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dream_about_falling_downHere we continue the discussion raised by yesterday’s dream (see An Endless Adventure). Let’s think of it this way: what we are is always trying to awaken us to our potential. Not in the sense of our career, but to our human purpose – just like a seed will always try to grow and bear its fruit. So those hauntings we feel – that there’s something more – are real. We can ignore it, that is our choice, but it will always be there for us if we decide to be there for it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So you could say that as a meaning I’m carrying a pressure from within that I can’t shake.

In other words, one’s doing all of this effort to shake it, you could put it aside, you could suppress it, it’s part of who you basically are, you can’t annihilate this key essence component of yourself because it compels you to keep on trying to get where you will be in a point of wholeness with everything around you.

That’s where it’s taking you. But, in the running from it, you’re thinking that you want to be left alone, and that you’re trying to get to where it’s safe. Well, you never can do it that way. The dream images are the result of a mannerism that one carries, and holds, as an attention that is first and foremost – in terms of who they really are.

And so because I do not let go, or I’m not able to handle myself, in other words, I’m not following the thread of this very well in the lower-self way, so I’m continually thrown around by it. Acting like that, I’m just putting pressure upon myself, as if that pressure is going to make something in the outer occur – so that I’m okay again, or free from it.

And I’ll never be free from it because that’s not what frees me up. It is actually what I need to figure out how to embrace on a higher level and, until I do, I’m haunted and unable to let go so one can never be free as long as one maintains the intensity, as an ongoing indulgence or underlying dynamic.

In other words, you don’t hear it, you don’t recognize it for what it’s to be from what it is, and so it continuously comes at you, and at you, and at you to get it, so it always knows wherever you’re at, and you can’t get away from it.

So, in other words, because I am not shaking this internalized motif of who I really am, I create scene after scene in which I am seeking to live it out – as if, okay, I’m going to expend it, and be done with it, and move on to something else.

That’s the illusion that one has, in terms of how they contend with this, in terms of the outer reflective state, and when they see that in the outer reflective state they can say, okay, that’s going nowhere, that’s delusional. What you have to do is you have to stop and you have to realize that this pattern is there, this mannerism is always there. It’s always haunting you in a particular way. So there is an essence to it, there is an innerness to it, and that innerness then has these reflections, and this time these reflections go and dovetail all the way back to this innerness. And so there is an aliveness here, even though it may be bifurcated and delayed.

There is a related aliveness to this state inside of yourself that keeps nuancing and, most of the time, causing you to be thrown around because you don’t get to the state that goes way, way back in its subtleness to that being the essence of who you are.

So there is no reprieve, as long as one sees one’s self under this internal pressure and having to keep pushing the intensity around. And as long as I carry within those vibrations in an intense and reactive format, I create image after image from which to experience that which I feel internally.

In other words, I keep recreating external images in terms of aspects of that, as if I’m dealing with it more literally and denoting something in an oriented way – as if you’ll get to a point where enough is enough, but it’s not enough, it’s you. This is a power, this is a presence that you cannot realize who you are until you catch up with it. You need that, that is you.

So as I progress from scene to scene, thinking each time that it’s getting better, or that this time is different, or it will be different, at no time do I realize when I’m in this way of looking at things that this process that I am under is all there is, and all of this, its essence is what I am about, that is intertwined and linked.

And that there is something behind the heart, the intensity knot, and the pressure that sits there internalized. In other words, you’re not insane, it’s meaningful. So what goes on is this internalized energetic as I get closer and closer to it. Little by little I catch up with the essence of it from within which, initially, will just trigger those chase scenes as a reflective play as if I’m living out the affliction.

But because I can also feel there is something more to it, and something that has to be done in relationship to it, the pent up energy lives me. You know, initially, in my density what I am failing to realize that I am it in a sort of the whole, it will live me instead of me absorbing, or taking on, and in, the energetic whereby I could realize a completeness of myself.

So I have convinced myself that I am making progress when I’m reverbing like this going around and chasing. Actually, each one of those scenes, if you look at them, it was like I always had an option and I always had a way of getting just enough distance so that I could have my false hope of making a breakthrough of getting away or something. And the internalized pressure awakens the outer, touches the outer, and what is reflected is the fodder in which I project the energetic that is coming from within outwardly.

So the reason for the dream is the dream is depicting how the inner note I carry into the outer is designed; how it’s designed for me, how it works for me. It works for you differently in regards to the fact that your thought of who you are in relationship to an aspect of the Godhead is different.

