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589018One of the hardest things to realize about our spiritual journey is that it is truly a full-time job. Yes, we can go to a meeting for a few hours, or read constantly, or have our personal processes, but at some point we switch back to our old self until we start again. And, really, all the processes we do are designed to get us to a different place in ourselves, and to get there in a deep way that we can, and want, to sustain. It’s about maintaining an inner location when we do everything we do – it’s not about seeming holy, or stopping our engagements in the world. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I have more of an impression of my last dream. In that dream I seem to be a young woman, and there’s a man I live with, and we live in a society where it feels like people do something, like it might be even play a competitive game, and then, if they win it, some magic comes in and you create something.

But it feels like this guy and I, that we’ve decided to kind of stop playing this game. And when we go to our house, I notice that our living room actually is bare of all furniture. But over in the corner is still a basketball room, up on the wall, and it feels like he just wants to goof around and we’re going to play one more game, so we’re playing this kind of wild basketball game where maybe you even run up the wall, and do a flip or something, and you throw a basket.

And when you make a basket it feels like a dragon or something that comes in the room and is playing with you. And then when we make the basket, in our society, normally, when you make a basket and the dragon or whatever else has come into the room and been with you, that’s when people kind of use that magic to create something. But it feels like we don’t want to play that game anymore. We don’t want to be taking that magic and creating something for ourselves anymore. We’ve cleared all the furniture out of the room even, but now and then we like to play the game anyway.

John: So the dream starts off in which you’re in a place where there’s all this stuff going on and then you try to find an empty space. You’re recognizing the need to break free of the collective environment and be in a quiet empty space. But as you’re in this quiet empty space, what happens is you pent up a certain overallness which is, again, like a chi, in which you can take and run and do this, that, and the other and slam the ball down. It’s all back into a bit of an indulgence in the world – but you’re using the kundalini energy, the dragon energy force, that’s kind of smiling in the background, to do this sort of thing, almost as a kind of reintroducing of a quiet space into an action into the outer.

Well, you have basically taken yourself out of having to conduct yourself in separate and pronounced, illusionary, differentiated ways, because you know the value and importance of being empty. However, it’s awful enticing to take and do a kind of inner magic, or spiritual magic, with the kundalini energy – even though you know better, even though you know that it’s better if you don’t.

There’s an interesting way that this is talked about in terms of the awakening process, and it’s called states and stations. And that as you go through the various stations, you’re actually letting go of things and becoming emptier and emptier, because you’re developing, even though at the time in you’re in a station you’re indulging, but you’re on the path of letting go of things, moving towards a station.

Well the dilemma that a human being has is, can they ever really keep from establishing a sealed condition? Which means where you get to a quality of yourself that you still exonerate, or do, in some fashion, because as you go through the stations you get to the point where you develop a certain chi energy, so that wherever you really put your attention you can become very creative because you do not have the indulgences that are generally associated with a person who is weighed down by the collective.

In other words, you can shoot out a little better, you can do some things a little better, and when you do that then, you actually seal your nature. And a teacher who understands this principle in life will say to a student that, although everyone seals, in other words from this perspective everyone at some point seals themselves, it’s better if you don’t.

And in Raj Yoga the understanding that that can be an issue is one of the reasons why it is said that it’s better to remain an aspirant for as long as you possibly can, because when you become a student you seal in a certain capacity. In other words you can’t help yourself, you adopt a certain aspect image of yourself on the path.

It’s like the person who goes to church on Wednesday, they have a sealed nature in which they have this pact with God, and a lot of Christians that get like this are impossible to deal with because they don’t function in manifestation in a clear way because they have this other side of themselves that they think that they are connected to, that makes everything that they do proper and appropriate.

It’s also one of the reasons why there are no rings, or ornaments, or special clothes, or anything like that among the Naqshbandi, so that nobody knows who anybody else is in terms of where anything is at in relationship to a journey of awakening.

Now the thing is, it’s kind of impossible to know, unless you really can see the soul and where it is awakening, and how it’s awakening, because the stages that you go through, some of those stages take such a huge step back that in the eyes of someone looking at that, that isn’t having to contend with that stage, you can look a little backwards. However, you may have progressed in other areas far more significantly, and so it’s just impossible to gauge who is higher or who is further on a particular path.

