This imagery shows us the relevance of a dream to both real outer events and universal truths. As humans, we often think that things are solved by doing – we must always be doing more to feel satisfied. Yet that can get in the way of our ability to feel and experience in the outer world, and it can prevent us from our connection to the Whole in universal terms. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: Even though I dreamt last night, I’m still having trouble pulling it out. The only thing I remember is the last part of the last dream.
In that dream my father’s down here with us, and I’ve gone somewhere, maybe to a doctor’s appointment that’s about an hour away – and he’s with me. And when I come out of the appointment I went to and get in the car, suddenly dad wants to go visit my nephew in L.A. And I start getting upset about that because it seems too far to drive to L.A., plus to have to drive an hour home.
And I don’t have my stuff with me and everything, so I’m really starting to fuss about it. And then I look at my dad and I see that, in some ways, this is just all a joke to him. Anyway, that was when I woke up.
John: What we’re being questioned and challenged about, in some inner way, and I guess we’re lucky that this can happen, it’s as if we see something at a depth inside, at a touching of the heart inside, that we’re catching on to the gig of our doingness.
You would never catch on and you’d continue to keep following a checklist, and doing this and doing that, and going through these patterns and habituations. You actually believed that there was value, true value, in doing something like that – but after a while that just becomes a nausea.
In fact, you can step back and you can look at people and realize that almost wherever you look people’s lives come to an end after having gone through a whole consequence of notionalities and mannerisms for a whole lifetime.
And so you’re using your father to symbolize something of a greater Whole, and you’re using a certain heartfulness that your father carries because he reflects the patriarchal overallness of his nature that is a deep honor and actual inner divinity, symbolically speaking.
And looking in that particular direction, it is easy to think that you have something more to do, as if something more is expected of you, as if there is something in the surroundings in the environment of the outer that is expected of you.
And it’s like, as you experience more and more of a kind of closeness, you think that you need to do things like a kind of responsibility or something, like paying dues for what has occurred – as if it’s doing a type of service. Because part of all of this that is going on, of which your father is a link, because your father again represents a type of divine overallness of being, coming through as a particular being, you find yourself trying to serve that particular being instead of the Whole.
What’s meant to happen is, if you’re really experiencing something at a depth inside of yourself that connects through the teacher, or the tradition, or the lineage, or however you would say that, if you’re truly experiencing this, then you come to know, just like your dad laughs and jokes at you, that deep down he really doesn’t want to do this or that.
He just wants the overall expression of something that resonates and feels wonderful as a Wholeness, as an emptiness, as a letting go. He just wants that to resonate. He just wants that to be pervasive, but he’ll go along with whatever it is that you’re inclined to do, until you catch up with the fact that it isn’t what you set up and determine to do that is real.
It is the degree to which you hold a mutual oneness space between you. And so somehow you know this because in your dialogue with your dad you come to the recognition that as soon as you quit this notion of having to do this or that, in order to be at peace about something, that you will find that everything, everything sits in this letting-go state, in a Wholeness way, which permeates outside of mannerisms or characteristics of one’s design.
Which leads me to think you know like if you have your dad come down here, what he is reflecting as a part of him is clearly somewhere else in his depth of being. You’re doing a service by compelling him to have to go to hither and to thither and to see this and to see that.
Instead, your dad is better suited if he is able to kind of just go around feeling things. It’s kind of an illusion to think that when you bounce from here to there to there to there that you’re actually having experiences, or feeling things.
The notionality that more needs to happen interferes, and everyone buys into that, and as a consequence that sense of an appreciation of something in a state of Wholeness, in a state of rest, in a state of an emptiness, gets compromised, and the idea of this or that needing to happen comes into the equation.
It’s this expectation stuff that estranges things, because there’s something about tweaking an expectation that creates a giggle or a wrinkle, and a looking forward to things, that we seem to have to have. We haven’t yet learned how to just sit in a place of peace inside of ourself and be completely full there.
And until we do that, we continue to project and throw ourself around in manifestation in a way that undermines or compromises that space, which is the only real space, and the only real note, and the only real way of being, and is the fullness of breath. It’s not just an out-breath only having to scope about. It’s the in-breath that’s also able to sit in the peace or bliss of itself.
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