So what we take as an inner flow is often caught up, so this is like not beating up on it in terms of how, in a lesser degree, what we take is an inner flow is often caught up in nuances that personally predominate and, when this exists, we shape our lower-self environment to correspond to those unfulfilled inner energetic dynamics.

In other words, we’re piecemeal yet; we’re not taking it in its wholeness. Only when I absolve or absorb those energetic qualities that scatter the essence within by personalizing the internal presence, am I able to take a step into a whole new paradigm in which I am able to get closer to this greater wholeness.

In the accessing of this internalized energetic, I am taking this kundalini that I need so that I can go to where I need to go as a true home. But, initially in the dream, I go to my pseudo homes, my concept of home, and that doesn’t take me in very well. The internal pressure when it’s like that just bolting about directs my focus. In that regard that’s where it has its archetypal effect, instead of my focus being something that keeps going to the depth of that from which it comes at its essence.

So, in the dream, I have not found peace with this condition so, as a result, I see myself going from one helter-skelter image to another seeking to channel the energetic, not knowing that this is a doingness that never ends. So this now gets into how the feminine trait goes around and around, the feminine aspect of it.

This dream is showing me that I am caught up in a doingness that is influencing my attention with one corresponding image after another, just reverbing, and each time I can lead myself to believe that something is occurring, or moving along, or getting away, or going to eventually get somewhere – but this is the illusion. You can’t run away from who you are.

But this is how it’s experienced when you’re not there or, in other words, when you haven’t reached the listening center within from which there is guidance at the core of this vibration, a guidance that for lack of a better way of saying it, it’s like a thought of God from within.

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cosmicenergyIn this description of kundalini energy, John describes the need, on a personal level, to be more focused and attentive in order to hold the inner potency that is now available to humans on this planet. Yet in terms of the collective, the increase in energy can go one of two ways: it can lift us up, or send us off on a tangent. When energy rises, it powers everything where it is. That means that the warp and negative aspects are just as powered as the positive, higher aspects. As this shift onsets, what will be getting powered in you? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So what happened with me is I had this meditation dream that stirred up the kundalini energy to such a degree that I could swear that I never really slept more than 15 or 20 minutes when I went to bed.

It was like everything was activated, yet at the same time though, even in whatever that quasi state was there were images and such that were coming through that I wrote down. And it was these images that when you started to put them together were telling you something, in terms of what you could or couldn’t do in terms of what would be a misuse of the energy.

The dream theme from last night – and your dream was in that, too – had to do with how do you retain or hold a particular kind of energy or potency. And it’s kind of like a continuation of a sequence of dreams we’ve been having that were triggered over this question and idea of kundalini energy, and how kundalini energy is important.

And that kundalini energy needs to be there in order for a spiritual process to emerge, or to grow, or to come alive, awaken. And kundalini energy exists all the time it’s just that people diffuse it into so many varied ways of carrying on that it’s not really noticeable.

And then when a person suddenly recognizes and quits doing that, and their mind quits supporting that, and their senses are utilized to probe more deeply inside of themselves, that’s when the kundalini energy can actually become very difficult to handle because we’ve gotten so accustomed to spending it and diffusing it, and staying in a weakened condition as a consequence of that.

So the schematic and theme of the dreaming dealt with the kundalini energy and suggested, and implied, that it had to be retained, it had to be held. There is a potency in it that is important, that if one has this energy that’s whirling around inside of them and just finds themselves going to this, that, or the other, hither and thither, that there is a dissipation of this, which is more important to the future.

The first dream takes and describes why, or describes how it is that the average person, in terms of living in the collective, how he is bounded in by the way, nature, and mannerism of the collective, and has very, very little effect or influence upon things because his energy isn’t focused or concentrated.

And it also points out that he doesn’t really recognize his own power because it’s not a one to one direct correspondence because that kundalini energy is associated more with light waking up inside. And actions in manifestation are more associated with the sound element; to their manifestation.

And so when you use light energy and are dealing with something more slowed down, as sound, you tend to have an effect that is harder to denote, because it’s delayed. And light is off the ground. Light comes in, but it’s something that’s in manifestation that’s set, and so it is easier to diffuse, to ignore, to not see, to not relate to – to not quite get it in terms of the light, and instead stay basic to the senses and the mind.

And conduct like that keeps one’s nature weakened to the point that it doesn’t readily affect the collective. And to the degree that it might, it goes almost unnoticed.

So this dream points out that what is happening in the world at this time, and also what happens with kundalini energy when it is directly focused it causes something to slow down or to stop. And when it causes something to slow down and stop, it causes a warble. By a warble I mean it loses its momentum, its natural momentum, such that the slightest little thing can cause it to crack, or to break, or to fall apart.

