The Search for Guidance

Paul Klee
Paul Klee

It is often realized, while on a spiritual journey, that the truths one is looking for really are all around us (and within). That means we need the eyes to see. Perhaps it begins with understanding that we are part of something much greater, something we seek to support and be a part of? Nothing blinds us from the truth more than an egocentric view of the world, which separates us from our natural connections.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream is, I reached an inner vibratory connectiveness in which a sum total result—well, it was a connectiveness that dealt with a sum total result of all of the prior performances.

What I’m trying to say here is typically, when you look around you see the effect of things in an individualized way. Each person acts in a particular way, their interests are in a particular way, and therefore, whatever it is that they can be about, and that they have anything to say, it’s individualized, and a wholeness is accumulative. I mean, no one part is anything in and of itself.

What this means is that from each performance, or individualization, you come to recognize and realize that the wholeness is the underlying accumulation and intertwined-ness of it all.

So the question of whether any individual performance blew me away, as if this was a question, of whether there were any individual performances that I observed, you know, in some mannerism or another in the outer, that blew me away in some indistinguishable way, is a lesser and denser way of listening that I’m moving beyond in terms of consciously.

In other words, what I’m recognizing in terms of the performances, is the unfolding aliveness of how all of that fits in the whole. They all reflect the whole and not a singular, separate nature that embraces itself in some sort of indulgent way. No, instead what all of it put together does, is it portrays the underlying awakened nature of the soul, which is the overall.

So, what I’m trying to describe is the effect of taking all singular awareness and compositing it, which is actually already composited into an intertwined aliveness, which is the consciousness that you embrace. You don’t embrace the individualized aliveness because that’s a bifurcation, and an ego, and a functioning off of the usurpation through the senses from the whole.

So, the oneness that I’m talking about is the means of taking on the whole, in which every cell is the whole – and this is embraced, instead of the mind/sense/ego that we see in life in manifestation.

So, in the next dream is the question last night for the soul is, where do you go to get the most complete information and direction as is possible? The first one had to do with showing that my understanding was always conditional, based upon to what degree you looked at individuation, which is separation.

So how do you get the most information? Because something that is a particular way is only good up to a particular point, but it doesn’t take into account the whole. So, in the first dream, I realized that this needs to be the whole, or into a oneness. The individual experiences are what a person utilizes when they are associating with manifestation and its ego/sense orientation.

In this dream, I am trying to find the best place to go, in manifestation, to find guidance. The information you get when you’re individualized is very, very limited. So everywhere I look, though, I see limitations. Experiences that are along the path of outer sense awareness are limited to that stimuli.

So, the image I have is of the time, place, and people that are along the Vegas strip and I notice that, as you walk along it, that information has a bias based upon where and how things are along that route.

And then I notice that it might get a little better where you have the crossroads coming in like Flamingo Crossing, which is bringing in a greater flux of people that aren’t necessarily as caught up in the day-to-day traffickings directly on the strip.

And then I am shown that if I really want to know, I must go to somewhere other than the physical domain. I need to go beyond the outer reflections. The reason is because that which is reflective is second-hand information and, therefore, is indirect. That which is indirect, is subject to misinterpretation.

The most direct process that I know of—that is a little better, though is also still reflective—is from dreams, which are on the inflective zone language of the soul.

This is a journey that is honed more and more by the breath and heart as the wayfarer goes from the within to the within, from the light of the individual to a recognition of this being the light of the whole.

Another way of saying it: you start with the soul confined to the limitation of physical existence and this is all you know and then, suddenly, you’re realizing that it can access itself as a being that is like a wholeness, or a world soul.

And so such an awakening is founded more and more on the breath, not just the in-breath and out-breath, but the intervals with the true home somewhere being at the interval of the in-breath and out-breath.

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A Point in Creation

breath_work_cosmosThe recent dreams have been exploring the interval between the in-breath and the out-breath, and here John continues his description that began with his dream yesterday (see A Fleck of Creation). It seems there is a struggle going on, between the desire to understand what is possible in this interval, and the quietness required to allow what is meant to be to manifest. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So what I wrote down is, I described it because I could just sit there and look at it, but what I wrote down is it’s a dream in which I’m again coming from the top of the breath, and that there isn’t a suffering.

