A Certain State

42sswTo put things in a stark contrast, either everything matters, or nothing matters. If we believe that everything is energetically interconnected, then our intentions matter as much as our acts. Even to sit in silent judgment of another is to energetically alter the situation. That has important implications, for those on a journey, because it comes with a sense of responsibility for what we add to the wholeness, while also letting us know that how it unfolds isn’t really up to us. What we must decide is, whether or not we want to be a part of what It is doing. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: First of all, in the meditation dream, I’m seeking to determine if conditions in the outer are on the verge of shifting. In other words, there’s a part of me that believes that something that exists at present cannot continue – and that it has to shift.

So whether that’s a correct belief, or not a correct belief, who’s to say, in terms of the sequentialization of time? I could be correct in terms of the fullness of time, but, in terms of what is going on now, that’s not necessarily the case because I can see the Will of God, for example, but I don’t necessarily have access to how it is directed – unless one gets really, really purified inside so that the one and the two become one and the same.

So, where I’m at, it is my opinion that, from an inner way of looking at the conditions, I’m trying to tell myself that there is a shift, and it’s in the making. In other words, I’m sitting on the cusp of it, or on the verge of it, you know, which may or may not be true. I mean it’s pretty much a guess, because I’m not connected to the pure light, so to speak; when one is indulged in the outer, or finds themselves in an outer, one can only sense this sort of stuff in terms of a degree of connection that they have with the heart, in an intertwined way, that has at their disposal a flow.

So I’m looking to see if this inner is touching the outer to effectuate the shift. I mean I spent most of the dream going back and forth trying to see if I could impose my whim, and way, and belief, and I was unable to see it to be so. In other words, at least in my sleep I’m able to be a realistic as to whether it is; in the outer I can get to the point where I just believe that how it is that I perceive something has to be so because the other may make no sense at all. But in the fullness of time I could be correct, but not necessarily in the unfoldment as it exists.

So I notice this bias that I have that a change is coming, so that leaves me wanting to break the conditions that prevent the change from coming into place. But from what I am able to see, there is no way I can say, at this time, or conclude, that a change in the outer is imminent. In other words, I could see it in the inner, but I can’t see how it touches the outer. And so if I can’t see how it’s touching the outer, and the outer seems to be doing another kind of dance, then I can’t just go around automatically saying that such and such, and so and so, is going to take place.

When one is in sync with it, you don’t say, you just stand back, and watch, and observe. When one is in a state of frustration, wanting something to be so that isn’t necessarily so, then you’re kind of a crusader, or a martyr, even.

So this is pointing out how a human being can access something, but they have to really take a look at what they are accessing, in relationship to inner and outer, and how that, as the Crown of Creation, works.

So I can see a hope, but I can’t see where that hope isn’t being dashed in the near future. In spite of how I might like it to be, I can’t say where it won’t be dashed in the near future. And you can actually become a bit sacrificial and say, okay, I’ll let it be dashed in the near future because, ultimately, it’s going to be shifting shortly. Gosh, that’s pretty reckless, too.

So to arrive at this inner into outer opinion, in other words, to try to sort this out, I was reverbing back and forth over and over in terms of what was being suggested, as if I’m able to take the suggestion and play with the time of it. And I was doing my best to give it a positive spin to denote change is afoot. I couldn’t make this next step, which is the coming into the outer, a vibrational unfoldment – or a viable unfoldment.

In other words, there’s a way you can feel about something that, when you catch up with that feel, it will work, things will change, things will happen, but until you catch up with that, if you still have some part of yourself that has a waywardness about it, that waywardness will keep it from happening. It will prevail, because you do measure, inside your heart, your ability to take into account a greater overall wholeness and, if the collective is such that dictates more than what you’re able to, with heart energy, effuse and infuse and swallow, and take in, then the tone, or the mood, or the mannerism you have sits there, in a bifurcated way, and complains. You’re actually complaining when you’re in a mood, or a mannerism, or an attitude, and you’re suffering in that mood, or mannerism, or attitude. You don’t hit the elation of something that breaks through.

You can hit that vibration that breaks through. There is a certain kind of sweeping through that has taken place, that is taking into account the bigger picture, when before it was just enforcing what it could enforce. And so, how do you catch up with what is possible? I guess this is the theme, and you can catch up with it when you hit a certain state inside.