Ordinarily, because you have that tendency, that kundalini energy has that quality about it that effectuates change if it isn’t mitigated in some fashion. So, ordinarily, a person’s access to this kundalini energy, it’s not very powerful. 

And, as a result, because it’s diffused with their ideas, with their personal motifs, and they splay it out and don’t realize how foolish it is to just scatter it out, they don’t even realize they’re abusing and misusing it, as opposed to holding on to it and using it to do something really potent and meaningful.

So ordinarily, that is an energy that is absorbed or pretty well kept in place by the collective energetic of all of manifestation. So you have phases, where maybe you have gained a little better access to it than usual, and you can take and throw that directly into manifestation.

What it’s showing is that the energy needs to be, somehow or another, just a little more potent and focused and come out just a little bit more yet. Because what it does it that it takes creation right up to a threshold where it warbles. It’s at a point where I can then be poked by creation and crack and fall apart. In other words there’s no follow through, there’s no carry through yet.

Now what is different in terms of things is that, as a consequence of the kundalini energy – now we’re going back in terms of sequence of where things are at in the cosmos or something. When there isn’t the imperative for a lot of change, the effect of the kundalini energy is very, very slight, it can cause that warble a little bit and that’s about it.

And the kundalini energy has two halves to it, it has the half that is positive, the half that just naturally has an embrace of something that is able to be embraced and brought through and carried and held – for the benefit of the whole.

And it has the other half that is harder to embrace – that’s the heebie-jeebies of things. And that sort of thing can be diffused when issues of anger or frustration and whatnot get in the way. You might say that there is the positive and that there is the negative. And the effect of the heebie-jeebies and all that stuff that one feels, sets in motion things that struggle to maintain their existence or their role in manifestation.

And so you have a warble from that side, too. But what has changed, and what is different is that in the consequence of the unfoldment of creation or however you’d say it, something is destined to shift.

As a consequence of the collective vibrations, it’s like the collective vibrations have been broken down so that people’s little nuances and understandings of things are causing them to naturally uphold, with their energy, things in kind of a warble because there’s nothing to hunker down on.

It can’t support the economic system, it can’t support the political system, so energetically, the collective energy, has gotten to where things are naturally warbling. When things are naturally warbling, and then you take the potency of kundalini energy – it doesn’t take much, then – because the way that the collective is normally held rigidly so that things bounce off of it because it has an encompassed quality that takes in the energetics of everything in life.

But when everything in life has gotten to the point where it’s destabilized and so you have the warble, and you have the warble in both directions, both in terms of something that can be shifted positively, and also in terms of something that can break down readily, that’s destructive, then the kundalini energy that can come through a human being is very powerful, because things are receptive now.

It can hit manifestation and it can create a shift. And that’s how it’s done. But what’s important in terms of this being able to happen, is that the kundalini energy has to be preserved. It has to be held in its potency.

You can’t go out and let the events of everything that is happening in the outer dictate and influence. If you do, and you’re caught up in all that, and you’re diffusing the energy this way and that way, either in terms of enjoying life in an over-indulgent, personal way, or in terms of just not recognizing that you have to work with the potency of something that holds a poignance until the point is reached where the trigger can be pulled.

If you don’t catch up with that, if you don’t realize that, you’re not able to facilitate the shift, to be part of the shift. In the past, or in another moment of creation time, the kundalini energy that one would carry essentially had a very minor effect. Things stayed pretty much in check. And it barely worked with the aspects of manifestation because the collective pretty well had its own overall design.

It’s the nature of freedom of choice. But now there’s been a putrefaction of all of that. Over a course of time it has led to a wits end where the freedom of choice is torn in so many directions that the warble becomes a consequence that is naturally created as things are tearing themselves asunder.

It’s like shooting yourself in the foot, instead of their being a continuity to manifestation which can be adjusted very, very slightly by inner coming into outer, and the collective still holds the central means of itself. Now what is going on is that things have gotten to the point where all the vibrations, lacking a continuity and there is a putrefaction as a consequence have created a warble to things – not an answer, however.

The answer is yet to come. And that comes from the focused and concentrated kundalini energy that is able to come down and through and touch the warble in the right way so that a shift is possible.

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In a spiritual development process, as energies are awakened from within, what is awakened in a person needs to be accepted and incorporated into the self, and a new, elevated state of balance attained. Jeane’s dreams delve into this inner struggle, where young (emerging) masculine energies arise and encounter some internal resistance. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My first dream, the impression I have in it is, it feels like there’s all male energy into it, mostly adolescent male energy, and they all feel a little impoverished.

