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spinning-95We know from science fiction movies that when we reach warp speed, everything blurs into a oneness. As humans, we are in the physical realms, which is much slower than warp speed; that’s why everything appears separate. Still, energetically, things are always in a oneness. In our development we begin to operate at higher speeds, with higher energies. As this process occurs, we begin to be back inside the oneness. But this is not just a mental choice, it’s a process of dealing with higher energies. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just remember my last dream. In this dream, I seem to be working someplace where we work, and then we kind of go up a level, and go into a room, an open room, but it’s just up a few feet from the rest of the room that’s like a dining room. We all sit around a rectangular table.

When we sit around the table initially there seems to be a lot of tensions going on, and then one of the young women there reveals that she’s gay. And after a few minutes it’s like another young woman there, who I think is like the daughter of someone who owns this place, suddenly comes to the realization that she’s gay, too.

And, during all of this, it’s like some stuff got spilled on the table, and she’s wondering if this is us being upset with her, the reason things got spilled or mixed around, and I make a comment that, no, it’s about the tension from everybody trying to not reveal what was so, as opposed to the upset being about having what has been revealed. Although I realize that her father who’s not there, that maybe is one of the owners of the restaurants or something, might have trouble with the whole issue, particularly because she’s kind of taken time from when she should be working right now to stay at the table because she wants to sort this out with all of us sitting there.

And, at the same time, I’m realizing that whereas with the other girl she was very aware of how she was, with this one who’s her close friend this is more of just like revelation to her, too, and that we need to take a few minutes to kind of reassure her. At the same time this is causing some tension because she’s supposed to be back at work. That was the dream.

John: What you have to do in this dream is you have to take out the action of the appearance of the dream, and look at the transition, vibrationally, that is behind what is a sequence of outer appearances, or mannerisms.

And, when you do, you realize that what you’re perceiving, and what you’re seeing in front of you, is a far cry from the way that there is this inner state that is spinning you. And so it’s like, can you catch up with how this just spins you?

In other words, you can take and you can look at and have an epiphany over here of an insight, and then all of a sudden that leads to another epiphany over there as an insight, and you could see that this epiphany of an insight is different than the depths of the epiphany of the insight over here. And so you could easily have a sense of how this works as an importance, and as a flow, or you can suddenly drop even that spaciousness of pulling those two together. You can even drop that spaciousness and fall into the recognition that the whole thing is being spun, and that in the spinning of this over here, and that over there, you end up with something that just melts together.

I mean there’s an old image story of something that gets spun into butter or something; and I can’t remember how it goes, I just suddenly saw that, where something gets spun and all of a sudden it changes. And this is what this is like, only it’s on a vibrational level. And that you could take and notice, you have the recognition inside of yourself, that it’s more than this and that, and then all it requires then is another little letting go kind of subtle drop and you’re able to have those two areas, those two places, in which there is some question, or bifurcation, or nuance, or aspect in terms of reaching between this and that. It just spins, and the whole thing becomes one orientation.

Not an orientation over here that is kind of interesting, and then an orientation over there that’s more profound, and that you sort out this which is interesting from that which is profound, and come up with the difference as to why this is to that, and that is to that, as if you’re able to schematicize the unfoldment.

Instead, rather than trying to steer, or schematicize, or to control, or to have a piece of the way you hold onto the unfoldment – as if holding onto the unfoldment is where it’s at – you just suddenly allow yourself to be spun, and then when you’re spun it’s like you’re spun into something, and it’s no longer visible in the form that it had been, and goes into something else. It spins itself into nonexistence, or it spins itself into something that is like butter.

As it’s spun, all the features fall away, and it becomes something else that is just there – but no features anymore. That’s the vibration behind what you’re dreaming, that you suddenly catch or fall into in one fell swoop. If you catch up with it, if you feel it, if it comes across in a way that is still having to sort something out, or to recognize the distinction between this place and that place, then you’re not really quite letting go. You’re still trying to put the whole thing into your own personal cognition.

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John: Last night, because of my fever, I didn’t think I was going to have any dreams. All my attention was on the fact that no matter how I bundled up I was cold and, as a consequence, I consumed myself with trying every sleeping position so I wouldn’t create any additional aches and pains.

It wasn’t until 1:00am that I had this image. I was trying to figure out how to carry the image back to what was going on before, but I was blocked by the fact that my attention was also on my fever, aches and pains.

So, in this glimpse, or image, I see a woman who shows up from time to time at the dream group. She is accepted as part of the group; it’s as if she lives in the area.

Somehow I come to know (no one else seems to know, they just accept her), that she doesn’t really live any place in particular. She just flows freely and with ease. 

If I didn’t know that information, nothing about her demeanor would cause me to think she didn’t live locally. The image of this woman, the quality that she carried, had a great freedom and elegance to it. She would just show up.

There was no way I could draw any conclusions, or quite put my finger on what it was about her. All I knew is that she seemed to be around at important meetings or events from time to time.

So this image is creating an energetic space, and freedom, to move about at will. It’s an expression of composure and elegance that feels natural wherever it is. It’s an image that shows that there is more meaning and freedom available to us when we are not limited by a need for definition. This woman defied definition.