So your dream is, basically, in order to keep you from losing a certain perspective in terms of the letting go and the emptiness, in terms of there being nothing but a nothingness, is kind of letting you know that you understand the process in which you let go of everything in the room, in other words, of the collective. You’ve come to see that all of that plagues things in some fashion, and so you have gotten to the point where you can let go of all of that. And that you’re betraying that premise, that principle, a little when you take then the chi of the energy and you go back into what is now possible in kind of a unique, creative way.

The whole point of it is we can develop this intertwined overallness, and you develop that through an emptiness. And the real theme of the dreaming has to do with one catching up with the fact that you are an all-pervasiveness in everything that exists, and that we tend to see ourselves in a separation. And that the key is to be able to be completely content in the all-pervasiveness that is.

And when you first come out of that, of course, it can seem kind of exciting because the tools of the trade of coming out of that are you have the aliveness of a greater beingness more at your disposal, and as you were indicating you can make the dragon smile, kundalini energy almost smile, by the tricks you could do with the basketball. But you keep that up and pretty soon you become dulled and dumb just like everybody else.

Another example of this in a lesser, easier to denote, way is you can have a hard day and you think you have a right to settle back. And so you sit and you decide you’re going to do something that you’ve kind of wanted to do all along, but just never had the time, or took the time, to do, but now you’re giving yourself permission to do it and that is maybe sit and watch TV.

And you’re excited about something that’s on the TV, and you’ve earned the right, in your opinion, to indulge. And after watching the show for an hour or two hours you find out you’ve been dumbed down a little bit. Before you had a certain quickened aliveness, and then when you indulged and let go, instead of held onto a space, you actually lost something. And now what is it going to take to get that back?

So this is the area you’re looking at, you’re talking about. And the greater overall subject matter is that you’re working with, and talking about, an area known as the intertwining with everything in an all-pervasive way as yourself. That is who you really are. You’re in that.

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imag2123esA garden is an intriguing image in a dream, because, of course, we know the story of Adam and Eve being sent away from the garden. And that idea may sit in our psyche because we tend to think that the “perfect” place is somewhere else, and that someday we might get there. Yet the truth of it is that we are always in the perfect spot, no matter where we find ourselves, because from that spot we can always find our way back to our connection to what created us and the reasons why. And when we do that, we’ll no longer be outside looking in. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: What I found myself doing last night in the dreaming is that I had this sense that I was spending myself actively looking at, and being involved with, the dynamics of the process. I was going over the dreams from the night before, in which there was something that I couldn’t break through in terms of bringing something all the way through. There was an aspect that was still a mystery to me.

And so I was going back as if I can at this time get through that and, of course, when you press and try to do that sort of thing, that’s when you’re inclined to get caught in around and around and around and around kind of thing because then you dissipate the energy and the kundalini mannerism that you need to just suddenly have what is there, as an essence, that just pops through. That’s why it is so important to nurture the heart because that is where you rise that up to a level that just goes right straight through.

In order for this to be pointed out to me, I see myself having to stand outside of what had been the inner circle. It seems I was taking the connection too much for granted, or something, and a heartfulness went missing. Of course, I don’t notice that right away. Instead I feel like I got left out. And then something happened, and then I realized how this saying comes into place: take one step back and reveal yourself.

So in the dream, I’m standing outside of the process of watching, watching those who have the responsibility and the right to go into the garden to pick the fruit. And they’re picking this time the very last of the fruit, the fruit that ripens at the very, very end. And not much of it, and so there are not very many of them. There are like seven or eight of them that are going in, and they’re going in in a real focused way, a real pristine demeanor in terms of themselves, real quietly.

And I’m aware that the main crop has been picked, but I’m left out of being able to get the last of the fruit and, as I am sitting there and standing there, I’m just kind of standing in the corridor and behind me is a house and in front of me is the garden. I can’t go into the garden. Others are going into the garden to pick the last of the fruit. I’m able to see them picking the last of the fruit and realize how attentive they have to be to get the last of the fruit, because the main ripe fruit has already been picked, and it’s just a piece here and a piece there.

And so at first I could say well, okay, well at least I was involved in picking the ripe fruit – but that’s the wrong attitude. So like I say, at first one can realize if they are left out, but then I suddenly shift into my heart and feel an incredible connective closeness. And when I feel this closeness I realize: that was what was missing. Even when I was picking the ripest fruit, it was like I could take for granted that I am right there in the midst of what’s going on. And it’s just all obvious to me, and it’s just all right there, but that heartfelt connection is absolutely imperative, in that I had somehow or another, being in the midst of the action, had lost that, or took something for granted – and it got away from me.