And it feels like the energy is always flowing downhill with them, kind of going through them, like I’m seeking something and going down through these boys, kind of down from like the hillside to an alley, that sort of thing.

I don’t remember very many specifics in that dream other than that was just how the energy flowed.

John: Yes, that would be a problem in terms of the feminine looking at things from a particular position that she would hold in terms of how she would see things in an overallness in life.

And so she would have this general sense, and whenever she looked at the ideas or something that would be coming through that would stir things up, she would look at that as a type of energy that is flowing down, that is coming down, which corresponds with how it actually is in terms of the breath: it comes down as an out-breath.

So she would be looking at that as a masculine energy that’s coming through the boys, and of course the boy in this case has an added meaning because she’s seeing these boys as though that is a developing quality of her inner self.

Where this is significant is a guy, a man, is seen as something that’s a fairly mature aspect of herself that comes with all kinds of qualities that are fairly set and established, black-and-white, in terms of maybe direct expression.

But boys are a part of one’s self in which energy comes through in kind of a casual, almost non-serious – kind of just through them kind of way, without any recourse or something at a depth that is apparent behind it; it just flows through.

So that tends to not necessarily set off reactions when it’s that innocent in the way that it comes across, and so you’re able to more readily accept and recognize this kind of flow that you’re able to appreciate and accept it rather than fight it and then see it as a type of an energy line.

I say line only because you know the direction it’s coming, you know, that it comes down and the common image that one creates of that as it comes from the crown, down into creation, and then of course the feminine’s energy goes from creation back to the crown because it’s complete in creation; it just needs to be awoken and then it flows back to the crown.

And then when you break things in the masculine and feminine then you see it coming through the boys, coming downward, and then ultimately whatever that effect is, to the degree that it’s a pure effect touching you – because there’s no spin put on it or anything that you react about – if it feels okay to you, then it awakens something as a correspondence that then goes from the depths of creation, it flows back as the in-breath.

So, yeah, that’s correctly seeing it and what’s interesting is you dream it like that, and I dream the opposite of that, because I struggle to try to get the awareness in the outer to go back to what I would consider the within.

And the within is like a place that is at the fount of it all, which I suppose in the analogy I used would be the crown or something. So as you take and struggle with it, not necessarily struggle, but recognize that the flow comes downward to the boys, I look at it as having to find, to create the loop. In order for the loop to be created, the full breath to be created, has something to do with the feminine.

In my dream I see myself seeking to denote everything that I see that affects me, which means in the outer, which is in a feminine creation, as having an inner into outer underlying flow. As I review what is going on around me, in other words I’m looking at the masculine element knowing that everything that affects me, that can grab me with its outer appearance, but I still recognize that behind that there is an inner into outer flow.

But that doesn’t keep me, when I’m in the outer where I’m caught up in the waking state of my senses, from feeling a pain as a result of my sensitivity, knowing that there is an interconnectivity and even sensing the interconnectivity, but not able to put that into flow because of the identification with the senses.

And so I suffer or struggle or however you would put it, and I feel the pain within and even though I try to reach towards an inner, I’m not yet able to make the sense in the general outer environment I live in daily, coincide.

In other words, my senses will still blink at things that are happening in the outer. Of course, this becomes evident when a woman says to me, “I can understand what I see you trying to do, but I cannot relate to what you say.”

Jeane: In my next dream I’ve gone with you and we’ve actually even I think did some cross country skiing over to a house where there’s a kind of a gathering going on with your ex-wife and her friends.

And I’m a little preoccupied in the back of my mind because I know the next morning I have to get up early to take you to the dentist, so at the party, as they’re doing various things, I kind of have in my mind what time we have to leave.

They’ve kind of dressed up a lot and I think I’ve dressed more simply, and I realize that I have this watch on with a red watchband and it’s kind of come loose and then you’re ex points out that that was actually a watch that I think she’d given me or loaned me to wear.

But the watchband is coming loose so they put this new watchband on it that’s really kind of odd. It has three different ways it plugs in and it looks odd.

Meanwhile, something else happened where it feels like I had some dentures or something in my mouth that were broken and I wanted to go into the bathroom and fix them so they fit right, and so everything looked right, so I’m kind of avoiding everybody so I can get some privacy to go do that.