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The Wetland Effect

Wetlands6Here’s a good example of how a dream speaks to us on different levels. John’s dream about the underlying beauty of a smelly street corner reflects not only a personal experience of his in daily life, but also the greater idea that everything has its place and a unique beauty – when we are open to it. To be open to it, however, requires that we begin to realize that the world is not here for us, but that we are here for the world. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Everything has an outer appearance that’s a reflection, and then it has a meaningfulness that goes much deeper. And this is portrayed in my dreams in terms of the way in which we tend to draw conclusions based upon our personal mannerisms and, as a consequence, we take those mannerisms, appearances, attitudes, laziness, indulgences and not turn the page to something deeper in the whole.

I had two dreams that depicted this. These dreams really do correspond to what you dreamt but go at it a little differently.

So in my dream, I have gone off on a tangent and in going off on this tangent it appears, to everyone except for me, that this has brought the energy down. The way this is portrayed in the dream is that I have taken some guests to a favorite street corner.

In other words, it’s a place I just like, and I’m showing them around. And I comment that there is a stench in the air on this street corner because of the way that the rainwater gathers here after a storm. In other words, it just doesn’t soak into the ground, and it tends to lie around and it tends to get stale. It’s a low area and so it doesn’t evaporate readily.

I like this place because it hasn’t been affected by attitudes and mannerisms of others because most people stay clear of here. I guess they would treat the odor that comes off of this place, or the smell, or the stench even, as a kind of ghetto-like quality or something.

Or at least it turns them off, which is a blind spot. It’s a blind spot based upon personal prerogatives. And I’m aware, in terms of how others see this, because I can see it that way myself I guess, if I let myself go into their perceptions, or place myself in their shoes of how they see things, so to speak.

But I can also see beyond this and I wouldn’t have taken them to this place as if it was special if I didn’t see beyond this and wasn’t trying to communicate to them what is special about the quaintness and general peacefulness of the street corner that I like.

Other people tend to hang out in other areas. In other words, that’s more in keeping with their… that suits their fancy, so to speak. And I seem to have this for myself but would like to share it. Try as I might, I can’t get anyone else to appreciate what I see because everyone else identifies because their identity reaches to the staleness, the stench, the odor. That’s what they take in, not the quietness and natural peacefulness that this corner also reflects.

So what is going on is that the odor of the corner does not affect me because I am able to see a latent beauty that lies there, as well, beneath the surface of most people’s perception. And the meaning is that the dream is showing that when we rely upon our senses to make decisions the tendency is for those perceptions to cut us off from that which lies beyond appearances.

In this case our sense of balance is affected by a smell. For me the smell isn’t an issue because I find the odor is also associated with a quality where there is a quietness, quaintness, and peace that also exists. In other words, this is what comes with this kind of a scenario, or so it seems in this dream example.

And the deeper meaning from the scenario is that this also helps to explain why cronies of mine fail to appreciate Vegas. They are affected by a conception and reflective vibe of the place and are not able to let that go to see what there is here that is special and real. I have been able to go beyond this because I am able to access a latent value that is refreshing, original, quiet, and soothing that also is at the epicenter of this environment.

By way of another example that will also portray what I am trying to say, I know that people tend to shun a wetland area because such land isn’t personally useful, and there is a staleness and a seeming imbalance. To turn such people off even further, all you would have to do is take a shovel and dig it into the ground and turn the soil.

This would unleash a horrible stench odor and, of course, then, make people walk away straightaway – but I know differently. This is an odor important to all of life. This wetland is absorbing impurities in creation. Without wetland areas, creation suffers.

A wetland has an essential role to the well being of all of life. To arbitrarily reject that which is different because it disturbs or disorients personal projections is to deny to life that which is essential. The corner spot has a wetland effect energetically. Vegas is an absorbing wetland, so to speak. To go beyond my senses and the projections that blind a sight deep within is to deny one’s self, or myself.

So you could say that my dream is indicating that I am able to identify with where I belong based upon smell, and I am putting the street corner in my dream, Vegas, and wetlands into the same vernacular. And the reason why it’s like this is because I have come to grips with the bigger picture of myself. I’m talking about a beingness that is in a wholeness which is real, in other words not the appearances, and not the general mannerisms that people can shoot from the hip from.