Now it is suddenly there all over again. This is what needs to come through and is the essence of the process and journey.

Again, this is the theme and aspect of the whole thing that occurred in the dream group last night. You can take and go through, and you can pick and you can pick and you can pick and you can pick, and at some point you have to knock it off, you have to recognize that behind all of the picking and all of that little stuff, it’s just as imminently important as that is on the inner, it’s imminently important on the outer. But if you miss the main cue behind all of the epicenter unfoldment, you know, I know people that have really understood the importance of dreaming from the standpoint that it really reveals a lot in terms of themselves. And they have gone to Jungian analysts for years, and they have come to the point where they really have a fairly acute understanding about themselves – but it’s a little neurotic because it doesn’t quite have the heartfelt essence.

In other words, you got to go beyond. And the difference I guess is a kind of kundalini energy, and a kundalini energy is a certain softness, and touching, of the heart. Initially that energy can be raw, and it can be abrupt, and it can be too loud, but ultimately it gets to a point where it sweeps through and is in keeping with the unfoldment. And in doing so, it comes to know that the whole world rearranges itself as a consequence of that, instead of you trying to go at it backwards in a clockwise manner of taking and picking at every little scab, that this whole thing just makes it go poof.

And the interesting thing is because it’s a process in which step by step, and state by state, that you go through, that what goes poof in one way, becomes something else in another way, and you have to go through this whole contention all over again. Do you go into the dwelling on it, or do you recognize that you have to hold to something that’s coming from the epicenter as a vibrational essential note? If you don’t catch that, then it’s like becoming overfed, overfed with the minutia, and then lost in that.

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Jonathon Rosen

We can see in this how the subconscious presents the idea of different inner aspects in a dream. Here we have a situation where you can travel in a car, or in a stagecoach. And then we have accomplished doctors and sloppy adolescents. Nothing seems to make sense until we remember that we are all the characters in our dreams, and we can see that these are inner elements interacting, trying to find a balance and a speed to move forward together. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay my first dream seems to take place, I feel like I’m visiting a western area because sometimes we ride in cars and sometimes we ride in something like a stagecoach.

And I just remember going out and looking at things, but I also have a feeling that maybe sometimes we work on something, because when I come back there’s a group of us that are staying in kind of like the basement bedroom, that maybe also belongs to the adolescent son of whoever owns the house, but it’s a large area and a number of people can stay there.

And there’s even a group of young doctors that suddenly come and they’re going to pair off with some of us for when we go out and work, so we’re all kind of all standing up checking out them as they come in. But then I kind of go over and I’m looking at the basement area, and I kind of lift up the lid on one of the toilets, which is out in the open, and it goes way down actually, but has kind of like a pit under it, and I can see some boy’s underwear down there.

So it’s kind of like the teenagers that actually live in the place, the sons of whoever owns it, I realize that even though they and their friends may do fine when they go out and are working, they’re really kind of slobs around their home, you know, like we’re going to have to unplug that to get everything working again. That’s all I remember of that first dream.

John: I was beginning to think I wasn’t going to know what this meant. The stagecoach versus cars has a certain energetic vibration. In other words, the dream is compelling you to assimilate the two speeds, the car and the stagecoach. The reason it’s causing you to have to assimilate that is that, unless you do, you’re not going to be able to see, or take on properly, the two sides of a complexity in life.

In other words, there are the doctors and then there are the boys, and the doctors have a certain acuity, and you might even say a certain speed to have become doctors, to have been successful. And the boys have a certain adolescent quality that is still raw, but still in the stagecoach phase. And one has to be attentive to the rawness of life in order to be able to bring the two together.

In other words, there’s something quaint and something nice about the stagecoach. A part of you senses that in the beginning part of the dream. Sometimes you’re in a car, sometimes you’re in a stagecoach. You have to be natural, in either a car or a stagecoach, all the way through, in a complete way, so that the doctor side of yourself and the adolescent boys, the raw energy side of yourself, can come into a balance.

The underlying issue is a kundalini issue. In other words, there’s a part of you… In other words, another aspect of kundalini energy is you learn to handle it by developing certain parameters upon which you allow yourself to be exposed. And kundalini energy, in and of itself, is a type of energy that can be inclined that force you to have, if you can’t handle it, force you to have to have defense barriers in order to be able to function or process. And when you establish these barriers to where you can keep it from being over the top, you can create a blindside.

