a reaction in some sense, and then has to evaluate where and how all of this is and what it’s all about. That part is the part that’s still working with the outer reflection, as opposed to an inner essence.

Frozen in Time

John: In considering your dream from yesterday (see Crime and Punishment), we see you in a time period from the past, when wrongs, according to the culture of the time, were immediately evaluated and addressed. The punishment to be meted out is instant.

Your image in the dream has caused some offense and is going to be punished. The soldiers and elders are in agreement. So your offense is shown to you as an affront to ancient ways and understandings.

We all have this in us: a sense of right and wrong according to an ancient, inner knowing. However, the reaction you have is to escape from this punishment because it could be damaging. What you are realizing is that you have your own inner barometer of right and wrong, and you can address the issue without outside punishment.

So, something has been presented to you, and you are all the players in your dream, the young girl, the soldiers, and the women elders. Your offense, when seen and understood by you, according to this ancient wisdom that is an innate knowing, is a wonderful quality if applied in a way that hits the right note and causes things to go “poof.”

In order to focus and channel this ancient knowing better, you have to look at the patterns in relation to your action in your outer life; the parts of you that have patterns and mannerisms acquired in life that limit and confine. Those are just veils that hinder your ability to flow freely.

It’s actually a technique of sight. Your patterns are energetic echoes that turn your attention back to the past – they capture your attention and you can become transfixed by them. In other words, you become compelled to see through the lens of those patterns, and you can’t see anything else. 

Well, in this ancient vibration is the understanding of how something makes sense on an intuitive level. In following your intuitive knowings you are able to take on something, or have an interest in something, to such a degree that you merge with it, so to speak, and can connect with all the traits, qualities, or aspects of that particular flow and direction.

In time, you will come to know that intuitive feeling so well, that you will immediately recognize when you disconnect from it. You’ll develop clarity in terms of when something feels right or it doesn’t. Then it’s a matter of trusting that feeling more and more.

Whenever you go off on an extreme – any emotional outplay – there is always a part of you that can tell whether it’s right or not, in terms of how it feels to the heart. And in terms of how it feels as a quality of a space. So when you recognize other patterns and mannerisms, you’ll be able to tell whether that space feels right or not.

This acuity, or clarity, comes from this ancient quality or characteristic in us all. It’s also said to come from the energetics in life that also are ancient and permanent in a certain way. For example, whales and elephants are said to carry ancient memories that go back in time. A rock carries memory that goes way, way back. It holds it in place, so even though it’s really slow and condensed, it does carry something. It too has an aliveness that’s ancient.

Humans today are constantly compelled, through the culture and education, to search in ourselves for solutions from our past – to the way we handled an event or emotion 20 or 30 years ago. Those become the set patterns of our life that we constantly replay. We have become frozen in this, just as Lot’s wife, in the Bible, was turned into a pillar of salt because she looked back toward what she was leaving behind, rather than holding her focus on what was ahead and the possibilities of the future.

The difference between one state and the other is a difference in vibration. You, personally, are very well rehearsed in understanding things on an intuitive, vibratory, “how it feels” level. This dream seems to be reminding you of this.

In other words, it’s like that frozen state has to be jarred awake so that in the motion of that coming awake you can sense what fits in the space or doesn’t fit in the space.

It’s an unusual dream. It’s a dream that shows that somewhere deep inside you have an intuitive knowing of whether something is right or not – but on the level of human purpose, not according to man-made society.

When events arise in our lives that cause us to detour from our ancient, instinctual knowings, we lock ourselves in. It’s a form of personal involvement. It’s a setness. We even say someone is “set in their ways.” It’s like being frozen in time – in the past.

Setness carried to an extreme is like the rock having to wait and wait until it’s freed to know motion, a flow that it didn’t have before. Like you, when you break free from the setness of your patterns, it unlocks its aliveness, it awakens something that’s meant to be part of the flow of life, but that had been inhibited or prevented.

Fighting the System

John: I am sitting at a dining room table with my friend. At another table nearby are some local county officials. I’m telling my friend that the county has a new plan for what they feel needs to happen. My friend doesn’t care what the county has planned, because he feels they’re just there to facilitate life, not tell us what to do.

He’s being emphatic that they’re part of a system, but that the ideas need to come from us. I tell him that the county wants to impose these new changes, but he doesn’t want to believe me. So he gets upset and wants to argue about it.

Then I say to him that it’s easy to confirm, because the county officials are sitting at the next table. So the way I recommend proving it is to offer them some coffee, and see what they have to say about the coffee. If they won’t take the coffee, even when you offer it to them for free, then you’ll have your answer.

Now, my friend has gone over to the county officials to see if what I am saying is true. In fact, they begin to make a mockery of it, and he starts to lose his composure. Once he sees that the whole setup is a phony, he turns around, takes his coffee cup and smashes it to the floor. He says he isn’t going to buy into this deception.

So, the meaning of this dream is that real changes into life need to come through a human being, from inside to out. When that is denied, or even sabotaged, by outside forces, creation life becomes a lie. In the dream, both men are aspects of me, so it portrays an inner struggle.

Everything in the outer world seems structured to undermine the evolution of our consciousness, which means it has always been a lie. It has always been designed to decay and fall apart. When the collective consciousness (the system itself) decides what is to be imposed upon a human being, it reinforces a process that keeps us dumbed-down, so that we remain in a state of helplessness, cut off from what we really are inside.

And what we really are inside is connected to something else – something much greater. So a person can live in the world of the illusion, in an almost amused way, but you can’t seriously buy into it. When you find that you are taking all of this stuff seriously, you are treating yourself the same way as the “system” treats you – you are snuffing out your clarity and originality.

What the forces of the outer want for themselves  – and those forces are a conglomeration of all the me, myself, and I’s that go around in life – is only what they deem acceptable. So the divine principle, which comes from a place so much bigger, is buried.

So, this dream is a denial of everything. It is saying that what doesn’t come through us into the world – meaning anything that is imposed upon us from without – is of no real consequence from a universal perspective.

We must begin to understand that whatever we put our attention on in the outer – meaning material pursuits – is not a reflection of the way it really is, no matter how much it may appear to be. It can cause a strange feeling of disorientation in us, because it’s very hard to let go of the idea that our lives are supposed to make sense in a purely physical way.

When we get a peek at what can unfold through a human being, when we connect to the higher levels of ourselves, it can reveal to us that our obsession with our physical existence – from our appearance, to our car and our house and our job – which dominates our attention 99.9% of the time, is a huge betrayal of the true possibility of human life. And we begin to ask ourselves, “Why would we want to settle for so little?”

And one of the first emotions is one of confusion, because we are so tied to the outer world that it is difficult to let go of it, yet we have seen enough to know that there is so much more that is possible, and that’s so magical. So do we continue to live in the illusion, or do we change the way we look at, and interact with, life?

It’s just like a person who shows a deep patriotism for the country they’re from, as if there’s something really unique about that country relative to the rest of the human race. That’s an elitist attitude, or bias. Or like people who are loyal to their own school – feeling that it is superior to other schools just because they went there.

We seem to tell ourselves these strange lies. We make attachments to things that have no real meaning, perhaps because there is so little in the outer world that does have meaning. So my dream describes that struggle to not surrender to the meaningless attachments that we are expected to accept as what’s real. It shows the frustration of resisting “the way things are.”

Yet ultimately that’s the most important fight, because the attachments we can make to the higher aspects of ourselves are so much more gratifying, and true, and universal. They open up possibilities to us that are unimaginable in the outer world. But it’s not always easy.