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The Reprieve

mountain-templeHere John describes a recent dream that shows him how the energy has shifted in 2013. In it, he is faced with climbing a steep mountain, but in three phases. At the end of the first phase, he finds a reprieve – a resting point. What’s next is not clear, but what is clear is that the time of a spiritual seeker dwelling in their own psychologies is over. Now is the time to let go of all that and just be with the energy, letting it show the way forward. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The other thing that happened a little while back, was this is the dream I told the dream group that had them walking out on me.

I’m standing in some place off to one side, and then I’m looking or sensing more than what I’m seeing in terms of a certain something, like a hill or a mountain rather, that I have to scale to the top of, I have to go to the top of.

Well, I don’t look at the process that’s involved to getting to the top. I just automatically assume I’m just going to zip right up there. And so to go there I have to walk through this lodge that’s between that and this mountain.

My attention is only on the top. My attention is not upon anything else. I walk through this lodge, go out the side door. I don’t see a soul in this lodge. This lodge is somebody’s place and I just walk in, and stroll in and pay no attention, don’t say hi to anybody, and walk out the door.

That’s pretty rude. Yet that’s what I do, and when I walk out the side, it’s like there‘s not even a proper sidewalk there. I’m just walking off on my own, and who should come out behind me but the owner of the lodge.

He’s kind of an older guy, and he has a little limp about him, and he quickly determines what I’m doing and he says, “Oh, nobody, nobody ever goes up there, but you can climb this.” And right in front of me is this mountain that’s straight up and down. “Oh, you can climb this. You can climb this part, but you can’t go way up there.”  

So I look at this and if it was just me on my own, I would have turned around and left straightaway. I’m not going to climb that. That’s straight up and down. Finger holes is all you have got. I can’t do that.  

Then all of a sudden, around him, a whole bunch of other people must come out of the lodge, because all of a sudden he starts climbing with these other people. And so I guess I’m caught in the swim of things, so I start climbing. I don’t dare look down; I might slip or scare myself.  

As I’m going up, it gets easier. I can reach around a corner or something. It’s still like a crevice that’s going up, and at one particular point I even see myself going through where there are some blankets and kind of a little encampment near the top that this woman had, and my attitude at the time was: she’s in my way. I mean, can’t she see I’m struggling to climb this thing and she has got shit in my way?

But she was very kind and very nice and very accommodating. She didn’t hold my attitude out against me, so just a little beyond that is the top, and when I’m about to pull myself to the top of this first phase, the son of the owner is standing there and I think he’s going to kick me over, not let me climb to the top because he’s still a little peeved over my attitude of just walking through this lodge like this.

I climb up to the top, and I’m kind of shocked. What I see around is a number of people, old ladies and things like that, and I wonder, oh my gosh, they made it? There’s a little town up there, and at first I think it’s a ghost town. The name of the town is Stickler.

So the guide, or the owner of the lodge, he comes up to me you know, and he starts to explain things to me. I mean he steps away from the others because this is kind of a reprieve. We’re going to spend the night here and it kind of levels out at this particular point, and then there’s another stretch that one makes that he obviously will be guiding people up that, and then that final one third nobody goes there – which means you’re on your own.

And so that’s where the dream ends. I know that I’m at a reprieve. I know that where it started, I would have said hell no, and if it had been something I would have looked at just on my own.

But I actually started climbing up because I was invited to climb with him. All these other people were climbing. All he said to me is you can climb this stretch, you can climb this part, and nobody goes up there.

And so because all these others, old ladies and everything else are climbing this, well golly gee I guess if they can do it, I can do it. I saw the last to get to the top however of this first stretch wherever there was the reprieve, and it leveled out, and the town of Stickler was, knowing that that phase was done. Well, what was this phase?

This phase was the phase in which you had to contend with all of the personal peculiarities of your nature. My attitude and mood at this woman, having the rude audacity to put her stuff in my way. Now can’t she see that I’m struggling like heck to climb this thing, and now she has her stuff in my way?

Then that rude little personal attitude that I had put on, that part’s still reflecting on me like I’m going to get kicked over the edge. But then when I’m up there, I have to drop all of that. I have to drop all that.

