Holding a Focus

http://regex.info/blog/2010-11-20/1666In looking at these dream images it’s good to remember that we are all the characters in our dreams. We are the wayward people, and we are the guides, or ushers. We are all the components that arise. In this example we can see how these different aspects are having trouble staying together, or being on the same page about things. Yet, as a life, we must be in charge of these aspects and get them all together, otherwise we risk not getting where we want to go. Or, as is shown, we must become the owner of the house. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I felt like I didn’t dream much. In one dream I remember it felt like I’m an adolescent. And I’m going over to a friend’s house who’s a little bit older, and it’s like I’m maybe supposed to take care of the house over there.

But I get over there and I found out she’s gone, but she’s invited some guys to come by that maybe want to drink beer or have a party while she’s away. So then someone that I know comes over, he looks in, and tells me that I can stay there, you know, taking care of the house like I planned, but I can’t have anybody drink while I’m there.

And maybe that same person, which feels like another part of me, even tells the guys that they’ll have to leave if they’re drinking. I also go out and sit on the roof for some reason. It has like maybe a veranda and a roof, and I go sit on the roof for awhile because I like to do that.

The not drinking the beer doesn’t seem to upset me that much, but I do want to leave the house to go see a grandfather who does martial arts, and I don’t seem to have permission to do that – and I am struggling with that. But either I must go ahead and leave that to see the grandfather, or the grandfather comes to the house, because suddenly he’s showing me a martial arts kind of like demonstration with someone that he’s competing against. That’s all I really remember unless my other dream pops back in.

John: It’s a pretty deep dream. So, what you mean by adolescent is that you’re at an in-between zone. In other words, the deeper part of yourself, which is the owner of the house, is not there, and you’re trying to catch up with that.

And the tenants that are there by default, so to speak, are drinking, maintaining themselves in a delirium in the outer, and that you can stay there knowing that you can’t drink but, at the same time, you’re still not quite able to be at this place in the way that you need to be, in terms of full possession ownership of getting it.

What it is that you’re meant to get has to do with the moment and the importance of a stillness. The drinking and all of that, and the others that are doing all of that, are keeping themselves or remaining in a state that flickers back and forth in the outer, by flickering back and forth meaning, in this instance, back and forth into one illusion after another illusion, staying in a constant state of delirium.

At least you know that it is important for you not to be in the delirium, and that if you could catch up with the essence of what this house is all about you would be catching up with the moment, and the time, and the importance of the stillness of it all.

If you do that, if you do that, even the spiritual journey comes to an end. But to not do that means you still have to go and keep coming closer and closer and closer to the essence that is revealed, and made possible for you to grasp and, in this case, that essence is represented by the grandfather.


So, when you catch up with that, that’s almost like an alternative option. In other words, you can catch up with it in terms of really understanding the awareness in life itself, the Mother Maya principle, which would be out-breath and more Chisti in nature. Or you can come to understand it by the in-breath, by the recognition that there is something way beyond the beyond as a moment, and as a directive, and as an unfoldment of inner into outer – that is the grandfather

And that realization enables you to come to know how it is that you can serve humanity. In other words, what is it that you can do that can make a difference, or have an effect, in terms of how it is that you are able to function, because you are in a physical body, when you catch up with this, how it is that you’re able to function in terms of the greater meaningfulness that is intended to come through you and reflect into life.

Jeane: I remembered my first dream and in this I’m with an ex-boyfriend, and we’re at this large stadium where there’s a lot of people, and it’s almost like there was some kind of event that was going on outside. And then when we go inside, it’s maybe separated into pie-like shapes and, you know, you’re going to sit in one section and watch a movie.

But the impression I also have is that the different sections might even watch different movies, or at least the sections were different. I happen to have the two tickets, but he wants me to go on ahead, or for whatever reason I go on ahead, into the section where we’re going to sit down to watch the movie.

So I have the tickets. So I go in and I find an usher and she sits me down, she takes me up to a seat and sits me down next to this woman. And she explains to me, and I even look at them, that the two tickets are actually seated separately.

And it’s hard for me to read, but she takes the tickets to hold them because I’m fussing about this because I know that he’s going to look to find me to know where he’s going to sit, and why would you sell two people tickets that are coming in together and they’re not seated together?

So she said to leave the tickets with her and she’ll figure it out. Meanwhile I’d gone and sat next to this woman. Well, a certain amount of time goes by; I don’t see him. I realize it’s a lot more crowded than I realized. I don’t see him, or if he’s come in, and maybe have to go down and look instead of just sit and look. And also I don’t see that usher, so I need to know what’s happened to our two tickets so I can even tell him where his is if we’re not going to sit together.

And now I can’t find the usher, can’t find him either for that matter, and I even go over to another section because I’m looking for someone in authority to see if they can sort it out, because it’s just the whole idea is so absurd to me that they would sell two people tickets and not keep them together. Plus I can’t find him now, anyway.

John: Actually, knowing what my dream is makes it easy to understand what this dream is saying, because after you reported your dream you actually reported the Naqshbandi way in your first dream.

In other words, you were going with the in-breath, finding it in a masculine way. In other words, you were assailing the masculine that you needed to assail, that you needed to catch up with and get to, which is a sight. And the sight is an in-breath sight, because that breath going back is into the sun, or the top, as opposed to the out-breath that is down to the moon, or Maya, or Mother Earth.


And there you come to know what it is that is your dharma, or principle, way of being in the stillness, and in the moment of the wholeness of the essence of it all, that then is diverged and broken into its various and sundry misaligned component parts, that you were able to hold a focus that can function as a pulling of it together – thus the martial arts, which is a way of getting to a soothingness, and a calmness, and a stillness.

So then you get to describing this in detail again, in the other dream, in which you talk about the various levels. And at these levels you have access, and that access is something that you are taking, and sustaining, and maintaining, and conceivably working with the mother principle – which means the depth of a naturalness inside of yourself, to facilitate and bring across all component parts to the wholeness.

And it’s your responsibility to do that, and that there is something about that that doesn’t come together in the dream. In other words, you’re not able to settle back, and be relaxed, and at a peace, in terms of being able to take in the various levels, because there’s still a jumpiness, and an awkwardness, as something that’s still yet meant to be.

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