And then when I come out, because I’d taken a while, you’d left to go get some sleep so that you would get some rest before you went to the dentist. Then the watchband she gave me has fallen off. I don’t know where the watch has gone. And now I’m preoccupied with getting back so I can get you to the dentist in time.

So I head back and then it feels like I get on one road and it feels like the wrong road, so I go up to the hillside, but the hillside doesn’t have the right kind of a path. There’s a guy that comes up on a motorcycle behind me but I kind of point out to him this path doesn’t look like the right path. I mean, it’s green and it goes up a hill and gets rocky and it’s not taking us anywhere, so I turn around to come back down.

I knock a rock loose, a big rock. It goes down into the road but it doesn’t hit anything and it rolls over to the other side so no car will hit it so I’m kind of relieved about that but then I start heading back towards the town and kind of go through some stores. It feels like I’m getting lost but I finally get to the dentist and then I have a dream about being at the dentist after this dream.

John: Well, this dream is full of what is considered a type of doingness. And you start off most removed from the doingness by an awareness of cross country skiing, which is like kind of more of an overall motif.

But just the term cross country skiing has a doingness to it but at least it has a… it’s more expansive or more spread out in terms of a wholeness within the environment, although it’s not the complete wholeness. It’s spreading your wings.

So within that you interject something that then has to be taken into account specifically, within what would normally be the ordinary motif of what it is that you’re able to extend your awareness over. As you do that then you continue to set off a kind of yo-yo effect, reverb effect, in terms of time.

In other words, now you have, instead of being something that is capable of just being in the overallness, outside of time and space, and take it all in as a wholeness, you find yourself having something specific as a doingness dragging your attention.

And thus comes the confusion of the watch, and then comes the confusion with the dentures. Because the watch then from a doingness then time comes in, instead of it being just in a general overallness of yourself. And then as that comes in you can’t help but then note other things, maybe you’re pain because of your dentures or whatever it is.

Pretty soon it goes on and on and on and on and on and so you get caught in this spiral, this spin, and I imagine what the second dream will do is you probably go deeper into the spin but maybe somehow then yo-yo back.

Jeane: I doubt it!

In the next dream, which goes downhill from here it looks like, it’s like I’ve taken you to the dentist, and while I’m there I’m supposed to get some impressions made too. So I leave you upstairs with the dentist and I go downstairs and he’s going to do something really fast where he does some kind of exam on me, but he takes out my dentures and he brings me back somebody else’s, which don’t fit.

So then the lab technician has to go start looking for those. I put my hand in my pocket and I find other teeth and they don’t fit either. Nothing fits. The technicians all want to go take a lunch break, so I start following them around.

I’m going to go find the lab so I can find what fits and fix it myself. They don’t particularly want me to do that so then they’re following me around the lab and I’m trying to figure out where they put things in the lab and get things sorted out because I feel like I only have a certain amount of time before I should be up with where you’re getting your work done.

John: Actually, the way that is spinning is it’s almost throwing you at your wits end.

Jeane: That’s exactly what last night felt like.

John: It’s actually coming very, very close to you actually getting it, because you’ve taken this doingness to a point of ludicrousness to where it doesn’t even make sense to you on another level.

And so it’s like, dentures, you know, really, you’ve got to be giving me a break and they’re somebody else’s dentures. What you’ve done is you’ve gone to a point where in the doingness, it’s supposed to make sense over something, in some fashion, in some way.

In other words, there’s a reason behind it, and now all of a sudden on some level inside of yourself, the rug is being jerked out from under you and you’re having a hard time coming up with why that makes sense.

Yet that doesn’t keep you from struggling to try to make it make sense in your doingness. You haven’t quite let go of it, but some other part inside of you is already making a mockery of that; can’t quite grasp and grab that reflection.

In other words, you spiraled into it to a point where now you can’t help but see it as kind of, something about yourself is making a mockery of yourself, because you really do understand it in kind of a different light.

And so you have that inflection almost into a nothingness, and then back into the doingness, and then back and forth, and you’re going to get this visualized one way or another. You can’t let this kind of go poof on you. This is getting very, very strange.

So, you’re spiraling. You’ve really created this spiral and that’s how the mind can get when it gets off on a full fledged tangent of trying to hold onto something, and yet at the same time on some level inside that’s no longer a possibility, of getting it to buy into it so that it totally makes sense.

Some level can’t quite do that anymore, and so you’ve created this dichotomy going back and forth. If I did it in my way, that would be a sadness. In your way it’s a tremendous agitation.

Jeane: Yeah, it was feeling like you were over there sleeping like a baby and I was just struggling with this all night.

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