We see this in waking life, and it has been a theme in our dreams since we went to Las Vegas, that when we find ourselves in situations that are completely out of the ordinary, completely different from what we are accustomed to, it stirs things up inside us. From an inner (dream) world perspective we are shown, and can experience, that if we’re able to just flow freely and with ease, we’re much more alive.

Flowing freely allows for more amazing images and states to open up, which also gives us a greater understanding of all that’s going on. Whether waking or dreaming, this free-flow state is almost impossible when we see ourselves in terms of how others might see us, whether friend or stranger. That ego-perspective isn’t good because it defines us – it limits us – and therefore shuts down the magic.

A dream like this causes me to wonder, how does one do this in relationship to the home community? In going to Las Vegas, we were far from our usual dream group (meetings) and unlikely to find similar ones there. Maybe this is a dream with a hint to show a state, or a value, that exists when we’re not in any place in particular?

The dreaming has been showing that there’s a much greater dimensionality to things when we’re able to be at peace with, and accepting of, all situations. Whenever we (humans) find ourselves in an uncomfortable predicament, we quickly begin to put limits on our senses and we adopt old patterns – we focus on the particulars and details, and lose the bigger picture.

When we do that – begin to limit things by defining them – it causes hurt to the heart, because it’s a disconnection from what really is. If we can keep things outside of the specific, or not view them so personally, we can actually have a greater perspective of what’s transpiring.

We’ve been dreaming that, and noticing that. It’s might seem like human nature to want to define everything, but that narrows our experience into the predictable, when our real safety, and joy, is in the spontaneous, or in the aliveness and uncomfortability of the unknown.

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Jeane: The thing that I would note about my dreams last night is they always took place in the dark. It was always night out and they seem to involve men I knew from my past, when I was in college or shortly after that.

In one dream one of the men is pursuing me. I’m always trying to stay out of the room where he is so as not to end up having to interact with him, but I can only prevent that so long.

Then a woman friend and I go into the room and there is no way that I can avoid him. I approach him but also ignore him a bit; I don’t want him to think I’m avoiding him, but at the same time I don’t want to give him too much attention because I remember him as being possessive. So there was a little maneuvering that went on between approach and avoidance. 

That evolved into a dream that involves another man I know who is very accomplished and talented. He is with a redheaded woman who has a lot of power. They are sitting in chairs, almost like thrones, in a room full of people.

He approaches me and I do a little dance to stay out of reach until at one point we’re together. It seems like we’re going to make love, but I want to make love while being on top, kissing him, but also maintaining a certain distance.

In terms of the energy of the dream, I would say it felt like I again could move around in a slightly circular way, as I moved in and out of the different rooms.

John: Whenever we experience dreams where something is trying to get our attention, in the case of these two images that’s represented by the men, it has to do with the way we take on moods, mannerisms, or patterns that suppress or block out the information that is trying to come through.

These patterns end up creating a situation where that information, or energy, becomes stifled, or pent-up. So it tries to get our attention – it wants us to acknowledge or recognize it. This can apply to physical aspects as well as emotional. Our patterns tend to shield us from issues that we’ve already concluded are more than we want to address or take on.

The schematic of this dream, though, is a little different. This information is coming alive – it’s awakening and opening up. It’s still searching for its parameters in terms of what is right and what isn’t.

The subjective side of the feminine nature knows what the flow is by the way it feels in the body, and what you’re doing is you’re finding yourself fighting that flow (i.e., you’re avoiding the encounters). That creates a veil to a potential greater sense of awareness.

If you think of what is going on in your waking life in relation to this, you could say that you are speeded up because you are out of the comfort zone of your home and in a new place (Las Vegas). That means that certain avenues of connection, within yourself, are able to come out now because of the timing and the place. So you are trying to go through new reverberations within to determine what parts of you are connected and what aren’t, in terms of what you need in this new situation.

So this dream develops your ability, on a sense level, to tell subjectively whether something is right or not right, in such a way that it can open up and you won’t repress it. It’s coming out anyway, so now you have to maintain your sanity in relationship to it.

My dream centers around the scenario of being sick and feeling miserable to a point where I’m unable to put my attention on anything else. As long as I’m dwelling on that, it only enhances my suffering because I’m only looking at things in terms of how they personally affect me. The sickness is consuming me.

At some point in the dream, my soul let go and I stopped focusing on my specific ailments. I just went into a state of emptiness, dropping back from my physical condition to something deeper within. That’s when I notice that I’ve reached a stillness that assimilates my condition.

I wouldn’t have been able to sleep if I hadn’t reached this state. As soon as I start to look at my miserableness again, my condition consumes me. 

What this shows is that when a person transcends dwelling upon particular conditions – anything in life – they’re more able to find a natural flow. The flow comes out from the wholeness, from the overall, and not from our specific details and idiosyncrasies.

I felt a wonderful sensation of allowing myself to be swept along in the overall. There was a peace and quietness that went beyond my physical condition. This was a state where I could experience myself as a part of the whole.

When I start to cough, because I think I’m sick or need to cough, etc., my attention goes back to suffering with my physical ailments instead of letting go and being in a state that’s naturally able to be nurtured.

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