That was just the first phase. Then there’s the next phase, and then after that you go where no one goes.

How do I understand the dream? Well, gee. It’s almost like somebody lied to me, is my first impression. You know if I didn’t know it was going to be like this, if I’d have been looking at this like this straightaway at the beginning, but I ended up going along because other people seemed to be able to do it, so I mean if they can do it, I can do it or something.

If the guide hadn’t jumped out of the lodge, and I would have been standing there looking at it on my own because it wasn’t until he arrived there and I started talking to him, and then I glanced and there was the mountain right there. If I had to look at it straightaway all on my own, I would have said, no way. No way.

I guess I have this completely mixed up. I can’t go to that top that I can sense because there’s no way I can do this first step even. But he says I can do it. You can climb this and then here is all these people and they just start climbing with him.

In one sense, I guess I got lied to, didn’t I? Well, the next question is, am I still being lied to when there’s that other part where nobody goes? Is that another lie? And yet you know that that’s the process.

And so the dream group wants to know what this means, and I’m saying, well the energy has changed, you know, this is the new energy. You no longer sit there and noodle around and dwell upon the minutia of shadow and all of that stuff. You don’t keep digging into the depths of yourself. It’s reached a point where that phase is over with.

Now you have to get on with the program. I can’t tell you what that next phase is because I’m just at the town of Stickler at this point. I said this is a dream that’s a little bit like a station, and that’s my station.

Of course they were asking all these questions about it, and some of these questions were really astute. And the ones who were asking these questions that were really astute were the type of people that you wouldn’t expect to ask the questions, and the ones that were trying to put it into some sort of compartment or parameter in relationship to how you interpret this stuff symbolically were completely lost.

It was nauseating for them. And some of them had to get up and leave. I’ve noticed people struggle before, and it’s caused me to be a little reluctant to tell any dreams because then I notice that it can disturb too. It’s like it burns a little too brightly for them or something.

But this is the first time I’ve seen people actually having to overtly leave just because it tore away at them too much. Now there were a couple that are on the edge, and these people that are on the edge are the ones that work catalytically, and the way I described that to somebody was there is one time when I don’t meditate, one night out of the week that I don’t meditate, and that’s when I go to the dream group.

The reason why I don’t meditate that night is it’s so easy to put yourself into a particular manneristic or motif and maybe be too transcendent from what occurred in the dream group.

And what I’ve noticed is that it used to be when I would go to the dream group, the dream group, potency and power of that dream group used to throw me outside of the space that I would find myself in – and I consider that good that that happened, but not at the time that it happened did I feel that that was good.

I just felt like I got twisted and contorted and sometimes I would be out of whack the next morning, and maybe it would take two or three days, and then I would get it, and then something would shift and fast forward and push me along and that got me outside of the shadows of my own spiritual illusion.

And so now the tables are turned. I did that. I’m okay with the dream group now. I go back and I dream what really took place and was going on. I get shown something really quickly now. And now I guess I have the audacity to expect them to do the same, and are they doing it? Nope.

If you don’t give them the water with the right amount of sugar in it, it’s just not drinkable. And what’s different about it is because I recognize it as being something in the new motif of things in the Whole, to the degree to which I personally identify with it, then I suffer for having done that, but to the degree to which I tweak something that is meant to get it and evolve, I’m just fine. I’m just fine. There’s a fine line here.

Is it because I’m drinking my own water exclusively, or is it I’m fine because I really am taking on the new energy and being true to it? You never know for sure what little component portion still is in a state of illusion, spiritual illusion, but I’m finding this quality and to the degree that is a portion in that spiritual illusion you will suffer for it at some point in time.

Because the subtler the spiritual illusion the harder it is to catch up with, and to live it through, and that’s the schematic that I have to contend with.

In other words, it’s a different way of orientation. It’s not the orientation to the usual shadow dynamics that everybody else is contending with, where you go around and around and around and around and you feel like you grasp something, and I watch people and they look like they kind of grasp something, but I realize yes, but they also twisted it a little, too.

It’s always about something so much more. And we just are so horrible in that we want to always make it about some little octave of our self. You know whatever you’re having to say is still, it’s your own water that you’re throwing out there. It’s your own veils that you are talking from, and that you’re keeping nailed down by doing it that way, too. Instead of letting it go.

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