The suffering is the degree to which I think I have to start acting in this fleck way, and the only reason that there is a slight aspect of estrangement, that I guess is a type of suffering, is that in the quietness, it’s just all visionary, it’s just all knowing, or creates a seeability.

Since I’m trying to do something out of this interval, it’s like trying to take a read of how the vibration is meant to flow, as if I have a right now to be a piece of that, as opposed to just the flow. You can be just that little inflection, that little spark. You can be just that if you just sit in the quietness, too. 

That’s amazing, but that is also a mysterium. How do you sit in this humongous quietness, and yet from this humongous quietness there can be a sight based upon this speck? Of course, because I am playing with a will, or looking at a will, and how that will is to be, in relationship to creation, what that manifestation aspect of the other side of it’s going to be, because that’s the state that I’m in, you know, I’m not sitting in this quietness completely.

I’m not traveling in the will of God at any depth. So I then work with the symbolism of the creative, of the creation, and so the symbolism I use is, you’re trying to do it with this auction stuff. I’m doing it by trying to add up the inflections, or the effect as it would now be, in the moment, or current if it probed out.

I have the baseline, which is the solidness that I feel in terms of my sense, and now I just want to take note of how it’s meant to differ, in other words kind of like the next flicker. Of course the only way that’s seeable for me is still on a math level. And the scenario for it is, I was actually noticing, for some strange reason, I had the audacity to think that I could know this ahead of time, in the silver market, and I was sitting there watching and trying to see how it was going to inflect, whether it was going to kind of take a step back, and hold back a bit, in which it catches its breath, or whether it was going to keep probing out.

This probing out has a momentousness to it too, in terms of how it’s felt or experienced in creation, which is very interesting that it does that. I guess it’s kind of like a comet coming through. There is something that blazes. 

I was trying to get a read on this inflection to determine whether we are going to bring in another jolt of energy, or we’re still in kind of a step back that lets things rest and catch up with itself for a while before you get the next infusion.

The meaning is that what is going on is, that I’m sitting up at, or near, an interval of where the in-breath turns to the out-breath, noticing its pent up nature as I try to gauge the will. So I’m still trying to be in the speck. I really know and can intuit that there’s this quietness. 

How is that going to shoot into creation, is how I’m kind of noodling this? It is taking slow jabs from the interval and, in order to determine what it means, I have to be able to read it by evaluating it’s cumulative intended effect.

That’s where I’m doing the math. As I’m in this interval, I feel that I’m at a kind of a reprieve vibrationally, but it’s a reprieve that I don’t sit well with because I’m quickly trying to gauge what’s the next thrust, and trying to catch that slightest of inflections so that I have that clue, as if somehow or another I can then take a best guess as to how that will affect things.

What I’m doing is looking at this point, and it’s like I’m a conduit in abeyance. A conduit is something that channels the energy through, and that part of me that’s in creation, or that aspect that’s linked all the way to creation, is the conduit. 

So I’m focused upon channeling through the next wave, so I’m in the scenario looking for a perspective because, if you think about it, the perspective from the will. I’m also a point in creation anticipating the effect that will be. And so if I’m that point of creation, I’m situated anticipating this almost as if there’s this reciprocal abeyance at the other end.

Although abeyance is almost too positive of a word, because at the other end, where I lose the consequence of the in-breath to out-breath, then it’s a matter of coping, instead of abeyance, and coping gets into your own personal and all of that, too.

If you had the full linkage all the way through, it is more a following, it is more of the word abeyance, which is like kind of a yielding to the will of how something is to be. But just think there’s a whole shift inside there, at a much deeper level, that can just sit in this whole quietness, which doesn’t have to fuss around with the inflection, with the speck of that one thing that has been given a sense of evocation out of all of the stillness.

We are almost back to the creation, or the big bang… well, no, it’s not… something out of the quietness emerges, in other words, and then there’s something then that’s there and that’s creation.

So, it’s interesting that you go back into this quietness from the big bang that’s been blasted out, that is like this part that can then see itself, having flashed out, and been given a whole cycle of something from the quietness.

It’s almost as if that goes back, but it doesn’t get taken back very readily because that’s wanted. It’s interesting to have that for the greatness of it all – but it’s pretty puny, it’s pretty minute. That’s the funny thing about it. It’s pretty minute compared to this whole quietness.

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