It’s essential that you have the kundalini energy available to you in order to be able to go to a depth in yourself, but you can also refine yourself to a point where you seemingly make your life more balanced, but that you do damage to yourself in doing so because you control, or are able to not fully come to grips with a certain quality of this raw kundalini energy that throws things around, that’s disruptive.

Your dream is intended to cause you to recognize how you are able to handle this sort of thing, otherwise there will be a disturbance, otherwise there will be something that gets thrown away, that shouldn’t be thrown away, otherwise there is a depth that you aren’t able and aren’t properly reconciling in terms of pulling something together.

The way to understand this dream you almost have to know what the theme is right from the beginning, and the theme at the very beginning is, how do you quiet something in a way so that it is all there as an inner presence? And you do not quell it by suppressing it, or by hiding it. You have to let it be there, and at the same time be able to turn it off. This is where words become difficult because it is not actually a turning off, it’s assimilating. It’s like a turning off, but it’s an ability to assimilate just like at the very beginning, there’s something quaint, there is something possible with being able to use sometimes a car and sometimes a stagecoach – and yet there’s something bizarre about that.

In other words, that seems to be possible, but then when you take it in to real life where you have an environment in which there is the speeding up, and then there is the backwardation, and then there’s the raw energy, you find yourself then in terms of the raw energy that may not have the acuity of a car, is the stagecoach modality. You have to be able to bring the two together in order to not have something that remains amiss, or disjointed.

It’s a very subtle training. In other words, what is bringing something like this up maybe is the better way of looking at it? What is bringing this up? Something has disturbed you. In other words, maybe it’s the idea – just to make something up – maybe there’s a subtle reaction in you having to bite the bullet, and you see yourself doing that, you’re able to drive a car, and you were able to drive a car. However, you would have rather stayed in the stagecoach in that instance, and so there’s a certain… there’s both a relief in terms of doing it, but then there was an agitation or a nuisance about it in terms of contemplating it.

And those two sides of yourself, the relief is a breakthrough. It enables you to feel something wonderful. It’s not as dependent as you would want to define things in terms of ordering life in a certain way, and by doing that you cleared something up or otherwise there would be like a rubbish, an energetic rubbish, that would remain, that would have been a source of uneasiness because things wouldn’t have been kosher, and wouldn’t have been right, and it would have been left in an irresponsibility – just like the adolescent boys with their socks down a deep toilet type pit hole, or not their socks their underwear or whatever, is an image of something that needs to be in another state of attention.

The issue has to do with understanding these states of attention. I guess we can take and look at the Kundalini energy as states of attention. The state of attention in which something isn’t getting done, or is dragging or malingering, has this whole kind of image of the underwear at a depth in a pit hole. The contrast of where something is taken on and you push through it is where the car speeds up, is where you can now use the car, as opposed to something that’s more limited, in which you’re keeping yourself more limited – and okay with being limited, too.

In other words, you can be in the stagecoach. In fact, that’s a choice that you have made of being in the stagecoach, but then you’re saying that you’re not limited to the stagecoach. You can also have the car. You can go either or as the situation dictates. You can realize the doctor side of yourself, or the adolescent side of yourself. You can go either or, but you can’t make a decision one way or the other. You have to have the fluidity of both.

So in a roundabout way this is even a subset of a deeper subject which has to do with the integration of inner and outer, of in-breath and out-breath. I mean it’s a subset of all of that, and this is a component, this is an aspect of handling that. And the way this comes across like this is that if it bothers you for example that something is sitting in remiss and isn’t getting handled or done or is not appropriate, the thought that you have sends an energetic flicker that affects the breath, even as you’re breathing. For a split second maybe there is a very subtle reaction and your breath varies just a little bit to accommodate the flinch, or the reaction or the uneasiness about how it is that you’re feeling something.

Now if you integrate both the in-breath and the out-breath you develop a rhythm, a cadence, and an auric vibrational clarity and presence that effuses out. But when you don’t, then you have this distraction or commotion from within, because you’re misaligned so to speak and not taking in both directions, both qualities, that you can do. You may not want to do them, you may not think that you can do them, but you can do them, and you can do them in such a way so that the degrees, or the extremes, are pulled together into a balance.

Do you see how that is? It’s a very a complicated dream.

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